Hidingmytrueself

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my faviroute songs you ask?

TAYLOR SWIFT

Lover, all too well, paper rings love story,

BLACKPINK SONGS

The happiest girl, Typa girl, toxic till the end, no. 1 girl, your love, All eyes on me, APT., Tally,

SABRINA CARPENTER

ED SHEREEN

Sapphire, Perfect, Shape of you

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i am scared.

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I feel like i am not pretty enough.

There I finally said it, This phrase right here took alot of effort from me to acknowledge.

Ya ya ya i know all that shit- no you are pretty, look yourself in the mirror, tell yourself that you are beautiful

But how can i do that when i myself cant believe i am beautiful?

I had a problem today in public speaking; my mind randomly made me feel self-conscious which made me end the speech wayyyy tooo early.

So this year is gonna be about self-love.

Which by the way i dont know how to start.. so suggestions will be much appreciated.

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With the winters coming, I wish i had a boyfriend.

Though I have never been in relationship, i want to experience the moments of sharing my thoughts, cuddling in winter, or just sitting in silence; enjoying the quietness of time together.

I want to have this relationship where I can just be with the person I like and vice versa. We can be us and let the World move at it's pace.

Is it too much to ask?

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Have you ever felt like drowning even when you know how to swim?

That's how I have been feeling since my injury, It has been hard; no doubt. Especially after joining back the college, living everyday just for the sake of living, wondering if my day today will be normal or will I experience the monotonous feeling that I apparently feel on random days.

Its not like I cant share this with my family or something, they are really supportive, my sister understands me the best, but I sometimes wish that accident had never occurred in my life.

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How Dodgeball Turned into a Game of 'Dodge the Crutches: My Epic Ankle Fail

DISCLAIMER: This tragicomedy is solely based on real life incident.

Since my teenage years, all I ever fantasized about was creating college memories with amazing friends and whirlwind romances. Never in my wildest imagination did I think my college journey would be this phenomenal (cue the sarcastic eye-roll).

It all started with my enthusiasm towards participating in the dodgeball tournament. I mean, how hard could it be to dodge a ball, right? The first round went great, the team somehow made it into second round. Cue my competitive spirit, the next moment, I went from dodgeball master to floor-hugging disaster. Just as I stepped away from what felt like a huge throw, I executed a move that would make even professional dancers proud…if they enjoyed twisting their ankles in ways nature never intended. Surprisingly, the pain wasn’t too bad—I'd rate it a solid 3 out of 10. My batchmates, on the other hand, gathered around with their ‘expert’ advices, ranging form “just run a lap you’ll be good to go”, “try twisting it in another direction it would be fun!” Spoiler Alert it wasn’t. Now that’s when my life realised how boring things had been lately and the doctors decided to join in, giving me the news: Surgery. That’s right, my one- time decision of trying new things out earned me a spot in the operating room. Well, no big deal, I was wheeled out like a VIP, with my friends filming the whole thing like I was the star of a reality show called "When Dodgeball Goes Wrong." As I was gracefully (or not), loaded in the ambulance while my friends being captured every moment of my ‘hilarious’ injury. Though the incident checked off a box on my bucket list, it also gave me an unforgettable story—complete with a bonus surgery.

PS: After 4 months of suffering, I am now back to the campus; where the actual suffering begins.(mental). Can't wait..