You're married to Satoru Gojo - an arrangement since your childhood, one you're so excited for. You soon find out - he wants nothing to do with you. Any one is preferable, from the waitress at your engagement party, to his secretary. Torn apart by insecurities and devastated by the fact that you can't make this one sided affection work, you decide to find something to keep you going until Gojo finds a way to end the marriage. That's what lands you right in the notorious boxing ring in town - led by Ryomen Sukuna, who finally sees you.
pairings - Nepo baby! Gojo x Boxer! Sukuna x Heiress! reader
warnings!!! - Heavy angst, cheating, Satoru starts off cruel and mean, reader starts off very shy/insecure, yandere Sukuna. This chap - a TON of angst, lots of feelings, very explicit, tension, reader's mom is a bitch, Sukuna is a whole ass YAN in this one and emotions are running high, dual penetration, anal play, anal sex, fingering, teasing, it's a MESS and it's getting messier. 9k WC
one step closer to the poly ending, but there are at LEAST 4 more chaps left, loves. TYSM to @satolune for beta reading, and for @lizatonix for giving me advice!!
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part eight
Sukuna
“Mmm,” Sukuna's hand slides down your side, over your hip as he sucks a nipple into his hot mouth, that dusty rose hair tickling your skin. “Did you miss me, brat?”
“Of course I did,” you whisper, looking at him in this way that destroys him, underneath your lashes with your lips parted, your nails pressing against his skin as you grip his dress shirt. “You’re still hurting from the fight.”
“I’m fine,” he mumbles, forgetting there is a six foot four white haired ass of a man behind you, it’s easy to forget, actually. Forget his existence, dreaming of the moment you get him out of your system – though he for now would apparently have to share you.
It’s Sukuna’s decision – you’d do anything for him, and he already knows that, how submissive and obedient you were. In no world would Sukuna have had bruises on his throat from you, it’s as if you’re two pretty girls in one form. And he loves both sides of you, even if he is the one that’s bringing it all out.
But he knows he could get you to himself with a few words, and you’d listen so good – you always do. Yet ultimately, what sort of regrets would you have? What sort of things would run in your beautiful, tragic mind when you thought back on Satoru Gojo and his pouty, pathetic self. His tragic ™ backstory that he’s sure the three of you all share.
Though yours is the most tragic.
Why wouldn’t you want love from both of them when you were raised with such hatred and disdain? And why wouldn’t he love to see how you open up with the both of them?
He has not seen much of you with Satoru – the brief encounter where you sucked him and gripped his cock races through his mind, but he still wonders more about it. If you look different when you cum for him, how he watches you now respond, arching for Satoru’s touch, your eyes still locked on Sukuna’s.
“I’m here, you know,” Satoru says, biting your neck. You gasp.
“Ow!”
“Attention starved little shit,” Sukuna mumbles, his fingertips dipping between your soft thighs, he finds you already soaking wet, already drenching him as he glides up your slit. "Always so ready for me, aren’t you?"
“Yes,” you whisper, earning another bite from the annoying little jerk behind you. He's practically rutting against your ass and whimpering like a little bitch, but Sukuna can feel how slick you’re getting. “Mnh!”
His rough fingers are brushing over your clit, eliciting a soft little sigh of pleasure from your lips as he begins to circle the sensitive bundle of nerves, twitching against him in response. His cock is leaking at the sounds of you, the feel of you, the very scent – as if every bit of you was made to drive him insane.
Sukuna was semi-normal before he met you – he had girls in and out of his bed, but nothing special, nothing serious. Enough to get his cock wet and watch a pretty girl gush down him, he couldn’t really tell you their names, either. He likely was the same level of whore Satoru was.
But, the huge difference?
If he had you as a wife – he would have never done anything with another woman. Even if it was pushed on him, and he wanted to rebel like Satoru did, in no world could Sukuna not want you – not since you walked right into that gym.
Everything changed the moment he caught sight of you.
You lean up and kiss him now, he moans into your mouth in a way that’s utterly pathetic, but it’s simply the effect you had. One that terrified him – because you weren’t even trying, you didn’t even know what you did to him, or clearly to Satoru who is lying right behind you, shifting closer as Sukuna’s tongue slips into your mouth, even in the fucking morning you taste good.
“Hey,” Satoru murmurs against your ear when you pull back, cupping your face, making Sukuna pause his little circles for a moment.
He’s still here.
Shit.
"Don't I get a good morning kiss?" he asks, his voice low, teasing, needy enough to annoy Sukuna to death.
“Mmm, I guess you could get one,” Sukuna smirks, kissing your pretty tit again, continuing his circles and making you tremble.
“Just one? So generous, sweetheart.”
“It is generous,” you turn your head, and his lips move over yours – he has seen it before, but now it’s different than that first time. He’s kissing you with a desperate need, his hand sliding down your back, over the curve of your ass, and between your legs from behind.
You gasp out loud, and Sukuna can literally hear that squelch, your slutty lil cunt taking him in.
Sukuna wishes it turned him off, that he didn’t love feeling you move between the two of them, that he doesn’t find that string of saliva between your mouths attractive.
Maybe it’s just you.
Maybe you’ve ruined Sukuna – not in the way you think, ‘ruining his life’ with your own situations, no.
You’ve ruined the man altogether.
He snatches you back by your chin, kissing you again, harder, deeper, pinching your clit between two fingers and making the filthiest noises escape your lips, Sukuna swallows them up as he hears Satoru’s fingers move inside. He’s annoyed when they brush against him, but not enough to stop his cock from twitching.
“Eyes on me,” he murmurs softly, and you eagerly obey, making him smirk just a little bit. “You’re a needy girl, aren’t you? Can’t get enough cock inside?”
“Please,” your whisper is sweet – as if you’re asking for sugar in your coffee, nothing like what was really happening.
Two men fucking you, two men who can’t take how much they want you, two men who would do anything to have you all alone, but yet…
Here they are.
Sukuna groans when your hand slips down his chest, underneath the dress shirt, fingertips gliding up his abdomen and making it tremble. Sukuna – the man who isn’t afraid of shit, who’s beaten up so many people he can’t remember, the man who told his family to fuck themselves – here he is falling apartfrom nothing but your touch.cting as if he’s got it together.
An act.
It was all an act to seem dominant, to seem like he’s in control.
It’s terrifying to realize he has none when it comes to you.
****
You
You’re moaning into Sukuna’s mouth, only to get tugged back to Satoru, the push and pull maddening as two of his long, slender fingers press against your entrance, sliding in with embarrassing ease, you’re so ready. To have them both on you was unexplainable, how ready you were, how needy you were for them both, how their lips moved, their fingers.
All of them.
Sukuna doesn't stop his pretty little patterns on your clit, Satoru’s curving and hitting a new spot from the angle, Sukuna’s tugging your thigh over his hip – spreading you wider. You should feel some sense of shame, some shyness at this, but the only way you really can feel is needy, pretty, desired.
More than that.
It’s the definition of insanity to have them tugging you back and forth for kisses, two men that hated each other long before you came along, both playing your body. The dual stimulation is overwhelming in its intensity, your hips rocking back and forth – to Sukuna on your clit, to Satoru in your slutty little hole.
You want more.
"Greedy little thing," Sukuna chuckles, his voice thick with his lust, kissing down your collarbone, your shoulder, his teeth sharp when they bite you right where Satoru has – as if he wants to make sure you’re marked even more.
"Taking my fingers so well, sweetheart,” Satoru whispers against your ear, his voice maddening, their touch driving you to arch and rock more, the sounds of your pussy echoing with that wet squish and click as they work you. “You love it, hmm? Both of us playing with your slutty little pussy?”
“Mnh,” you don’t answer that, your head falling back against Satoru's shoulder as they work your body together. Sukuna's fingers are rough with calluses, pushing harder and faster against your clit, while Satoru's long, elegant ones fuck into you faster, curling perfectly against that little spongy spot that has you dizzy.
Their heat presses into your skin from both sides, scents surrounding you.
Sukuna’s rich, dark musk– Satoru’s bright– hints of bergamot, the smell of the hints of your arousal sweet and mixing with the two of them as they touch you in tandem, finding a maddening rhythm.
You can't form a single word, nothing coherent, at least – just mumbles and gasps slipping from your swollen lips look into ruby and then azure eyes, both dark with desire.
How could you not feel beautiful, wanted when they look at you like this?
"Look at her," Satoru murmurs against your neck, his fingers pumping in and out of your slick heat with a mean precision he shouldn’t have.
He may not be able to eat pussy yet, but the man sure could use those fingers, they're so fucking long when you arch they hit your puffy cervix, making you cry out, clamping down on him.
"So fucking pretty, hmm?” You feel your cheeks heat up as Satoru whispers, both men kiss against your skin, having you tremble between them,
Sukuna hums in agreement, his free hand coming up to cup your titty, his thumb brushing over your hardened nipple.
"Fuckin’ perfect," he says, the claim clear in his voice, the possessive way he touches you, takes you over.
Addictive.
You're addicted to them.
The pleasure builds higher, that ache in your core spreading, veins burning like you're on fire from their fevered touches, from their fingers brushing against each other, working you together as if they both just know.
Your hands clutch at Sukuna's broad shoulders, your nails digging into his skin and earning a hiss as your orgasm is about to hit, so overwhelming you can't breathe. Caught in your throat, heart hammering in your ears, that blood rushing.
"That's it," Satoru whispers, his voice breathy, so intimate as his long fingers are moving faster, pushing you over the edge. "Cum for us, pretty girl."
Pretty girl.
Cum for them.
With a cry you do just fucking that – you shatter, falling apart for their hungry gazes, your cunt convulsing around Satoru's fingers. When that orgasm hits, you can’t even see, your vision blurry as that pleasure makes you dumb. They don't stop – no, they keep just working you through your orgasm, until you're falling into another, and their fingers are slipping.
"Good girl," Sukuna praises, pulling his fingertips off, glistening with you, Satoru does the same, sucking them right off, simultaneously. “How do you want it?”
“I get to pick, hmm?” You bite your lip, tugging up Sukuna’s shirt, so your hand can slip under, brushing over his hard abdomen.
“You can pick which hole I’m in,” you gasp at that, hearing even Satoru chuckle a bit behind you.
“Or pick which I’m in.”
“You both wanna fuck my ass, really?” You look between them then, feeling their heat behind you, Satoru’s already sliding his wet, spit soaked fingers up there, two teasing your ass and pressing. “Oh f-fuck…”
“Even tighter there, god,” he buries his face against your neck as you feel the stretch, Sukuna’s tugging his cock out of his pants, letting it slap his abs, leaking pre and dripping, while Satoru works you faster, fingers buried deep inside.
“We could fuck you just like this,” Sukuna says, kissing up your collar bone, tugging your thigh high up allowing his cock to tease your slit, all the while Satoru is loosening your ass up, hitting some spot that has you whining out. “Gojo, I know you have lube, don’t fuckin’ do that without it.”
“I wouldn’t,” he mumbles now, and you peek back at him.
“Do you have lube?”
“Like twenty bottles,” you and Sukuna laugh, and he scowls. “What!?”
“Twenty!?”
“Sukuna… it’s next to you,” Satoru says, biting your neck again, you gasp at the sharp pain. Sukuna eases back and bends over, tattooed back on full display for your gaze, getting even more blurred with every pump of his fingers.
“I actually do but,” he glares again at Sukuna. “Just get one.”
“Of course you do,” Sukuna lays on his back and taps his lap, you bite down on your lip nervously, straddling him, your slick dripping down his cock, his lips catching yours in a mean little kiss, hands gripping your hips possessively, making you remember his filthy words in the locker room.
“Would breed you over and over, fuck… imagine.”
Satoru squirts a generous amount of lube on his fingers, kneeling behind you as Sukuna lifts you up, your hands bracing on his chest, sinking inch by inch onto his thick cock, gasping out as it fills you up. “Mngh…”
“Love watching myself,” he mumbles, ruby eyes dark, his hand sliding over your tummy, pressing so he can feel his cock print move from outside. “What would you do if I got her pregnant first?”
“You won’t,” Satoru smirks as he fingers your hole again, something intimate and careful with how he’s working you, sighing and closing his eyes, nuzzling against your neck. “I put so much into her last night, you know.”
Sukuna’s hands squeeze hard now, you suck in a breath at just how hard and bruising of a grip he gives you. “Ah!”
“Oh yeah?” He eyes the mess you’re making when he lifts you up and down him. “Bet I put more in her today.”
Satoru’s working you looser and looser, until it starts to feel so good, and never did you think you’d be sandwiched right between the two men – two men at all, you – a good girl before, raised to be obedient and subservient, riding your boyfriend’s cock, while your husband is stroking his cock. You hear his little intake of breath when his tip nudges your ass, then, slipping up and down, squirting even more lube.
“You okay, sweetheart?” He asks then, as you tense just a bit – there’s no mocking or cruelty, not when he cups your face, nose brushing against yours, lips a breath away, pressing. “Need more work up?”
“I wouldn’t know,” you admit, gasping when you feel your clit being rubbed, seeing Sukuna’s thumb working, having you gush down his cock.
“Focus on this,” he says, soft almost, you lean forward a bit.
“Arch,” Satoru orders, you listen just like you did last night – body on some instinct, greedy and wanting to be full of them both. His tip nudges right past that tight little ring, you’re stretched in the sluttiest way, then. “Look at me.”
“Mmm,” you barely manage to look as he turns your chin to face him. “Satoru…”
“Relax, don’t wanna hurt you,” his words are quiet and breathy as he kisses you, hands on your waist, as Sukuna’s are on your hips. Four hands, twenty fingers, all touching you together.
“Feels good,” you admit – it does, the pain, the burn when he moans and eases in just a bit more, and Sukuna tugs you down, your hair falling like a curtain to the side, that shirt you’re wearing slipped up and thrown over your head, baring you to both of them. “Kuna…”
“You’re takin’ us so good,” his praise has you dripping more, Satoru’s thickness stretching you to the point of tears, you’re sniffling as he leans back, pulling out and then sinking just a little deeper. “Made to be filled, huh? Bred in all your holes?”
“Y-yes,” with Sukuna you’re like this – sweet, agreeing, but you know if Satoru asked, you’d be a brat – you wouldn’t admit it, but how easy and gentle he is back there has your mind fuzzy. You peek back, biting your lower lip as he eases into your unused hole again, his blue eyes bright as they look at you.
“Does it hurt?” He asks, pausing as he sees your tears, you shake your head, sniffling.
“J-just stay for a minute,” you whisper, nails pressing into Sukuna’s chest, Satoru’s fingertips slip down your spine soothingly, as he nods, and you try to relax, having Sukuna turn your chin to have you kiss him again.
Are you really this greedy, that you’re going to have them both cum inside? That you’re going to have them ruin your holes, that you love the way they’re both touching, kissing, moving inside?
You are.
*****
Satoru
Satoru watches you, your back is arched against him with your hole being split apart by his cock, slick with that lube – he pours even more, sinking into that tiny hole again. Gripping him like a vice – his own baby blue eyes are rolling back in his skull every time he sinks just a little deeper into you.
But it's more than that, more than just how tight you are – how fucking good you feel, how pretty you are drooling, with your tears.
