If I Could, Then I Would Scream // Self para
The rush of the water as it lapped up on the shore calmed Peter’s mind, his eyes trained on the horizon as he lost himself in histhoughts. Since the mishap with Emma Swan, he and the boys had been keeping low profiles. They were careful not to hide themselves away, for fear of further raising suspicions, but Peter had delivered the order to act low-key until the proverbial storm clouds no longer hung overhead.
It was almost impossible not to scream, to lose his grip on control and give in the the frustration gnawing at his mind. It had been months, and they were still in this bloody town. This forged hell, where he had no magic. No power. How long could they stay here, trapped without a way out? The air was all but choking him now. Something had to change, lest he completely spiral into madness.
With a sigh, he turned a stone over in his hand a few times, before flinging it out along the water's surface. He watched it skip until it sank, his gaze resting where it disappeared underneath the ocean. In all of his impatience and growing anger, there was still something that kept him somewhat...hopeful. It was unexpected, but the incident with Emma hadn't been a loss. Well, not entirely.
Was it possible for a loss to also count as a victory?
After losing Emma in the forest, the question had rolled around in Peter’s head, echoing without an answer. Their plan to use her against Hook had, as much as he wished he could deny it, failed. It had been meant to provide the boys with leverage in order to get back to Neverland, but just like that; their bargaining chip slipped through his fingers. A loss, yes- but something was also gained.
Until that night, Peter could only truly guess the significance of Emma Swan’s abilities, but now it was all too clear. When she stood there, threatening the life of the man he loved, Peter saw something in her. A raw, dangerous power that challenged that of most he had ever seen. It was hardly a surprise that the town’s beloved savior was so awe strikingly powerful. To be perfectly honest, he didn’t know why he hadn’t considered her to be more of a threat before.
And oh, was she a threat.
At least she would be, if he didn’t play his cards right.
Right now, despite the power she possessed, he likely knew more about her abilities than she did. Peter tried to ignore the spark of jealousy, reminding himself that he would get his own magic back. Soon. But for now, there was one more person in Storybrooke that might be able to help him reach that goal. Perhaps not willingly, but the art of manipulation was something he had worked hard to master over the years. Emma might not be their way back in the end, but she was certainly an option now.
The wind nipped lightly at his skin, but the sensation was oddly calming. Familiar, if he was electing to be sentimental. There was so much he missed about his island, but above all, he missed the feeling of absolute control. Here, there wasn’t any of that for him. At least, there wasn’t right now. When he got his magic back, and he damn well would, that just might change. Until then, he would never stop searching for a way to get back to the island.