投手

I won't yield. [indie/selective furuya satoru rp; soft reboot of satoushu, sideblog to shuutakao]

[kazuyayukki]

“Wow, I only said ‘date’ and you finally decided to wake up.” Like a magic word of sorts, and it’s actually quite terrifying how much Furuya was letting himself be… controlled? Yeah, that’s a word, but let’s pretend it definitely won’t bite him back (it will).

As a reflex, he yawned as well. He was also feeling tired, and if worded out, Miyuki would have agreed that they could go to that café in the afternoon. “Good morning,” manners first, because he was the older one and had to set an example. He rubbed one of his eyes, moving his glasses too in the process. “I noticed that, yeah.” If the catcher had stayed silent, he probably would’ve ended up watching Furuya in his sleep.

At the last question, he hummed, deciding on the options. “Is it gonna take long to get there?” he asked, because they could probably just… eat something small before going out at all, but didn’t want to ruin their appetite either. “If you are already fully awake, yes, we can go~. Are you that excited?” he chuckled.

[satoushu]

To be fair to Furuya, this might be the one and only chance he ever has at a date with Miyuki. Or ever, for the rest of his life, depending on how badly this one goes. Furuya might be sleepy and unmotivated, but he also knows not to squander his rare opportunities. That applies to both coming to Seido as a pitcher... and also this date he's going on today.

Somehow, the way Miyuki said I noticed that is embarrassing, as though he's saying, yes, I noticed how sleepy you are and how much you want to be in my room. It feels like a criticism somehow, even if it's not. Actually, most things Miyuki says to him feel like criticism regardless of how the catcher actually means it. Then again, that might just be a function of Furuya being completely incapable of processing any social interaction.

"It shouldn't be long," Furuya says. There are a lot of cat cafes in Tokyo, and the closest cat cafe from their station is fairly close. For once, Furuya actually checked something in advance! Miyuki should be proud that he took initiative looking something up. It may never happen again. "Let's... just head over." Despite being an athlete, Furuya struggles with eating as much as he needs to, especially this early in the morning. Since this is a date and not baseball practice, hopefully Miyuki won't force him to shovel rice in his face like usual.

He wonders if Miyuki's teasing question is a trap, but he decides to answer it honestly. "Yes, I'm excited. I like cats." And spending time with you. Furuya swallows down the words. He gets the sense that Miyuki shies away from intense feelings, so he smartly decides to be careful with what he says. "Even if this wasn't a date, I would be excited about the cats." There. Now there's no pressure on Miyuki at all... maybe. "But I'm also interested to see how Miyuki-senpai interacts with cats." Furuya tilts his head. Quiet, unassuming people attract animals more, while people who try too hard usually scare them off. If he went with Sawamura, for example, his teammate's loud voice would probably send the cats running (not on purpose, he means well).

[kazuyayukki]

If Miyuki wasn’t waking up, and neither was Furuya, then who was supposed to be the responsible one? The catcher huffed when hearing Furuya mumble, half asleep / half awake. What a great way to start the day, and they were so young as well! A hand reached out to grab his glasses, and he moved around on the bed, thinking that maybe sharing it was not his best idea since they both could barely fit in. Somehow, Miyuki managed to turn around and face the pitcher, who looked so comfortable. Almost broke his heart to have to interrupt such a peaceful sleep, just barely.

“Shouldn’t youngsters be full of energy?” Miyuki teased as if they weren’t only a year apart, even poked softly at Furuya’s cheek. “We gotta wake up, Furyaaa~.” If it were for Miyuki, he would be very comfortable staying here all day, but– “We have a date, remember?”

[satoushu]

"Sorry..." Furuya forces himself to sit up, slowly. He's terrible at waking up for anything, even things he cares about, so Miyuki should honestly be flattered that he's willing to drag himself out of bed for this at all. "Yes, our date. I'm getting up, I promise..."

After an agonizing few moments of thought in which Furuya considers lying back down and hoping Miyuki doesn't notice, he slips out of Miyuki's bed and runs a hand through his hair. Why do dates have to be in the early morning, anyway? Couldn't they have gone to the cat cafe in the afternoon?

Furuya yawns, then gently slaps his face between his palms, reminding himself that this is Miyuki, who agreed to go on a date with him — a monumentous occasion, and one he should be celebrating. "Good morning, Miyuki-senpai." He stretches out his arms in front of him, trying to force his body to wake up too. "Your room makes me even sleepier than mine, somehow..." Probably the added warmth of another person lulling him into dreamland. "Mmn... you wanna head out soon?"

[kazuyayukki]

“You made that very clear, yes.” Actions spoke louder than words, or so Miyuki has heard before. He was not upset; again, he was mostly surprised by the sudden need to be closer in this way. It felt… Ugh, intimate. Again, he sinned by not saying anything at all to avoid the inner turmoil Furuya was not having on his end. They were being very good at this, great! “That’s fine, I’ll go to bed in a bit too”, he agreed. Brain cells were not cooperating at all to come up with a way to tease the latter; he was tired as well.

After making a few more arrangements in his room -and deciding that he would just deal with that pile of textbooks another day-, he soon joined the pitcher on the bed. As stated previously, nothing really happened, the bed was warm and Miyuki did not really took long to soon fall asleep.

It was still intimate in a way… But felt very nice at the same time.

