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It is safe to say that I feel I have entered a new phase in my life that I am calling ‘delicate dirt’. It’s a very observational phase, my eyes are tracing all your edges and minute details, speaking hours after thinking, sensual silence.

Fingertips across silk.

Covering my body in sheets of earth.

I have never used this platform for any purpose really. In fact I have never seen it having a purpose.

But now...

I have a desire to place undrafted words across the screen and place meaning to ramblings and 3am ceiling sessions.

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Detail of the monument to John Churchill

Blenheim Palace, England

Sometimes its nicer when friends just play with your hair and make soft soothing sounds, instead of firing tactics and game plans to get you out of hard emotional states. Friends who understand the emotional state is a phase for growth and you will find your own strength to pull yourself out and from that strengthen your being and add another handy tool to your life tool belt. Offering second hand game plans to be “better” and avoiding the discomfort of negative states, is refusing you the ability to gain experience in this situation and the knowledge of how to function the next time this negative state comes around. It is the same as handing you fake band aid tools for your life tool belt. The next time a negative state occurs, you pull out a noodle instead of the sword you were meant to gain the first time around.

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Self Portrait by @seaofteef

Photo by @seaofteef

An old space.

Otis Redding - Cigarettes and Coffee

In my veggie garden back in Australia.

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Pai Canyon in Thailand 2017

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Walking across sharp landscapes in New Zealand with my soul.

I always felt that I would be strong enough. That when the time came, the energy I had stored away for such a time, would open up into the space I stood and I would wake on the other side, memories lost, shaking and my clothes covered in blood.

But then it happened. And all I could do was break.