Me and @sathinfection are currently working on our manga! So meet the first draft of our mc — Johan. It’s gonna be a long journey but we promise it’s worth it!
Please, be kind to him and stay tuned if you love hot vampires and yaoi!:3
i have posted before that i think you are an artist before you ever make a painting or song or book. i understand it is a unique perspective and that is okay, but i am thinking on it again. specifically on how it relates to my perspective on grief and death
when i answer 'what makes you a creator?' with 'you are a creator before you ever start' it makes some folks upset or make fun of chuck. that is okay it is a big philosophical swing, but i think best way to explain would be to actually look at TIME ITSELF. specifically question: what is the present?
our perception is always a memory, a split second one from the 'now', so i am just as much present here as i am myself at 4, or 14, or 24 or 94. the dr manhattan meme is actually true, and we are all just bound by a focus on the 'present.' and guess what, the creative act STARTS when existence does
anyway, i started believing this about ART when i had a realization about DEATH. when someone we love trots to the next timeline, we become obsessed with their final moments as if they have more weight. if someone dies in a tragic way, we kind of let that start to define them. this bothers me
because once they are gone they are in EVERY moment. there is no reason that THE END, this tiny sliver of existence that is barely visible within the whole pie, should be worth more than all the love and joy on the way. when we are gone we are every moment, and when we are here we are every moment
tonight i just trotted back from seeing a family member who is about to leave this timeline. probably last time i will see them, and as i was in their room i was thankful i did not need to look around and tell myself 'this is the last time, i better appreciate this place', because i already DID
this final visit was also the first visit, and the second, and the twenty fourth. the are all the same, and when you live with gratitude for the small moments you ALREADY APPRECIATE THEM. you do not need to prove anything at the end. there is not catchup. i believe deeply that this is true
and this is another reason why i think ARTISTS are valid whether they have started or not. their piece is already out there in the unknown. we are all here right now reading these words, and we are also all on the next timeline looking back. hope this inspires you to create whats waiting for you
Turin tearless turning suddenly
on the corse cast him, and kissed the mouth
cold and open, and closed the eyes.
Yes, Beleg's eyes are BIG and OPEN and SURPRISED because ... you know ... and his hair is still long and luxurious even though he never did anything with it, while Turin is a little rat boy. A rat boy who really fucked it up THIS TIME. shoutout to @nisiedrawsstuff for inspiring me to draw this!!!
so i'm sneaking this from @edgeoflight - writing down ten of my favorite lines from my ten longest fics. i am so sorry but i am probably not picking my actual favorite line out of a 109k fic i finished in 2023 but i am going to make a valiant effort to like, find a really good one. also these are like, paragraphs or full sections of dialogue because some really good lines need context!!!
tagging @havisham as a means of cyberbullying
ahem hem IN ORDER OF LENGTH FROM LONGEST TO SHORTEST:
alchemy in the blood, genshin impact, albedo/aether, 109k
Durin’s skull is on eBay. The listing says, “VICTORIAN DRAGON SKULL SKELETON BONES ANTIQUE BAVARIAN DINOSAUR GOTH TABLETOP DORM ROOM MANCAVE.”
silvery water and the starry earth, genshin impact, albedo/aether, 76k
Aether started to cry. “I hate this. I hate leaving you, I hate my fucked-up body, I hate how I don’t know what to do. You want me to live and I don’t want to die, so why is this so hard?”
into exile, scum villain's self-saving system, yue qingyuan/shen jiu, 56k
Luo Binghe wanted to make an ornament of Shen Qingqiu. He wanted to take Shen Qingqiu to bed—not to fuck, but to lie next to him, like the doll Luo Binghe had never had. Luo Binghe could hold Shen Qingqiu’s bound body close, feel the trembling under that porcelain skin as his tormenter’s humiliation chased every nightmare away.
"You think I was always able to make my asscheeks clap? No! I worked at it. Sweated over it. I went to the rowing machine every day until I got enough ass to clap.”
the maimed king, peter jackson hobbit movies, bard/thranduil, 26k
“There will be no tales of Aduthir, for I am childless and yoked to what I most hate. What hope is there but to be a dropped stitch in a tapestry, or a blot upon the page? You must remember me, even if it is with contempt.”
so long sauvignon, dungeon meshi, kabru/mithrun, 24k
"Since I was so young, the server recommended an off-dry Vouvray that had a little sweetness. It tasted like transgression, like I was flirting with an adulthood that had an aftertaste of honey.”
folie à deux, dungeon meshi, kabru/mithrun, 16k
Mithrun had found a goat’s skull. The rest of the creature was still in the earth. Mithrun held it up so he could see it better, eye to empty eye. Staring into the holes where the goat’s eyes had been, Mithrun remembered the gaze of the demon.
warm-blooded, kaleidoscope of death, ruan nazhu/lin qiushi, 14k
Ruan Nanzhu almost looked distressed. “You want me to have sex with you?”
“One of us can stick it in and then we both have to come, right? That would count?”
your affections, commander, peerless, feng xiao/cui buqu, 12k
A murder was a very thoughtful gift.
of like kind, the silmarillion, maedhros/sauron, 12k
She turned her head to stare directly at Maedhros, a fey smile curling her lips. “He will tease out the corruption in you, that I see burning low in your blasphemous soul. Mastering you excites his vanity, but you are beneath the thought of the Master of Fate. This bodes ill for you. Come closer, dispossessed son.”
My darling Yukers passed in January 2022 at age 16, so of course I had to get another cat. That cat was Claudia, the most sweetest tabby who will never let me draw without paying pet tribute first.
I took up drawing while I went eight rough months without writing because I needed some sort of creative outlet. I am uniquely terrible at it, but find it fun nonetheless.
Do you read or write fanfiction based on the works of J.R.R. Tolkien or a Tolkien media adaptation like the film trilogies or Rings of Power series? If so, we'd love to hear from you!
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