—

Sundays were usually days Miyuki would sleep in until later at noon or even way later. So hearing the alarm go off earlier than that made him let out a disgruntled sound. He managed to turn off the alarm, grabbed the pillow, and buried his face in it. He will wake up; just give him a moment to process the fact that he has to wake up and not burn daylight.

[satoushu]

While the perceived intimacy might be awkward for Miyuki, sleeping beside him is quite comfortable for Furuya. He's already half asleep when Miyuki lies down, but the added warmth of another body lulls him into a deep sleep almost immediately. If sleeping was a sport like baseball, Furuya would definitely be an ace at it.

When Miyuki's alarm goes off the following morning, Furuya groans softly. If there's anyone who's difficult to budge when sleepy, it's Furuya, and right now he is far too comfortable to want to get up. Why did he ask Miyuki to go to a cat cafe with him again? He should have just suggested a napping date where they slept side by side for twelve hours. That may as well be Furuya's ideal romantic activity.

"Mmnn..." Furuya snuggles up to Miyuki's back, not helping either of them in their quest to wake up. "Five more..." And he dozes off again before he can say minutes, though considering Furuya he may have asked for five more years. Yes, even though he's the one who asked for this date, Miyuki is going to have to drag his ass out of bed by force. That's what he gets for going out with a hibernating polar bear.

[kazuyayukki]

There was really not much thought put into when Miyuki said ‘make yourself comfortable’, it was his mistake for thinking Furuya would just plot down on his bed or sit down on his desk. He didn’t care what the latter did / he was a bit too tired to even offer him something or be specific. Wow, did that make him a bad host? Most likely! In any case, while Furuya was there debating what to do, the captain was just wondering about what to do with the pile of textbooks / should actually considering getting a shelf for said books.

And then it happened.

Arms surrounding his wait made Miyuki stiff -mostly for the surprise- and feeling that weight on his shoulder was… An experience, alright.

He blinked several times, processing what is going on. “Oi, Furuya…” A tint of annoyance in his voice, also confused at the inner turmoil of emotions he was having on the inside “… You’re heavy.” Not that he made anything to back away from the latter, the initial stiffness went away. Internally, he hoped Furuya didn’t even catch a single glimpse on his face because Miyuki could swear he was feeling hotter, no way he was not blushing. “Aren’t you feeling bold? Just using your senpai as a resting place?” Again, not angry or annoyed, surprised was the right emotion.

[satoushu]

Heavy? Is this bad? Furuya blinks, wondering if he upset Miyuki. He can’t always tell what emotions are going on in that voice of his, and Miyuki probably hides how he feels on purpose.

Should he be sorry? He’s so bad at this. Technically even though their date is tomorrow, they’re still dating now. It should be fine that they’re a little closer when they’re alone… probably?

“Well… I wanted to.” Isn’t that enough? …Can he get any more from Miyuki right now? Greedy monster. Furuya can practically hear Miyuki scolding him for his selfishness.

He lets go of Miyuki with a sigh. "Do you mind if I lie in your bed?" Furuya is actually quite sleepy, but he'd still like to continue this affection if possible. If not, well... maybe he can manage something tomorrow, on their date. "...With you?" A pause. "...I won't do anything weird." He's genuinely intending to just fall asleep and isn't trying to flirt, though he knows Miyuki will probably just tease him about it anyway.

[kazuyayukki]

No, there was definitely nothing to be concerned about, he was just being practical. Or perhaps not, it was hard to tell what he was even thinking at all before making that suggestion– Maybe it was by reflex / a fluke / a bug in his brain. Yes, he will convince himself of that.

He had made a quick stop to brush his teeth. After that, he arrived at his dorm, changed to his pajamas and began to make the room look at least decent enough– Wait, was he even concerned at how the room looked? Not like he was too messy, plus Furuya has been here before. While organizing his clothes and managed to just put a pile of his textbooks on the corner, he heard the knock. Miyuki stood up, brushed off the invisible dirt off his pajamas and approached to open it. “Make yourself comfortable” and let the latter come in. Miyuki briefly took off his glasses, he was just exhausted from how busy he has been these past two weeks and just happened to remember that he had an important assignment to turn in on Monday… Oh well, that’ll be a problem for future him then.

[satoushu]

Make yourself comfortable? Furuya wonders what that means. In the past, that has meant falling asleep in Miyuki's bed — but it has also meant getting in bed with Miyuki and making out with him (and subsequently getting kicked out). So... right now, is he supposed to sit on the bed? On the floor???

Furuya needs better direction, or he's just going to stand there feeling awkward. No, wait. He can figure this out on his own.

"Um." Great start, amazing start! He looks at Miyuki as though seeking an answer, but all he can think about is how sleepy his senpai looks. It's cute. Usually between the two of them, Furuya is the sleepy one.

What would be comfortable for him?

I'd like to touch Miyuki-senpai.

His mind helpfully provides him with a vague suggestion. With a determined nod, he takes a step towards Miyuki and wraps his arms around his waist from behind, then rests his chin on Miyuki's shoulder. Perks of being ever so slightly taller.

Oh, he's warm. That's nice.

"This comfortable?" he asks. Actually, it's kind of an awkward position, as they're both standing. Furuya's happy for the moment, though.

