‘ it seems you still don’t understand, akira. but … that’s fine, i don’t mind explaining it to you. ’ they had all the time in the world, anyway. much more than before. he speaks so calmly–he’s so at ease–given the situation surrounding them. pure carnage ; in the distance, he can swear he hears the remnants of the humans still fighting for their lives. ( he’d be impressed, had they not been so pitiful to watch. the ‘greatest show’ ended up with a predictable ending. go figure. )
he pauses. not out of any real need to think, he knew the answer already. he knew all of them. rather, he pauses instead to stare, unblinking, at his own creation. ( akira … ) he wonders, why now of all times had his tears dried, it was quite unusual. part of him feels as if he should reach out, and he starts to–hand starting to outstretch before he discovers hesitance, yanking it back far quicker than it was raised, favoring its placement at his side instead. he’ll reach out once more again, just not now. not yet.
was it worth it? ‘ yes, it was. ’ as for happiness… ‘ i cannot feel what you might refer to as joy, however, in terms of completion…i’m satisfied. there’s still more to do, yet. we have to continue onward, prove to Him that we have the right to live. ’ he feels ( feels …? ) as if this wasn’t the answer he was looking for, but it’s an answer nonetheless.
‘ akira … may i ask you something, too? you were aware humans were going to die. you were aware, i hope, of what they thought of you–what they thought of demons. did you truly believe they were going to accept you? ’
he should’ve known that would be the answer. he wants to laugh at himself for expecting anything else from ryo ———— ( SATAN ? ) but he can’t. he’s lost the ability to express anything other than the boiling anger he has, and even that is overshadowed with this overwhelming numbness that comes from not wanting to face the pain he’s dealing with.
❛ you’re not able to experience joy huh, that’s a shame. if i could ... i would feel pity for you for not being able to experience it. ❜ all of the best things about being human came from the feelings of joy and happiness. all the things that made living worthwhile was the joy he felt being around everyone he had loved, from being around people like miko, miki, and the rest of the makimura’s. those beautiful things about life are also things had been taken away from him though, along with his heart; there’s no sorrow or joy to be felt or even expressed when the beating against his chest doesn’t feel whole itself anymore. ❛ obviously though, i can’t. ❜ in all honesty he can’t feel anything for ryo anymore. unlike the rest of his friends & family who are actually dead, the people that he can feel this ache for as if he’s begging for them to return, ryo who only feels dead but still stand in front of him isn’t ... missed. he supposes that there’d be no point to expressing ache for ryo to return, because there is no returning to someone once you’re dead to them in their head. ❛ i can’t even cry for you or for that fact that you feel satisfaction from all this disgusting destruction. ❜ in the grand scheme of things it’s more probable that ryo doesn’t care if he would cry for him or not, as he’s made it very clear he’s not empathetic. and even if he did somehow care, akira can’t bring it in himself to reciprocate those feelings.
❛ i don’t give a shit who you have to prove your power or whatever to, you and your army of demons have no right to live ! this world ... this world is made for humans ! ❜ he doesn’t believe the other deserves an answer. it’s not like he owes it to ryo just because he received answers, but he won’t sit back and let him talk about humanity in such a way. ❛ humans aren’t going to die ! humans are stronger than that ! yes, they’re capable of horrible things and can cause destruction to their own kind but ... but people aren’t one - dimensional ryo ! people aren’t evil or always selfish ! for every person who wouldn’t have believed in or accepted me, some other person out there would ! given the chance to explain how DEVILMAN ——— NOT DEMONS, ❜ ————— he’s not a demon, ❛ really are some people would’ve accepted me and the other devilmen out there ! after all there was good in the world, and to prove it ... she had accepted me, for who i was. she accepted the fact that even though i have the body of a demon that i still had a heart of a human ! ❜
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