Station 4 - 11/07/2025
Yeah so apparently the last one I accidentally wrote 2026. Lol, lmao even.
Dear god I am so tired. I forgot it was First Friday.
Made some pretty decent progress on life stuff, chipped away at room cleaning, and found some neat looking new jobs that are being hired for that are looking pretty doable actually. Did some research about rents in California and yelled out loud a few times from how frankly stupid this economy has become. Fun stuff.
Then it was off to work (after the chores), where I found my boss, usually the fastest and best of all of us, 6 orders behind with the earliest one being 12 minutes behind. Poor guy was having some medical problems, it took me over an hour to convince him to take the rest of the day off and go home.
Surprisingly after that, things cleared up. We still had a good supply of customers coming in, as usual for First Fridays we broke 100 sales, but what was very NOT usual is that we actually got out without needing to take a full hour of overtime from the amount of cleaning that needed to be done. I'm not sure if that means that we were just lucky or that I'm getting better at this, but it's probably both.
Oh also, it turns out the magic cards deck I thought would be absolutely terrible and worthless was genuinely one of the strongest that my coworker had ever seen and he offered to buy some of the cards off of me on the spot. These next few days I'll need to look through my vault and see if I have any duplicates to give him. That really was truly insane, I had no idea what I was doing when I jammed that deck together, but apparently we do live in the Seann Era.
Thought a little bit about my antidepressants today. To be honest, it's crazy I never tried these before. Imagine how much better of a place I could have been in if I had started taking them in high school. If they had just started me on these instead of those BS ADHD meds way back then, I imagine I would have had the presence of mind to make a lot better decisions in my life. Though, I suppose it is some of those bad decisions that led me to become the person I am, and that led me to learn to not be a terrible one. Maybe it was for the best that I failed enough to learn to appreciate success when it comes to me. Life is a lot better this way, both appreciation-wise and also because of the antidepressants meaning that I actually have enough energy to. You know. Live. I suppose it's pretty obvious in hindsight, but I probably have been living with some minor form of depression for most of my life that's gone untreated. I recently remembered something from when I was 14, where I had been brought in for a psych eval for a depression diagnosis, and I ended up missing the diagnosis by 1 single point on the questionnaire... The thing is, I had lied about my symptoms several times on it. Admittedly, I can't exactly diagnose my entire life based on what I felt as an angsty teenager, but a lot of things make a lot more sense in my life with the context that I might have just had high functioning depression this whole time. I mean, with everything in my life, it's a little hard not to be depressed now and then, but now I have the energy to actually do something about it, so I think that's a plus.
Now, for tomorrow's tasks. Today I definitely fell into the "Good lord why did you think you could do that many things after a workday" trap yet again, so we're going to try out the Mosquito Tasks method I mentioned last station.
🔴 🟠 🟡 🟢 🔵
Major Tasks:
🔴Go to work!
🟡Do some of the training for the Internship Licensing
🟠Room Cleaning
Mosquito Tasks:
🟢Start editing Apotheosis EP 27
🟢Finish Artwork
🔵Make one (1) comic
🟢Ask boss about being a career reference
🟢Finish job applications I started today
🔵Tweak mouth blendshapes in my vtuber model
🔵Do something on Kaggle to get started on more Data Science stuff
🔵Get back into the Godot Project and do some Shader research
🔵Mark off days from work for Thanksgiving Vacation and Cousin's Birthday party
🟢Think of a good birthday present to get for Avi
P.S. Oh also! I set up the new keyboard today! It's a lot to get used to, especially since it is incredibly quiet compared to my last one, but I'm really really liking it so far! The keys are made of a material that is a lot softer than the last one, so it's just a lot more cozy if that makes sense. I keep thinking back to that one line from Dr Who, something along the lines of "There is a noise that you live with all your life that you learn to tune out, now that you can't hear that noise your perception has gone haywire. That noise is your heartbeat." That's really how I felt typing on my PC keyboard and having no incredibly loud clickity clacks happen for the first time in over a year.
P.P.S. Oh god. I got that last loud keyboard with the intention of using it on stream because I thought it would be funny. I have put off returning to streaming for THAT LONG. Dear god I need to actually shape up with that.
P.P.P.S As I finish writing this up I have the distinct feeling that I am forgetting something major for my plans tomorrow... Ehh, probably nothing! :D
Aaaaand with that it should be a wrap! Thank you yet again for following along with my journey this station, and I hope to see you again sometime! Until then, Ciao for now! -Seann