[kazuyayukki]

truth be spoken, miyuki had a really hectic schedule for these pasts two weeks. he wasn’t intentionally avoiding furuya at all, neither furuya made an attempt to talk to him all this time and it was appreciated, also a bit… lonely. huh, now he understood what chris-senpai said that one time sawamura did not bother him at all to catch for him. who would’ve thought how a constant presence can suddenly change your everyday life by just being there. once again, he will put these thoughts away for now.

there was still some noise made at the dining hall, he was still eating while texting furuya, even raised and eyebrow at the suggestions made by the latter.

[text]: we don’t have to explain ourselves [text]: it’s fine if we walk together, it’s more troublesome if either of us is late

not saying he would be late! again, give him points for actually trying to put some effort in this relationship!

[text]: dont dress up? that’s very bold of you to ask♡

he could not help but let out a small laugh. he finished eating the dinner and was getting everything on his plate to go back to his dorm. while making the walk all the way there to call it a night, he had a sudden thought. took out his phone and started to type.

[text]: well… odd suggestion from me now

and that was a new one, coming from him of all people.

[text]: but you could spend the night in my room♡ [text]: that way, we can leave together early tomorrow! [text]: does that work out better for you?

now he was regretting this suggestion… just a bit. he hoped furuya would say ‘no’, or that he was busy– that he had something else to do… anything.

[satoushu]

Oh, so Miyuki isn't upset at the thought of being seen with him? That's a relief. He perks up subtly at the text, though no one is paying enough attention to notice. And he's usually one of the last people in the dining hall anyway, because it takes him forever to choke his food down.

Well. Furuya hadn't meant it that way! While he's debating how to respond (should he take it literally and remind Miyuki that yes, he has to wear clothes to the cat cafe?), the follow up text gives him pause.

What kind of odd suggestion? Should he be concerned?

Furuya, who had just arrived back to his own room, almost chokes on air at the clarification.

He wants me to stay over?

— No, he may not want it. For all he knows, Miyuki is just testing him. So maybe he should say no...?

[text] ill come over

Yeah, that's not happening. Furuya is like a vampire in that way: he has to be invited in. But once he's inside, it's hard to get him to leave.

After changing into pajamas and gathering his clothes in a bag for the following morning, he heads to Miyuki's room and knocks hesitantly. They haven't spoken much in person these past weeks, so it's possible Furuya already forgot how to talk to him. Not that he was great at it to begin with.

[kazuyayukki]

well the captain is aware he made a promise, he’s committing! give miyuki some credit maybe? if he really wanted to ditch his junior or not go at all, he would just put a -slightly- better excuse and avoid all communication until the topic died on it’s own. knowing furuya, he would also sulk like a baby polar bear if that were to happen. as mentioned before, he’s making a compromise.

[text]: unless i want something? [text]: now, what is is that you are offering hmm??

even through texts and if he’s not seeing the latter’s face, it couldn’t be helped to tease furuya a little bit.

[text]: you are not bothering me, furuya

a reminder doesn’t hurt, specially when interacting with a socially awkward person like furuya is.

[satoushu]

Does he know what he's offering? ...No, not really. Well, the two of them had kissed before, so maybe Miyuki would feel like kissing again. Is he going to text this directly? No, he is not.

[text] dunno

Really great and thoughtful response. Furuya can sense Miyuki is teasing him, but he's not flirty like that. What's he going to say, oh, you can kiss me in the next couple weeks if you want, senpai. Just let me know!

Besides, that might make things awkward for them or even kickstart a fight of some sort, and thus cancel their date before it happens. If it was a choice, Furuya would honestly rather not even talk to Miyuki for two weeks if it meant preserving the outing they scheduled.

[text] if youre sure

Just because he trusts Miyuki doesn't mean he believes him. Miyuki hasn't been eager enough to make him believe he's not a bother.

[text] see you in two weeks then

Whoops, that makes it sound like Furuya isn't going to talk to him or acknowledge him during that entire period. Oh well — he already sent the text, so there's nothing he can do about that.

[satoushu]

Stress free? Maybe to Miyuki. Every option is full of stress for Furuya. But if it’s low pressure for Miyuki, then he’s succeeded on some level.

Furuya stares at the messages for a while, zoning in on the nice and the little heart emoji. Of course, over text, it’s impossible to tell if Miyuki is making fun of him. He probably is. But at least he’s making fun in a way that makes him feel good?

[text] thats very nice of you miyuki senpai [text] of course i do [text] why would i suggest

Too late, Furuya realizes he probably shouldn’t be so sarcastic, but instead of deleting the message, he winds up sending it half-finished instead.

Well! Time to pretend that never happened.

[text] i dont mind high energy animals [text] high energy people are the problem

Should he be embarrassed? Maybe. He’s trying to be more genuine these days, though. At least with Miyuki.

[text] but i think it would be easier for me to have a cat [text] i wouldnt want to walk a dog in the summer here [text] but back home it would be fun to have a dog to play with in the snow

What is he doing? Why is he texting so damn much all of a sudden? Furuya takes a deep breath. Miyuki already thinks he’s strange and uncommunicative, and now he’s going to be put off by this string of oversharing texts about something Miyuki probably doesnt care about at all.

[text] when are you free to go

Good, getting back on track with a nice, practical text. He’s nailing this!

