Sayori

Sayori, 18, lit club VP. Welcome to my blog! I hope you have a great time :) // semi-serious rp blog, mostly for the Clutter Dimension. dark and disturbing themes may be present. mod is 21

[sayorixd]

// Notes about this blog.

1. This blog is associated with @monikax3, @yurixc, and @natsuki83. By which I mean I run all of them. Read Monika’s pinned post because it’s more in depth.

2. This is primarily a Clutter Dimension blog, but I am open to other interaction as well. I explain that a bit more on Monika’s pinned post, but basically just send me an ask or message if you want to do something that is outside of the Clutter Dimension.

3. Sayori is self aware too. Basically, inside the Clutter Dimension, she can read tags and send asks sometimes.

4. I use the same tagging organization for all my blogs. I explain it on Monika’s pinned post. I feel like they are pretty self explanatory except for the tag “#ask prompt”, which is for any post that encourages people to send starters or m!as that are not part of a list. I also use “#meme” for jokes and shitposts, not for roleplay memes.

5. Here are the links for the other pages on this blog:

https://sayorixd.tumblr.com/sayorichr

https://sayorixd.tumblr.com/specialpoems

Sprites and transparents that I use for icons are from ddlcsprites.

[holeinwallpoem]

Hi all. So…you may have noticed that I have been inactive for a while. On all my roleplay blogs.

I’ve gotten busy this semester (though that seems to happen every semester) and haven’t had the time or motivation to reply to threads. I apologize for going mia.

It’s been getting a bit…well, cluttered checking all the blogs I’ve made. So…I made a multimuse blog and will probably be moving all roleplaying there. It’s @olivesgardenrp. I’m just finishing getting it set up. It’s gonna be low activity for now. Check it out if you want

[sayorixd]

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[moonpiehelps]

Send me a scene that happened in canon and I’ll write in detail how my muse felt in it!

[horrificmemes]

Horrific Headcanons part 2

Since it’s one of my most popular memes, here is a part 2 to THIS meme, all about RP muse headcanons that are dark, angsty, or horror/scifi-related!

😇 Does your muse pretend to be innocent if they’ve done something wrong? 😈 Are they a deceitful person, and do they see themselves as such?  👁 Have they ever been a stalker, or been stalked themselves? 👀 What is the most disturbing thing they’ve ever seen? 😴 Would they ever choose to die in their sleep? Why or why not? 😡 What would someone have to make them lash out in violent anger? 🎃 If they were to play a mean trick on Halloween, what would they do and who would be their target? 👥 Is there anyone they wish they had never met? 🤡 Do they have any phobias or irrational fears? ❌ Would they consider themselves easy to corrupt? Already corrupted? 🤞  What is one of the biggest lies they’ve told (or their most recent lie)? 🥀 How would they handle the death of a loved one? (optional: specify person) 🔫 Would they ever sacrifice someone in order to save their own life? 💣 Name one dangerous experience they survived. 🍗 Have they ever wondered what human tasted like? Or do they know? 🎵 If they were going to torture someone, what music would they play while they did it? 👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨 How would they react if the person they fell in love with turned out to be a criminal? 😍How would they react if the person they fell in love with turned out to be non-human? 😪 Name one thing someone could say or do to make your muse cry. 🦋Would they choose to die if it meant they’d come back as someone stronger? 👄If your muse had the ‘kiss of death’, would they ever use it?    🗣When is the last time they yelled at someone in anger? 🍼 Would they have a family with someone who was not of the same species/human-ness as them? 👤 If they could switch bodies or lives with any one person, who would it be? 👽What would they do if they witnessed an alien ship crash landing? 🤑Would they commit a brutal murder if it meant they would become rich? 👣Do they believe in Bigfoot? What about other legendary creatures? 💥If the world were ending, would they be satisfied with their life? 🔥 In a fire, they can only save three things (including people). Who/what do they save? 🍷 What would they do if someone slipped them a slow-killing poison? 😱When was the last time they were shocked or startled? 🦉Could they stay calm lost in the woods all night by themselves? 🐲Were they afraid of monsters under the bed as a child? 🎧How would they react after hearing an unexplained sound while home alone? 🏡How much would they have to be offered to live in a haunted house for a month? 🙀Do they believe animals have extra senses that people don’t? 🔪What do they think is scarier: a killer with a gun, or a killer skilled with a knife? 👻If they were a ghost, what methods would they use to haunt someone? 🔮They have a premonition that something terrible will happen to them. How do they handle the situation? 🔭Do they have a fear of the unknown and things they can’t explain?

[horrificmemes]

Horrific Headcanons

Send a symbol for a headcanon about my muse. All horror/angst/scifi related.