No – it’s the feeling of you against him, the way you trust him enough to let him take you this way, to let him take this from you – your first time there, knowing he doesn’t even deserve it. Doesn’t deserve anything, yet you still do – if he was a better person he’d tell you that you should leave him, be with Sukuna who clearly fucking adores you, it’s written on his dumb face.
Yet how can Satoru do that when he’s fallen so fucking far? When you have sunk into his mind, his body, fuck – last night you spit in his mouth – you choked him as you fucking rode him, used him. Satoru Gojo, always dominant, was falling apart underneath you as you used his cock to come again and again.
If he didn’t love you before, he knows he does when he catches sight of you kissing Sukuna, of him that close to you, holding and touching you like that? It should turn him off, sharing you, but he wants you so goddamn bad it doesn’t.
If anything it makes Satoru want to work that much harder to fill you, to wrap an arm around your waist, burying his face for just a moment and inhaling that scent mixing with Sukuna’s. He wishes that turned him off too, but if anything he wants to fuck you that much better, to ruin you on his cock till you’re babbling and dumb.
Every time Sukuna thrusts up into your cunt, you clench around his cock, making him tense up, trying not to bust. He pumped three loads into your cunt last night but he couldn’t stop from his balls getting heavy again, maddening the effect you have on both men without knowing, just looking back at him in the way that makes him ache.
Satoru leans back and spits on his length as he pulls back, tip coated in the glistening lubricant – you don’t even need it, he just wants to watch his bubbly spit sink inside you, feeling you tense up again, his lips moving as he stays still, letting Sukuna move your body.
“You all right?”
“Y-yes,” you whisper, leaning back against him again as he presses forward, his lips against your ear. Not just possessive, these feelings – they’re protective, which should be laughable.
Imagine Gojo protecting you when he was the one who hurt you.
Yet he can’t help it, as he eases in and out, feeling that tight fit, the little clenching as you stretch around him. Satoru wants to ruin you as much as he wants to fix what he fucking did, wants you to fall apart so he can put you back together. Even he has never felt anything close to it, to take it so easy with a girl like he was right now.
Of course he hates that Sukuna is here – hates the smug look on his face as he watches you, the way his hands are all over the very body Satoru wants to possess entirely, the way his cock is already inside your cunt. How he got to take you first, claiming a part of you Satoru couldn’t have.
He feels that – the fucking rage as much as he feels that heady desire, the need to pump you full, mixing with the maddening urges to kiss you.
It’s too much, when you look at him like that, with your lidded eyes and your lashes lowered. Your lips parted. You turn your head, face flushed and tears trailing from the corners of your eyes right down your pretty cheeks, irises all fucked out and glittering in a way they shouldn’t for him, as he sinks even deeper.
"Satoru..." Any irritation about how Sukuna grabs you just... melts, when you look at him like that – when your voice trembles, and your lips reach out for a kiss. Satoru does kiss you, trying to pour all the fucking feelings he has that he can’t say for shit, knowing it would hurt you both.
What he feels for you – what he did to you, what he regrets, how fucking furious he is at Sukuna, the overwhelming feelings he has for you, all spilling as he shoves his entire cock inside you, feeling Sukuna through you, as he pauses too, letting you try to take all of him.
“Ah! Too much,” you mumble, thighs shaking, the two men rubbing your thighs gently, brushing your hair back, murmuring your name.
"Relax, don't wanna hurt you," he murmurs against your lips, forcing himself to halt despite every cell in his body screaming to move, to fuck into your tight little hole until you forget your own name, but he forces himself to be gentle, to kiss across your neck and stay there. “Just breathe, yeah?”
“If it’s too much…”
“I can take it,” you whisper now, letting Sukuna lean up and kiss you, messy as you relax underneath their touches. “It’s a lot…”
“You’re doing such a good job,” Sukuna tells you, Satoru’s grip tightens just a bit for a moment, still buried and not moving, until you arch back just a bit, whining out and turning to him again, kissing Satoru in a way you really shouldn’t.
Spitting in his mouth was really already better than you should give him, but sweet kisses as you trust him, as he works you open carefully, his fingers running soothing little circles down your waist, letting you get used to it – never has he felt like this, just fucking or even sharing.
This is different from last night, even, so intimate Satoru himself is trembling inside of you – when you finally give a shaky nod for him to move again, he waits for the okay, feeling you grip him. He can feel Sukuna's thick cock through the thin wall of your body, and the friction is maddening whether he wants to admit it or now, every time Satoru pushes in, Sukuna pulls out.
The two men somehow work you perfect despite hating each other, Sukuna will fuck your pussy with filthy, loud smacks as Satoru waits, then he’ll rub your clit and pin you down, and Satoru will move. He’s easier with you, careful, reaching around to take over rubbing your clit while Sukuna sucks your pretty nipples into his mouth, seeing that bulge move.
Satoru knows his eyes are locked on your stomach, dark, black with desire.
He’d be dumb not to notice that man worships you to the point of insanity, but how could he not?
The two men take over your body as you fall apart between them, gushing down Sukuna and clamping down when you shatter.
You’re mumbling their names as he watches your pretty face, sees you losing yourself to it, head falling back on his shoulder, mouth open and slack, drool just spilling as they both take you over.
"Look at you," Sukuna groans, his eyes locked on where your bodies are joined, where your slick is pooling down his belly button. "Taking both of us so fucking well. Your greedy little holes are just sucking us in, huh?"
“Mngh,” his words make you clench around him and Satoru, making both of them let out slutty little moans. “Feels s’good I…”
"Feel that?" Satoru murmurs, his lips brushing against your ear, leaving goosebumps on your skin, his words so quiet only you can hear. "Feel how deep I am? Can you, sweetheart?
You answer with a little nod, Sukuna sits up, working your body, both men fucking you faster, the sounds utterly debauched in Satoru’s room.
“Answer me.”
“Yes,” you barely whisper. “Yes, c-can feel you…”
“Took this first, hah,” he’s toxic then, but you don’t scowl or argue, letting him be possessive. “He got your pretty lil cunt, yeah? That’s okay, baby, I’ll fuckin’ ruin you till you forget him.”
“Mnh…”
Satoru’s lost in you, hearing Sukuna mutter just about the same as he is, the two men pushing and pulling till they cum inside both your holes, filling you so full, you’re dripping in a little sheen of sweat as they ease out, both of those holes stretched and drooling white. Satoru gathers the mess and toys with you where you’re sensitive, feeling you twitch between them as you come down, and they’re both kissing you carefully, soothing you.
Satoru has never felt whatever the fuck you do to him, but every time it’s more intimate – it’s more intense, his snowy lashes fluttering against your neck as his breaths rush on your skin.
“Am I getting breakfast?”
“Sukuna!” You giggle and Satoru snorts, rolling his eyes.
“How can you think of breakfast with her here like this?” Satoru’s words make you pause a bit, your hands gripping his wrists tightly, leaning back just a bit.
“Well I’m hungry, fuck I just had a match,” he chuckles at your little look. “Do I have to order?”
“I’ll cook, I just need help getting up so I can clean off,” Sukuna picks your ass up and carries you toward the bathroom, and your eyes meet Gojo’s, biting down on your lower lip as you study him, before burying your face.
That look.
******
Sukuna
“So,” Sukuna looks at you as you box in your cute little pink gloves, focusing by worrying your lower lip, your eyes looking up to him now.
“So?” You ask, stopping the punching and resting a bit on the bag, Sukuna can see the muscles forming in your arms from all your work, he wants to trace the bicep there but you’re around people.
That’s when it hits – the truth, the real fucking pain that cuts him, when he’s not lost inside you or alone with you. Even alone with Satoru, he can be with you how he wants, but in public?
There was nothing you two could do to rouse any suspicion, even in the gym he tried to keep it formal, until he could finger your pretty cunt in the locker room, until he could steal a kiss until you’re breathless. The two of you are achingly careful. Trying to appear that you’re just friends, especially with you having been spotted at the boxing match – though luckily no one saw you actually with Sukuna.
Yet the pain of knowing Satoru could touch you and hold you all he wanted ate him alive, that he could just be so close, and no one would ever say a thing. You were his wife, you had his last fucking name – Gojo.
Your last name was Gojo.
And with every encounter, he can tell the feelings for Satoru grow, though he can feel them growing for him too, he can tell every time you’re near him you’d do anything and everything. It would take him to softly tell you to leave Satoru, and you’d figure it the fuck out for Sukuna – you gave him everything.
That’s why he couldn’t take the choice away from you.
“What is it, Kuna?” You ask now, your dumb little nickname he loves so goddamn much, he sighs, stepping closer and turning you, acting as if he’s guiding you into a good form when all he wants to do is touch you.
“You wanna work here?” You giggle at that, looking back at him. “I’m deadass – why are you laughing?”
“I’d love to work here, what!?” You keep giggling, losing your form until Sukuna chuckles a bit, shaking his head. “Doing what?”
“You can help me run numbers, it’s not my best. Wasn’t that your degree?”
“You know what I graduated in?” You ask, blinking a bit – Sukuna has to remember you have no clue the deep dive he did on you.
He could be called obsessed.
Sukuna couldn’t help but want to know every fucking bit about you – including that you were top of your class in business, he’s sure your parents made you take those courses, but your GPA was impeccable. You’re blinking a bit as his hands go to your shoulders, positioning them.
“You wanted to work, you told me before…”
“I do! I’m so nervous, I never have. Is that insane?”
“No, it’s just you weren’t ever supposed to,” he breathes out now. “I wasn’t supposed to beat the shit out of your parents either, but…”
“Kuna!”
He grins as you elbow him playfully. “I’m also not supposed to fuck married women, hmm?”
“You’re awful,” you pout now, shoving him and then realizing people are still around, even if the gym is closing. “You can’t say that so loud.”
“I’d love to fuck you right here,” you suck in a breath. “But I can’t even fucking touch you, can I?”
You blink back tears for just a moment, stepping back as if you were slapped, Sukuna curses, shaking his head. “I need to…”
You step away, rushing off as he realizes what he’d just said – he hadn’t meant for those words to spill, he’s not some emotional man – fuck, before you he had no relationships. No cares other than who would be sucking his cock, maybe who would entertain him for a few months, but nothing was like this – maddening, insanity, the need for more of you.
When you weren’t even his.
Sukuna tries to give it a moment so it doesn’t look more suspicious, before walking back, tugging you into his office before you can make it to the locker room, shutting the door behind you. “Don’t run away, brat – I didn’t mean it bad towards you, okay?”
“I hurt you,” your whisper breaks him, your lips trembling, tears slipping down your cheeks, taking several shaky breaths as he cups your face, and your hands come to his wrists, those gloves falling to the floor off your arm. “I do hurt you.”
“Stop worrying about me,” you sniffle, tears falling, shaking your head again. “I fucking swear to god, you’re going to get your ass beat until it’s covered in my handprints, actin’ like a brat.”
“Stop trying to cheer me up,” your eyes shut now, tears falling. “I just hurt both of you. Don’t I?”
“No, and why the fuck do you care if you hurt him anyway?” Sukuna tilts your chin up now. “You aren’t the one hurting me.”
“You are hurt that you can’t touch me, like this…” you put a hand on his chest. “That we have to sneak around.”
“It’s just… fuck this,” he pulls back, cursing – hating the simpering mess you’ve made of him in the short time, walking towards his desk with his hands on it, feeling you walk up, a hand on his back gently. “Just go.”
“Do you really want me to go? Or do you want me to work for you?” He sighs, looking back at you, you wrap your arms around his waist, burying your face against him now. “I want to work with you.”
“Don’t.”
“Sukuna!”
“Just go home,” you bury your face again. “Confusing little brat. Swear to god you annoy the shit out of me sometimes.”
“You love it,” you mumble. “You love me.”
“Yes I love you,” he sighs and tries to disentangle himself, switching your positions so you’re pressed on his desk now, cupping your face. “Love you so much I let that dumb, white haired fuck have you too.”
You take a little breath, sighing now, as he tugs your shorts up your thighs, hands on your ass, lifting you like it’s nothing and propping you on the desk, he leaned low. “I told you that this is enough for me.”
“Is it?”
“I love you, Sukuna,” he looks down at you, tilting your chin up.
“What do you feel for Gojo, then?”
“It’s so complicated, I don’t… I feel too… there’s too much, the two of you, splitting me in half. I feel like I’m only giving you half of me, and you deserve a whole person.”
He pauses then, letting your tears fall. “You think I wouldn’t take half of you over any other person?”
“How’s it fair to you?”
“I want your half, your whole, every little piece I can get,” he laughs now, cruel as he grips your chin too tight. “I can’t not fucking have you and you exist.”
“Then why do you push me away?”
Sukuna says nothing, kissing you now, a softer kiss than he ever gives you, letting you sigh into his mouth. “I’m not.”
“You told me to go,” you kiss him back, thighs pressed on either side of his hips. “I don’t want you to hurt over me.”
Sukuna can’t take thinking of not having you, he can’t think of you finding your feelings for Gojo to be more than him, to lose you to him – to lose you altogether. Better for him to have the part in it, the control over the woman he can’t stand the thought of ever not seeing – fuck, even a night without you was torture.
“You’re fine, brat… was just thinking,” your lashes flutter shut as he studies you, calloused thumb brushing your lip. “Too loud, didn’t mean to say the shit.”
“I don’t want us to be a secret either,” you admit, eyes opening slowly now. “As for right now, I can’t see a way to-”
“It’s fine, I’m fine,” he lies, and you clearly know it, tears spilling again, making him tense. “Stop crying, now.”
“You can’t just tell me to stop!?”
“Yeah I can, you listen to what I say,” you bite your lip hard, Sukuna tugs it out from your teeth. “You haven’t done shit wrong. Aside from letting him fuck your ass before I got to.”
“Sukuna!” You giggle even through your tears, and he scowls. “Are you serious right now?”
“Very, should have been me,” he kisses you, pressing your back against his desk, hand gripping yours, lips moving down your throat as your hands find their way to his rosy locks, entangling in them. “All of your firsts should be me.”
“You got my throat, my… pussy,” he laughs at how cutely you say that, like it shouldn’t be said. “What!”
“You’re adorable,” he mumbles, leaning up and kissing your cheeks, as the affection and protective way he feels ruins him further.
Sukuna is so in love it makes him fucking sick.
“You got those, you’re so greedy you wanted that too?” You tease, trying to hold it together, clearly, Sukuna hums, tilting his head, as his necklace dangles against your skin, you touch it carefully between your fingers, eyes dazed.
“I wanted your first kiss too,” he admits softly, nuzzling your nose. “I want to be the first for everything, yes – I don’t care if it’s toxic. I want to get you pregnant, want you to be my fucking wife.”
“Sukuna…” You gasp now.
“I know that’s not happening, not yet…” he says quietly, kissing you deeper, needier. “Doesn’t mean I don’t want it. Doesn’t mean I won’t take it the very moment that dumb little shit fucks up, I’ll take you away from him so goddamn fast. Make you disappear."
“Y-you… mngh…” He’s kissing down your chest, as he loses his mind, huge hands taking over your pretty tits, squishing them as he grinds himself against you, feeling your heat. “Disappear?”
