living life as I know it @seaaggie - Tumblr Blog

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especially

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being in ur 20s like..

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One must learn to remain grounded even admidst this world of constant change.

Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin

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I'm failing epically....

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I am insecure and sensitive and I ruin everything I love

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not gonna lie i’m actually really sad and i kinda wanna die but it’s ok

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Moorland stream #dartmoornationalpark #moors #nature #nomeart

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It’s so strange how life works: You want something and you wait and wait and feel like it’s taking forever to come. Then it happens and it’s over and all you want to do is curl back up in that moment before things changed.

Lauren Oliver, Delirium (via

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Nolan Omura Photography

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The bravest thing I ever did was continuing my life when I wanted to die.

Juliette Lewis (via wordsnquotes)

Nowadays the only time I can tell when my depression is getting bad is when I’ve hit rock bottom. Today? Today, I’ve hit rock bottom. Haven’t had an episode like this is a while, thought I had learned to control my depression and anxiety. But, by the way, that I’m feeling I know I’ve hit rock bottom because I just want to give up. I’m tired of the pain, I’m tired of the crying, I’m tired of the exhaustion, but mostly I’m tired of things going wrong. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up to another shitty ass day of loneliness and things going wrong. People say they can’t believe how strong I am. But the thing is I’m not. If I was strong I wouldn’t want to give up, if I was strong I wouldn’t break down, if I was strong I wouldn’t have tossed my faith out the window. But I do and I did. At this point, I find it really hard to believe that there’s a god. If there was why does he inflict so much pain in the world? If there’s a god why does he give us our dreams, only to make them practically impossible to achieve? If there’s a god why does he take those we love away from us? If there’s a god why doesn’t he answer my prayers? If there's a god why is he letting me suffer like this? Yeah people are gonna say that he only gives us what we can handle, that he’s testing us, that he loves us unconditionally, etc, etc, etc. People are gonna say your not alone and that its ok to feel this way, just keep faith and have hope. But you know I am alone when my “friends and family” know that I’m struggling and yet no one checks in on me or just brushes it aside because “she’s strong, she’ll pull through, give her some time and she’ll be fine.” As for feeling like this? No this is not normal and this is not ok, yeah I really should get back on my medication, but you know there's just so much pressure going on in my life I can’t even find time to take care of myself. I may be rambling since there's so much pent-up emotions and energy, but it's not like anyone's seriously gonna read this so it's really just me trying to releasing it but honestly its still not working which leaves me at rock bottom wanting to give up thinking whats the point....