D E A D.

Remember: Curiosity killed the cat.

[schizophrenicbeast]

I’m slowly dying.

My health is just going downhill, I need meds all the time but I just don’t want to take them anymore. So far, at least I’m not getting deadly sick.

At least I’m not on the hospital.

Like them.

I won’t go like them.

[schizophrenicbeast]

I completely forgot who I was for someone that didn't even cared.

It took me months to put myself on my feet again, and when I fell I could still do my best to keep myself on earth.

But I needed to heal, and I let my guard down.

I let him feed this stupid, blind and starved monster.

That was a mistake.

[schizophrenicbeast]

And so it begins.

I completely lose my feelings.

And all was left to feel is bitter, boring and annoying anger and hate to myself, for loosing the ability I had to care.

And I no longer care for my hearing to die.

And I no longer care if I die.

And I no longer remember what being loved was.

[schizophrenicbeast]

[schizophrenicbeast]

It’s easy, I don’t wish death upon you because I’m aware the universe is going to make me pay for it.

But darling, you put me through a hell taking my hearing away. 

I’m aware the universe will make you pay for it.

And, for all you’ve done.

Anyway, you are just shameful. Who’s going to miss you at all?

[schizophrenicbeast]

Unlike you, I didn’t cheated on my boyfriend having only a month of relationship.

Unlike you it wasn’t just a flirt nor a kiss, it was sex. Unlike you I didn’t asked for more. Unlike you I didn’t begged to be a memory. Unlike you, I was honest about how I felt.

And darling I am a beast, but even you being older than me, what does that make you? 

[schizophrenicbeast]

As far I remember, the lack of medicines are actually the only thing that keeps this asleep as much as it was in coma. 

Maybe, all those drugs are useless.

h a  ha a HA HA HA Hh  a h a h

[pointlesscries]

[schizophrenicbeast]

s̡̞͔͆̍ͥ̒ͫͩͭ̆o͛͊ͫ̇͆̔҉̞͎̯̙͉̣̻͜ ̟̗͍͇̺ͦ̋̋̈ͬ͒ͥ͟s̶̺͕̰͉͎͓̱̟̩ͭ͑̀ ̝̗̯͊̎ẇ̥̙̱ͥ̚͝͠ ̧̖͚̹̹̊̒̃̕͢ḙ̺͍̖̯ͦͨ̌̓ͪͥ̚ͅ ̡͇̜̖̮͚̪̳ͬe̘̖͙̱̭̥̬̒͒̕t͔̳̄̆̂̓

[schizophrenicbeast]

You said you loved me just because I told you I liked someone else?

[schizophrenicbeast]

ｓｏ ｓｗｅｅｔ

[schizophrenicbeast]

Oh so sweet~ 

[schizophrenicbeast]

You tell me to don’t hate you.

I told you about the people who wanted me dead.

And you tried to kill me. 

[schizophrenicbeast]

Oh boy you don’t deserve to live.

But if I didn’t had a record where I lived, neither will have here. 

[schizophrenicbeast]

I fucking hate to know that I have to see your face one more time. 

I fucking hate that SHE came back only to tell me something about you. 

[schizophrenicbeast]

How long do you think this little fairy-tail of yours will continue on for? 

[schizophrenicbeast]

I fucking hate talking to you.