Leilani: It's not that easy! YOU know better than anyone it's not that easy, the only difference is that I didn't try to throw myself into a relationship with someone who was nice and kind and easy just because I could! Maybe I shouldn't have kissed Bori either, but at least I tried to make it clear that I was confused and that we weren't committed to each other and that he didn't owe me anything while I was trying to sort other stupid feelings that I never wanted out! I thought they would go away, or... or I don't know! I don't know how to deal with any of this, it's all been really confusing and I didn't have my best friend to help me make it less confusing, I had to do it all by myself and I messed it up, I messed it up a lot, but it's not like I sat down trying to ruin everything for you on purpose!
Leilani: It's easy to think you'd never do something like that until you're in that situation and you've lost control of it and you're doing it! You hated Mark, of course it wouldn't have happened with him, but how can you KNOW? How can you be a hundred percent positive?
Leilani: No, sorry, that wasn't fair. I can't just... try to turn it around on you just because I did something bad. Of course you'd never do that. You were always the better one of us. But I thought our friendship was stronger than boys and mistakes but you don't seem to agree with that!
Leilani: It wasn't LIKE that! He's not just a warm body, he's someone that I ended up caring about a lot more than I originally intended to, just like you ended up caring for him a lot more than you originally intended to, too! And it's not like the second you were gone I couldn't wait to go after Waldo, first we became closer friends and then after months of trying not to care too much it just happened! And I don't know how to make you still trust me but can't you at least still love me in the meantime?
Leilani: I never thought you'd go somewhere I couldn't go, too! We may be completely different but I still would have gone WITH you if I could have! I may have been the weirdo sitting under a tree waiting while you had your adventures but it still wouldn't have felt like the other half of me was a million miles away!
Scarlett: Maybe it's not that easy if it's like Andy and we had a "no assholes" agreement, yeah. Because I didn't love her, I was never going to in like the way I even love Bori or Bowie, let alone the way I love you! I let myself hurt her because in the moment Waldo meant more to me than she did. And it was a shitty thing to do regardless but it's not supposed to be like that with us. I'm always supposed to be your number one and vice versa. And if it was you I knew it'd be hurting, I would have just cut it off no matter how much it hurt me. Because I know what seeing your face would have hurt. I know how much it hurt with you just feeling like you couldn't trust me not to judge you about the fucking Mark thing earlier this year. Like this "hide a boy from Scarlett" thing is so not even a little bit unprecedented! And like I fucking cheated on Andy and I instantly coped it to you and to her! Why is it that you feel the need to lie to me constantly when you OF ALL PEOPLE KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE LYING?
Scarlett: Well, if it's not that easy then what are you doing? Like I feel itchy and weird and sick because I've been avoiding Bori like the plague because I love him and YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT LYING! And if I see him he's INSTANTLY going to know something is wrong and I don't want to be the one to be like "hey, you know how you're paranoid and like everyone in the world's second choice? WELL GUESS WHAT?" Is he your second choice? Because he deserves to know that! And I don't deserve to be the one to have to tell him because he's the only person I know who I can definitely trust right now and I can't break his heart. I WILL LITERALLY GO BACK TO NEVERLAND HELL FIRST.
Scarlett: LEILANI, YOU HAVE OTHER FRIENDS! Have you literally just been talking to Noa about this? Because that right there is a problem! Noa is like the worst at romance ever and only has like one friend that's not via you, his one friend, or his gf. His literal solution to MK kissing someone else was to run off and bury his feelings forever. ME? I AM A BALL OF FEELINGS! I mean Mackenna would have been a better reference point since Bori was involved. She's at least read about feelings even if she's a robot who signs her text messages! Or Lyra! Or even Mary Kate, I hate her but like she's a mess - she's a much more accurate representation of me. Do you think she'd just be okay if Andy caught feelings for Noa and kissed him? SHE WOULD DIE!
Scarlett: I AM THE QUEEN OF LOSING CONTROL! I AM CAPABLE OF A LOT OF QUESTIONABLE LIFE CHOICES BUT HURTING YOU HAS NEVER BEEN ONE OF THEM! Yeah, I did hate Mark and I never thought he was good enough for you. And I still think that. But even if I'd liked him and we'd had anything in common besides you and the Sims then I would HAVE JUST STOPPED TALKING TO HIM.
Scarlett: I DO OTHERWISE I WOULDN'T BE SO FUCKING UPSET! I love you so much and you're the only person I've ever trusted, 100% to love me back the way I deserve. My mom only liked what she wanted me to be and my dad was sweet but not all there. And I only ever had you, you were supposed to be my family. And sisters don't do this. Sansa never would have done this to Arya!
Scarlett: Leilani, you can't just live my life. I don't know, maybe that's where you and Waldo are both getting into trouble. Waldo doesn't make any plans of his own and he talked about just coming with me once we graduated. And it kind of sounds like you're just doing the same thing. Which I don't theoretically have an issue with but you've got to figure out which things you actually want for yourself. You guys can't just latch onto people to make yourself feel less like you're floating. Look how that turned out for Mark.
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