survivor;

"Dear God, I just wanted to be loved." Start with an absolution, pick yourself up and rearrange your bones the right way, into something whole, into something hungry.

[life-of-umi]

Umi saw her look down a bit disappointed.  He tried to cover up his own and shrugged matter of factly.  “Not a lot of people talk to me.  I’m just the weird fae who spends too much time with plants.  It is a big school but that might just make it lonelier you know?” 

[sarinajameson]

Sarina's gaze casted down at his confession. She didn't know him well enough to try and convince him otherwise, and she wasn't in any place to tell other people they're important and loved, not when she thought so lowly of herself. "W-Well, you can try and get along with o-other fae." She spoke nervously, blaming herself for saying the wrong thing. Though, they did have something in common with being the one of their kind no one talks to. "Sometimes being alone isn't that bad, really."

[moonvcils]

Dru gave a curt nod at the girls answer. “I suggest you go there when you get a chance. You sound like you need some new reading material.” Dru stated, fingertips playing with the corner of her worn book pages. When the girl lifted the book, Dru let her dark eyes look at the cover, noting the title and cover page. “I’ve tried to read it, but I never finished it. But I’ve seen clueless so I wonder if that counts.”

[sarinajameson]

"Yes, when I get the chance." She echoed. It was true Sarina did need more books to occupy her time, however the school library was always full of people-- morning or night apparently --so for the moment she was much more content re-reading what she had rather than risking anything. Sarina placed the novel back down, one of the dog-earred pages folded to hold her spot. "Clueless?" She racked her brain for a moment at the name before realizing it was a film loosely based off the Jane Austen novel. She blushed lightly. "Oh, um I haven't seen that. I'm sure it's good and I think it still counts... I watched the Gastby movie before finishing the book-- not the one with Leonardo DiCaprio."

[animalsnaps]

[jayjay-hunt-deactivated20150120]

"Okay, guess. What’s a vampire’s favorite ice cream flavor?"

[sarinajameson]

"Are you talking to me?" She blinked. "Um... I don't know. Do they even eat ice cream?"

[sebastian-montague-blog]

There was something in the way she spoke that Sebastian begrudgingly liked — something that spoke of horror and memory and time; of experience and knowledge that he longed to know. His head tilted a little to the side as he analysed her face through the dim light, studying her features, before deciding that he would play along to get what he wanted; he knew how to do that well. It wasn’t that he was interested in making friends — that ship had sailed long ago — but perhaps being friendly wouldn’t kill him. “You’re scared of everyone?” he asked, sitting down on the grass with his back to a tree to make himself seem less threatening — though he could have been up on his feet in less than a second. “That’s no way to live; how do you go anywhere or do anything that’s even remotely exciting?” he continued, shaking his head and looking at her over the smoke of his cigarette as he took another drag. “I doubt you’ll tell me what traumatised you so much, but — take it from someone whose dead: you should live while you have the chance. Fuck fear, fuck wariness — live bold, because that’s who fortune favours,” he added with a smile.

[sarinajameson]

Though feeling uncomfortable in his gaze, Sarina had been watching the other just as closely. She had to so she could make a hasty escape if necessary. Every inch of her told her to turn away and go back to her room now, but the idea of him possibly following her frightened her much more. Strange men, no matter the species, were the last people who could ever earn the girl's trust and Sebastian was no exception. Whether he was genuinely trying to talk to her or humoring himself, she didn't decided yet. It wasn't as if she had anything of use to say to him. Sarina rarely had anything to use to say in general. Maybe he wanted something else. However, there was great danger not having control of her powers and she thought for a moment how much would she really care? A girl has got to eat. She remained standing and rather than looking at him, paid attention to the rock she'd idly kicked to the side. "I don't mind. You get used to it." She merely shrugged in response to the question. The sweetness of the cigarette smoke made Sarina wet her bottom lip, though her attention was still on Sebastian. "Does being dead on the inside count for anything?" She pondered over his words almost dryly. "Fortune would be really wasting it's time if it even gave two shits. I think I'll stick with staying off the radar."

