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[sunscoped]

they haven't spoken about it ━━━ dae-ho refuses to utter a word of what happened that night. he'd turned down therapy, he'd turned down his family and friends and bottled up the horrors of that night so that the people he cared about him didn't have to hear it, but more importantly, so he didn't have to relive it. it was bad enough that he was plagued, night after night, with images clear enough to make him feel like he'd gone back in time. a voice, with a quality to it that dae-ho couldn't pinpoint, but could only describe as horrifying.

the nights were the hardest, when every pocket of darkness, every misshapen object could be mistaken for HIM, a hiding space for HIM. han soo-jin may have died that night, but he had never left dae-ho's thoughts, and the young idol feared that he'd go the rest of his life, forced to suffer with the memory of what had happened to him.

he forces a smile, though there's no real light behind it. dae-ho hadn't lost his spark, his light ━━━ it had been stolen from him. forced from his hands and buried with whatever parts of soo-jin had remained after his death. there was once a bright, young man inside this body ━━━ but now he was nothing more than a shadow of his former self, and he wasn't sure if he'd ever be the same again.

" would you help me find someone who could ? " still, he doesn't shift his gaze from the dreary ceiling, and still does his voice remain quiet, lacking it's usual bubbly tones.

" it's just ... " lips pursed, eyes scrunch shut as he tries to will the tears that threaten to fall away. go away go away go away go away. but is he speaking to the tears that almost fall, or the image of soo-jin that lays in waiting the moment he closes his eyes ?

" i just want it to stop. can you help me ... make it stop ? "

[selapim]

ㅤ Oh, does it wound ; the sadness, 'neath that feigned grin. A default, as Dae - Ho had NORMALIZED. Disguise and gussy, that which had plagued him. Tray, is set on small side table, arms coming to fold slowly over Sung - Hyuns' chest as shoulders near pinch upward. It's not a guardedness, displayed, but guilt in its' way. A DEITY OF PROTECTION, THAT PROTECTED TOO MUCH, was a laughable sin. One that, in his many eyes, was not worth the nomenclature.

A STARK lack of the usual tone of positivity, is alarming. But, the younger, cannot be blamed. Not when his life was on the line, near TAKEN by Night - Kind so selfish, inhumane and obsessed. Lips press into a thin, tight line. Deity, does not want to promise what may not be doable ; he does not want to give hope, where they may be none to have.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ❝ I can ask around. ❞

To the LATTER, though, he has little inkling as to what to do. How does anyone cease the horrors ? Most mortals, turned to something : prayer, drugs, alcohol, sex, HELL ; death, in the worst of and more extreme cases. All of which, are things that Sung - Hyun does not want to see Dae - Ho succumb beneath. That ray of sunlight, walking and giggling, was truly a blessing to those who would allow him to shine. Steps carry him close, a hand coming to settle at Daes' shoulder.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ❝ I can try. Really, but in the meantime ...

In the meantime, you have to talk to someone, Dae. What happened ... from all sides, was traumatic, and I understand that ... maybe it's hard to talk about. I get that, one - hundred percent, but ... ❞

But WHAT ?! It wasn't something he went through. Yes, Demons and the like had tried, many times, to purge Sung - Hyun from this world, but none of them were so CLOSE to him as a lover. Tongue prods his inner cheek, lips downturned in a frown.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ❝ ...At least talk to your brother about it ? ❞

[leadersaja]

Boundaries...  they were rarely afforded such a thing under the rule of Gwi-ma. Regardless of their nature and primary reason for being, the King had turned them all into servants. Jinu didn't need boundaries from human kind, he just needed peace.

"I'll keep that in mind,"  he smiled just as smoothly, though with the briefest hints of hesitation. His gaze threatening to drift downward as the thoughts in his head begin to steal his attention, until he snapped up again and succeeded in refreshing the agreeable facade.

Jinu turns his focus to his beautiful saviour rather than himself, and wonders if he shouldn't be taking his own advice. Unless he truly didn't mind the way he says.

You're still people. His mouth narrowed before he nodded and a pause later smiled wider, to break into soft laughter as if to brush it off like the suggested precautions weren't necessary.  "Thank you for the advice, but our company is treating us well."  A non existing company fabricated by tricks, flashy illusionary graphics and demon magic.  "Right now we want to work hard to release more… music..."

He stops when he realizes that they're still conversing on the street.  "Ah, I should offer you something in return for saving me from the road. Can I thank you with a coffee?"

[selapim]

ㅤ Too FREE AND FAST, he thinks, with his speech : He may have come to offend. However, Jinu seems content to move the conversation along, and for it, is deity grateful.