[kazuyayukki]

well, wasn’t there once a research about how some college students feeling less stress after petting dogs? maybe he was misremembering since he just scrolls mindlessly on social media before bed, but that’s why he said that. a -cat- cafe does sound a bit more relaxing, also probably not a lot of people around other than the cats who were, without doubt, the main attraction.

now, this is what is called, having a conversation! they were now each sharing something as mundane as preferences, even little stories or wishful thoughts. when furuya corrects him that he doesn’t mind animals with high energy, it makes sense for miyuki that the latter is still awkward with people and prefers other types of interactions? yeah, that’s how he could put it.

[text]: if you say it like that i guess having a dog to play in the snow is definitely something to look forward to

seeing furuya playing in the snow like a kid would be a sight, considering he’s just motivated to play when on the mound.

[text]: well today is sunday, and the day is almost over [text]: next week [text]: no wait, i did told you i was going to be busy with some stuff [text]: the next one after that [text]: i’ll let you know beforehand [text]: is that okay with you?

[satoushu]

It's too bad it hardly snows in Tokyo. Having a snowball fight with a bunch of baseball players would be incredibly fun, albeit a little dangerous. (Could Furuya do damage with a fastball made out of snow and ice? ...Probably.)

[text] thats okay [text] weekend after this one then

Honestly, that's better than Furuya expected. Knowing Miyuki, he would have made an excuse to put it off forever if he really wanted to. Two weeks of waiting isn't too terrible, and it may even motivate him to do better in practice during that period.

[text] ill work hard between now and then [text] and wont bother you

A little extreme, perhaps? He should be allowed to still message Miyuki sometimes, right...?

[text] unless you want something

There, now it can be on Miyuki's terms, just like he wants. Furuya is learning how to appeal to him! Gradually. If his tactics even work.

[satoushu]

Doesn’t everything sound awkward coming from Furuya, though? He’s still mentally beating himself up over the “thanks” (unnatural thing to say!) when Miyuki texts him again.

Somewhere he wants to go? Furuya squints at his phone. Oh, he should not have asked about this without a plan. Not even a full fledged plan, just the beginnings of a plan. A single idea, that would help! He rewinds the conversation in his mind a bit, back to when he had asked Miyuki what sorts of things people did on dates. Let’s see… Well, they had already established that going to a movie was a bad idea, because they wouldn’t be interacting at all and Furuya would most definitely fall asleep, unless it was some sort of nature documentary which Miyuki definitely wouldn’t be interested in. No movies. Going out to eat seems boring, because they eat together in the cafeteria all the time, but being surrounded by a bunch of noisy teammates is different than going out one-on-one with someone. They could go get ice cream or something, but… no, Miyuki said he doesn’t like sweet things. Ugh, this is hard!

He perks up a bit at the follow up message. Take turns? That sounds like they’ll go on at least two dates! That would be nice.

Focus, you idiot. Furuya shakes his head, staring at the screen. Surely there’s something that’s not too sleepy for Furuya to handle, but not too boring, but also would be enjoyable, just the two of them.

And then, miraculously, Furuya Satoru actually has an idea, as though the baseball gods had pitched a fastball directly into his brain.

[text] cat cafe

He’s proud of himself for this one, actually. Normal idea. Not too romantic, not too distant, it’s something Furuya likes, and as far as he knows Miyuki isn’t allergic. Also, there will be other people around in case Miyuki… well, who knows what he would do. Start making out with him? Run away? Either way, neither of those options are possible in public, so it’s safer.

[text] we can pay for an hour or something and get free drinks [text] and pet cats [text] and talk i guess

If Miyuki was looking at him right now, he would see Furuya exhibiting a very self-satisfied aura, almost smiling. He’s proud of himself for coming up with an idea for a social interaction that’s somewhat serviceable. It’s probably ridiculous that he’s that proud of himself, but hey. Baby steps.

hows that sound? he types, then deletes the text before sending it. What if Miyuki directly says no? He doesn’t have a second backup idea. From this moment onward, Furuya has decided this is the plan, and he will be stubborn about it.

[text] do you like cats?

[kazuyayukki]

well the captain did say that they could take turns in going anywhere they would like to, so it’s a nice compromise for both of them. indulging even, going out to do something other than baseball would be a nice change of airs. even furuya would be more motivated, maybe? it’s no good to just being focused on one thing only, distractions can work for everyday life, miyuki thought like the hypocrite he was. but that shouldn’t apply to his junior! not at all.

so miyuki would be lying if he said that he was not actually surprised about a cat cafe. blinked several times while looking at the screen it was an… interesting choice, for lack of better word.

[text]: mmm now that you mention it, it sounds nice [text]: stress free too! very thoughtful of you♡

compromise, just compromise and indulge the latter, very simple. everybody wins (debatable).

[text]: well i guess i do [text]: i was not able to have a cat, only fed the street cats very once in a while when i was younger [text]: do you? you seem like a cat person. a dog would have too much energy or so i’ve heard.

[satoushu]

Stress free? Maybe to Miyuki. Every option is full of stress for Furuya. But if it's low pressure for Miyuki, then he's succeeded on some level.

Furuya stares at the messages for a while, zoning in on the nice and the little heart emoji. Of course, over text, it's impossible to tell if Miyuki is making fun of him. He probably is. But at least he's making fun in a way that makes him feel good?

[text] thats very nice of you miyuki senpai [text] of course i do [text] why would i suggest

Too late, Furuya realizes he probably shouldn't be so sarcastic, but instead of deleting the message, he winds up sending it half-finished instead.