[grahamfr]

Oh that’s not good. It’s one class right? Hey, if you need someone to cover I can try? I’m not really good at helping.

[sarinajameson]

The fourth I've missed so far, actually... [She bites her bottom lip.] Would you really? I'm not good with excuses, and when I lie I squirm on the spot.

[hintoflime-isms]

"The view from up here is amazing!" 

[sarinajameson]

[life-of-umi]

Umi didn’t say anything to bring up the topic again, he wasn’t going to push her.  He never wanted to make her uncomfortable so when she said she likes being alone he couldn’t hide the fact that his face dropped.  He shook his head slightly.  “I actually don’t have much friends.  But if you want me to leave I’ll go I guess.” 

[sarinajameson]

Instantly the succubus stared down at her feet, wishing to sink into the ground right then and there. She was used to this and thought she shouldn't feel disappointed after she shoots someone else down who attempts to be friendly with her. Making a friend was something Sarina gave up awhile ago and elected it was best for her to be by herself. "I-I'm sorry." Her eyes cast down. "I'm sure there are better people you can try to befriend, it's a big school."

[grahamfr]

Half past seven in the afternoon, you sure you’re okay? Are you late for something?

[sarinajameson]

Shit. I missed my last class. --It was just a nap, like I said I'm... Fine. [Her voice stretches the last word out unsurely. What a vague word.]

[tifftries1x1]

He looked back at her skeptically, his gut feeling telling him that she wasn’t completely positive. Marcus glanced back down, gathering up more of the scatter pages “There’s no trouble” he assured her, handing over the paper in hand like a peace offering. “it’s mostly my fault anyway, for scaring you like that. Sorry, by the way.”

[sarinajameson]

She watched him cautiously, only to see his main motive was to help her. It was still difficult to shake the uneasy feeling so all Sarina could do was grab the rest of her papers and nod to him in thanks. "It's okay." She looks down at the sheets in her hands. She wanted to tell him he didn't do anything and she was just jumpy, but the words got caught in her throat. "Thank you." Sarina says meekly.

[uniku-deactivated20140619]

[sebastian-montague-blog]

In his time, Sebastian had taken advantage of and killed all kinds of people: arrogant people, smart people, beautiful people, brave people. But perhaps at the bottom of the pecking order — if he could have his choice of what was on the menu - would be the wounded, the weak, and children. There was just no fun in taking advantage of them when they presented such a poor challenge that it was almost too easy to kill them — and perhaps even merciful. When he came face to face with Sarina, that’s how he felt: his hunger didn’t dissipate, but he was significantly less interested in eating her. He was, however, intrigued. “No doubt, no doubt,” he agreed with a thoughtful nod and taking a step closer to her, wondering why she was so on edge and timid. “Any names spring to mind? Anyone in particular you’re hiding from? Most people would think I’m fairly intimidating, so if you’re not afraid of me, I’m guessing you’ve seen a fair few things in your time.”

[sarinajameson]

Sarina's gaze ice skated from him to the the shadows, longing to sink into them and escape a situation that put her defenses up more than ever. She felt like a trapped mouse and he was the alley cat ready to pounce at anytime, and that uncertainty terrified her to the core and she did very little to hide that. On a normal basis she was constantly weary around men, when one was found in what she considered to be her safe place, she was even more distraught. Sarina thought if she didn't provoke him then he'd get bored and leave her be, which most did and she hardly minded. The moment he took a step closer, she took two back away from Sebastian. Even the way he spoke alarmed her and it took the girl several moments to answer. "Everyone." She admitted. Of course she was intimidated by him, on the surface he embodied the specific sort of man she was scared of the most. --Sarina told herself she had to stop assuming the worst in people. "Not any less intimidated then if it had been anyone else." She tensed again. "Seeing a few things doesn't make one fearless. Sometimes it's the opposite."