Our company is treating us well, comes to be a source of RELIEF. Too many times, has Sung - Hyun seen the idol - machine PUMP OUT STARS, TRUE ! They burned fast, and bright, then came to implode, and destroy not only themselves, but too much in their reach. It was a sordid ordeal, and one that left him grieving for those that could have been more. That could have been happy.

Lashes flutter, and awareness returns to him ; albeit, late. Fluster, of a rosy - golden hue settles into his cheeks, and he moves to coax the other from the streets, to the sidewalk. With fortune, this wasn't a busy expressway ; lest they both be a smear, or have cars HONKING at them for idle chit - chat.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ❝ Sure ! That sounds fun. ❞

Though EATING wasn't much of a requirement to exist, he indulged out of habit ; perhaps his most cardinal sin, was that of INDULGENCE. Gluttony, in its' own, unique sort of way.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ❝ We can go wherever you choose ! I'm not picky, or anything. ❞

[belladoesrpmeme]

𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 ♡

For the fluff and soft hearted, here is another lists of sentence starters that has the highest potentiality to turn into a soft scenarios. Feel free to change any pronouns / sentence structure according to your muse’s preference!     TRIGGER WARNING:   N/A.

“I never noticed your eyes were this [colour].”

“Your heartbeat’s really loud.”

“You asleep?”

“I like this, being so close to you.”

“Your hair keeps falling into your eyes, do you know that? Here, lemme just—”

“You’re so, so, so pretty.”

“I just — I’m breathless, okay? Whenever I’m with you, it happens.”

“You make my heart beat so quick.”

“You always know how to make me smile.”

“You’ll always be safe with me.”

[Kisses the other on the cheek]

“Always.”

“I can’t imagine being anywhere but here with you.”

“All my choices lead me to you.”

“I’ll never give you up.”

“I sleep better if you’re around.”

“You snore in your sleep. But… it’s adorable, okay?”

“I like this. A quiet breakfast with you.”

“There’re billions of people on this planet, and I love you. How incredible is that?”

“I trust you.”

[Holds the other’s hand when they think the other won’t notice]

“You keep staring at me instead of watching the film. What’s up?”

“Let’s push all of these stuff away. I wanna dance here right now with you.”

“Are we really doing this? Are we really slow-dancing?”

“When you laugh like that, it just — you’re so beautiful, you know that?”

“No, sorry, you laughed. I … I never saw it before. It’s — pretty.”

“You haven’t laughed in a long time, and I guess I was staring ‘cause I forgot how that looked like.”

[Puts head on the other’s shoulder]

“I will never let you go.”

“You’re the best thing to have ever happened to me.”

“You wrote me a song?”

“You’ve got a fever. Of course I’m not going anywhere.”

[Suddenly feels around the bed to search for the other’s hand / body when they’re sleeping]

[Extends a hand when they see the other was searching for it while they’re sleeping]

“I just feel calmer. When I’m with you.”

“You’re not in bed. I came looking for you.”

“What are you doing up? Come to bed.”

“It’s weird. I never thought I could feel like this, but you showed up. Now, it’s like I don’t wanna go on knowing I might lose the feeling.”

“I don’t mind sharing the blankets with you.”

“You’re cold. Come here.”

“You always do that. You always warm me up.”

“Stay.”

“It’s getting crowded. Here, hold my hand.”

[Hugs for a very long time]

[Puts feet on the other’s lap]

“I’m so proud of you, you know that?”

“I love you.”

[thrcnody]

THERE  WAS  SOMETHING  PAINFULLY  SINCERE  IN  THE  WAY  HE  SPOKE  ABOUT  HAEHYUN.  It  sounded  neither  rehearsed  nor  manipulative.  If  anything,  it  sounded  too  raw  and  somehow,  that  very  fact  unsettled  him  even  more.

