why am I alive

I post about my feelings and no one is going to see them for sure. mostly sad and lonely

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Ready or nah? You can't hide suicide I'm gonna find you and take you slowly Dead or alive? You can't hide suicide I'm gonna find you and take you slowly

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life sucks and everyone hates me…i’m just worthless

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nobody truly cares

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there is too much going on in my head. She didn’t mean it just as I thought just as I should’ve known I love you more than anybody in this world, and that will never change. xoxo

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no one knows no one cares

goodbye world i hated you from the very beginning.

i know for a fact nobody will give a shit if i’m gone or not. i have no money, no friends, no family. me and my pets against the world and now the final act has come.

there is no more reason for me to live. after i have been replaced and i have no more value i see no more reason why i should continue feeling miserable.

i’ll take 20 pills of benzos and have alcohol with it. then the knife will look so much more sexy

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better off alone

this way it’s easier to kíll myself

nobody cares and nobody is gonna miss me but seriously nobody ever liked me to begin with

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Back to feeling shit and wanting to kms

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I have slowly started to feel better

My depression is slowly fading, my anti depressants are helping a lot. My anxiety is still present. I can’t do anything about that.

I have applied for early retirement. I hope I can get it. I’m in the need for some extra money and less work hours.

But I still think of suicide here and there’s this feeling is not letting me alone

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i always say "i wanna make new friends” but do i really? do i really have time to figure you out and hope you're not shitty

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I never get lucky ever,

I’ll die alone, I’ll stay single forever, I’ll never meet the people who mean most to me, I’ll never get rich or enough money to be happy, I’ll always hate my work. I’ll always stay unhappy …. Life hates me and I hate it too

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I’m sad

Why Im so bad with people. I get quiet when too many people are on discord server. I feel intimidated and scared if everyone can talk and is so good doing so. I feel like the 5th wheel like I don’t belong. I hope I can improve here but I have always been this way.

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I’m a mental wreck, I’m as bad as I was last year, I just don’t tell anyone and I pretend everything is alright with me but it’s really not.

I’m close to a mental breakdown and I’m too shy to ask for help or support. I can feel it in me. I’m thinking about it every day countless times. I dream about it and I have visions about it. I’m so close to slit my throat

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I’ll never be happy and I’ll never get to where I could be happy, I’ll die unhappy and I rather die sooner than later

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I wish I had died last Saturday

I hope it will come back and next time it will be severe. I’ll just not call ambulance…can’t be fucked sticking around just to feel sad and alone

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I feel sad, I feel sad every day, I’m all alone in this world. I wish I was liked and adored as much as I do. I give all I have but I barely get anything in return. I am too nice to everyone. Cos no one is ever as nice to me. I am my own downfall and I hate myself for it.

I hate myself and my life