Taking a break + some personal thoughts + a little thank you note 🤍
Nagi fans, how are we doing?
Personally I am ready to end myself (been ready for five chapters now)...is what I would have said ordinarily, but instead, I will put down a few last thoughts before I pause this blog for some time.
The only one I can share without crying though is that I will always fondly remember how for a little while in 2025, both the main manga and Episode Nagi...ESSENTIALLY BECAME EPISODE NAGI 😅❤️🤍
When I started reading Blue Lock back in 2022/23, and realised that Nagi was the character I relate to the most, I never imagined that his arc would be such an emotional roller coaster. Even though he was an easy favourite and the primary reason why I continued to watch/read Blue Lock, I expected nothing more than cute-nonchalant-football-genius, and I would have been happy enough with that.
Yet, in return I got to love and enjoy (and cry my eyes out over) such a relatable, introspective, complex and beautiful character whose story has so much depth and breaks many stereotypes of what a shonen sports manga fan-favourite should be like. So as much as it hurts right now, I am so grateful.
However, since the character is very close to how I feel myself and how I face things in real life, I will take a break from reading/posting about him rather than risk projecting onto him as I would hate to become so intensely affected by what is, at the end of the day, fiction.
I have always been pleasantly surprised at the amount of engagement I received for a blog that only posts about a single character and does nothing else. Thank you. 🤍
Nagi has always been a divisive character. At different points in the story, whether he chose ambition over attachment or comfort over ambition, or honesty over kindness, there was always criticism and debate over his actions, words or lack thereof. And since subtlety is often punished in fandoms that crave loud, dramatic traits, I never expected the creators to invest so much time and effort into developing Nagi's story specifically.
But it makes me happy that they did and that so many people like Nagi. Because it makes me feel that even if he is not real, if there is a place in the world for someone like him, there can be a place in the world for someone like me too (I am aware that it is obviously dumb to even compare myself to an attractive, talented, fictional anime boy, but in terms of his personality and lack of motivation that contributes to his isolation and existential crisis, he is very realistic for me). So I will always root for him.
Even in terms of the art, despite the sadness of the latest chapter, I loved returning to the outside world and admiring Nomura-san's skill and range in drawing both the urban landscape and school architecture, not to mention his use of highlights and shadows to bring out Nagi's emotions on every page. It is such a beautifully drawn chapter, with a softness and a heaviness, despite having none of the usual football action or high stakes drama. I won't post any panels or get into those last few pages though. Maybe sometime in the future I can talk about them in more detail.
So that's all really. I don't talk to anyone but I will miss all of you. I don't have any mutuals but I was happy for every small interaction I had on here. Sometimes I would recognise usernames that kept showing up in the notifs, like saying hi to a friend every few days. In small ways, it made me happy.
Hopefully when enough time has passed, I can once again post Nagi pictures and small analyses without feeling so emotionally attached or anxious. But until then, I hope I can work hard in my own life and find ways to keep up my own motivation, even when I'm alone. And for anyone else who struggles with that, I wish you all the best as well. Failure is a life lesson, never the end. 🤍