[life-of-umi]

Umi sighed.  There was no way to tell her he knew that no one else got it without telling her it was he who leaves the flowers.  “Maybe you’re right.  But still I think we would hear about it.”  Umi smiled warmly and shrugged.  “Not really, I don’t have classes for a while.  And you looked like you needed some company.”

[sarinajameson]

Letting out her own languid sigh, Sarina elected to drop the topic of the flowers. Not once did the idea someone was doing it for her came across her, and she still wasn't sure how to feel at the possibility. It felt too hopeful. "I like to be alone." She didn't mean for the statement to sound as harsh as it did. Umi didn't bother her, not in the slightest, it was more Sarina's own anxiety got the best of her. "I mean, it's better that way. Trust me. Besides, you probably have a friend looking for you or something."

[lionxsslily-blog]

Leanne could tell by the way she shied away from her that she wasn’t so big on socializing— or just people in general. She remembered how she mostly kept to herself when she first arrived here, for different purposes of course, but it stay made her feel a bit  sympathetic towards the succubus. She shifted over a bit, getting into an overall more comfortable position before nodding, “I don’t talk to the other fae a lot. I’m pretty sure this guy named Julius is the only one. More often than not it’s usually just me off exploring or something.” She was about to mention Nick, but didn’t want to potentially scare the girl off with her non-existent boy troubles.

[sarinajameson]

The moment she arrived at Waverly she knew she'd never adjust to life there, socially and educationally. Sarina was a wild thing and the constraints of her past and the ones school gave her made it that much harder. She sensed Leanne was trying to give her space, yet still talked to her despite her reclusive nature. Part of the girl was grateful, and another questioned why she was still there in the first place. "I'm sure he's nice, most of the fae seem to be." Sarina rattled her brain for a name she could bring up, though it proved to be easier said than done. "Me too. I don't like being couped up in my room... It's usually later when people are sleeping I'll wander though."

[tifftries1x1]

He nodded along, even if his gut told him it wasn’t the whole truth. With how wound up she looked, prying was probably the last thing she wanted. “It happens. But you know.” He nodded behind him, “the infirmary probably has a better beds than the floor.”

[sarinajameson]

Sarina knew the petty lie wasn't all that believable, but went with it anyway despite that. She didn't expect to find a comfortable spot in a hallway corner and hoped she hadn't been there long. "Oh... You're probably right." Scurrying up to her feet, she felt a little unbalanced-- most likely due to her having to cut back on feeding. "I just didn't remember the way." 

[moonvcils]

Her brows rose at the girl’s response. If Dru hadn’t frightened her, then what had? She didn’t know much of the other girl, but Dru wasn’t one to stick her nose in other people’s business, so instead her only nodded and turned her gaze back to the book. “No, you can’t.” Dru agreed, placing the book on her lap and turning her gaze back on the other girl. “It sounds like t’s time to get some new books then.” While she understood keeping the stories that mean dear to your heart, it sounds like rereading all the same stories could get incredibly boring. “What are you reading now?”

[sarinajameson]

Her shoulders relaxed, slightly, and Sarina told herself to not be so tense. The other had a familiar face, perhaps they passed by one another and made awkward eye contact. She really had to stop being so on edge with others around, but she couldn't help herself. The succubae nodded in agreement and chewed on the inside of her cheek before noticing she was looking at her. "I've been meaning to go to the school library." Though, it was always full of people and crowds were not her forte. Sarina would be lying if she wasn't dying to get her hands on some new material. Reading was one of the things that helped get her mind off of the mess in her head. "Emma." She gestured to the novel. 

[grahamfr]

I’m not sure, but you look like you just saw a ghost. You okay?

[sarinajameson]

Oh! Oh, um. I'm fine. [She bit the inside of her cheek nervously.] C-Can you tell me what time it is?