Min-Kyu  said  nothing  at  first;  his  gaze  remained  fixed  on  Sung-Hyun’s  face as  if  searching  there  for  some  clue,  for  a  telltale  sign  that  all  of  this  was  merely  an  elaborate  lie.  But  the  problem  was  that  liars  usually  hid  behind  self  assurance.  Sung-Hyun,  on  the  other  hand,  sounded  exhausted  and  far  too  honest.  ❛…You  really  do  sound  like  someone  who  has  died  before,  ❜  he  said,  the  words  slipped  out  quietly,  almost  absentmindedly,  before  his  gaze  drifted  down  toward  the  floor.  He  exhaled  audibly  through  his  nose  and  tapped  his  fingers  once  against  his  own  arm.  ❛  That  is  exactly  what  makes  it  so  hard  to  understand  you.  Most  people  speak  of  love  as  if  it  were  something  exciting,  perhaps  something  fleeting…  something  that  makes  them  happy  for  a  little  while  until  life  moves  on.  ❜  His  brows  furrowed  slightly  in  thought.  ❛  But  you…  it  sounds  like  adoration,  like  true  devotion…  as  if  that  person  were  the  only  thing  still  binding  you  to  this  world.  ❜

Now  Min-Kyu  looked  back  up  at  him;  his  expression  was  softer  now,  yet  at  the  same  time  more  serious  and  profound.  ❛  That  is  not  something  I  can  simply  ignore.  ❜  For  he  understood  it  better  than  he  was  willing  to  admit  to  himself.  Haehyun  had  always  been  the  kind  of  person  who  got  under  your  skin  before  you  even  realized  it,  so  radiant  that  lonely  people  felt  magically  drawn  to  them…  so  warm-hearted  that  weary  souls  could  finally  find  peace  for  the  first  time  in  years.  Min-Kyu  himself  had  succumbed  to  that,  to  them,  a  long  time  ago.

❛  Do  you  know  what  the  annoying  thing  about  this  is?  ❜  he  murmured  with  a  snort,  shaking  his  head  slightly  as  he  did  so.  ❛  I  actually  believe  you.  ❜  Somehow,  this  frustrated  him,  his  instincts  had  rarely  failed  him.  Sung-Hyun  was  strange,  yes,  but  Min-Kyu  still  couldn't  quite  put  it  into  words.  It  was  merely  the  feeling  that  every  word  that  passed  Sung-Hyun’s  lips  seemed  to  belong  to  someone  who  wore  his  humanity  with   cautio  rather  than  naturally  and  yet...  when  he  spoke  of  Haehyun,  none  of  it  sounded  false.

Min-Kyu  studied  him  for  another  long  moment  before  finally  leaning  back  slightly.  ❛  Haehyun  means  a  very  lot  to  me,  probably  more  than  they  sometimes  realize,  ❜  he  said  now  in  a  gentler  voice  as  a  small  smile  faintly  tugged  at  the  corners  of  his  mouth.  ❛  They’re..  important  to  me,  they’re  one  of  the  few  people  for  whom  I  would  truly  do  almost  anything.  So,  when  someone  enters  their  life  and  claims  to  have  crawled  out  of  hell  for  their  sake,  you  can  probably  understand  why  my  first  instinct  is  to  question  the  sanity  a  little.  ❜  Another  soft  snort  escaped  him  then,  this  time  even  more  subdued  and  sounded  more  amused  than  before.  ❛  Honestly?  If  someone  were  to  say  all  that  about  anyone  else,  I’d  consider  them  dangerously  obsessed.  ❜ 

Then  he  fell  silent.  Only  for  a  moment,  to  think.  Min-Kyu’s  eyes  narrowed  slightly  once  more.  ❛  But  there  is  something  else  that  troubles  me,  the  thought  that  there  is  something...  different  about  you,  something  I  can’t  quite  name...  and  perhaps  that  is  precisely  what  scares  me  a  little.  ❜

There  it  was…  the  naked  truth.  It  wasn't  necessarily  the  fear  that  Sung-Hyun  might  intentionally  hurt  Haehyun.  By  now,  however,  Min  no  longer  believed  in  that.  ❛  People  who  have  been  alone  for  an  eternity…  they  love  differently;  more  intensely…  too  intensely,  ❜  he  said  softly,  sighing  as  he  spoke;  yet,  after  a  moment,  his  gaze  softened  once  more.  ❛  But  I  also  know  that  Haehyun  isn’t  foolish.  They  see  things  in  people  that  escape  the  rest  of  us…  So  if  they  have  chosen  to  stay  by  your  side  despite  all  these  quirks…  then  perhaps  there  really  is  something  there  that  deserves  trust.  Still,  I’ll  be  keeping  an  eye  on  you.  ❜  A  faint  trace  of  amusement  returned  to  his  expression,  now  nudging  the  other  carefully.  ❛  Just  consider  it  my  duty  as  their  friend.  ❜

[selapim]

ㅤ ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤNo ... No. ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ He sounded ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ as someone ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ㅤwho had never ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤreally lived, at all.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤExistence, was not LIFE ; and his existence was, itself, ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤa paradox. A case of a being so humane, so kind and giving, ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤthat was nothing CLOSE to human, at all.