Well! Time to pretend that never happened.

[text] i dont mind high energy animals [text] high energy people are the problem

Should he be embarrassed? Maybe. He's trying to be more genuine these days, though. At least with Miyuki.

[text] but i think it would be easier for me to have a cat [text] i wouldnt want to walk a dog in the summer here [text] but back home it would be fun to have a dog to play with in the snow

What is he doing? Why is he texting so damn much all of a sudden? Furuya takes a deep breath. Miyuki already thinks he's strange and uncommunicative, and now he's going to be put off by this string of oversharing texts about something Miyuki probably doesnt care about at all.

[text] when are you free to go

Good, getting back on track with a nice, practical text. He's nailing this!

[satoushu]

Well, of course he gave Furuya that impression — by nitpicking about this in the first place? He's going to push back again, just because arguing is easier, but —

Ah... he apologized?

Furuya blinks. That's... not very like Miyuki, he thinks. At least, it hadn't been in the past. His senpai does nothing but torment him and others, never shying away from blunt words and sarcastic quips to get what he wants. And if anyone calls him out on it, he doubles down.

And he'd noticed that Miyuki hadn't liked the idea of him being jealous. So then, why is he backing down and saying it was never bad? Isn't jealousy, by nature of the emotion, a bad thing to feel?

Having the power to give or take forgiveness from Miyuki is kind of nice, though. For all he torments Furuya, he deserves to squirm sometimes.

(Is Furuya really much better of a person?)

"...Okay, that's fine." It's too embarrassing to outright say I forgive you, so this will have to do. Not sure what else to say, he takes a step forward and peers at Miyuki's face closer, trying to determine if he's being teased or lied to. So much for his halfhearted I trust you from before.

"You're cute, too." And now he's changing the subject to something probably more embarrassing for both of them! This conversation is going great.

[kazuyayukki]

okay, crisis avoided for the time being. success, maybe? or not, but miyuki is willing to compromise for the sake of everyone's mood and avoid questions if someone happened to notice a change in furuya's demeanor. the younger one was too easy to read, or it was because of how much time they have spent that the catcher started to notice little things and habits. which, goes back to the point that he does find furuya cute- alright, now he has to stop thinking, at all.

previous distance they had was reduced all thanks to the pitcher, good thing he was wearing glasses or he would've blinked way more faster to cut out the eye contact. "am i?" it wasn't sarcasm nor ill intended at all, hardly anyone would agree that miyuki is cute, a more correct adjective would be that he was a 'cool' person (as described by fans, not his peers), but 'cute'? no way. "you might be the only person who thinks that" and he let out a soft laugh.

(was miyuki now embarrassed? yes, can they please move one now? thank you).

[satoushu]

Furuya blinks too, surprised by the reaction. Normally he would expect something cheeky back from Miyuki, like: Aw, you think I’m cute? And then he would dodge responding in a proper manner, as he does.

But that am I? sounds so genuine. Like Miyuki can’t even believe he could be cute.

“The only person…?” Surely that’s not true. Everybody thinks Miyuki is — well, maybe not cute per se, but attractive? Furuya hears girls in his own class talk about Miyuki sometimes (which in turn makes Sawamura complain about him loudly). “Well, I want to be the only person who tells you that.”

Ah. Perhaps that was a bit much.

Furuya’s cheeks go a bit pink, and he looks away, anywhere but at Miyuki’s face, as he fiddles with his bangs. That’s… hmm. Well, he means it, but that’s the problem, isn’t it? Miyuki tolerates him, and has used him for some fun — and Furuya would never say no to that — but it’s not like he has those intense feelings that Furuya grapples with. Miyuki sees him as a helpless kouhai, and pities him. And at the end of the day, he’s not serious about what they have… not like Furuya is.

But Furuya just can’t help but express that seriousness anyway. Even if his straightforward desires make the person he cares about most run away from him.

“I…” Is he sorry? He almost apologizes before realizing he has no remorse at all. “Well. You’re less cute when you make fun of me.”

Is that enough damage control for this situation? Probably not.

[kazuyayukki]

"i was not scolding you--" now he was getting defensive. the most logical and mature way to further handle this would be for miyuki to shut up / listen to what the latter had to say / and finally, apologize for cornering furuya and making him feel like he's walking on thin ice. but in the end, they were both teenagers / in a relationship -of sorts? yes, let's put it that way- / doing stuff couples do / having feelings that the catcher REFUSED with all his might to acknowledge because he firmly believed that he was just amusing furuya / who would eventually, get tired of all this and realize that the world is a big pond with better fishes to catch / to meet.

it's not the end of the world, really-- but maybe relationships were harder than miyuki thought. actually, he already knew that because he was just remembering a certain someone... not that furuya needed to know that part, as many more things he just avoided to speak about at all.

"hey, look..." besides being uncomfortable, this conversation was also exhausting. "it's never bad to feel jealous" was this a deja vu? feels like there was a conversation like this before at some point on his life. "if i did something to give you that impression, i'm sorry". raising that white flag now.

[satoushu]

Well, of course he gave Furuya that impression — by nitpicking about this in the first place? He's going to push back again, just because arguing is easier, but —

Ah... he apologized?

Furuya blinks. That's... not very like Miyuki, he thinks. At least, it hadn't been in the past. His senpai does nothing but torment him and others, never shying away from blunt words and sarcastic quips to get what he wants. And if anyone calls him out on it, he doubles down.

