A lost soul wandering

What's the weather in your heart today? [probably following you from thekniftycrafts]

[senselesswanders]

Koi apna nahi, gham ke maare hai hum

[senselesswanders]

Hand on my heart, hand on my stupid heart

[senselesswanders]

Kar raha tha gham-i jahaan ka hisaab

Aaj tum yaad behisaab aye

[urgetocreate]

Kate Jarvik Birch, Blue Hour Stroll, 2025, Gouache on paper

[senselesswanders]

And the daggers of years gone past still retain their sharp sharp edges

[senselesswanders]

Me when I take the dagger to my own heart: 🤡

[senselesswanders]

In this dream, I say all the things I have never been able to forget. No longer afraid of hurting you. It pours out of me, and I awaken with a sadness deep in my bones

[senselesswanders]

Loss, loss, always in loss

[senselesswanders]

You've been locked in here forever and just can't say goodbye

[senselesswanders]

For a moment I could have been loved. For a moment. I was someone who could be loved.

[senselesswanders]

In all my dreams, it's still you and you and you

[senselesswanders]

Always the loser

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Everything I have ever wanted, forever slipping right out of my hands. At what point is enough? At what point do you give up?

[senselesswanders]

Never been so close to God, never been so far

[senselesswanders]

At least in my dreams, I get to talk to you again

[senselesswanders]

The further I go, the further I am from remembering

[senselesswanders]

I cannot stop remembering