<< MY LADS.Ā I have emerged from the depths of emotions and holiday dinners to make some confessions, yes.
#1.Ā I am back! ... sort of.Ā My time here isnāt going to be an all-day thing anymore, if at all.Ā Iāve been spending as much time as I could with my boyfriend (that holidays and a week of him being sick gave me an entire month to spend with him from sun-up to sun-down, it was great).Ā Because of him, I wasnāt really thinking about this site; I also donāt exactly enjoy my time here... thatās another issue, though.Ā I also will be busier during the evenings, as Iām attempting to finish up a certification course.
#2.Ā As much as I had hopes for Aldo and Zach, I attached both of them to my motivations in FF..X.IV, and now that Iām all caught up with the story in the game... I donāt have much drive to use them now?Ā Itās not as easy to get into their characters anymore, and thatās because they were attached to the game, not completely their own characters.Ā Itās something that happens to me from time to time, and when I recognize it, I start to loathe the characters.Ā And if I loathe them, I donāt want to use them, or I lose interest in them rapidly.
#3.Ā I might open a new blog for Magecrie.Ā His god-kids might be side characters, but they will never be MAIN characters, because I see what happened with Sin and Marduk here.Ā To me, a side character is a support for the main(s) -- and moving those two from side characters to main characters felt like I crippled myself when it came to writing Zachās arc.Ā In other words, in allowing them to be wild and free, I messed up a certain flow that I wanted for Zach... which is fine, learning process and all that.
#4. IF I do the above, Iām not taking any bullbull anymore. Roleplay with me or donāt, I donāt care, but Iām not going to be another number for people anymore.Ā I want to make meaningful arcs and threads, I want to work with, collaborate with other people, and if thatās not your jam, then maybe you should remove me from your list.Ā Short little goof threads are fine, it helps break up the seriousness, but I canāt stomach that being all my threads are.
#5. Iād rather roleplay with any of you on Discord.Ā Thatās an open invitation to bother me if youāve got that little magic number.Ā On Discord, Iām a lot more lax, I do shorter posts, I play around with characters that never see the light of day here, and I try to keep in contact and send memes and pics of doggos and even well wishes where I remember.Ā I only ask to not be disturbed if I put the little status to Do Not Disturb ( and I try not to bother other people if theirs are that little red button ).Ā It doesnāt have to be roleplaying all the time, either!Ā And I also understand that we all have lives away from roleplaying and no one (myself included) wants to roleplay 24/7.
... I think thatās it!Ā Thatās all I can think of for now, anyway.Ā Iām more leaning towards just leaving this site, not making a blog for Mage (because my god I hate making new blogs...), so donāt be surprised if this post is the last one you see of me here on any blog.
Hope the holidays were good for you lot, and I hope this is a good new year for ya! >>