And he'd noticed that Miyuki hadn't liked the idea of him being jealous. So then, why is he backing down and saying it was never bad? Isn't jealousy, by nature of the emotion, a bad thing to feel?

Having the power to give or take forgiveness from Miyuki is kind of nice, though. For all he torments Furuya, he deserves to squirm sometimes.

(Is Furuya really much better of a person?)

"...Okay, that's fine." It's too embarrassing to outright say I forgive you, so this will have to do. Not sure what else to say, he takes a step forward and peers at Miyuki's face closer, trying to determine if he's being teased or lied to. So much for his halfhearted I trust you from before.

"You're cute, too." And now he's changing the subject to something probably more embarrassing for both of them! This conversation is going great.

[kazuyayukki]

well sorry for trying to move on from this! is what miyuki would say, if only it hasn't started to become a bit uncomfortable for his liking. funny that he would rather just not admit something as simple when he had pushed the latter into a corner. what a hypocrite.

"i... " now he was speechles, perhaps he can still fix it? "i don't think i ever implied that being jealous is bad" because it's natural to have feelings- didn't matter if it was something positive or negative. maybe this is the thanks the catcher gets from the universe when he tries to encourage the latter to be more open regarding what he feels / what he wants / what he... desires? wasn't that the same as 'wanting'? well, whatever.

[satoushu]

"No, you seemed like you were scolding me," he insists. Furuya might not be able to read the room to save his life, but he can at least read a giant neon sign in huge print. And it's kind of annoying that Miyuki is acting like he didn't imply that? Why did he even bring it up, then???

From what he remembered from Sawamura's shoujo manga, jealousy was sometimes an attractive quality that pushed romances forward. In that case, he wonders what it is about Miyuki that makes that trait not work for him. Probably his insistence that he needs distance all the time? Miyuki certainly isn't clingy, not like he is.

Now that he thinks of it, why was he even that jealous? Miyuki barely even seems to make attachments with people. Just talking to others doesn't mean anything with him.

Hmm.

"I'll be less like that, then." Miyuki might not admit that it makes him uncomfortable, but Furuya prides himself on having figured out... anything about this guy. That being said, if he catches Miyuki being jealous in the future, Furuya is going to call him out on it immediately. No way will he forget this.

[kazuyayukki]

"i'm not saying you are stupid-- it was just an example" there was really no reason to take it that seriously, geez. did he had to explain everything a point? just as when he was about to say something else to further prove said point, his eyes happened to interlock with furuya's. it was not like him to back down from a challenge, even if this was not really a challenge of sorts? how did a serious conversation turn to this? maybe he really should've let it rot away from a start-- although he couldn't have really bear the thought of furuya sulking the rest of the week because of him.

a hand on his face, a sigh. defeated. "can we move on from this?" asking too much, perhaps? who knows at this point. "pretty sure my point was clear". no need to point out the obvious.

cont. // @satoushu

[satoushu]

Isn't Miyuki the one who forced him into this conversation in the first place? "...Fine." Sure, whatever, they can move on. But really, it's completely non-self-aware of Miyuki to think that he ever makes clear points! Everything he says is some kind of obnoxious, obscure, indirect riddle, because he just can't be direct about anything.

He wonders what he can even get out of this conversation.

"Well... if I have other qualities you like, then it shouldn't matter that I'm jealous." This is the conclusion Furuya decides to come to. Doesn't Miyuki want Furuya to like him and chase after him? Isn't this why they decided to have this kind of relationship in the first place?

"Thanks for complimenting me, Miyuki-senpai," he adds. This time, the honorific is spoken sarcastically.

[satoushu]

ofmiracles​:

while furuya was there, doing his best at not leaving the conversation hanging, miyuki threw his phone on the side for a bit because wow, how bold can that dude be? incredible. miyuki was amazed by this even. the catcher lets the phone be, until it stops vibrating from the texts.

[ text ]: ohhh a real date [ text ]: greedy monster~

that was supposed to be a pet name, of sorts? kinda.

[ text ]: i have this week busy, yeah [ text ]: have to start looking on some things regarding college

not looking forward to that, but had to.

[ text ]: next one sounds good?

did he really just accept going out on a date? yes. is he looking forward to it? lowkey not, but he had to be a good… boyfriend, whatever.

Greedy – ?! Furuya blushes furiously, glad Miyuki can’t see the pained face he’s making. He’s used to being called monster as an insult, but… not like this. And he’s not sure how to feel about it either. It’s between kind of cute, embarrassing, and also mortifying somehow?

[text]: okay

He doesn’t want to think too deeply about Miyuki graduating and leaving, so he puts that thought aside for what he hopes is a long time. 

[text]: id like that [text]: thanks

Saying “thanks” is kind of weird when it comes to something like this, actually. Furuya notices, but only after he’s sent the text. Oh well.

[text]: i dont really have ideas though [text]: whatever you want to do

[ofmiracles-archive]

what is he even saying ‘thanks’ for? it felt awkward coming from the pitcher, though miyuki decided to discard the thought and not dwell on it.

there was a nudging feeling on the back of his mind, that this might have been a terrible idea. oh well, there’s no use to take back his words, he’s gonna give it time before furuya decides this relationship is not going anywhere. yep, that was the plan.