✘ Have they ever committed a murder? ▼ What is their greatest fear? ✿ Would they ever trust dark or wicked magic? △ Name one thing from their past that they regret. ✂ If they had to choose one weapon to carry forever, what would it be? ☣ Would they kill someone close to them if they had to? ☢ Would they survive an apocalyptic situation? ❣ If someone had the power to bring them back after death, would they want them to? ☠ Do they fear death? ♱ What do they think awaits them after death? ¿ Are they easily frightened? ╳ How would they react to seeing a loved one become possessed? ☹ Name one person they would kill for. ☼ If they had the choice to be immortal with one other person, who would they choose? ☎ How would they react to receiving a phone call from a deceased love one? ★ Do they have a favorite scary movie? Book? Show? ♣ Do they believe the world is made up of good and evil? ♥ Have they ever acting out of heartlessness? ☾ What is their favorite and least favorite thing about the night? ψ Do they think they deserve punishment for their wrongdoings? ϟ Have they ever gotten pleasure from causing others pain? ♚ Do they consider themselves to be evil? ♒ If they could choose how to die, how would they want to go? ™ Are they possessive? ✔ Are they holding a grudge against anyone? ◯ Do they believe in ghosts? ✦ Who is their favorite villain? ☄ While watching a scary movie, are they the one clinging to a friend or being clung to? 웃 Do they believe in aliens?

[sayorixd]

Eh- it’s me again…can I talk to you about something… not so pleasant @omnitheplayer

Hi Omni! Yeah of course! You can talk to me about anything

[sayorixd]

aliceplayer-syn​:

Omni smiled “thanks…. And don’t forget if you need anything I’d be happy to help, it’s what friends do” she replied with a smile leaning over to give Sayori a gentle hug.

Sayori gave Omni a gentle squeeze back. Her vision felt a little blurry as tears welled in her eyes. She hadn’t meant to do that either. But that was okay. As long as Omni was okay.

“Yeah,” Sayori agreed in a soft voice. She let out a light laugh. “Friends help each other.”

[sayorixd]

This ides of March, we will have a stab-free reading event

[sayorixd]

aliceplayer-syn​:

Aw- that sounds nice

And it has a good message

I’m sure it cans help some people who are in a tough spot

Give them hope

And assure them to keep trying

Yeah!!!!

I’m not sure about the ending......I always feel like I’m not great at endings. They feel too abrupt. But then it’s like the story can’t continue because there’s no more story left, and everything has to end at some point. Things can’t just go on forever

What do you think about the ending?

[sayorixd]

Eh- it’s me again…can I talk to you about something… not so pleasant @omnitheplayer

Hi Omni! Yeah of course! You can talk to me about anything

[sayorixd]

aliceplayer-syn​:

Omni listened silently as Sayori spoke putting a hand on her shoulder in attempt to reassure her.

“Ah- I understand, sometimes I’m depressed too, usually when my anxiousness is at its worse” she replied with a sympathetic smile.

“Maybe we can help each other- to try and get past this I mean” she suggested with a nervous smile.

Sayori regetted saying anything. Now Omni was trying to comfort her, when it was supposed to be the other way around. She had messed up.

Those thoughts weren’t helping right now. “Thank you, Omni. I want to help you get through these feelings. Please tell me if there’s anything you need, or if there’s anything you don’t want me to do.” She gave a smile and reached up to Omni’s hand, placing her own hand on top of it.

[sayorixd]

This ides of March, we will have a stab-free reading event

[sayorixd]

aliceplayer-syn​:

Yeah, but it usually feels out of reach

Even if it really isn’t

Sounds like a good metaphore

Even after you fix something sometimes you just can’t bring it back to how it originally was

Yes, maybe the cat can try and show her while it isn’t like new

That doesn’t mean it’s not special and that it’s still worth something.

You’re right!!! Everything has worth to someone. Just like everyone is special!

And sometimes after something has been “broken”, it’s always gonna be different after that. But different isn’t bad. Neither are the scars that show you survived hardship.

And...I have an idea for the last task now! The magical cat sees the lady fixed the jar and tells her to put the clovers in there, and since she didn’t pick enough to fill the jar, she has to fill the rest with starlight. But it’s impossible, because you can’t catch starlight, and it would be selfish to try, because that keeps it from other people. And that’s why the lady loves the stars so much. Because they shine for everyone.

So the lady can’t catch starlight, but she keeps trying. It’s impossible. She wants to give up, but just as she does, she finds the cat again. He says he’ll grant her desire. She wants to be able to see the stars, so he turns her into a star. And she shines above everyone. The end.

[sayorixd]

Eh- it’s me again…can I talk to you about something… not so pleasant @omnitheplayer

Hi Omni! Yeah of course! You can talk to me about anything

[sayorixd]

omnitheplayer​:

Omni nodded “it worries my girlfriend and friends… I know it isn’t healthy but I don’t know how to stop” she replied quietly.

“I know I should see someone… but I struggle trusting people enough to talk about my feelings, I need to get to know someone first…” Alice replied whilst looking at her feet see,img ashamed.

Sayori nodded. “Yeah, I understand. I felt the same way. It’s really hard for me to open up about certain things still.”

She looked Omni in the eye like she was searching her expression, or testing whether or not she should continue. When she spoke, it was in a more solemn tone. “I have depression.” Her gaze drifted downwards as she spoke the words, then lifted again to meet Omni’s. “And it’s...a challenge, sometimes, to deal with it,” she continued. “I’ve done some not-great things to cope with it, and something that I thought was best for me in the moment now just gives me nightmares and guilt.”