“Tell your parents you died, take you the fuck away,” he sighs now, nuzzling your nose with his, like he’s not being insane. “I would do it, princess. So fucking fast – I’d tell him you died, too, if you didn’t love him so much.”
“I…” you can’t answer it, his teeth sink into your skin as your thighs grip his slutty waist. “You’re talking nonsense.”
“Am I?” He grins now, and watches your face flush, your lips part. “I’d do anything to keep you the fuck away from them.”
“I have to see them tomorrow,” you mumble, gasping when his grip tightens. “I know…”
“You wet because I said I’d tell everyone you’re dead? Or because I’d kidnap you, huh?” You don’t answer, just kept dripping more until you soak his gym shorts. “Slutty little brat, just for me… I would keep you to myself.”
“Sukuna…” You just kiss him again, when a knock comes from the door, you pause, eyes widening – as it once again hits him.
You’re not his to the public.
How will he handle seeing the news, the press of you and Gojo at some get together tomorrow?
He eases off you, setting your clothes right before he answers the door, leaning down to brush your hair back behind your ear. “You think about working for me.”
It’s selfish, really.
Sukuna just wants more of you.
*****
You
You’re at a charity function that weekend with Satoru, but this is different than the last one, there was no awkward silence in the limo, he was peeking at his phone as you texted Sukuna, sighing and having you look curiously.
“What’s wrong?” You asked, he’d rolled his eyes.
“Just Jennifer trying to see me again, I don’t know how much more clear I could be about it,” you had tensed a bit.
“You know, since I’m with Sukuna I can’t tell you not to be with them, even though I felt she was coming at me a certain way-”
“I don’t want her.”
You blinked a bit at that. “Not at all?”
“No, I want whatever parts of you I can have before you’re gone,” he had cupped your face, eyes looking down at your lips as the limo drove quietly in the night, you had bit your lower lip, sighing.
“You can’t say things like that, Satoru…”
“No?”
“No,” you’d given in, leaning in first for that kiss – ones he usually stole, but in that moment how could you not? “Mmm, Satoru I…”
“Shh,” he kept kissing you, until you were on his lap, his hand sliding up the small of your back, where it was bare from your dress, you felt your heart hammer in your chest. “You’re so fuckin’ pretty.”
“You shh,” he snorted a bit at that, kissing you again as your arm wrapped around his neck, a hand slipping up along his undercut, brushing the silky strands there and arching your hips. “I see why you were such a whore, talking like that to all your girls.”
He paused, blinking and leaning back, looking up at you carefully. “You are pretty, you’ve always been. Always too good for me.”
You had paused, breath caught in your throat, the emotions so thick you could hardly stand him in that moment. “Why did you do all this?”
He was quiet, looking down, but you had taken his chin in your hand, looking down into pretty blue eyes full of pain, full of self loathing. “I wanted you to have your own choice – and you got it.”
You laughed, shaking your head at him. “But we… you had… this, is it just physical to you?”
“If it was – it would be fucking easy,” he murmured, a hushed, angry whisper hot against your lips. “I wish that I just wanted to fuck you, and that’s all it was – not the torture you put me through.”
“Me torturing you!?” You laughed then, a mean little one that has his brows lowered, eyes narrowed, fingers pressing in the curve of your waist until you cry out softly. Satoru sat up straighter, tugging you against his chest. “That’s insane, do you know what you fucking did to me?”
“If you were smart, you’d leave me for Sukuna,” you slapped him, a harsh, loud little sound that had him turning his head, the red blossoming. “You wouldn’t let me touch you at all. You wouldn’t look at me the way you do.”
“I am smart, thank you very fucking much – I’m only dumb when it comes to…” You had trailed off then. “Whatever the fuck this is.”
You couldn’t say the words, the ones trapped in your throat – You love him, and you hate him.
So fucking much.
“You’re such a mean little girl with me,” he says, laughing now, the sound bitter as he pins you against him, taking your wrists and pressing them behind your back, taking you over. “So sweet with your ‘Kuna’ though, yeah?”
“He’s sweet to me,” Satoru had pouted, you’d itched to smack him again, enjoying the red on his cheek.
“I could be sweet to you,” he’d kissed up your jaw, lips brushing your ear until you had trembled, cunt slick underneath your panties like a betrayal. “If you’d ever let me be, but it’s too late, isn’t it?”
“The only one who keeps saying it’ll end is you,” you blinked hot tears, his sigh tickling your skin. “You wanted it to end before it started.”
“Do you really wanna know what I feel, sweetheart? Could you actually even handle hearing it?”
You had said nothing, letting him keep your arms pinned, as he had pulled back and looked at you desperately, sighing and using his other hand to grip under your chin, fingers on either side of your windpipe. The limo wasparked, but you had sat there longer than you should have, as Satoru again tore you into pieces by merely existing in your atmosphere.
The thoughts of that are rampant, the way his hand is on your waist tonight, as you both mingle – seeing your parents, seeing the press out front. Satoru dances with you tonight, even as you glare up at him, he doesn’t look at another – a stark contrast from the first time you danced.
With his fingers glistening with another woman.
You haven’t forgotten – no, you remember it all. Yet with every dip and move, every spin and hold, every murmur in your ear and brush against your skin, you feel his desire. You feel the want, the need – so desperate from him, even if he hasn’t said the words like Sukuna did.
I’d tell them you died.
Sukuna was insane – but you loved him for it.
Satoru was damaged – and you still love him.
Even if you can’t say those damn words to Gojo, scared to give him that power, terrified to hurt again and more afraid to hurt him and Sukuna – they’re there, when Sukuna had asked you.
What do you feel for Gojo?
What did you feel, besides split in half – two versions of you love two different men, and the love is different, it’s not stronger for one or the other. Just because Sukuna’s seemed easier, it didn’t make it less – and just because the hatred for Satoru lingered, didn’t mean you loved him less.
You’re lost in thought as Satoru has to mingle, and you’re sipping on a bubbly glass of champagne, when something grips your wrist, and the drops glitter onto the tile floor below. You gasp out at it, blinking rapidly, and you look up to see your mother, dragging you as far away as she can, the glass falling to the ground in the haste, crashing and splitting into pieces.
“Mother… I…”
“Shut your mouth,” she has you in a quiet hall, out of sight – and you feel so small then, like you always did.
No matter how much love you felt, no matter how strong Sukuna tries to make you, every memory of her punishment leaves you stuck, unable to move, like your feet were glued to the very floor in those pretty heels.
You still were afraid of her.
“What is it?” You try to hold it together, and she laughs – a mean, sharp sound.
“You think everyone didn’t see you at that match?” Your mother leans low towards you, her jaw setting.
“I just…”
“Slut,” her words are sharp, they slap you hard – so hard you struggle to get it together at all. “I can’t believe Gojo deals with you.”
“You have no clue about our relationship,” you whisper now, as her hand tightens on your wrist, her manicured nails pressing in. “You don’t know anything about me or Satoru.”
“I know he lets you fuck the town, hmm?” You laugh sharply, shaking your head. “You’re not worthy of someone like him – but even you shouldn’t sink as low as Ryomen Sukuna.”
“Are you mad that he beat dad up? Ah,” she smacks you then with a quick movement of her hand, and you tremble as the pain hits, stinging your cheeks with this brutal, lingering burn.
“Shut up you stupid little bitch,” your nails press into your palms, trying to tug away from her. “Just because Gojo deals with you for now, doesn’t mean you won’t become our problem when he kicks you aside. The shame you’ll bring to us.”
The truth of that does hit – at some point, Satoru was ending the marriage, whether you two were like before – hating each other, or now…
What were you now?
Now he had been inside you, all your holes had been full of his cum, and he’d kissed you in ways he shouldn’t have. Offering a position at his company, even, meant perhaps he’d push it off a bit, mitigate the damage of such a quick divorce, his thought process must also be skewed with everything.
Yet the pain of thinking of never seeing him again fills you, this dread in the pit of your stomach growing, you can’t handle it suddenly, as much as you wanted to leave him before, now everything has changed. There were too many moments, too much between you for you not to be sad when the day comes, even though you will have Sukuna.
You love two men, and the ways they make you feel are completely different – submissive and sweet with Sukuna, dominant and bratty with Satoru, both of them pulling these things out of you that you never knew were there, that you never really acknowledged could exist. How could you have any semblance of a normal life when they’ve both crashed into you?
Now Satoru has forgone any other woman – when he doesn’t have to, but even now you catch sight of him walking by, his eyes immediately darting to your face, his jaw tensing. You step back just a bit and your mom steps forward, not noticing Satoru walking up behind her.
You give an imperceptible shake of your head, as if to stop him, when she takes that wrong, raising her hand again for Satoru to grip her wrist, halting her.
“Excuse me!? I,” she looks back now and pales visibly– she surely thought the two of you were all alone over here. “I was…”
“Get. Your. Hands. Off her.” Satoru's words are quiet, this faint blue vein pressing from his temple.
“I simply am looking out for your reputation,” she says, letting him lower her hand. “She was seen at that boxing match.”
“Seen what, enjoying it? Enjoying boxing?”
“That will never do, and what is with this talk of her working?!”
“She wants to,” Satoru looks at you now, his smile sad. “If she wants to work, why can't she?”
“Not at the gym!”
“Then she can work part-time with me too,” he says smoothly, laughing softly now. “I am in need of an assistant.”
****
Satoru
It takes everything in Gojo not to kill your mother, not to act up and ruin her life, for hitting your pretty face. He can hardly hold himself together, seeing the surprise on your face, expecting a no. Expecting anything other than the relief in your face, how you clutch at your dress so tightly, reminding him of the night your dad split your lip.
He should have been the one to beat him.
“I could do that,” you say now – surprising him more. Your mom sighs, pinching the bridge of her nose. “Surely that would look good? Me working with the Gojo corp?”
She looks at Satoru, who tugs you against him, wrapping an arm around your waist, feeling the tenseness of your body, how you tremble – why couldn’t he have protected you then, at their house? Why couldn’t he have done more, why did he let you alone with them?
He barely knew you then – but the writing was on the wall, if they treated you like this in public…
What had they done in private?
“Keep your gym job a secret, then,” she orders, you quietly nod. “Gojo is better than you deserve. What a waste of-”
“Why don’t you stop talking to my fucking wife that way?” Satoru cuts her off, and her lips close. “The only waste is you, here, waste of my fucking time.”
“Gojo, surely you-”
“Get away from her, and don’t let me fucking see you or your shit husband anywhere near her,” she steps back. “Go.”
She scoffs and stomps off, leaving you alone with Satoru, when he holds your face gingerly, wincing as he sees her ring left a mark. “You didn’t have to do any of that, Satoru.”
“I should have done more that night,” you go to disagree, but he cuts you off, kissing your lips, feeling you melt for him in a way you shouldn’t. Yet here you are, going weak in his hold. “I won’t let them hurt you.”
You sniffle, dragging him down for a kiss, he stumbles over to the wall, pressing you against it, sliding a possessive hand over your waist, tongue slipping in, taking over your mouth. You just cry out, in a way that has him ready to ruin you right against this wall, uncaring of anyone – other than he didn’t want anyone to even see you like that.
He already had to share you with one person.
“Fuck, forget this,” you say then, and he frowns, as you tug him by his tie, glaring at him. “I love you.”
He blinks then, words stuck in his throat. “Forget it?”
“Forget it,” you say again, he glares, kissing you and picking you up, until you’re in a bathroom, facing a mirror, him turning you so you can see him behind you. “Satoru we… can’t, we…”
“Forget it?” He says again, laughing darkly, kissing up your neck, wrapping an arm as he presses you against the marble counter. “You want me to fucking forget that you just said that?”
“Yes,” your eyes flutter shut, and Satoru bites your shoulder so hard it hurts. “Ah! You dick!”
“Do you not mean it?” He asks, voice a breathy little moan. “Open your eyes and fucking look at me.”
“I shouldn’t,” you do focus, then, your pretty eyes dark – pupils wide, as the words play over and over in his mind. “I shouldn’t say that.”
“You shouldn’t love me,” his voice breaks before he can stop it, sliding your dress up achingly slowly, pressing against you, feeling you tremble. “You know you shouldn’t.”
“Shut up, Satoru,” you turn your face, still reddened from your mother. “You act like I want to feel this way about you.”
“I know you don’t, sweetheart,” he says softly, hitching your thigh up over the counter, fingertips sliding along the slit of your panties, watching your head fall back against his chest. “You hate that you do.”
“Just fuck me,” you whisper, gasping out as he tugs your panties aside, and you’re already dripping wet. “Shut up and fuck me.”
Satoru eyes you levelly in the mirror instead, sinking two fingers inside your needy cunt, the one that is already gripping him, tacky walls so tight. “I can’t forget that. I won’t.”
“You have to…”
“No,” he sighs, inhaling your scent, his eyes catching yours in the mirror, moving his fingers inside you faster, watching you start to fall apart.
How could Satoru ever forget those words?
When he shouldn’t have ever gotten them? When he’s never gotten them in his entire life?
An ‘I love you’ from the one person who should hate him the most.
How can he forget, just fuck you, when he has to have you– possess you, take you over, in a way that’s insanity, in a way that has him whispering things he never fucking thought he would – your name, with a little laugh, over and over. He keeps repeating it softly, fingers plunging in and out of you – everything forgotten but this one singular moment.
Where he whispers those three words right back in your ear.
“I’ll take my time…” He says, laughing again, moaning as he feels you gushing, tightening up. “Savor every moment of you that I get.”
you've been set to marry the new emperor Satoru Gojo, but he wants nothing to do it, he doesn't even come to your first meeting! No, he must bathe with his concubines, but when he sees you for the first time and doesn't even know you're his wife? Everything shifts. Leaving your past love behind and everything you know for a foreign country, just to be unwanted by your new 'husband' is almost enough to break you. You're ready to go through the motions, play your role, but do you really know who Emperor Gojo is? Can both of you find an agreement or love - and once you do, how do you be just one of his women?
pairings- emperor! gojo x arranged empress! reader
contents/warnings - Historically INNACURATE, enemies to lovers, mutual pining, smut, court tactics, reader missing her lover Suguru, drama, he falls first and he falls hard. This chap - a lot of emotions and angst, past loves, Suguru in his regret arc, cute, down bad Satoru - he is SO IN LOVE. No smut, mentions of pregnancy, mentions of violence, say hi to Jin Shi too!!
A/N - I made this one a little shorter so I can actually start putting these out again more regularly, 10k plus is a little fkn daunting ahh! We have three more chapters to wrap these cuties up. Ty for everyone who was so patient!
art is by @3-aem they're insanely talented 🥹
part seven - playlist - masterlist - part nine (soon)
part eight
“Are you sure you’re all right?” Satoru asks you the next morning – Lola is locked up and so is Suguru, down in the dungeons.
Satoru wants them both dead, however he needs Suguru alive for just a bit.
Your dumb fucking Knight.
He looks at you carefully, his baby blue eyes flickering against your skin, you’re still not fully your normal color, paled just a bit, he pauses – brushing a lock of your hair back as you walk to him. “Should you even be up?”