[text]: well, isn’t there somewhere you want to go? [text]: or we can just [text]: i don’t know, one take turns to choose what to do?

well, at the very least he was trying.

[satoushu]

Doesn't everything sound awkward coming from Furuya, though? He's still mentally beating himself up over the "thanks" (unnatural thing to say!) when Miyuki texts him again.

Somewhere he wants to go? Furuya squints at his phone. Oh, he should not have asked about this without a plan. Not even a full fledged plan, just the beginnings of a plan. A single idea, that would help! He rewinds the conversation in his mind a bit, back to when he had asked Miyuki what sorts of things people did on dates. Let's see... Well, they had already established that going to a movie was a bad idea, because they wouldn't be interacting at all and Furuya would most definitely fall asleep, unless it was some sort of nature documentary which Miyuki definitely wouldn't be interested in. No movies. Going out to eat seems boring, because they eat together in the cafeteria all the time, but being surrounded by a bunch of noisy teammates is different than going out one-on-one with someone. They could go get ice cream or something, but... no, Miyuki said he doesn't like sweet things. Ugh, this is hard!

He perks up a bit at the follow up message. Take turns? That sounds like they'll go on at least two dates! That would be nice.

Focus, you idiot. Furuya shakes his head, staring at the screen. Surely there's something that's not too sleepy for Furuya to handle, but not too boring, but also would be enjoyable, just the two of them.

And then, miraculously, Furuya Satoru actually has an idea, as though the baseball gods had pitched a fastball directly into his brain.

[text] cat cafe

He's proud of himself for this one, actually. Normal idea. Not too romantic, not too distant, it's something Furuya likes, and as far as he knows Miyuki isn't allergic. Also, there will be other people around in case Miyuki... well, who knows what he would do. Start making out with him? Run away? Either way, neither of those options are possible in public, so it's safer.

[text] we can pay for an hour or something and get free drinks [text] and pet cats [text] and talk i guess

If Miyuki was looking at him right now, he would see Furuya exhibiting a very self-satisfied aura, almost smiling. He's proud of himself for coming up with an idea for a social interaction that's somewhat serviceable. It's probably ridiculous that he's that proud of himself, but hey. Baby steps.

hows that sound? he types, then deletes the text before sending it. What if Miyuki directly says no? He doesn't have a second backup idea. From this moment onward, Furuya has decided this is the plan, and he will be stubborn about it.

[text] do you like cats?

[satoushu]

ofmiracles​:

a horrible decision to be dating miyuki, but one of his few perks was that he was so good at provocation that he jut so managed to get the worst side of people. and in this case, wasn’t that a good thing? furuya always seemed so awkward / shy / clumsy, or so are miyuki’s thoughts every since they started dating. sometimes couldn’t help but wonder if furuya had another side to him at something that didn’t have to do with baseball. and how he enjoyed to be right.

of course, there comes the consequences of his own actions. “oh, you’re being a brat now~ using my own words against me, how scary♡” but that’s okay, he’ll let it go for now, for the sake of his boner. some regret might come back to bite him in the ass later but no matter, that was not important right now. for now, he’ll say what the latter wants. “i want you to take off the rest of my clothes”, breathy kisses were planted on furuya’s neck, reaching his ear just so he can whisper with the lust lingering in every word. “and fuck me to your heart’s content♡~” a little too much? yes. was he embarrassed? not at all! decency just flew out the window like it was nothing.

He should have known that Miyuki would throw whatever he said back in his face. How typical of him. Yet even despite that, Furuya hadn’t been prepared for the... intensity of the response. Okay. Okay, breathe. That sure was... direct. He wants to do that, or at least he thinks he does, with what little knowledge he has, but... Furuya, who rarely thinks, is weighing pros and cons of responding to this in kind. If he complies, and they get caught, that’s the end of all of this forever. If he says no, Miyuki might be upset with him briefly, but at least their relationship could be mended later. The long term is more important. He doesn’t want to let Miyuki go now.

Ugh, why does Furuya have to be the logical one about this? It’s so backwards.

“We’re at school,” Furuya reminds him, even as each of Miyuki’s kisses sends a shiver down his spine. “I like seeing you like this,” he admits softly, “but...” He’s going to regret this later when he’s alone in bed thinking about this, but it has to be done. “Not here,” he says. “And I don’t...” He impulsively kisses Miyuki on the lips this time, gently, just to delay the inevitable being laughed at. “...know how.” Okay, okay, he’s admitting it outright. At least he could get some points for honesty? Miyuki has touched him before, and he’s mimicked that in return, but going further? Furuya swallows. “I want to, but it has to be in private.” Laying down one single ground rule for his inevitable future embarrassment when he’s terrible at it. “And I’ll -- I’ll need you to help guide me. Without laughing,” he adds with a scowl, because he can already sense Miyuki about to laugh at him for this much. “You’re going to laugh at me, aren’t you?”

[satoushu]

ofmiracles​:

miyuki is definitely enjoying the risk if he had to be fair. won’t say it out loud of course, he simply smiles at furuya’s questions, said questions not having answers because they don’t need to state the obvious, right? “then i guess you’ll have to deal with my stupidity♡~” it was too much, but again, it was a nice feeling, being wanted / being worshiped. it was all nice for miyuki, even if he doesn’t voice out his thoughts. furuya didn’t need to know that / how miyuki felt weak / vulnerable. ah, there comes the intrusive thoughts, gotta distract himself before he sours the mood by himself!

