A pinch of suffering @see-off-clauds - Tumblr Blog

Araw-araw gusto mo na lang mamatay.

It's hard when you can't explain how much pain you're feeling because you know they will never understand.

#anxiety #depression #sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts

I feel completely worthless.

So much that I think my friends pretend to like me when I'm around.

#anxiety #depression #sad thoughts #useless

Matuto kang makuntento kung anong meron ka at kung sino lang ang tunay na nakakaintindi sayo.

#contentment #mentalhealth #pagmamahal

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Suicide attempts are traumatic

I don't hear anyone talking about this. But attempting to take your own life is traumatic.

The moments before the attempt are the most heartbreaking. The planning of it. Writing the suicide notes. You imagine all the pain will stop, but you wake up in the morning in your bed/floor/hospital bed/after a coma. Still alive. The ambulance rides. Your friends/family yelling/crying/asking questions. Trying to find the words to doctors why you did it. All you wanted was for it all to stop, but it was the most heartbreaking, painful both mentally and physically, draining thing you went through. Maybe you woke up with regret, maybe with relief.

But after you get back out in the real world, you have to act like nothing happened. You have to keep living surviving after something so traumatic. You still think about that event over and over. What would it be like if it worked? Why didn't it work? The way you did it, triggers you every time you see that thing/place. You get flashbacks. Ambulances make you re-remember everything all over again.

If you've survived, I'm proud you're still here. You're a survivor. Life might not look like it's worth it sometimes, but your future holds something amazing for you, I promise it does get better. Little by little. Don't give up just yet.

sadness is consuming me

#sad thoughts #mental health #depression #left alone #anxiety

I woke up tired.

#i’m tired #useless #emotionally drained #make it stop #sad thoughts

I felt it again. The feeling of being left behind. The need to be with them because you're battling something you can't share with anyone else and yet they all make you feel like you don't belong.

Now I was left alone. Again.

#left behind #left alone #friends #depressing shit