“I will go insane laying in bed all day,” you sway just a bit, his hand coming to grip your waist, leaning down and kissing the top of your head.
“Foolish girl, can’t even stand up,” he clicks his tongue, you rest your head against his chest, hugging him tightly around his waist, yawning just a bit. “Go back to sleep.”
“I must see what is going on,” your mind races – a million thoughts abound, wondering just what exactly had transpired.
It was only bits and pieces.
The emperor sighs, shaking his head as he buries his face against your neck, he’s exhausted, too. He barely got a bit of sleep before convening with the barrister, holding an emergency meeting of his council due to Lola’s return, and the poisoning of his Empress. The one in his arms, so very weak – but she is alive.
“I hated leaving the bed,” he admits softly, brushing your hair back, his nose nuzzling the crook of your neck, inhaling again, like he can’t get enough of you. “I was so fucking scared that…”
“I am here, Emperor,” you whisper, tears stinging your eyes. “I am feeling mostly back to normal, I promise.”
“And has there been any…” He trails off, unable to finish, feeling you tense just a bit, pulling back to look up at him, as he cups your face.
“No,” you whisper – knowing his question without him asking.
Blood.
Has there been any blood?
Were you still pregnant?
“None at all?” He asks, swallowing visibly, his eyes burning, dark circles marring his otherwise perfect complexion. You grip his wrist gently, shaking your head.
“None at all, Toru,” he exhales in relief, though he doesn’t want to get too excited – you still had been poisoned, even with Mao’s quick work of it. “I am going to get checked in a bit, I just… wanted to know about… her.”
“Lola?” He says it like a curse word – it is one, truly. You nod. “She’s locked up for the moment, but she won’t live to see the week.”
“Toru, should you truly-”
“I will kill her,” he cuts you off, ever so quiet, tilting your chin. “For everything she fucking did. Don’t you try to talk me out of it.”
“And… Sir Geto?”
He sighs, shaking his head. “I need his testimony, so I offered a deal – you can decide his fate. I’m sure you’d be a little more kind to that man than I would be.”
You go to open your mouth, when the door opens, and advisor Ijichi comes in, pushing up his monocle, smiling with relief as he sees you. “My Empress, it’s so good to see you awake.”
“Ijichi,” you rush up and hug him, making the man blush. “I heard you carried me to safety, yes?”
“Of course I did, it was no bother,” he’s a flustered mess, Satoru can’t help but laugh softly at the sight of him awkwardly patting your back. “I come bearing some news for you both.”
“I’m listening,” Satoru’s hand doesn’t leave the small of your back, the warmth seeping through your layers, your silk underlayers, your pretty dress, one that Satoru’s mom had made for you.
You couldn’t help but love the little touches of home with the added lace, the billowing sleeves. You love her so very much, she had checked on you much this morning, and you hated that she was worried like that over you – though perhaps no one went through as much as Satoru that night, from what you heard.
‘It was terrible,’ she had said, sniffling – usually a formidable woman, she was vulnerable laying next to you in the bed as you’d brushed her hair back. ‘You shouldn’t be comforting me!’
‘I put you both through a fright,’ she had sighed, snuggling up, the infamous Gojo strands much like her son’s. One would almost think her as a sister, she still looked so very young and lovely, even with reddened eyes. ‘How bad was it for him? I hope he did not…’
‘Lose it completely?’ You nodded, swallowing. ‘I thought I’d lose him and you together with how he acted.’
‘Mama Gojo, do not say that,’ your heart ached then. ‘I cannot have him hurting himself over me.’
‘I was terrified,’ she had swiped her eyes, shaking her head and exhaling. ‘I am also scared of… if you’re…’
‘We weren’t sure if I was pregnant completely, yet,’ you tried to smile, but it fell flat. ‘I will get checked soon.’
‘If anything happens to that baby, I’ll kill-’
‘Mama Gojo!’
She had been very serious.
To think of what Satoru went through while you were unconscious breaks your heart, you only know a bit, likely to not upset you further. But you feel it, how tightly he’s holding you, like he can’t stand to pull away – and you don’t want him to, you want to be locked right in his embrace for as long as you could be.
“Sir Geto would like to talk to the Empress alone,” Satoru scoffs, and you can’t help but tense up. “I told him you would not allow such a thing, but even so – if you did, I would go down with her as protection.”
“Fuck him, I should put him out to be hung,” he curses, holding you so tight you wince, making him pause. “I’m sorry, sweetheart.”
“You’re all right, Toru,” you smile reassuringly. “I don’t think Geto would hurt me if I-”
“He almost killed you!?”
“That was Lola,” you mumble, Satoru laughs again, a psychotic sound, as if he was actively losing it, brushing a hand through his hair until it’s a mess. “I’m not saying he isn’t to blame, but there are a couple questions I need answered before you throw him out of a tower window.”
“He’ll splatter so lovely,” Satoru says, longingly – you giggle a little, shaking your head at him. “No?”
“I have some things I really need to know…” He knows what you mean, the past you had shared and just how much of that was questionable, how much did Suguru lie to you over the years?
He got the note when they confiscated everything Suguru had, but he has not brought it up to you, not yet. Not realizing how horrible he made you feel when you first got there, how lonely and hopeless – he’d read it several times just this morning as you slept, restless, tossing and turning in the bed as he sat at that desk.
He doesn’t know how to bring it up, to apologize – you surely must think he’d be furious about it, but he is not.
Of course you missed home during that time, and the perceived ‘perfection’ of Suguru and the comforts of a place you grew up in.
“Then I shall allow you to have your moments alone,” you hug him tightly, letting him brush back your hair. “Kiyo will stay close to the door.”
“You may as well, Toru… I just…”
“No, I realize there is much to be said,” he sighs now, chin resting on your head. “I’m so very exhausted.”
“As am I, I just wish we could…”
“Yes,” he grimaces now. “I also must speak to the little murderous harlot.”
“You’re going to kill her!”
“I am.”
“You must let it go to the council,” you chide, staring into narrowed blue eyes. “It’s our best chance to rid ourselves of the concubines altogether.”
“She is correct,” Ijichi chides, and Satoru looks at him over your head. “The royal advisor Jinshi has offered his advice to you, your excellence.”
“No calling me that when it’s just us,” Satoru waves his hand, Ijichi can’t stop his blush, you giggle at how cute it is.
“Master Gojo, then.”
“Call him Toru!”
“I didn’t say that familiar!?”
“Toru is cute,” you pinch his cheek, he snorts and smacks your hand off his cheek playfully. “I hear this advisor is very important, and from what I can tell, versed in politics very much. He would be good to convene with, yes?”
“Indeed,” Satoru sighs a little dramatically, though. “I never get enough time alone with my bride.”
“We shall have much time, very soon. Hmm?” You’re running your hands up his chest, his voice drops to a murmur.
“Not until you’re all better, you bratty empress.”
You pout up at him.
“You were just poisoned.”
“I know! A little bit.”
“A little!?”
“Ahem,” Ijichi reminds you both of his presence, waving his hand again at the two of you. “We have much to do, you two. I will not leave her alone for a moment, I promise you this time.”
“Oh Ijichi,” you walk over to him, taking his hand. “You did nothing wrong that night, I was in my room.”
“I still…”
“You helped save me,” you smile reassuringly, watching him relax his shoulders just a little bit at your words. You look back at your husband, leaned against the wall with his arms crossed under those gold silk robes. “We will make sure to have dinner tonight, alone, and take a bath together. Won’t we, Toru?”
“I can’t handle a bath like…” He doesn’t say it all – but you grin, as if you know he’d be tortured, unable to not have his cock buried inside of you.
It’s been weeks.
Yet you just had a terrible thing happen, and he must be careful.
“Stop being so slutty in front of Ijichi.”
“Your Excellence! Do not speak of the Empress this way!?”
“Indeed, do not!?” You stick out your tongue as you hook your arm through Ijichi’s, earning his glare. “Dinner, and then the bathhouse.”
“Go on, then,” you both walk together, but you can’t help but tense, as you look back at Satoru, turning and walking the opposite direction in the courtyard.
You never do get enough time with the man you love, and there is still so much to learn about each other, so much you must do together, speak of, work on. Yet all you want is to be in his arms, on his lap, kissing him until your head spins, and you’re dizzy, resting in the comfort you had missed so much.
When he turns a corner, his eyes catch yours, and you feel that weight in his gaze, that sad little smile, as if he’s dreading the day, too.
Yet, there is much hope for the two of you.
First, however? There was much to discuss with a couple of infiltrators.
******
The dungeons Satoru has Suguru locked up in are chilled, it’s utterly dark, every step down the spiraling stairs echoing with your heels clicking against them. Your heart is pounding, as Ijichi walks behind you, heading down first, holding his hand up for you to take with a nervous smile.
“Are you all right, my lady?”
“I am,” you assure him, but his concern lingers. “Say it, then.”
He sighs. “You’re doing too much for just having been poisoned, the state you were in was…”
“I swear I feel fine, whatever the pretty girl Maomao gave me worked wonders,” you try again to calm him, but you see his judgement even in the dark, with the little lanterns hanging on the walls. “Truly!”
“Mmm,” you both keep walking. “You are stubborn like the Emperor.”
“That stubborn?”
“Mhm,” your lips quirk up. “It’s not funny, my lady. You know you both age me beyond my years!?”
“He did that before I came, and you’re most handsome, all mature,” he blushes even in the dark, guiding you down the hall now.
“Don’t use your charms, they won’t work today.”
“They always do.”
“Hmph,” your mood sobers up a bit as you catch sight of Suguru's cell at the end of the corridor, the only one bathed in the small lighting.
“Is Lola elsewhere?” You ask softly.
“She is.” Kiyotaka says nothing else, stopping then at the bars that block Suguru’s cell, taking a key and unlocking it.
Suguru sees the action immediately, and stands as your footsteps approach – the heavy chains around his wrists and ankles rattling just a bit. His fine knightly gear is all gone, replaced by a basic white tunic, that dark hair – usually so perfect, is thrown up in a messy pony tail. Those eyes that were the last thing you saw before you fainted, have dark circles underneath them, like he hasn’t slept.
"Princess..." he begins, seeing Kiyotaka and clearing his throat, correcting himself with a ghost of a smile. "Empress, I mean.”
“Indeed…” You let Kiyotaka open the door now, stepping inside, peeking back at him. “I will be all right, Kiyo. Promise.”
“One touch on her hair,” Ijichi warns, Suguru sighs.
“I would not hurt her,” the tension is palpable when he steps back, giving you some privacy alone in the cell, when so many emotions rush through, you’re shaking, hands trembling.
“I don’t know whether to speak or smack you,” you admit, laughing without any real humor, as he frowns. “Or punch you. Or kick your dick.”
“Kick my dick?” He raises a brow, and you shove at him, tears already forming in your eyes, but he lets you. He lets you shove him, stumbling back when a big man like him never would, taking your hand on his chest to pause you. “I suppose I deserve much worse.”
“You deserve the worst, and Satoru will give you no mercy unless I ask,” you shut your eyes, feeling the tears slip from your eyes. “I should not, either.”
“I never imagined..." Suguru trails off, his voice breaking in the middle, hand hovering like he might cup your face.
Your jaw sets. "Never imagined what, Suguru? That I'd see you here? Or that you'd help try to kill me?"
He falters now, stepping back a bit as if slapped, but he doesn’t release your wrists until you yank them back, clutching your hands into fists, pulse racing so quickly you feel dizzy.
"Never that.” That dark amethyst gaze locks onto yours – so exhausted, so beyond dark, the intensity making you tense up.
“Oh, never that, hmm?”
"I started under false pretenses,” you scoff at that. “Yes, I did initially – try to be everything and anything you could love.”
The pain hits so hard you can’t breathe.
Though you were in love with Satoru – so fucking in love, it didn’t erase the years of being ‘with’ Suguru, your knight by your side, promising to be with you even as you were just a young child. The hurt knowing that you were just a part of some bigger scheme didn’t go away, and you need that closure, truly.
Even if it’s painful.
“I’d like to know about it more, just exactly your plan – would you be honest with me?” He nods, tugging out one of the old wooden chairs in the cell, where there lay parchment paper and pens.
“Please sit.”
“Fine,” you mumble, seeing your name scrawled on several crumbled sheets of paper, making your eyes burn with tears. “Will you even tell the truth?”
“I won't lie to you again.”
“How long?”
He sits across from you, rubbing the back of his neck, eyes shutting. In the darkness, he does not look as imposing as you’re used to.
He looks tired.
“I was put there when I met you, to slowly gather intel against the royal family -”
“My family!”
“Your family made how many people starve?” His words are sharp, he appears to regret them when you jerk back as if slapped. “I mean not you – the royals in general, they care not for anyone but themselves.”
“I cared, I was just… not in power. How often did I take the unfortunate food, clothing? How often did I sneak out for you to find me?”
“You’re different,” he cups your face, sighing now. “I knew you were different, even more so to try to get you to my side. You were the perfect pawn.”
A pawn.
You knew it, but it didn’t lessen the blow.
“But then..." He swallows hard, his Adam's apple bobbing. "Then I watched you, got to really know you. Intimately.”
“Indeed,” you blush furiously, gripping your gown so tightly the fabric crumples underneath your touch. “In ways you should have never been in such falsehood.”
“My desire for you was not false,” you hate Suguru in that moment, even if he’s being truthful, the pain is bitter as it washes through you until you’re sick. “You think I didn’t want you?”
“To get some sick revenge on my parents, perhaps.” His jaw locks as you lower his hand from your face. “You should not have stolen my first kiss, touched me … you should not have.”
“I know that, I was supposed to do worse.”
“Worse!?” You practically hiss the damn word. “Worse?”
“Much worse, to you and many others,” he leans back now, shaking his head. “It was not just you that I have had to play to get intel, to try to take over.”
“I see, one of many? That’s what those kisses meant, those fucking words?”
His brows draw together, pain written on his face. “I’ll never forgive myself for it… but I did want you. None of that was pretend, how I touched you, kissed you… I fell in love with you.”
“What lies, hah,” you feel bile rise in your throat.
“Truly. I still am in love, fuck even more than before."
Tears prick at your eyes and begin to swim, until his very image is utterly blurred. "You loved me enough to let Lola poison me? To use me as a weapon in your pathetic war against royals?"
“I wanted you by my side.”
“And with Satoru, hmm?”
"I was an idiot," he whispers, his fingers surprisingly gentle as they brush a stray tear from your cheek, you tremble with your anger. "Jealous, dumb fucking idiot.. I hated him for having you so easily, for forgetting me.”
“I did not, I kept… I kept that necklace, I kept the pin, I cared so much I did not even let myself feel anything. For what!? For a fake love.”
“It was not.”
“Then you so easily just let Lola in? You truly had no inkling she would try to harm me?”
“I don't know what I thought, but I never imagined she'd go this far. I swear it." He leans his forehead against yours, his breath against your skin, in a familiar way he should have never done with you. “I never wanted you at risk. I wanted to bring you back with me.”
“And do what to my parents, Suguru?”
He’s quiet again.
That tells you all you need to know.
“I get that royalty has its problems, I know I’m naive about the state of the world, but to use me after knowing me so long…” Your tears fall freely now. “I was worthy of some respect.”