“isn’t it hot, though?” voice was low, his chest still pressing against furuya’s all while sighing from the kisses on his jaw. more. “the mere thought of someone walking in, seeing us like this”. voice trails off as his hips move again, this time in small circles that makes miyuki moan a little, just a little. the layers of clothing were bothersome now. “and how people will know that i’m yours?♡~ no one would dare to try and claim me” damn, now he really hoped no one dared to walked in because that would be a bone killer.

Yeah, guess so. What’s Furuya going to do, complain about it? Break up with him? Hah, as if. He likes the guy too much, unfortunately. Even when he’s aware of Miyuki’s flaws, and the things that frustrate him... frustration is kind of one step away from being turned on, so it works out?

Miyuki’s moan surprises him, sends a warm tingle down his spine, and Furuya goes back to kissing him, trailing them up his jaw a bit more aggressively. “Nobody will try,” Furuya murmurs, right up against Miyuki’s ear, then nibbles on the other’s earlobe. “I won’t let them... you’re mine, after all.” Something had entirely shifted when Miyuki had said I’m yours, something that had lit a fire in his gut and made him forget about his shyness moments prior. He tilts his head back to face Miyuki directly, eyes blazing with an intensity that Miyuki had probably only ever seen on the mound. Furuya’s gaze trails from Miyuki’s face to his chest, and for half a second, he even smiles -- what a rare expression, coming from him. “I won’t let you take that back, either.” For once, there’s no wavering in the tone of his voice. “Whether you meant it or not.” Forceful now, aren’t we? 

He doesn’t know what possesses him to do it, but he moves the hand on Miyuki’s waist up and into his hair, giving it a slight yank. “Fine. If we get caught, I’ll leave the explaining to you, senpai.” People say Miyuki is devious, but Furuya can be just as selfish and awful if given the chance. With his other hand he traces Miyuki’s waistband, that overintense look still in his eyes. “You talk too much, and never don’t say anything. Tell me what you want.” A pause. “With that cute mouth of yours.” Yep, he’s using Miyuki’s words against him now. Why shouldn’t he?

[satoushu]

ofmiracles​:

a soft hum emanates from him, breath hitching while feeling lips against his neck. a firm grip on furuya’s shoulders since yes, he is sensitive to that area, would actually be lovely if furuya gave it more attention– probably it was the desire talking but no matter, it felt nice, could get used to this / could not get attached to this but those thoughts were shoved back in a dark corner of his brain.

“mm”, then laughs a bit at the nervousness. “only if you want” reassures the latter, though he doesn’t wait for a confirmation as his hands move to help the pitcher with the shirt, all buttons were off and his hands kept moving / appreciating the latter’s body from his chest to his torso, humming at how firm it felt under his touch, supposed that’s what happens when you practice a sport. “mm you’re attractive”, says out loud, probably not meaning to although couldn’t help it.

hands stop around furuya’s torso, thinking what he should do next, should they keep going? / just go with the flow? it was a little too much, even if they were both riled up. also they kind of still were in a public place -and miyuki also very into the ‘we’re could be caught at any minute’ kink but of course won’t say that aloud, thank you very much-, should they go back to his room? oh, how nosy it was to be overthinking things. “are you sure?” questions, still needing that furuya is not having second thoughts -and kind of hoping the pitcher was having said second thoughts?- it would be a let down of sorts, but he would understand. “are you sure you wanna keep going?” he asks again. and being the bastard he was, the catcher pressed his chest against furuya’s, and made his hips move to cause a bit of friction against furuya’s crotch. nothing like being a hypocrite, right?

It isn’t the first time Furuya’s been told he’s attractive (or handsome, or pretty, or some other iteration of the word) and he’s aware that there are plenty of girls in his own class who feel that way. But hearing it from Miyuki, who doesn’t hand out compliments freely... he has to hold back another whimper, and he doesn’t do a very good job of it, because a tiny sound still comes out. When Miyuki feels his chest, the touch feels like flames against his skin, and he squirms slightly. Being admired... it’s a lot. All of this is a lot.

Of course he’s having second thoughts, because for all his obliviousness, he’s aware they’re still at school, not in Miyuki’s room with the door locked, which would at least be safer. Furuya wonders if he wants to put him through the risk to test him, or if Miyuki is just enjoying the risk. But Miyuki presses up against him before he can respond, and he gasps, his grip tightening against Miyuki’s waist. His own hips move to meet Miyuki’s without thought, and the sensation that rushes over him is enough to push any words from his mind. How -- how is he supposed to answer when Miyuki is touching him -- and -- ?

“Senpai,” he manages in a half whisper. “You...”  Furuya’s hand, the one not on Miyuki’s waist, makes its way to Miyuki’s chest, admiringly trailing down his skin and resting on his thigh. “Like... doing this in here, don’t you?” Okay, asking about this in the middle of... this... is probably a stupid idea. “Like... in your room. When you didn’t lock your door.” He tugs Miyuki closer, taking a shuddering breath at their proximity, at their laps pressed against one another, and he digs his nails into Miyuki’s thigh. “Stupid... you’re stupid.” Scolding him may not be very good dirty talk. Whatever. “Mm... of course I’m sure. I...” Furuya swallows. “Want you,” he manages, leaning forward to kiss Miyuki’s jawline. “Always have.” A little too much, maybe?