ur scha a loser, good for u

desperate humanity consumes me

[schaaloser]

Loving someone is watching them leave

Hearing footsteps as you grieve

You used to let me walk in front

Thinking I could take the full brunt

Remembering how we were so naive

Pain that I don't want to relieve

Sadness that seems to reprieve

Emotions I don't want to blunt

I keep watching you leave

Your bliss wasn't something I wanted to thieve

But I didn't want an ace up my sleeve

How do you salvage an affront

When you don't want to confront

Lost, not knowing how to retrieve

Because I keep watching you leave

[schaaloser]

today i discovered

something about myself

all the stuff I can do

and I can do a lot

aren't really what i want from life

they're just there to help me feel better

because i cannot get my dream life

alone

and i know from experience that

no one is coming around to save me

i need to save me

but i am so sad

because i cannot get to my dream life

alone

[schaaloser]

a man child in a bright orange t-shirt

tries to approach a table

that's fuming at him

he doesn't understand

doesn't recognize

doesn't care

he is oblivious

wrapped up in his own little world

where he cuts himself off

and lives in limbo

he believes in ignorance

and drags down everyone around him

[schaaloser]

i dont sing at the top of my lungs anymore

but I still dance my heart out

my hair is cropped short

but my glasses remain rested on top

i still like playing games

i still get excited

but i want to be more conscientious now

i want to be quieter

more responsible

more restrained

i don't want to be around you

but i still care about you

i want you to feel better

but not at my own expense

[schaaloser]

there is a pounding in my chest every time I see your photo it is not a good pounding they are the ominous beating of drums anticipating another disaster fear anxiety if the best defense is offense how do i beat you without interacting with you

[schaaloser]

your name taunts me everytime i see it pop up i cant let it go i dont know what to do with this newfound knowledge i have i dont know how i can forget when you are part of what i now need to live you gave me my life back but are also the one that threatens my happiness everyday it is insane how you are the antithesis and the answer

[schaaloser]

i have not stopped talking to you when i'm alone when i'm doing the dishes when i'm cooking when i'm on the bus when i'm taking a shower when i'm lost in thought i talk to you all the time saying things i will never get to say to your face telling you all about me telling you all about you and how you will now and forevermore be a part of my life because you're the one who gave it back to me

[schaaloser]

i dont trust you anymore the bridge has burnt down we can't stay something we never were

[schaaloser]

my nails sparkle my dress is red I walk with a purpose its to make you turn your head My smile is unnerving you want to get me in bed one look and you know it everything left unsaid

[schaaloser]

we are not friends at best we are acquaintances by convenience my friends are yours and yours are mine but we are not how can we stay as something we never were

if i am your friend how can you just be okay with making me feel like I don't matter at all

[schaaloser]

i noticed something when i play that game you like playing i frequently use up all my cards i lay everything on the table and show you what i have every new card i draw i just play on my next turn doesn't matter who made the deck doesn't matter who i'm playing against its just how it goes there it goes

[schaaloser]

reading through the 22 posts i have saved on draft is....

tu·mul·tu·ous

will these people ever know?

i don't know.

maybe this is a pact to post them

if i'm still here in 5 years

[schaaloser]

It is scary to think about death when the one on the dying end isn't me.

I guess I was too selfish before to not have considered this option much.

I'm a fucking coward

Too weak for the verbal goodbyes,

Too unhinged for the hugs and kisses

Too lost in my grief

[myarmsaretoolong]

[staff]

Happy International Asexuality Day, Tumblr!

[schaaloser]

for j.

And I've seen your flag on the marble arch And love is not a victory march It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah my favorite flowers are variegated carnations. they mean a regret that a love cannot be shared. whatever gift/love/joy/kindness/etc. i had to give, if you got something, good keep it. it was only ever yours anyways.

[haonsowmqpoznwk-blog]

[normal-with-adhd-is-a-joke]

This is the bare minimum of decent human behavior for ANY gender. If you are an adult and someone who is not an adult wants to have a relationship with you, it is your duty to, at bare minimum, turn them away.

[glorious-spoon]

and like... having crushes on adults is a Normal Adolescent Thing, but it doesn’t mean they’re ready for--or for that matter, want--an actual relationship with said adult. it’s a goddamn developmental phase for kids working out their sexuality, and treating it as a chance to get laid is fucking monstrous.

[bendingsignpost]

Recommended tactics to deal with a child hitting on you:

“kiddo”

“buddy”

inform a friend to ensure you’re never left alone with them

refer to own age in conversation

“yeah, I know I look young, but you wouldn’t BELIEVE how awkward it is being mistakenly hit on by a teenager!”

upon that child turning 18:

“Happy birthday, kiddo!”

“Have you registered to vote yet?”

“Man, being a baby adult was so hard, good luck with that”

[awed-frog]

And as a reminder, teenagers often have crushes on older and/or unavailable people like celebrities precisely because psychologically/emotionally they’re not ready to have a relationship. On a subconscious level, fantasizing about someone you know you can’t be with allows you to experiment with your emotions in a safe way. And obviously an adult taking advantage of that will disrupt the entire thing.

[formagdalene]

god twitter and facebook is so toxic then i got to my tumblr timeline and it’s still the same wholesome bunch of people and posts i’ve been seeing since 2011

[schaaloser]

I guess going back to your most traumatic moments should be emotional. or I'm just sad