“You were worth much more than I could ever give,” you take a breath and lean back again, hands clutching and unclutching once more, his eyes darting to the action. “You always did that when you were nervous.”
“Stop acting so familiar,” you stand now, shaking.
"Kill me now if you must… I'd die by your hand," you look at him now, feeling the emotions hitting so hard.
Even though he had done something so dangerous, so foolish…
You could not kill him.
“That would be your easy way out,” you say instead, shaking your head as he tugs you to him, taking one of your hands and putting it on his chest. A stream of memories hit, but they’re different now.
There isn’t that longing anymore, and there’s hardly any anger, no yearning for the girl that you were, and how simple things ‘were’. No, you are not that young Princess now, even though it’s been a short time, under Satoru you have grown much – you are completely different, in fact, with him.
In the best and worst ways.
You are different because of Satoru, a part of you that loved Suguru is in there somewhere, but she is in your past, left with a girl who can’t help but feel somewhat terrible for what he’s in. It’s not truly his own doing, and you understand the cause, but he had so callously and coldly not cared for you enough to even let you in on it.
“Would you have understood?” He asks now. “You, a young princess?”
“I may have if you gave me a chance,” he leans down and presses his kiss against your brow, a farewell that you allow him.
“He got that letter even though I did not give it to him,” you suck in a breath, gaze matching his. “I did not want to cause discourse, but they took it all from me.”
“He saw it…” Your eyes close. “I will speak to him.”
“He is so in love with you,” Suguru laughs, shaking his head. “I almost like that pretentious man, fuck him.”
“Well in another life, if you weren’t so terrible, maybe you’d have been friends,” you whisper, letting him press another kiss on your temple, lingering for a moment. “I shall not have you killed.”
“You should, by all means, have me killed. I already told everything about your parents, there is no-”
“I will not,” you correct, firmer this time – and Suguru sees you then.
Chin up, stubborn set to it, your hands little fists at your sides as you eye him.
You’re every bit an Empress now.
“Why?” He asks softly, watching your face and wishing he could fix it – fix everything, but he knows this kindness is already more than he deserves.
His letters that he keeps writing come out wrong, but mostly, all he can think over and over, is that you’ll be his biggest regret, yet in ways he is glad you have your emperor, that you two found love. A bittersweet taste left in his mouth as he studies you even more seriously, exhaling.
“You should have me killed for what I did, or could have done,” his eyes can’t help but flicker to your stomach. “No, I don’t want to live with what I may have done to you.”
“Well I do not know yet what has happened,” you touch your stomach, praying that the news will be good. “You don’t get the easy way out, Suguru Geto. You’ll pay back in service to the Emperor, and you’ll gladly do it.”
“You really think he’ll ever want me to?”
“Shitty service, the most dangerous situations – I’ll send you off to the ends of the bloody Earth for a flower if I want,” his lips twitched. “You’ll be in full service to the Emperor, and mean your damn vows this time. If things work out, and those girls can leave, I would be appreciative enough not to kill you.”
“He only wants you.”
You blush now. “I know.”
“As he should,” you step back, and he steps forward. “I am so, so fucking sorry I put you in danger.”
“I’m more mad you wanted to hurt my husband,” you admit. “Not me.”
“But I-”
“I cannot live in a world where he doesn't exist,” he pauses, and says nothing else, as Kiyotaka comes and unlocks the heavy iron gates, and you look back at him. “If you succeeded, you would have truly killed me.”
His hands grip the bars, head leaning against the cool metal.
He watches you walk off, going back over to his table, grabbing the pen and dipping it in the ink.
He thinks he knows the words to say, now.
*****
"Your Majesty," Jin Shi begins, his lavender hair damn near glittering as he sits in front of Emperor Gojo’s desk.
“Why is your hair so damn pretty!?”
He laughs now, shrugging a shoulder, his voice much like the Emperor’s – Satoru saw everyone fucking swooning over him. “I suppose it’s the shampoo bars I use.”
“I’ll have them imported,” Satoru grumbles, sighing then. “Forgive me, I know we are here for serious matters.”
“Indeed we are,” he smiles then. “Mao Mao tells me your Empress is still very much with child.”
“She…”
“You did not…” He trails off, frowning then, but Satoru puts his head in his hands for a moment, sighing. “I thought you knew.”
“I haven’t gotten to see my wife most of the day,” he admits. “With Lola, the council, the barrister… you. I have not had a moment.”
“I see…”
“No, no, that makes me…” Satoru grins, all dopey now. “So fucking happy.”
Jin Shi laughs softly, leaning back in his chair and crossing his legs, Miwa comes in and damn near has her eyes pop out of their sockets, almost dropping the tea tray. “Hi there.”
“H-hello!?”
“As if you don’t see a gorgeous man daily, tch,” Satoru crosses his arms, watching Jin Shi smile at her, and he swears the girl almost falls.
What sort of effect was he having on Satoru’s subjects!?
Wasn’t he a eunuch?
“S-sorry, your excellence! I… do you require anything…”
“This is great, thank you,” she giggles and prances away, Jin Shi and Satoru sip the tea, sighing at the same time. "With the empress carrying your heir, the threat has never been more real.”
“It’s very true,” Satoru says quietly, the thoughts that life still flutters in your tummy making him ache to hold you.
Kiss you.
All over.
Fuck, imagining you in the baths later has him…
Focus.
“The council is reeling, news has even spread,” Jin Shi continues. “Lola's actions have proven that the concubines, in your case, are a threat to the empire, considering what she could have done. No matter how high ranking, she does not compete with the standing of the Empress.”
“So you think I’ll have a chance to get rid of all of them?” Satoru asks hopefully, Jin Shi nods.
“I do. The people will support it after this attempt on their Empress' life, and the council will have no choice but to agree. They will see it as necessary for stability and the safety of the royal line, though I can’t say the practice altogether would cease in your future heirs."
“I want daughters,” Satoru admits, grinning again and swirling the tea in the pretty cup around. “I want many, many little mini Empress’ running about.”
“You are so in love I’m sickened,” comes MaoMao, leaning in the doorway with her arms crossed, with you behind her. “Ew.”
“You lack romance, tch,” Jin Shi tells her, she rolls her green eyes, shaking her head and crossing her arms, walking alongside you as you both enter the office, shutting the door behind you.
Your eyes meet his, and he can feel that mix – the pain, the worry, the happiness, the love.
He feels all of it – all of you.
“Satoru,” you rush to him without thinking of the audience, and he tugs you right on his lap, kissing you deeply, the other two blushing at the sight of such blatant affection.
“My Empress,” he murmurs, inhaling your scent and burying his face against your neck. “I have no patience for formalities, I miss you too badly.”
“I miss you so badly,” you whisper back, hugging him tightly, letting him put a hand on your tummy. “I am still…”
“I heard,” his grin is huge and bright, melting you. “I am so fucking excited.”
“I am too!” Jin Shi and Mao Mao stand now, and your eyes catch theirs, seeing their smiles on their faces.
“I’ll help as much as I can while I’m here,” Jin Shi says with a bow. Mao Mao inclines her head as well.
“As will I.”
“I have no way to thank you enough for saving her,” Satoru’s hand grips your waist tightly, the emotion rushing in his voice.
“I am glad to see such love,” she says, and clearly the advisor agrees, leaving the two of you alone. It’s moments before Satoru’s kissing you, having you sitting right across his lap, fingers mapping your skin, committing it to memory.
“I fucking missed you,” he murmurs. “I hate not seeing you all day.”
“I know, soon things will calm down. I hope,” your hand sits over his, a pretty grin on your face. “A baby.”
“A baby,” he kisses down your neck, and your lashes flutter, shifting in a way that has him throbbing. “Don’t move like that, mngh…”
“C-can’t help it,” you admit, your hand entangling in his silky white locks, tugging ever so gently, he practically purrs, earning your giggle. “We have much to speak of, I believe, before we get to really enjoy ourselves.”
Satoru leans back a bit, his eyes that pretty clear blue, nodding now. “We do have much to speak of, sweetheart. But first? I’d like more kisses.”
His lips descend back on yours, stealing your breath – with much left to worry for – Lola, Suguru, the council, a healthy pregnancy – the most important thing was right here. Being in Satoru’s arms, and enjoying every little kiss, before more serious talks had to occur, before you got to just enjoy your husband in the baths, enjoy him all to yourself soon.
Yet for now, this kiss steals every thought in both your minds.
on your first date, kirishima takes you out to dinner. after an hour in, you already know.
you want this man.
you want to see him for a second, a third, a tenth date.
and the way he hasn’t looked away from you once the entire night. the way he smiles, shy, when your hands touch. the way he laughs at all your dumb jokes, not all of them funny.
the way, when you cross your legs under the table, a foot coming to rest against his calf, he flushes a pretty pink and his eyes meet yours as a flicker of unmistakable want darkens them.
consensual somnophilia with bf bakugou. he feels a little weird about the idea of it, even if it was your idea in the first place.
but any lingering guilt is lost the first time he gets home from an overnight patrol shift to find you asleep on your stomach, sheets pooled at your thighs, naked save for a pair of white cotton panties. when he tugs them to the side to find leftover traces of your arousal still slick and wet around your entrance. when you sigh a little as he gently plays with your slit.
when you moan softly in your sleep when he sinks his cock right in, your cunt hot and tight as he lowers his body on top of yours and thrusts slow and deep till he spills rope after rope of cum inside of you.
You're married to Satoru Gojo - an arrangement since your childhood, one you're so excited for. You soon find out - he wants nothing to do with you. Any one is preferable, from the waitress at your engagement party, to his secretary. Torn apart by insecurities and devastated by the fact that you can't make this one sided affection work, you decide to find something to keep you going until Gojo finds a way to end the marriage. That's what lands you right in the notorious boxing ring in town - led by Ryomen Sukuna, who finally sees you.
pairings - Nepo baby! Gojo x Reader x Boxer! Sukuna
warnings!!! - oral ( f receiving) cum eating, fingering, rough sex, semi-public sex, lots of emotions, lots of filth - obsessed Satoru and Sukuna, both men wanna breed reader, throuple vibes, messy ass fucking dynamics, angst, feelings, creampies, spitting, fingering, crying, multi rounds, choking, rough sex and light bondage (think I got most of it???) enjoyyy - 10.2k
a/n - I was so glad to get back to this, idk how many ppl will see since I'm marked mature </3 butttt enjoy if you get to!
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part seven
You
Watching Sukuna fight was intense.
It was insane as you sit there in the audience, watching him punch, using every move you’ve learned and many you haven’t even scratched the surface of yet – with the cheers, the crowd going insane for him. You are towards the front where he wanted you, just a little secluded as you watch him move, surprisingly light on his feet for just how huge Sukuna was.
He floated across that ring, beating the day lights out of the poor damn fool that thought they could compete. Sukuna mostly just trained, but he decided to join one. You weren't sure if it was to just beat someone up for his own frustration, or if Sukuna genuinely missed the ring.
Maybe a bit of both.
His eyes catch you even across the entire crowded arena, his lips quirking up. He swipes at his chin with the glove, letting someone dab his bloody eye for just a minute, covered in sweat. His black tattoos are just glimmering with sweat, shining under the light, you can feel your heart racing.
Part, worry.
Part, being utterly turned on in the worst possible way. You get a text from Satoru then, peeking at it.
Satoru - coming home tonight?
You - yes I will be. In a couple hours. You?
Satoru - yeah same. Is he coming to dinner again?
You giggle a bit.
What life were you living? It almost seemed absurd, like some sort of a fever dream. The way both men ate dinner together with you last night. Somehow talking and not killing each other despite how tense they both were near each other.
As if you were the unspoken agreement.
You know Sukuna wants you all to himself, but you also learn that Satoru wants more. He wants more time, he spends time trying to get to know you. It's intense, it's terrifying, everything about opening up to Satoru when you don't know if he is sincere.
Yet you couldn't help but smile when you text him back, cursing him internally then.
Fucking Satoru.
You - No, he has a lot to do. Want me to give him kisses for you?
Satoru - yes please, give him all my love <3
Life has gotten extremely interesting since the first time Sukuna fingered you on the counter, the first time Satoru sent the girls away – girls you have now grown in just a short time not to hate quite so much. Of course what they did was hurtful, and you resent them – but for Jennifer you already made a call and got her a position.
Sukuna thought it was pretty insane, but he supported it, Satoru didn’t even know just yet.
You - I’ll give him all your love.
Satoru - you’re a fucking brat, he’s right.
Maybe you are.
Sukuna slams his fist with a sickening crunch, drawing your attention right back to him, you watch as the man lays there, and the ref counts – one, two, three.
Knock out.
Sukuna’s hand is raised as you cheer with everyone, the sounds thunderous with just how famous Sukuna really was, you stand right with them, clapping and feeling his gaze locked on you, all sweaty, breathless, his chest rising and falling. You can’t help but feel concerned with just how beat up he is, but also…
Fuck he’s sexy.
Are you really some slutty little brat, after being a good girl for so very long?
It’s not long after you’re walking in that locker room – and it’s just Sukuna.
“You came, hmm?” Sukuna tilts his head, studying you in the locker room, bulb swinging overhead casting shadows as he leans back against the lockers on that bench, his thighs spread wide. “Did you like the show?”
You don’t answer him, still trembling as you see how many cuts and bruises he has, half his jaw is swelling, making your tummy clench with worry. You cross the small space, standing between those thighs, letting his hands – huge and calloused, knuckles all bloody – come up to frame your face, thumbs stroking your cheekbones almost gently.
That’s the thing about Sukuna – even when he’s brutal, even when he’s fucking you so hard it hurts – he’s gentle with you in ways you can’t express. With his gaze and his words, how he’ll talk you through everything, how he cradles your face even now like it’s so precious.
The duality of him versus Satoru is never ending.
Satoru was hardly rough with you the one time you were alone together, but there was an underlying desperation, yet he gripped your face differently, like he thought you’d slip away. Sukuna is just a little more gentle, like he gives you that option to pull back, knowing you don’t want to.
“Sukuna…” You murmur softly, sighing now, gripping his wrists. He smells intoxicating like this, that sweat fucking ruining your senses. It’s only been a couple days and you already crave him.
“Look at you,” he murmurs softly, his ruby eyes dark as they drink you in “All cute and worried for me, hmm?”
“Of course I am…” Sukuna leans forward, capturing your lips in a kiss that’s messy, needy as he tugs you close, muscled thighs on either side of you. “Mnh…
“Those sounds you make, fuck,” you can feel him shaking himself, taste the copppery hint of blood mixing with his saliva right as he licks into your open mouth, claiming it for his own.
“I should clean you up…” You whisper now, pulling back as his manager comes in, pausing at the sight of you two.
That’s when it hits you, how dangerous it is to be public with Sukuna – no, not everyone knew you, but enough people did. Luckily they just smile and hand you some antiseptic and a clean rag.
“Trust you’ll take care of him?”
“Absolutely,” you smile as they shut the door behind them, walking over to the counter for a moment with shaky hands, feeling him study you. “You did so good against him, Kuna. It was insane.”
“Yeah, it wasn't that hard,” you scoff, rolling your eyes and peeking back at him, smiling just a bit. “Worried about me, really? Six foot five, two hundred plus pounds of me?”