A LIE would be formed if Sung - Hyun tried to deny that Haehyun made it easier to exist, on this place. Made it easier, to walk as men did, as they had for three - hundred thousand years. It made acting as they, simpler. It brought out emotions in Sung - Hyun, that even HE had not been aware of, no, they were nothing short of a miracle in his eye. One for which, he could not OVERSTATE his thankfulness.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ❝ I don't have a reason to lie. ❞

Voice, is not small, not demure : It comes with strength, in its' truth, it comes with certainty. Haehyun, was not a PLANNED OCCURANCE. They did not meet in a way that was so SECRETLY orchestrated, but merely because they were in need. Merely, because they themselves, had become a target in their specific strain of different. The only intent, at that time, was to save : not to be loved.

However, there is a degree, of understanding. Sung - Hyun, in relative time to Min - Kyu, was new. A new addition to the equation, not a member of a CRIMINAL FAMILY. No, to outside eyes, he was a prim, pampered little thing, meant to be captured on film, to be published in magazines and placed with products. There was standing REASON for skepticism. Who could blame someone, so loyal, for being DEFENSIVE when someone who lived a completely opposite life, was thrown in ? Smile, comes to be soft, laughter softer to the statement. I'll be keeping an eye on you.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤLittle did Min know, that Sung- Hyun, would be doing the same.

❝ I ... do, understand your concerns. All of them. You have a reason to feel the way you feel, and I don't fault you at all for it. But ... Haehyun ... They mean a lot to me. It's not something fleeting, it's ... It's serious. Yeah, okay : I'm a little strange, a little ... not - with - it, sure. But, how I feel is rooted in a good place, and I promise you, I care so deeply for them, sometimes it makes me ill. I can't stand the idea of something happening to them, ever again. ❞

He thinks of that damned alley - way, he thinks of their wounds, he stiffens. He was late, too late, to prevent harm, but he'd never be late again. They were SAFE with him, he LOVED them the way a beaten hound loves a kind hand. Desperate and pure.

❝ You can ask me whatever you feel like you gotta ask. I'll answer as truthfully as I'm ... really able to. But, know that ... Yeah - I've been lonely. I've BEEN alone, for ... most of my life. Almost all of it, if I'm honest. But ... Haehyun ... Sort of changed that. And I'm happy. Happier than anyone knows. ❞

[hyunpic]

[stay-written]

[hyunchans]

[hyunchans]

[sunscoped]

@selapim gets a dae lives starter !

days out of the house were few and far between, but it's strange the people he's found comfort in since everything happened ; it's strange that one of the few places he feels some semblance of normalcy is here with sung-hyun. because he never treats dae-ho like he's broken, he doesn't judge, he doesn't expect anything ━━━ he just meets dae-ho where he's at and that ... well, that was more than what other people have given him these past few months.

the younger lounges on the sofa, phone rested on his stomach and gaze pointed up towards the ceiling. it's all too often that he finds himself drifting away now ; his thoughts wander, though that's nothing new. but instead of the chaos that usually clouded his mind and made it impossible to focus, he finds that certain memories come to mind. never welcome, and always against his will.

what he wouldn't do, to forget.

" sungie ? " voice quiet, as he continues to look up at the ceiling. shaking almost, as he tries to keep himself steady, tries to keep himself in the moment instead of getting lost in the past.

" ━━━ can you ... can you make people forget things ? "

[selapim]

ㅤ ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤDae - Hos' presence, alone, was nothing SHORT of a miracle. ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ Of course, Sung - Hyun came to know of the sordid affair.

Night - Kind. A DEMON, with its' claws buried deep, so terribly deep, into this little budding star. How he'd managed to eek away with his life, was something of a mystery ; Sung - Hyun could never bring himself to ask about it. To prod and pry, to rub SALT in fresh wounds before ripping them open anew. What Dae needed now, was peace. Some semblance of calm.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤSung -Huyun could offer that. A life, lived well, modestly and softly.

Deity comes to a stop, when nickname is softly uttered, the wobble to the others' voice detectable. Were the wings of his HEAD visible, they'd surely be drooping. Sung - Hyun turns on a heel, tray of dishes in hand, still. Idol continues on ; can you make people forget things ?

Of course, it was a LOADED QUESTION ; In some ways, yes, Sung - Hyun had the ability, the PERMISSION, the means. On another hand, however ... It was another tampering that would only find him on his knees, flogged in reprimand for yet ANOTHER instance of insubordination. His eyes drift from Daes' lying figure, grip on try only growing more intense.

