Ethan James ♱

Hey there, I'm Sebastian. I'm twenty one , and a student at Easton University. If you ever need me, which you will, I'm always around. I don't like words, they complicate things.

[sebastiancraft]

kiranhayes started following you

It's like being followed by Barbie. Does Ken know about this?

[hunterbuttparrish]

[sebastiancraft]

I'm not ready to leave here yet. This is home, you're here. Remember the first time you told me you loved me I didn't talk to you until Ethan yelled at us? Remember how we just glared at each other that whole plane ride?

I've decided I'm going wherever you go. Forever, if you'll let me. Yes. I was scared. Really scared you didn't love me back. I should have picked a better confessional than a plane bathroom.

[sebastiancraft]

Maybe it's this place. A person can't always be like this. So fucking sad all the time, right? There's nothing wrong out there, the sun is shining, and everything is bright, and trees are turning green underneath sparkling snow, but I'm just sad. Sad because something might not be good, and might be is enough to make me want to stay inside and hide and have a cigarette and a drink. What is wrong with me? Why is there always something wrong with me?

People grow from places, you know? Maybe that's what you're doing. Maybe you don't need this stepping stone on the path to greatness anymore. It's the green colored square on the candy land board, and you're past it. Maybe you need to roll the dice again, see if you need to move three steps forward, or maybe go back. There's nothing wrong with you, Buttercup. You're still just as perfect as you were the day I met you.

[sebastiancraft]

I don't know anymore.

..What are you thinking now? Paint me the picture of your mind.

[sebastiancraft]

We were good weren't we? Really, really good.

Aren't we still?

[sebastiancraft]

Give me a kiss and let's act like we were never nutters.

In our world, we never were. Never will be, Buttercup.

[sebastiancraft]

Things have gotten so, so quiet in my head, it's like there was never a fight going on inside it. Remember when everything was loud in there, and I couldn't stand it? It's gone quiet but I'm afraid to believe that because what if it hasn't, and I'm only pretending to be different? Do you think I could get better?

You're not pretending to be anything. You could never. You're Kaylee Shevel, you don't think you do. I think you could get better, but no matter how you are, you're perfect.

[sebastiancraft]

We have the same secrets, did you know that? I have another one for you too.

If I could share my secrets with one person forever, I'd only want it to be you. Hit me with it.

[sebastiancraft]

Tell me yours first.

I love you.

[sebastiancraft]

I have a secret.

I have one too. But I like yours better.

[superbas-deactivated20140308]

Letting me? She’s lost any right to tell me what to do. 

[sebastiancraft]

You're right, I'm sorry. Is someone with you? She told me not to come, but I can hop on a plane in the next hour and get there to give you some support?

[superbas-deactivated20140308]

Spencer dumped me. I figured you knew by now. Also I’m in Russia. 

[sebastiancraft]

What? When? Are you alright? I didn't know I'm sorry, I'm in Boston, working. She's still letting you come?

[chris-grove-blog]

It’ll be interesting, that’s for sure. Good to hear it, man. What’re you taking, anyways? My job is pretty amazing. It’s everything I was hoping for so I really hope that we stick around here for a long, long time. I just don’t wanna be moving all over the place. Hey- even if you weren’t, I’m off duty so I don’t have my cuffs on me. 

[sebastiancraft]

A new adventure. Uh, I'm going for Adolescent Psychology - hoping to work with terminally ill kids actually. But who knows. Good! I hope you guys do too, I can't really imagine this place with you both. Oh good, I can breathe a sigh of relief then.

[superbas-deactivated20140308]

I’m working on not loving anyone. 

[sebastiancraft]

Do you want me to ask? Or would you rather me stay out of it?

[superbas-deactivated20140308]

So you’re not dead.

[sebastiancraft]

Fortunately. Sorry I've been a shit ass friend. I still love you.

[chris-grove-blog]

I’ve been good, Seb. Busy but good. …Passed on what? Nah- I’m just joking, trust me, I know. Thanks a lot, I’m pretty damn excited. But what about you, huh? How’ve you been? 

[sebastiancraft]

Oh good! You better be. Meanwhile, she's gonna be spoiled as hell around here. I can't complain much, just working a lot, taking classes too. How's the job going? I'm clean by the way, no need to bring out the handcuffs, sir.