“Yes I worry…” You frown now, dabbing the antiseptic on the gauze and walking back over, pressing it to an open cut, making him suck in a breath. “Look, and you’re a big baby.”
“Tch, me a baby,” you giggle and he glares at you. “Such a brat.”
“You say that, but I think you are,” he rolls his eyes as you keep dabbing at the cuts, suddenly feeling it again.
Split into pieces.
It’s so easy here in his arms, it’s so perfect – isn’t that what love should be? Easy, effortless, perfect like you just fit – but then you feel horrible, knowing those feelings for Satoru exist. That they haven’t died when they should have, and no matter how much Sukuna lets you feel them, you hate them.
LIke a sickness for that man with the blue eyes who gets on his knees and begs to just taste you, the desperation in which he begged you just to say his name, it rings in your head as you think of last night. He had stood by your door for far, far too long, as if he may come lay down, but he held himself back, he stopped himself.
Did you want him to lay with you?
Maybe you did – and maybe you feel worse about it, as you clean your… boyfriend. Sukuna has become your boyfriend, even though you’re married, and even that seems like a word not good enough. Was there anything better than being like this with him, aside from when you had both of them on you?
“How was last night?” He asks, husky now.
“He just slept in his room,” your answer is quiet, cleaning up his cheek carefully, tilting your head just a bit and studying the red streak on his face. “He wasn’t happy about your video, no, but he didn’t say much.”
“Surprised he didn’t beg to lick my cum out,” you scoff and roll your eyes at him. “Didn’t fuck him last night?”
“Not after we were… no, Sukuna, haven’t talked much to him today,” he hums, his hands slipping up your waist, lips pressing along your collarbone. Your hand entangles in his messy pink hair – damp with sweat, sighing a bit. “Would it make you upset if I had?”
“Him getting any part of you is insane considering he doesn’t deserve shit, but no. I would never be upset at you,” he grips you tighter. “Wanna fuck thoughts of him away though? Wanna pump you full of me instead? Yeah.”
“Kuna… when you talk that way…”
“You’re wet, hmm? Pretty lil girl, so slutty for me,” you tremble when he stands, hauling you up in his arms like it’s nothing, kissing you again, over and over. “Did that fight have you wet?”
“Yes,” you whisper, letting him set you down, he moans, spinning you around so that your hands brace against the cold metal of the lockers. He shoves your skirt up, spreading your thighs to find you over your panties, damp already from need. “Kuna!”
“Miss me already, brat?” He whispers, yanking them aside as he lifts you up, the heels you’re in making it just enough for him to bend down and plunge two fingers in your messy cunt. You can feel the heat of his body pressing against your back, feel him taking you over.
“Yes, Kuna,” he moans, teeth sinking into your neck, fingers buried knuckles deep, your plump pussy lips gripping him so good he moans out even louder. “W- want you.”
“Want me to fuck you right here?” he whispers those words, breath ghosting against your ear, tickling it, making you tremble. “Gonna fuck so many kids into you, would you want that, brat? All my babies inside, not his?”
“You’re so insane,” you mumble, he laughs then, gripping your chin as he moves his fingers up and down, knowing your every spot. “Kuna!”
“Would breed you over and over, fuck… imagine,” you’re lost in his filthy images of that – of you round with Sukuna’s baby, of your tits full as he mumbles it and squishes them. “Hah, how cute you’d look.”
You swallow nervously, “Is this y-your kink?”
Sukuna chuckles, a dark sound that makes your eyes roll back, the way he moves against you makes you feel so small compared to him. “Kink? Nah, never before you. None of this shit before you, losing my goddamn mind.”
“I… y-you…”
You can’t talk, not when he’s pushing you further, when the raw scent of him is filling your nostrils, the coolness of those old, beat up lockers rushing against your skin as his rough fingers fill you. His lips dragging, leaving little marks everywhere they roam, teeth sinking into your skin, sharp and biting.
“Want you to smell like me when you go back to him, want you covered in my hand prints, dripping with my cum,” Sukuna yanks those fingers out before you can hit your peak, pulling your hair back and groaning, cock heavy against your ass as he presses it through the thin gym shorts. “Not a kink, just what you fucking do, god what you do.”
You look back with drugged eyes now, hand reaching back to feel him, he hisses at the contact, pressing you further against the lockers, turning you right around and lifting you, hands gripping your ass. “Kuna I…”
“You’re still talking? I need you cumming,” his cock is heavy and leaking when he tugs it out, pressing right against your messy slit, stretched open just for him. “Have to fucking have you, now.”
“Need to tell you…” He chuckles at you, kissing you again, fat cockhead and that piercing just pressing on your slick hole.
“Tell me what, brat?” His eyes are dark when he keeps positioned at your entrance, breaths coming quick. “Say it, use your words.”
You swallow nervously.
You’re gonna say it.
“I love you,” he pauses then, faltering at your words, you curse and shut your eyes, wondering if you’ve ruined the moment. “S-sorry it’s sudden and… but I feel so much and… it’s not fair to-”
“Shut up.”
You glare and he chuckles. “What!?”
“Shut up, brat,” he murmurs, softer then, cupping your face as he presses your back against those lockers.
“You… shut up, you… jerk!”
“I love you,” he answers now, with a laugh, shaking his head. “God I fucking love you, even if you’re not all mine, even if I have to share you with a dumb fucking twink that I hate.”
With one brutal, mean fucking thrust, Sukuna is buried fully inside you, so rough and the stretch so insane it’s a blur, his words, the desperation, the stretch of him.
“Feel me? Feel me fucking ruining you?” He whispers now, you just nod, tears spilling as you cry out, the sound echoing in the small space of the locker room, a mix of pain and overwhelming, sinful pleasure with him just pulsing inside you. “Who’s inside you right now?”
“You, Kuna,” your answer makes him laugh, a cruel sound, his lips against yours again. “You.”
“Me.”
*****
Sukuna
He doesn’t give you a moment to adjust like he should, like he usually does – not with your words ruining him, not with you destroying him. No, he instead sets a punishing rhythm in your tiny lil cunt, lifting you and dragging you right down his cock, the slap of his hips against your ass loud and obscene, the lockers reverberating and shaking.
Love.
Yes, Sukuna loves you – and no, it’s not pure, it’s not sweet or anything of the sort – it’s insanity, everything you put him through, the way you so utterly and effortlessly ruin him in ways that are never going to repair. If Sukuna can’t have you – even if he shares you – no one else can.
There’s no world in which he lets you go, not when you look at him with hearts in your eyes, with drool spilling from your lips, gasping out with your nails scraping uselessly against the sore shoulders of his, bare with them pressing in. “F-fuck… Kuna…”
“Yeah baby,” he groans softly, lifting your body like it’s nothing – it is nothing to him, you’re his to fuck, his to ruin, and he loves to do it. To use your body, and he knows you love that shit. “Love me usin’ ya? Fuckin’ cocksleeve f’me, pretty, perfect lil cocksleeve, hmm? For my cum, for my cock?”
“Yes,” you’re lost in it – you, once a good girl who barely kissed, becoming slutty for him, he loves every bit of the confidence in your gaze as you drink him in, as you spread your thighs as wide as they can go. “Y-yours…”
“My toy, huh? Mine,” he’s possessive then – even in moments he tries to act like he’s okay, like he’s sane, he can’t pretend when it’s raw like this – he can’t pretend like he doesn’t hope you’ll choose only him.
He hopes you fuck whatever frustrations it is out on that dumb fuck and come right back, that you’ll lose interest and stay his – toxic, maddening, infuriating – you, you, you. It’s all that’s spinning in his head like a madness, like a mantra as he fucks your cunt like he owns it.
He wants to own you. Every piece of you.
“Cunt got split open by me, hmm?” He whispers, a hand on your throat as he leans you against those lockers – you’re so sweet and pretty, even obscenely being fucked like this. You can only whimper in response, earning his soft laugh. “Can’t answer, baby?”
“Mnh,” Sukuna tugs your mouth open as he splits your cunt open like he says, as he buries himself, losing himself in your very scent, your everything.
“Open f’me,” he whispers, you so eagerly obey it’s precious as he leans so damn big over you, spittin right into your open, gasping mouth, letting that saliva just drip right down your lips. It’s filthy, degrading in other times, but with you? The spit feels like worship, like you taking him.
All him.
It’s all Sukuna could even think while he was in that boxing match, every other thought was just of you sitting there – of how he wanted you immediately, in the ring with every victory, but he can’t have you like that. It just makes him fuck you meaner, more desperate, but he knows what you can take.
“Swallow it,” he commands softly, and you do just that so fucking obedient and pretty, your throat working convulsively. “That’s it. All of me. Every fuckin’ part, hmm? Inside you.”
Sukuna fucks you desperately now, in ways he’s never been with a woman, how can he not be lost inside you? Bury his face in your neck, pounding your cunt with no mercy as she melds so pliantly to his shape.
“Made f’me,” he whispers. “This cunt is mine. You hear me? Mine – he can have you when I’m done, but you’ll always be mine.”
You sniffle at that, he wishes he could hold it back – wishes he could stay controlled and dominating, sometimes he can, usually he can. He wants to give you everything, but in this moment after his fight?
It’s all desperation.
You nod in response, gasping again. “Love… love you…”
“Yeah, do you? Love me, brat, love me fucking you like this?” You nod eagerly, h “Then cum for me, lemme feel her.”
“I’m s-so… I’m…”
“I know what you need,” he murmurs then, pulling out and having you desperate, hands trying to keep him there. He laughs softly, turning you and pressing your face against the lockers by the small of your back, lining his cock back up. “Arch.”
You do it perfectly, letting him line his cock back up, wrapping a hand around your waist and finding your twitchy clit, sinking right back inside. “Ah! Y-yes… there, please I’m…”
“I know your body, brat,” he whispers, knowing he’s showing that side he’s tried to hide so well, whispering in your ear as his rough fingers abuse that small lil clit. “You love this, don’t you? Clit is so needy. Cunt is so full. Feel me?”
He takes your hand, letting you feel that bulge as he wraps you tightly, bending down to sink right inside. “Yes, I feel you… I… Kuna!”
You shatter from one more roll of his fingertips on her, your body convulsing as he pushes you through it, as he whispers your name and loves it too much from his lips, those circles working over and over as your cunt twitches around his thick cock. Sukuna moans, feeling you milk him for all he’s worth, groaning out with you, your cunt squirting and gushing.
“There you go, who knows you?” He asks, voice hoarse.
He needs to hear it.
You’re weak when you answer – “You.”
He smiles against your neck, but it’s anything but a sweet one, it’s a possessive one, psychotic. “Who made you cum all over the fuckin’ locker room floor, has this messy cunt squirting all over, hmm?”
“You,” it spills easily from your lips as Sukuna pumps his cum inside you, burying himself deep as he floods your walls with his hot, thick release, coating every inch as he presses up on your clit, milking another orgasm from you.
“All me?”
You nod, but he can feel you shaking, feel your body and every bit of you weak against him as he presses further, making you take every little bit of his cum. “Too much, too much!”
“You can take it,” he whispers, laughing then softly. “You take it so well, like you were made for just this, hmm? Take me after every goddamn match, too.”
For a moment, you both just breathe and he hugs you too tightly, letting you come down as he pulses inside, even more cum flooding your needy hole, making you arch your ass, his fingers finally leaving your clit. He sighs, kissing up the side of your neck messy, up to your ear, as the two of you stand there.
There is so much he can’t put into words.
That he wants to kill your goddamn husband as much as he wants to make the dumb fuck worship you how you deserve, that he wants to be the one you love the most, that you’re much more than a ‘cocksleeve’ or ‘fucktoy’.
You’re everything and he’s terrified.
“Did you tell him you loved him,” Sukuna asks softly, you look back, eyes all dazed, he swipes drool from the corner of your mouth.
“No, you’re the first person I’ve ever said that to,” you admit, color dancing on your cheeks as he studies you – slowly pulling out, having you whimper at the loss, the filthy mess of his cum and your own slick begin to trickle down your thighs, the sight has him lost. Your thighs are shaking, head pressed against the lockers as he studies you.
“I’m the first person you’ve said it to?”
“Ever,” you admit softly, Sukuna moans at that, seeing just how rough he has been with you now, sinking to his knees behind you, his hands gripping your ass cheeks and spreading them wide.
Sukuna drags the hot, flat of his tongue against your cunt to lick a broad, possessive stripe from your clit all the way up to your other puckered hole, lapping up the creamy, white mess he just left inside you.
“K-Kuna!” you gasp at the sensation, your knees nearly buckling underneath if he didn’t hold you up in time. “You’re…”
He just hums against you, gathering more of his own cum and tasting it – salty and bitter to your sweetness. “Drinking us up. Us, baby. This is all us, every bit of this messy cunt.”
“Mhm,” he turns you now, so you look down at him, letting him lavish your abused cunt – the one that’s now had another man inside her. Fuck, he wanted to see it next time, he wants to see her stretch and know he can do better.
“Did he fill you this much?” Sukuna asks, looking under his long pink lashes, smirking as you tremble. “More?”
“He came alot,” you admit, he chuckles at that.
“Bet he fuckin’ did. Who wouldn’t?”
Sukuna will put more cum inside you – he’ll fill you so much Satoru Gojo is the last fucking thing you’ll think of. Yet you brush his hair back, crying out and arching, pressing your cunt more firmly against his mouth, Sukuna greedily swallows the squirt he gets from you with a hum against your pussy, swallowing his own creamy release right with you.
You’re screaming out, hands tugging hard at his hair – pulling at the roots to the point of sweet pain. “Come stay with me tonight, please? W-want you to…”
“You’re askin’ me to stay while I lick my cum out?” Sukuna smirks and chuckles, tongue licking the slick from our inner thigh. “Cute.”
“Answer me – you brat,” you tease, making him laugh again, thumbs brushing hints of blood against your skin.
“I wish I could,” he parts your lips, looking at his own mess, breathing against it and making you jerk. “I’ll be there tomorrow, okay? I promise I won’t leave you with his dumb ass alone too long.”
“Mmm…” your eyes flutter shut, rocking your hips rhythmically so that your slick drags all against his skin, his cock is already throbbing again. Then I’ll miss you tonight...”
“One night?” You nod and he moans, lavishing you up even more, eyeing how pretty you are when your head slams the lockers, when your thigh is thrown over his shoulder and he’s drinking every bit of his own cum from you.
As if Sukuna will let you forget him even for the night.
No, Sukuna needs you to remember him, even when Satoru Gojo – your ‘husband’ – is pathetically begging for you.
*****
You
You step out of the shower and wrap yourself in a towel, swiping some of the fog from the mirror that night. Satoru had to go to a business dinner and is just walking in as you step out, thighs pressed together just a bit, seeing the way his eyes drift across you achingly slow, like a physical touch.
One time, they were cruel.
Then, they were hungry.
Now, they’re devoted almost, the way he exhales ever so slowly and loosens his tie at the knot, kicking his pretty, expensive ass dress shoes off at the door.
Fuck if your sort of husband wasn’t sexy.
