To Snow, Lucy Gray is forever the same 16-year-old girl who ~betrayed~ him, and she haunts him accordingly. But Lenore Dove ages and grows gray alongside Haymitch, like sheās walking next to him through the years instead of lying in her grave. If you even care.
haymitch didn't have to eat so hard after every character he cares about died... like what do you mean "who will sing your songs now?" "wyatt callow who's luck just ran out. i can't believe how hard it hits me" "whoever lou lou was she's gone now" "buddy? somewhere beetee's heart breaks into fragments so small it can never be repaired" "goodbye maysilee donner, who i loathed, then grudgingly respected, then loved. not as a sweetheart or even a friend. a sister, i'd said." like alright
"I first saw the girl at the Hob when she was just a baby. Burdock was so proud of her, he toted her around everywhere. After he died in that mine explosion, she started coming alone, trading the odd squirrel or rabbit. Tough and smart, her hair in two braids then, reminding me for all the world of Louella McCoy, my sweetheart of old. And after she volunteered for the Games, that nickname couldnāt help but slip out." - Haymitch Abernathy, Sunrise on the Reaping.
I am so incredibly disappointed with what everyone is choosing to talk about with this book. Everyone is concentrating on what happens with Xaden but you know what to me was the absolute most gut wrenching storyline in the whole book? General Lilith Fucking Sorrengail.
From the moment we see her again in the beginning of the book she is nothing but supportive and proud of her daughter. Yes, she absolutely made the wrong decision where she stands in the war, and what she did to Xaden was absolutely inexcusable. (Although I do think if she hadnāt done that they would have killed all the marked ones.) But she made all those decisions for her children. Because she did what she needed to to keep them safe. You canāt convince me that even after Violet leaves, that even after Mira leaves, that she wasnāt incredibly thankful for the fact they were together and with Xaden who would never let something happen to Violet.
Lilith went into the dungeons to get her daughter out of there and I am not unconvinced that had Violet not already been mid rescue the General wouldnāt have turned traitor right there to get her out. The scene when Brennen reveals himself to her?? Sheās cracking and can hardly hold herself together and my heart felt so sorry for her in that moment. It made me mad at Brennan because he threw it in her face like ammo when Violet spent all of fourth wing describing how his death ruined their mother.
One of the most heart breaking quotes in the whole book is at the beginning of chapter 65:
āMost generals dream of dying in service to their kingdom. But you know me better than that, my love. When I fall, it will be for one reason only: to protect our children.ā
General Sorrengail didnāt support the war, she didnāt fight for Navarre she made it clear fron the beginning that she was just a mom protecting her kids, and she did so without second thought. Without hesitation. She didnāt do what she did for the war effort, or even to help everyone on the battlefield. She did it for Brennen, and Violet, and Mira.
Lilith Sorrengail was just a desperate mother and everyone glossing over her sacrifice is bullshit.
Why Iām more team Jelly (aka why Iām team Jelly)
Something about Belly and Jeremiah makes so much sense to me. They just āflowā. Idk if thatās the right word, but itās how I see them. Everything with them seems natural and easy, like they donāt have to try with each other, they just are.
I do understand why the Team Conrad people want to see them together (in some ways) but in my opinion, Jeremiah is the right choice for endgame and is Bellyās future.
Conrad was Bellyās first love. He was the older brother who was always sweet to her and who she harboured a crush for, for so many years. But Jeremiahās the love thatās always been there. Heās the love that all of a sudden hits her in the face and she goes āhow has it taken me this long to see it?ā. Jeremiah is the boy who stayed at home with her for a week because she was sick and he didnāt want her to be alone. Heās the boy she stayed home for when he got sick too. Heās the boy she would run with to the beach with and play in the water. The boy who she knows ābetter than any boyā. Sheās the girl who makes him feel seen (which only his mum and belly do). Heās the guy that will āalways come and get herā. No matter at what stage Belly was in in her life, wether she was going on a date with someone or if she was little and was going to be home alone sick, Jeremiah pushed his own feelings aside, and chose to be there for her.
Maybe itās only me seeing this as someone with a soft spot for Jelly, but everything seems less awkward with Jeremiah than it does with Conrad. Donāt get me wrong, thereās been more than a few moments with belly and Conrad where Iāve been like āomg thatās so cuteā, but thereās also a slight awkwardness there sometimes. But Iāve never felt that thereās been an awkward moment between Belly and Jeremiah. Even when they were in the car together after not speaking for months, it was quiet and there was a tension, but it was never awkward.
They have such best friends to lovers energy and they have most importantly endgame energy. My only hope is that they show more of Belly feeling love for Jeremiah and not just Conrad. Because itās so obviously there, so I need to see more of it. That boy means the world to her, and Iād like to actually see that shown more than it is.
