maybe a bit late, but that's who i am as a person so it's fitting. i'm a guy-ish transmasc creature (he/they) in my 30s working through grad school.
when not working or studying, i write a lot & have been getting back into drawing!! i mostly make things for hades (thanares & thanzag), but i enjoy other ships & fandoms as enrichment. :D
current interests: ARES, HADES, ancient greek classics, sleep token, iwtv
some other things i love: poetry & literature, dnd, making zines & crafty things, animals (especially birds), research spirals, people who love things <3
writing tag: #sen fic ramblings
art tag: #sen art
yap tag: #sen ramblings
tag for ares, thanatos, or thanares: #sigh.
my fanfics and short summaries are listed below the cut!! they consume at least 90% of my brain at all times & i am always extremely excited to talk about them with anyone interested. my asks are always open (for non-fic stuff too of course) :D
the two below series loosely exist in the same story ‘universe’ so there is some overlap in story-lines. though i think of these as more or less comprising one larger story, each fic can be read individually on its own.
war and death series (thanares focus):
the brazen sky so fixed by stars: (M, 120k-?) A story following Ares as he learns to navigate his family, his first love, and worst of all, himself.
hateful things: (E, 12.5k) When Thanatos unexpectedly takes Ares up on a long-standing invitation, surprises abound.
bane of men: (M, 2k) In which Ares responds to conflicting Iliad-style requests from his family and Thanatos learns the magic phrase for commanding the god of war.
carrion: (M, 2k) In the wake of a city’s sacking, Thanatos learns of Ares’ soft spot for vultures and reveals something about himself.
the death he would rather: (E, 3.5k) If there can be no rest for Thanatos while war rages on, then Ares will restrain himself to ensure that he gets a proper break. (angsty last time smut).
a frightful place: (M, 1.8k) Right when a pleasant evening seems about to become even better, a mistake causes past trauma to rear its head. This time, Ares has a chance to help fix it.
materials of war: (T, 1.3k) Ares and Thanatos carve out a moment of reprieve in the midst of a battlefield.
desecration: (E, 4.5k) Thanatos is bad at dealing with his emotions, especially the more painful ones, but bottling them up only hurts him more. Luckily, as a god well-versed in influencing battle spirit and an avid student of Death, Ares has learned of a way to help him—and he's never been one to shy from pain.
to see again the stars series (thanzag focus):
threads of gold: (M, 33k, pre-relationship thanzag & temporary thanares) A story following Thanatos as he learns to navigate the living, the dead, and, worst of all, feelings.
rain like copper & pitiless bronze: (E, 52k) A story following Zagreus and Thanatos as they learn to live a little.
The life of you, your lighting of the blaze: (E, 5.5k) Thanatos is worried for Zagreus, but comes to realise he really doesn't need to be.
to dust, the rest: (T, 3k) Thanatos finds himself temporarily out of work. Unsurprisingly, as the incarnation of his job, he doesn't take well to unemployment.
thanzag week fics:
letting go: (T, 1.5k) In which the first Elysium encounter between Thanatos and Zagreus takes an unexpected turn.
under a harvest moon: (T, 1k) In a world long abandoned by Death, Zagreus sets out from his Ephyra home in search of answers about his missing mother.
a festive light: (T, 1k) As the House of Hades prepares for the impending Olympian feast, Thanatos is faced with something even more concerning: Zagreus' decorative choices.
other fics:
rite of bloodshed: (M, 1k) Alectryon is every bit as bloodthirsty as Ares, and just as devoted to Ares as Ares is to Thanatos—the difference is, only one of them can die.
scars: (T, 700w) It's not the best idea he's ever had—OK, it's probably one of the worst—but following the reopening of the Handsome Jackpot, Rhys' curiosity gets the best of him.
the absolute devastating intimacy of a forehead rest. when you are both just so tired from existing in a world that demands you to be a rigid, functional individual, and you finally collapse into each other and just lean your forehead against theirs, or against their shoulder. it’s the physical equivalent of dropping your shields. it’s saying i am entirely heavy right now, and i am trusting you to bear a piece of that weight. and the most beautiful part is that the other person doesn’t even flinch. they just adjust their stance, tuck you a little closer, and absorb the impact. we were designed to divide the burden of being alive.
Alright pls reblog this and put in the tags what would be the stupid expensive and utterly self indulgent thing you'd have in your house if your were fuckoff mcmansion rich. Mine be a fully maintained indoor lazy river
by the way. it never is too late to decide you want to be happy. the woman who helped me get hormones didnt start hers until she was 70, and i met her at 73, beautiful and smiling - and told me that the last three years of her life had been her favorite. your favorites might be ahead of you too. why not hang around and find out?
genuinely fucked up that if i want to interact with someone online i have to say words and have a conversation instead of just mashing my face against them like a cat
several asks in my inbox about the nolan odyssey now that it's out so i will make my One Obligatory Post and so that i can be free to pass through the gate of false dreams and never think about it again
personally i have stopped caring about the movie itself in terms of whether it's a "good" version of the odyssey. there are things i have heard about it that i think are kind of dumb choices to make but i also like my odysseus to suck bigly and unrepentenly and tbh the version of odysseus in my head is not a very homeric one at all! it's more informed by things like the philoctetes and the aeneid because i personally find those depictions more interesting. there are also things i've heard that intrigue me but i refuse to pay money to see this movie
what i find is more important to focus on is the conversations about things like the treatment of shooting locations or the fucking iranian artifacts turned into jewlery for an american actress to wear while the us is actively waging war against iran. just as any ancient telling of odysseus's story, the nolan odyssey does not exist in a vacuum. i'm sure there are interesting things to analyze in the movie as a story but personally the issue that concerns me more is the analysis of this movie as a way for the classics to once again be interpreted and used by someone from a powerful colonizing nation for entertainment while actively appropriating aspects of other cultures. like it feels like heavy handed satire at this point except it's real. if we're going to give this movie critical attention i just think this is more important to think about than whether the movie is "good"
also i think the trojan horse looks dumb as hell and troy 2004 did a way better job at it. which is saying something.