“Enjoy the match?” He asks, voice edged with that sarcasm, but you don’t answer back that way.
“I did have a good time…” your cheeks heat up a bit as he undoes his collar, looking devastatingly handsome in the darkness of the evening.
“Bet you did,” he says, laughing and shaking his head. “Does he just deepen those marks every time?”
“Maybe,” you murmur, touching your throat carefully – as if Satoru hadn’t left his own, but Sukuna had sucked each one, like he’d mark you harder, deeper. You barely manage to hold it together as you talk. “Did you have a good dinner?”
“Was boring as shit with a bunch of old geezers and horny ass, middle aged women that want to get fucked,” he admits, hands in his pockets, walking over toward you.
“Oh, any pretty ones?”
“Yeah, some are pretty – but can’t say I paid much attention,” he admits, surprising you, words you never thought you’d hear. “Kept thinking about this girl I’m married to, knowing she was fucking a dumb, pink haired boxer.”
“I think you two like each other,” he snorts, standing in front of you now, tilting your chin up.
“Heard you got Jennifer a position with your family, it was a bit of talk at the dinner in fact.”
“I did, if that's okay?” He frowns now at you, jaw tensing a bit. “Was she that bad of a secretary?”
“She was fine at that I guess,” he admits, shrugging a shoulder, toying with a damp strand of your hair. “Why though?”
“I felt bad.” Satoru laughs without humor, you clutch your towel tighter. “I do.”
“Why the fuck would you feel bad for her?”
“She clearly was in love with you,” he blinks now as if you’ve said something insane. “You didn't know?”
“She loved sucking my dick, loved getting expensive gifts, and loved cumming. Not me.”
“No, she loved you… you don’t act like that for no reason.”
“Yeah no one does,” Satoru says, but before you can open your lips to say that cannot be true – he halts you. “No, that's not some ‘oh poor me’ shit, I just know that isn't what she felt.
You frown now. “Are you so unlovable to everyone?”
The question hangs in the air – once you thought Satoru was the world, then Satoru crushed your world, your everything – but now it was so hard to understand. Satoru was flawed, he was selfish, he was cruel and utterly immature – but there was more to him than what brimmed on that surface, and you knew it.
“Have you met me yet?” He shakes his head, sighing now. “Yeah I am, and I already know it. There is a difference between loving my cock, or my fingers…” He smirks a bit. “My sad method of eating pussy.”
“Satoru…”
“Difference between that and loving me.”
“Well, it's not only your cock I like, in fact…”
“You like my cock?”
“Shut up,” you roll your eyes, holding the towel tightly – just for him to tug it even closer, pulling you near. “You’re not just that is all I mean. I am sure that there is a lot to you that…” you look away then.
“You hate me. Remember?”
You do.
Right?
You swallow now, letting him hold that towel for you instead, just that as the thin barrier between his body and yours, feeling his breath nearly against you, your heart hammering in your chest.
“I guess I forget a bit for a minute,” he trails his fingertips down your shoulder as you heart breaks. He almost looks boyish with his hair brushed back off his forehead, you can't help but step closer. “You couldn't have always been so terrible, there’s no way.”
He smiles and it’s a sad one. “I was born like that.”
“You're ridiculous, I remember getting to meet you as a kid,” he sighs, brows together. “You were defending this kid from getting bullied. And you said hi to me… you were sweet, if anything.”
“I wish I could remember that,” he says almost longingly, tugging you closer and leaning low, his lips far, far too close. “What am I allowed to do when you're mine, when your attention is just on me?”
“Allowed to do?” You whisper, as he steps back, fingers brushing across the terry of the towel. “I um… there are no rules or… there isn't a guidebook for this mess, Satoru. It's a mess.”
“It is,” he admits, sighing now, letting the towel fall and having his breath catch. “Fuck… you're so beautiful.”
Your answer is to tug him down and kiss him, letting him pull your body against his. Things still feel so tentative and new with him, with Sukuna you're declaring love, you're open.
Satoru it's scary.
You don't ever know what to say, what to feel, but it's there – cruel and merciless, the need for him to be so close. To be consumed as he praises you in ways you never thought he would, pressing your body so you feel his hard length underneath his slacks.
“Can I say that this time?” He asks, you swallow nervously, reflexively, looking right into those heart breaking eyes. “Can I say how I can’t even believe how beautiful you are?”
“If you mean it… I can’t believe that you…”
“Yeah, I fuckin’ mean that shit,” he whispers, lips pressing against yours over and over. “Fuck I can't stop thinking about it,” he shakes his head, cupping your face. “Was it the hate that made it feel so good? Was it just you?”
“I don’t know either…” You don’t have a clue what this is, when he’s lifting you and the towel is all gone, and he’s carrying you right to his bed – his bed – hovering over you, his lips drinking every cry. Your nails dig into his chest, making him moan, spreading your thighs and pressing his clothed cock on your slick, needy cunt.
“Is she already stretched out?” He murmurs softly, an insult – but you nod, he already knows Sukuna was inside you. “Does she need more cum inside?”
“Yes,” he blinks for a moment and you do too, heat dancing on your cheeks – you’re not sweet to Satoru, you can’t be. “Why are you still dressed? Like fucking me with your clothes on?”
“You’ve become so slutty, tsk,” he’s trembling a bit as he leans up, unbuttoning his shirt, showing you his hard chest and that abdomen, he’s not tattooed like Sukuna but there’s a little one on his ribs that your fingers brush, he sucks in a breath at the contact, his eyes locking on yours.
Just what did go through his head?
Was this some distraction until your inevitable end? Or did this mean something to him, did those kisses actually mean more than he could say? Why do you want it so goddamn bad – when Sukuna loves you, when that’s more than enough – why do you also have to want Satoru like this? Why do you feel this?
He’s yanking off his tie now, standing and undoing his belt, looking over every inch of you – you watch hungrily and eagerly as he tugs his pretty cock out, already leaking and dripping white, smacking his flat stomach and splattering against that white hair underneath his belly button.
“On your knees for me, sweetheart,” he’s never talked to you that way, you pause, on your elbows for a moment. “If you want, I’ll tie your pretty wrists, fuck you dumb, pump all that cum inside. Is that what you want?”
You don’t beg for it like you would with Sukuna, your answer is to get on your knees and turn, letting him press your wrists back, tying them as his breaths rush through him quicker. “Mnghh… I j-just…”
“You want that? Answer me,” he whispers as he is binding your wrists, tugging right at the knot. You’re even wetter when he tugs so hard that your wrists hurt, breasts rising and falling with your quick breaths, his lips against your ear. “Words.”
“Yes, okay? Yes…”
Did he need it from you, like you need it from him?
“Hah…” His laugh sends shivers across your spine, down the back of our neck. “Say you hate me.”
“I hate you,” there’s not enough there anymore, he tilts your chin and studies you, his other hand wrapping your throat, squeezing where Sukuna had earlier. “So much, too.”
You wish you hated Satoru – wouldn’t that make things better? Instead, you’re arching for his cock, begging for his touch, dying to be taken over.
Maybe you do hate him, for how fucking much you want it.
******
Satoru
“Yeah, that much?” He smiles just a bit, fingertips tracing down the curve of your spine, darting between to find your soaking wet cunt, moaning when he feels you.
Satoru positions you so your ass is arched up, his other hand comes up to tangle in your hair at the nape of your neck, still damp from the shower and coating his hands in the fragrant remnants of your conditioner, like silk against his fingers. He inhales it pathetically really, pressing your face deeper into the pillows.
“Seen you arch for him, you can f’me, hmm?” He taunts, as if he doesn’t want to beg, as if he’s not desperate to have any of you. “Lemme see how good you can do.”
He expects and argument, anything other than you arching, he can’t help but groan and lean back, parting your messy cunt all abused from Sukuna earlier, but if anything it makes him more fucking feral.
“Should fuck his cum out and fill you with mine, hmm?” He murmurs, laughing softly as he drags his fingertips up you. “Ready? Do I not need to touch you first?”
“Shut up and fuck me,” he laughs again – there she is, the mad girl who hates him, the one who makes this all easier to deal with.
Somewhat.
The inevitable fact that you’re going to fucking leave him – he doesn’t know how long it’ll take, but he doubts there’s a world he gets to stay. So he’ll be greedy, he’ll take every bit of you he knows he doesn’t deserve, stroking his already hard cock and biting down on his lower lip.
“Well I don’t see that mess, hmm?”
“He ate it out of me,” he pauses now, blinking just a bit.
Sukuna really was some fucking freak.
He never thought he’d be out freaked, but as it stands, that man is clearly filthy – though the thought of licking his own cum…
Fuck.
“Oh, how sweet of him – are we sharing you properly for now?” He taunts, leaning low and lapping a stripe up your slit, all clean and perfect from your shower. You whine out, he parts your folds to watch your clit twitch for him. “Mmm… almost like co parenting, but with a slutty lil wife instead.”
“Such a dick,” your voice is muffled by the fabric of the pillow you’re pressed against, he licks once more before spreading you wide and spitting right in your hole, the sight utterly filthy.
He remembers the first time he tasted you, on that counter when you let him lick your thigh, when Sukuna let him.
Let him.
Taste his wife.
Taste you – dangerously sweet — addictive like the sweets he loved when he was younger. Looking at the bubbly mess spilling when he shouldn't even be granted such a sight – yet here you were, spreading wide open for him.
“So eager for my cock, hmm?” You say nothing, just whining out again, the sound throaty and slutty.
He wants to say so much more, the dumbest shit that he should never think to utter out loud, barely holding it back. That when you look at him the way you do it ruins him in a way that is terrifyingly not only sexual.
His whole life women wanted him for his looks. His money, his power – and he let them think there was a chance, played their games and enjoyed their wet mouths, their cunts milking his cock. The way they were so devoted.
You didn't want that.
You hated him, yet here you were.
“Beggin' to be split open by my cock,” he loves how you feel. He loves how pretty your ass is, how your pussy is fluttering just for him.
Yet all he can say is filth, he knows even calling you beautiful hurts you.
He hurt you.
If only he could fuck away every memory of what he did, and fill you with what he wishes he could do.
Satoru leans over you now, cock gliding up and down your slit, the pink tip catching the gush that’s sliding out of your needy hole – watching you tremble as he presses your head down.
“Fuck you in my bed,” he whispers, losing any tentative fucking control he has – it’s all out of the goddamn window with you. “I'm going to fuck every thought from your pretty head, do you want that, sweetheart? To be fucked dumb?”
“Yes,” he groans then, he can’t take it – how raw and real every bit of you as, he pushes into your tiny cunt and groans, easing as his head pops in, getting sucked by those tacky lil walls, the ones quivering right around him, begging for more. “Fuck, why do you feel s’good? God, I hate you for it.”
“Mngh…” You say nothing this time, not with your wrists bound, just gushing when he pulls back again, running his tip up and down until you’re about to cum from just that – he can tell in every way you tense, every movement you make.
“Need me inside?”
“Jus’ f-fuck me… you’re… ah!”
“Ask nicely baby,” he whispers, chuckling as he tugs your hair back, and you glare at him. “For me inside you.”
“You ask nicely,” he sighs, laughing and shaking his head.
“I begged last time.”
“You should every time,” Satoru moans at that, kissing you again as he brings you to your knees and plunges his cock inside – in one long, deep stroke, filling you and stretching you right there, making you gasp out, your head falling back.
“God…” Satoru groans, kissing down your neck, god you fit him so perfect – surely you’re made for him, even if he’s ruined it all, even if some other dumb fuck got you – he’ll enjoy every moment he gets.
Inhaling you.
Kissing you.
Fucking you.
Satoru loses his mind inside you – god how perfect – thrusting his cock so deep, balls slapping your clit, pressing you down and moving in and out faster, hovering over you as you cry out, helpless and so small in comparison to Satoru’s huge, long body. “I'm going to fuck you so full of me you'll forget what his cum even feels like, huh? Forget his cock, forget him.”
“Psycho, y-you…” a choked out little whimper escapes your lips as he buries himself deep, pressing you into the mattress, his weight heavy as you gasp out. He’s prone over you, cock moving faster, breathing out your name against your ear.
“I wish I could get in your head and rip out every fucking memory,” he whispers now, shoving his cock fully now. He doesn't move or let you move, even as you wriggle and beg, letting you feel every inch of him. “All me, want it all me… fuck you know you should belong to me.”
Your answers are muffled curse words as one of his big hands slides from your hair down to your throat, his long fingers wrapping around it and tilting your chin up, leaving you helpless underneath him squeezing at your pulse points. He feels it fluttering right underneath his thumb as you look at him with dazed eyes.
“Tell me how you don’t, how you never will be mine,” he begs it, as he kisses you in between words, squeezing your throat and swallowing every pretty cry you give him, cock steadily pounding even deeper in you. “Mmm, how many times will I even get this, get you like this?”
“Satoru…”
“Yes, call me that – fuck,” he’s not the ‘in control, dominant’ Gojo, even with your wrists bound and your pussy being railed by him, even with the way Satoru absolutely ruins your cunt until you’re breathless.
He’s not in control even if you’re being choked.
It’s all you, just a little whisper of his name is enough to almost make him bust, insane thoughts of breeding your needy cunt filling his mind – when he never even wanted that shit. But wouldn’t you have to stay, then? Wouldn’t you be bound to him forever if he could?
“Put a baby in you first – hah,” he laughs softly, watching the look of fucked out pleasure turn to shock, the drool slipping down the corner of your mouth. “How would you leave me then?”
“You don’t w-want that…” He moans right with you, squeezing harder now, fucking your pretty body into the matress, his other hand snaking down, finding your clit.
“Arch up,” you eagerly do, letting him find that pressure he already knows you love, pretty patterns on a clit he knows was licked on, sucked on, touched – he wishes it turned him off.
He wishes it didn’t make him want to fuck you better.
“That’s it, wanna cum, hmm? All over my cock like the pretty lil slut you are,” your answer is a whine, bound and helpless, obeying as he has your clit dripping down to the sheets, the sounds of his breaths and the rhythmic slaps even louder.
“Yes… ah!” Satoru’s lost in you, as he buries his face against the back of your neck, inhaling you, feeling your bound arms pressed underneath him.
“Does it hurt?” He asks, a cruel tone – but you peek at him, lips parted – looking in a fucking daze. “Does it?”
“Yes but…” you sigh, swallowing and then whining as his fingertips continue their assault, as his cock keeps stretching you out. “I…”
“Love it?” You say nothing, nodding, but he leans up and un ties them quickly, rubbing your wrist in his hand, pressing it up over that pillow and pinning it with his free hand, eyeing the marks, making him feral. “Has he tied you?”
“No,” you surprise him just a bit, but he squeezes your wrist brutally, continuing to fuck your tiny cunt.
How is it so perfect?
How are you everything he’s ever wanted, but all he did was push you? Fucking make you leave, make you do anything and everything to leave him, to make you think he didn’t feel what he did.
Now he hates himself even more – a special type of hate, truly. Perhaps part of him always has – but he doesn’t hate himself enough not to fuck you, not to taste you, not to make you shatter as he drags his tip against your walls, feeling you shatter. You cry out his name as you fall apart, letting him watch as you do.