❝ ... Maybe ... another like me, yeah ... I'm kind of on probation. Have been since ... Jeez, when did Da Vinci die ? ❞ An attempt at jest ; he knows, it's been the latter half, of one - hundred and fifty THOUSAND years.

[byanyan]

ㅤㅤ" y'thought i was rage baitin' you? "ㅤdespite their frustration, they can't help but laugh at that. it helps release some of the tension in their muscles, allows them to relax a bit and begin to let go of some of the anger. a wave of their hand at all of his apologies, and byan rolls one shoulder in a half shrug.

ㅤㅤ" s'whatever. i get it. i prob'ly wouldn't'a believed people could be that bad 'f i didn't experience the shit firsthand. "ㅤthey still kind of resent that the first assumption was that they lack empathy, but they'll get over it.ㅤ" y'can find vids'a people doin' it on tiktok 'n shit if ya need some actual proof though. some people'll do anythin' to get even two seconds'a limelight, shit's obnoxious. "

[selapim]

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ❝ Well, I know .... people, can ... exaggerate, you know ? ❞

There comes, at least, laughter ; the anger and irritation that had began to pile, due to his OWN ignorance, seems to have - mostly - melted down, into nothingness. Even visibly, do they find ease. Good. Sung - Hyun was HARDLY well - versed in how to deal with others angry with him.

❝ Even my SECRET TikTok isn't on that side. It's mostly cute frog videos, and dance challenges, and a little of BookTok, but I PROMISE, I really did like ONE good book recommendation ! Now it's just ... hot guys in helmets and ... Vampire ... Smut ... I need a whole new algo - refresh ... ❞

[selapim]

@sunscoped ── food? gone. in all of the cupboards, sung-hyun will only find that disgusting malt cereal thing that he told dae-ho about. eat up !!

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ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤAt first ; CONCERN. ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤDid someone break in ? ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ Was it ANOTHER fan ?

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤNOTHING of value is missing : No watches, bracelets, anklets ... ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤnothing, really. No pages, of his journal are turned, or missing. ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤHowever, when he opens kitchen cupboard, arm drops. Oh, jeez.

ㅤ

He knows, it's DAE - HO, merely by what's left behind. Arm reaches to grasp box, reading over English printed at the back. American Branded, for sure ... He had to have gone through a great deal of trouble to retrieve this. Door shuts, another opens : more of it, appears. Head tips back as he groans, phone taken from pocket.

[ to : daedae ] so, you want me to starve, huh ???

[ichorkind]

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ㅤㅤEXTRA, EXTRA !

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤREAD ALL ABOUT IT !

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ( unaffiliated with the k/rpc. )

[veriken]

HYUNJIN | CHK CHK BOOM

[jinikaris]

Hyunjin and Felix’s interactive dance moves in Chk Chk Boom ✩ 2 // ∞ [ Music Core 2024 ]

[sunscoped]

you know, thinking on it now, he realizes that he probably didn't need to go all out in order to get his way. sung-hyun was nice, nicer than nice ! he's sure all it would have taken was a sweet smile and a pretty please for good measure and he would have gotten his way, but it's better to be safe than sorry, he thinks.

why risk boba, when he didn't have to ?

" wait, really ?! the biggest ? " excitement, clear as day as he moves with urgency now, taking the other by the hand and dragging him away through the foot traffic. " ooooooooh, you're gonna regret that, sungie ! because there's this new place that opened up, right ? and i've been meaning to go but like, finding the time is impossible and i didn't wanna go alone but like ━━━ buckets !! they have buckets of boba !! bigger than my head, even ! that's where we're going ! hurry up, hurry up, hurry uuuuuuup !! "

[selapim]

ㅤ A soul, kinder than any other ; it was in his heart, his code, his GILDED DNA, to give. So, when Dae - Ho grabs his hand, and begins to weave through bodies, mumbling soft apologies and light excuse me's - he has no choice but to go along with it.

Though, as the smaller speaks, his eyes grow owlish. Did he say a bucket ?! Who, he wonders, can drink an entire bucket of boba ? Wasn't that overly ... indulgent ? A little exorbitant ? Regardless ; he's a mistake to atone for, and if a BUCKET of sugary tea would be a fit redemption, he'd gladly sacrifice a few won to make it so.

❝ I'm coming - Stop pulling me so hard ! If I get a bruise, I'm deader than dead ! What flavor do you even want ? Will you FINISH the bucket, or will it get flushed down like some poor, dead goldfish ?? ❞

[hyunpic]

what a patootie