Sayori gave Omni a bittersweet smile. “I guess what I’m trying to say is, I don’t know exactly how you feel, but I want you to know you’re not alone in struggling. No one is. And it may take time to find what works for you, but you should never stop trying.”

[sayorixd]

This ides of March, we will have a stab-free reading event

[sayorixd]

omnitheplayer​:

Trying to recover from something maybe

That can be hard

That’s true...but it’s not always out of reach. At least I hope it’s not. But trying is the important part

Maybe one of the tasks the woman has is to fix a broken jar. And all the pieces are shattered, and she has to gather them all up and rearrange them back in order so it’s like new. But even when she puts them back together, you can still see the cracks where each of the pieces broke before, and there are some small pieces missing. And she’s sad, because she couldn’t do it right, but she tried her best and that matters. And sometimes things don’t go back to the way they were before, and that’s okay.

Thanks for the idea Omni!! I think I want to have one more challenge in the story. Maybe the magical cat sees that the lady fixed the jar, even though you can still tell it was broken before, and tells her to fill it with...something. I don’t know what.

[sayorixd]

Eh- it’s me again…can I talk to you about something… not so pleasant @omnitheplayer

Hi Omni! Yeah of course! You can talk to me about anything

[sayorixd]

omnitheplayer​:

Omni nodded sheepishly “yeah- my girlfriend is trying to get me to talk to a therapist so I can work through my issues…” she explained giving Sayori a nervous smile.

“I probably need to work on something I can do when I don’t have my girlfriend there to support me… my only coping strategy at the moment is respawning and I don’t think that’s healthy” Alice added hoping she wouldn’t have to explain how respawning could be a coping strategy she didn’t want to worry anyone else.

Sayori showed a concerned expression, but then tried to hide it. If “respawning” meant what she thought it did...well, it didn’t sound good.

“Well, not all coping mechanisms are healthy,” Sayori said. “Some things that seem to help in the moment end up making things worse in the long run.”

“I’ve actually been seeing a therapist,” Sayori admitted. “But I’ve also learned a lot of these things from online resources. Therapy can really help some people learn new coping strategies and move away from harmful ones, but I know how scary it can be at first, especially if you’re not used to talking about your feelings.”

[sayorixd]

This ides of March, we will have a stab-free reading event

[sayorixd]

omnitheplayer​:

I’m glad you like the idea

Maybe the challenges can be based of things people often try to do but always seem somehow out of reach.

I like that too!!! Hm......what kinds of things to people try to do but are always out of reach?

[sayorixd]

Eh- it’s me again…can I talk to you about something… not so pleasant @omnitheplayer

Hi Omni! Yeah of course! You can talk to me about anything

[sayorixd]

omnitheplayer​:

Omni smiled and hugged her back lightly, she wasn’t used to physical contact- the only person she had hugged in so long was Ellie.

“I’m not really sure I’ve found something good that helps me yet… my only coping strategy just makes other people worry about me more” Alice added quietly.

“Thanks… I don’t feel that way often… just like I’m running away from my problems all the time”

Sayori pulled away, not wanting to make Omni too uncomfortable with prolonged contact.

“It seems to me like you’re ready to face them,” Sayori told her. “Asking for help isn’t easy. If you’re taking that first step, then you’re already one step closer to dealing with your struggles. You don’t have to face everything head on and alone.”

She gave Omni a soft smile. “Distractions won’t always work in the long run. When you’re alone with your thoughts, sometimes the thoughts you’re trying to get away from will pop up again. Shifting your focus to something else can help when they’re really hard to put up with.”

[sayorixd]

This ides of March, we will have a stab-free reading event

[sayorixd]

omnitheplayer​:

That sounds sweet

And very heartfelt

Maybe the other tasks can symbolise something meaningful

Maybe they can help playing into your message that sometimes trying is all you can do

And that it’s enough

I like that idea!! And that’s a really sweet message! I wasn’t even thinking of that when I was coming up with the ideas!

But you’re right. Sometimes trying really is all you can do, and that’s still enough.

[sayorixd]

Eh- it’s me again…can I talk to you about something… not so pleasant @omnitheplayer

Hi Omni! Yeah of course! You can talk to me about anything

[sayorixd]

omnitheplayer​:

“Yeah- my girlfriend helps me with that and lets me talk about my feelings she’s also been through some similar things to me” Alice replied with a small smile

“Maybe we could channel the negative thoughts into the writing to help get them out of our heads- maybe it will help us feel better” she suggested awkwardly, she wasn’t sided ti talking about this with anyone other then Ellie.

“Yes… a hug would be nice” Omni replied

Sayori wrapped her arms around Omni in a secure hug.

“Physical contact helps me a lot,” Sayori said in a low voice. “When I’m remembering bad things, it can help ground me to the present and remind me I’m safe now. And, besides, hug energy keeps me at my best!” she giggled.

“You’re really brave, Omni.”