Satoru stays pressed inside you, body taking you over as you shake, cunt making a drooly mess all across his fingers, your lashes fluttering – tears spiking at the ends of them. “Move, move…”
“Mmm… in a minute,” he whispers, just staying there – pressed against your cervix, he knows you’re stuffed full – he knows you can feel him. “Too deep, baby?”
“Mhm,” you whisper, but you arch back more, curve of your ass against him, making him chuckle ever so softly, clenching your cunt right around his length. “Move, sh-shit…”
"Who is inside you right now?” He whispers, posessive and sick – aren’t you a sickness, everything fucking about you?
Don’t you ruin him by existing, especially when you look at him, and his thumb is on your fluttering pulse, holding your chin up. “Would you just… can you… move, fuck…”
“Who are you with now?" he asks, his hips finally starting to move. It's a slow, grinding rhythm, devastating in its intensity – each drag of his slick length against your walls feels like it's going to make him bust then and there, you’re almost impossible for him to handle, to take and act straight.
How he’s forming words is hard to even fathom.
"Who's inside you right now, making you squirt all over? Answer f’me… fuck, jus’ answer…"
"You," you choke out finally, tears spilling from your pretty, fucked out eyes. “You, god just…”
“Say it,” he whispers desperately, sweat dripping down your skin, slick as he moves even faster. “Don’t fuckin’ call me Gojo.”
There is a quiet moment and he pauses again, but you finally grip those sheets with your hands, still marked from his tie, shaking underneath him.
"Satoru."
"Good girl," he murmurs – condescending he’s sure – he’s sure he sounds like a fucking dick when all he wants to do is praise you truly.
“Choke me,” you whisper then, using a hand to press his harder, he falters.
He wishes you didn’t know you loved that.
Yet all he can do is listen, is give you everything.
“Choke you, hmm? Wasn’t I?”
“No, really fucking do it,” he loves you.
God he loves you.
Squeezing his hand so hard with your own – so much smaller than Satoru’s huge ones, than his five inch fucking fingers that swallow your throat, letting you put that pressure you want.
“Really… choke… m-me – ah!”
“Like this?” He asks softly, his fingers pressing down harder this time – more pressure like you ask for – just enough to restrict your airflow, to make your head dizzy, fuzzy, feeling your cunt just contract right around him. “Like that, baby? Choke every little thought away?”
“Mhm…”
“You’re almost sweet like this, hah,” he’s taunting, but the way you give in is fucking addictive, as he squeezes harder and earns your cunt spasming right around his cock, tip dragging just so. "You feel that?
His pace picks up as you feel too goddamn good, becoming more desperate, more needy for you – all of you. Your answer is some incoherent mumble as his cock makes filthy fucking noises in your slutty hole, balls slapping hard on your clit – so full of his own cum.
"Feel how I'm filling you up?" He asks, knowing you can’t answer.
He loves hearing your cries, ruining you like he’s never loved anything else – never has being inside being someone felt like this, the devotion with every movement absolutely tearing him apart.
How much of him would be left when he was done?
How much of you would be?
Could he fuck his cum so deep it replaces every goddamn bit of Sukuna?
He wants to.
“God I want it…”
“Want… mnh… wha- ah!”
You’re cumming when Satoru mumbles in your ear incoherently, words you don’t get to hear, ones you’re not meant to – “you to love me.”
*****
You
There is no hearing.
There is no thoughts while Satoru is pounding your messy cunt, one stretched open by a man you love, just to be filled by a man you wish you hate – no.
It's confusing – so fucking confusing, everything about Gojo choking you, about him stealing your breath as he strokes his cock deep – was it anything like Jennifer, like Chloe?
You shouldn’t be jealous, you shouldn’t care – you have Sukuna, and you know that shit is love, then why do you still want so badly for Satoru to want you, crave you, love you too? Why do you desire it all, the way he takes you over, the pain and the dizzying pleasure of every filthy stroke?
He's hurting your throat, your cunt is trying it’s best to take him – there's a desperate edge to his movements, a frantic need in the way he's fucking you, the way his breath hitches against your neck, his whisper of your name. He's not just taking you this time, he doesn’t just take and take – no, he's begging for more from you, breaking you piece by piece and putting you back together.
Satoru takes your breath away like Sukuna does.
But it’s cruel.
It’s mean.
Knowing this was all there – knowing he showed you how terrible he was instead, knowing for a month you watched him and waited, wanting to have this, fuck you didn’t even know this existed with Satoru.
“God, feel you milkin’ me… needy lil slut,” he eases his hand now, sighing as his cock slams deep – pressing his forehead against the back of your head, his movements becoming erratic, desperate, losing their rhythm. “Made to ruin me… fuck what you do – god you feel s’fuckin’ perfect…”
“Don’t say that,” you plead, sniffling as he holds your throat again, his grip tightening and loosening as if he can't decide whether to possess you or break you – as if he doesn’t know if he should go easy or gentle.
“Don’t say it? God, I wish I didn’t need to,” he laughs in that cruel way you used to hate – but when he’s inside you, you love it. “I want to ruin you – I want to be the one who breaks you, the one you think about when you're with him.”
“Satoru… don’t fucking… say…”
Sukuna said it too, he meant that shit.
But you never thought that Satoru…
Do you want this, two men desperately fucking the memory of each other away? Ruining your body and mind as they fight over you, as they desperately take and take from you.
What will be left when they’re done?
Even filled with cock you wonder it – wonder how long they’ll ever want a girl like you, wonder why they do, to the point you tense, and Satoru realizes it, pausing, pulling out and making you cry out.
He shoves your thighs up until they’re smushing your tits, and those thighs are trembling when his hands run over them.
“Do you wanna know what I really think, sweetheart?” Satoru asks, dangerous – his eyes dark, the ceiling fan whirling and brushing his long soft white hair over his brow. You swallow nervously.
“I can’t t-trust anything from you…” He exhales, cock dragging back up and down, up and down – fucking maddening. “Yes though… wanna… know…”
“I want to fuck you so hard you can't walk straight tomorrow,” he smirks, cupping your face. “I wanna fuck you so goddamn rough that every step you take reminds you of me – of my cock buried, of my cum dripping out of you.”
"You're so fucking confusing," you whisper, letting him sink back inside, your eyes rolling back in your skull as he leans over you with that heavy weight, folding you right in a mating press.
“Me, confusing?” He’s whimpering against your hair, your ear, fucking you so goddamn filthy, your blood rushing and mixing with his broken, husky voice.
The words next are what finally ruin you.
"Why do I want you this much? Why do I want to be the one who ruins you, that has you, that wants you? Why did I push you the fuck away – why? God, why do you fucking ruin my every waking moment…"
His hips slam forward harder, faster, folding you so in half he’s hard to take – you feel it then, your tears.
You're crying now.
It’s not the pain, the fullness, no – it’s the terrifying realization that this desperate, broken man might be just as dangerous to you as Sukuna is – that you might just be as in love with him. That all consuming love, the type you can’t feel for two.
But you know it, trapped in your throat as he leans up and his hands press so deep into your flesh, as it bruises those thighs.
You still love Satoru – no.
You didn’t love him before you knew him, you thought you did – now you have an all consuming love for two goddamn men.
Broken ones, like you.
Broken ones that you wish you could put back together, but you’re scared you’ll only rip them further apart. As he pauses and falters, stuttering hips, tilting his head and easing his movements.
“Look at you, crying for me,” he breathes out – almost cruelly – was it cruel?
Did you love it?
Do you love this?
“Is it because it feels too good, or because you hate how much you love it?” He makes you glare, teeth clenched together.
“Shut up and cum,” he laughs at that, you’re never mean – you’re sweet, but with Satoru he brings that shit out.
Sukuna brings it out too – the brattiness you never knew you could feel.
They both take so much from you, the bring so much out.
You fucking love them, don’t you? You love Sukuna who is good for you, and you love Satoru who is terrible for you – but you sure the fuck won’t admit it now, even as Gojo has you split apart on his cock and bent in half.
“It doesn't matter,” he whispers now, kissing you again. “You can just say you hate me, isn’t it easier?” You feel a tear slipping from the corner of your eye.
It’s easier.
Than admitting you love two men.
“I do hate you…” He kisses you deeper, moaning into your lips, as if he knows you don’t mean it.
I love you, I hate you, I despise you.
Satoru I hate and love what I became because of you.
Yet you say – I hate you.
"Say it again," he whispers. "Tell me those pretty lies about how fucking much you hate me."
"I hate you," you sob out those words – he knows what they are.
You do hate him – how can you not hate him for making you want this, for making you feel this twisted, destructive love when you're supposed to belong to someone else, someone who is devoted and loving?
How can you go from so unloved to feeling this?
“Want me to cum inside, hmm? The man you fuckin’ hate so much?” He asks now – Satoru and Sukuna give you this choice, in their own way.
They both do.
You want both of them.
You nod, and he laughs, pausing.
“Answer me.”
“Cum in me,” he moans then, falling apart and shattering – his white puffy ropes of cum replacing what was inside, shattering right with you and kissing you messy, desperate.
“Wanna put all my goddamn heirs inside,” he laughs, like he’s lost his fucking mind. “God I do – I wanna have so many babies, let them run our fucking families into the goddamn ground.”
“Ngh, psycho…” He’s just pumping now, slowing as he kisses you, as you try to catch a breath.
There was no breathing with him.
Just utter confusion when he cleans you after, when he brushes your still damp hair that has left his pillows wet, putting it up carefully as he stands behind you in that mirror.
Your hands grip the bathroom sink as you look up at him.
How long could you have them both?
Why could one not be enough, why are you greedy, terrible, split into pieces for men that hate each other – one who you should still hate – but the one who leans against you, staring at your fucked out reflection in the mirror. He leans low, and you feel his hard body against you, feel his hand delicately brushing your throat, smile on his lips.
“Guess I left my own marks,” he whispers, lips against your ear. “Do you like me tying you up? Choking you?”
“You’re just a freak,” you mumble, he laughs again.
“And you’re not? Was a good girl, a sweet, innocent one, now look at you,” he tilts your chin up, showing all those marks from both men. “Covered in us, full of us… answer me.”
“Yes I liked it,” you look into his blue eyes now, sighing. “It won’t be long though, right? You want the divorce so… this is what, some distraction?”
He pauses, faltering.
“Don’t answer…” You shake your head and go to turn, to be pinned to that sink by him, suffocating. “Gojo just…”
“Sleep in my bed,” you gasp, looking up at him now.
“What?”
“In my bed just…” He exhales and leans low, a hand on either side of you, until his pretty face is level. “Tonight.”
“Why?”
“I’m fucking asking you.”
“I…” you blink tears now. “When I saw her in your bed, nothing fucking hurt me more, Satoru. Nothing.”
He swallows now.
“I know Sukuna probably didn’t feel good to see, I know I’m not innocent or perfect – but I was trying, then. I tried so hard and you… you just rejected and…” You’re losing it, shaking as he holds you, even as you sob, even as you smack at him. “It hurt, it hurts… it still…”
“I know,” you feel his tears now. “I’ll give you the go as soon as you want, I swear to god just… please, a night. To hold you, even if I shouldn’t get it.”
“Gojo…”
“Please…”
“Satoru,” you finish, trying to pull it together, hardly able to think as you blink and look up at him – tears blurring your vision. “Why?”
“I don’t fucking know,” he admits, cupping your face. “I just want a night to hold you in my bed.”
“One,” you answer softly.
One.
One you say, as he pulls you close, and an arm wraps your waist, thumbs brushing up underneath your tits, running little circles, and you feel as comfy as you do with Sukuna. He texts you, and you pick it up, suddenly eaten by guilt – even if Sukuna knows, and he’s fine, this is so much.
It’s almost too much – being shared by two men, being torn apart.
Sukuna – I’ll be there in the morning, brat. You gonna make me breakfast or is the twink?
“He calls me that!?”
“Don’t read my texts,” you scowl back at him and he sighs, tugging you even tighter. “You called him a ‘dumb pink haired fuck’.”
“Well he is.”
You – I’ll make you breakfast, Kuna.
“I’ll make you breakfast Kuna – ow!” You’ve turned and shoved Satoru almost off the bed, and he can’t help but laugh.
And fuck if that doesn’t break you further, is cute ass laugh, the way he keeps going the more you smack at him, until you’re laughing too – despite yourself, despite everything, pausing. He holds your waist and swallows, looking into your eyes, a million words left unsaid between you – like a physical weight, you can feel it, all of it.
He lets out a breath, and you realize you’re straddling him, his hands darting across your waist.
“Is he coming for breakfast?” Satoru asks now, making you shift a bit, feeling him harden again impossibly.
“He is,” you say now. “Or we could go to his place?’
“No, he can come here,” Satoru mumbles, leaned up on his elbows – even in the night, his eyes are bright. “I wanna be all that’s in your fucking head.”
“Oh do you?” You murmur – so does Sukuna.
But you’re fucking torn.
“I wish I was, I wish I could fuck every memory away,” he brushes your panties to the side, moaning at the mess the men have made you as you cry out. “I could keep trying all goddamn night, but I know he’s buried fucking deep – so deep I can’t get him out.”
“You can’t,” you lean over him, even as he’s running his fingers across your sore cunt. “I love him.”
“I know you do,” he whispers, the energy between you both sickening as it is addictive.
Satoru – bright and pure – is the darkness.
Sukuna – dark and sadistic – is the brightness.
What are you?
“You can try all you want,” you taunt now, knowing you’re playing a dangerous game with him.
“Fuck you in your sleep?” He whispers, you blush and he laughs. “Oh… haven’t done that, sweet girl?”
“Sweet, thought you hate me,” he drags you down and you tug his lips open, curious then. “Open for me.”
“For you?” He smirks, but then he sees your eyes. “Oh… you’re trying to out freak me, hmm? Think it’s possible?”
“Open,” you whisper again, before spitting a little trail of saliva in Satoru’s eager tongue, his mouth wide and ready, he whines out as it hits, as he stays there underneath you, and you can’t help but feel powerful and that moment. “Swallow.”
Satoru’s adam’s apple bops as he obeys.
*****
“Ahem…” It’s early morning, and you’re utterly sore and aching when you hear it – your boyfriend Sukuna eyeing the mess you and Satoru are in his bed, swirling the house keys that he fucking made himself.
“Kuna!” You lean up now, grinning at him as he takes you in, smirking when he sees the choke marks and the little bruises on Satoru’s throat.
“Damn, what’d you do to the kid?”
“She’s a fucking psycho,” he mumbles, coughing as he wakes up, trying to tug you against him, burying his face in your neck. “Five more minutes.”
“Nah,” Sukuna climbs right in the bed and tugs you to him, smirking as he studies you. “Missed my girlfriend.”
“Girlfriend?”
“Morning, Kuna,” you whisper, kissing him sweetly, as his weight sinks the bed – feeling them both against you.
Satoru is hard behind you.
Sukuna is hard in front of you.
You’ve done a tiny bit with them together but not everything. Sukuna tugs down your top and moans at the sight of your puffy nipple, as Satoru’s kissing up your bare shoulder.
Trapped between a man you hate and a man you love.
Yet you can’t stop the way your ass pushes back, and your tits press up.
You want them both.
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