Idc what anyone says, the relationship that Belly and Jeremiah have is so much healthier than with her and Conrad. Jelly communicates with each other, they tell each other how they feel and the love they have for each other (and Iām not just talking about romantic here) never falters, no matter the situation. Conrad seems to give affection and then pull away. Heās more talk than walk, whereas Jeremiah is more walk than talk. I know Conrad suffers with his mental health, and as someone who does as well, I can sympathise with him and understand why he does some of the things he does. But are we going to sit here and say that Jeremiah doesnāt suffer with his too ? I feel like people forget that Jeremiah has also lost his Mother. And he was there watching it happen, he saw her slipping away, that surely has had a huge impact on him. Not to mention that whilst it was happening, the girl that he was in love with was dating his brother, and he stood back and let it happen because he wanted both his Brother and Belly to be happy.
The entire scene with Belly and Jeremiah at the college sums them up for me. The montage of them giving each other piggyback rides and twirling each other around, Jeremiah tucking Bellyās hair behind her ear (did anyone else notice that when Conrad did that, she pulled away and asked him if she had something on her face, but when Jeremiah did it, she didnāt even flinch ? just saying š) the montage radiated nothing but complete joy, happiness and love and affection. And even in the serious moments, like when they talked about the future, Belly planned it with Jeremiah in it. And say what you want, but she didnāt plan it as āfriendsā she was planning that future as a āweā, as a couple.
When Belly was at home and looking through the pictures of the boys and Susannah, clearly upset and missing them, itās Jeremiah she called, despite them not having spoken in months. When it comes to bellyās struggles, she will always call Jeremiah for help. Always. And when it comes to Jeremiahās, Belly is the only one that makes him feel better. Always. They just work. (Thinks if the tower of terror scene)
I just donāt want Belly to get back together with Jeremiah, only for her to then break his heart again. She clearly wants him, so letās keep it that way, I am begging. Jeremiah deserves the world and Belly is his world. And Belly deserves the love sheās always craved (and without even noticing it at the time, Jeremiah is the love sheās always craved). She built Conrad up in her head, she gave him traits that she wanted him to have because she loved him, she gave him chance after chance because she loved him. But that true love, happiness fairly tale that sheās always imagined, thatās Jeremiah, and now is the time for her to notice that (as it seems she has) and to STAY thinking that.
I know how the book ends, and before anyone asks, no I havenāt read them. But I really do hope that they change the ending for the show. Jelly is a pure love. Itās a true love. Theyāre ārealā in the words of Belly. Iāve said this on someoneās post before, but the song Daylight by Taylor swift is very Jelly coded. The lyrics āI once believed love would be burning red, but itās goldenā sums it up. Conrad was Bellyās burning red love. The love that yes, was deep and meaningful, but was also complicated and painful. Jeremiah is her golden love; also deep and meaningful, but the love thatās bright, one that makes her happy and is just easy. She never has to question herself around him, she can just be Belly.
And whilst im at it, Iāve seen a lot of discourse of people calling Belly a ābad personā and I feel the need to stick up for her here. Has she made some mistakes ? Yes. Questionable ones ? Yes. But sheās a teenage girl for gods sake. Are you telling me that your teenage self has never made a questionable decision ? Are you telling me that your teenage self had never hurt someone ? Belly is young and has two boys who clearly care about and love her wanting her. Boys who have been in her life always. Of course sheās going to be confused and make decisions that hurt someone. Iām not saying sheās never in the wrong, because of course she is, but so is everyone at some point in their life. Again, sheās a teenaged girl, give her a fucking break. I never see anyone calling the boys ābad peopleā for the questionable choices theyāve made.
Anyway, Jeremiah is Bellyās person. And Belly is Jeremiahās person. Enough said. And also, THAT kiss!
You are so beautiful, and so smart, and it kills me that you don't think you're good enough. Like, we have to always be extraordinary, but somehow, we're always doing it wrong?
You have to be thin, but not too thin, and you can never say you wanna be thin. You have to say you wanna be healthy, but also, you have to BE THIN.
You have to have money, but you can't ask for money because that's crass.
You have to be a boss, but you can't be mean.
You have to lead, but you can't squash other people's ideas.
You're supposed to love being a mother, but don't talk about your kids all the damn time.
You have to be a career woman, but also, always be looking out for other people.
You have to answer for men's bad behavior, which is INSANE, but if you point that out, you're accused of complaining!
You're supposed to stay pretty for men, but not so pretty that you tempt them too much or that you threaten other women because you're supposed to be a part of the sisterhood, but ALWAYS STAND OUT and ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL. But never forget that the system is rigged, so find a way to acknowledge that but ALSO, always be grateful!
You have to never get old. Never be rude. Never show off. Never be selfish. Never fall down. Never fail. Never show fear. Never get OUT OF LINE. It's too hard! It's too contradictory, and nobody gives you a medal or says 'thank you!' And it turns out, in fact, that not only are you doing everything wrong, but also, everything is your fault.
I'm just so tired of watching myself, and every single other woman tie herself into knots, so that people will like us.
And if all of that, is also true for a doll just representing a woman, then I don't even know." -Gloria the barbie movie
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