Hi Tumblr, I will be posting this video, to record my first biggest drama in my current workplace.
I got into a fight with a colleague because he crossed the line of having to respect my boundary of saying NO. The reason may be petty (for them) yet still chose to cross the line for their own amusement, really triggered me. If you knew me personally, I am such a lively and loud person. I usually take on jokes and is really easy going. But this time, I did try to express my discomfort or disapproval of something yet for them, they take it still as a joke.
To make things more clear than a crystal, I will share my side of the story.
After the lunch break, I was in the office so happy and things got crazy when I accidentally hit the like button when I was stalking my crush. So as the OA person that I am, my reaction was really big haha and it lead that colleague of mine to took a video discreetly, though I noticed it.
Some time later, I was just curious of my reaction, I asked him to atleast let me see then he told me that he’d sent it to the GC. I got alarmed because even though I am close with people in the GC yet I am not still very comfortable sharing my video nor any personal things to them , I feel like its not right to share my video. So I told that colleague of mine to please not send it.
Here’s how our conversation went:
Me: Please Sir, indi na pag send sa GC. If e send mo na indi ta ka ya pag sapakon forever.
Him: *Clicks, sent* ayte ari hu na send na, pero wala man ni internet.
Then I hear another colleague playing my video sent in the GC and it sparked the the disrespect I was feeling and was fueled when I hear them having “fun” while playing the video. I got really angry because why would someone ignore your request for having to keep your things personal? Putting someone on a pedestal for their own amusement? Its a NEAUR for me
Still, as “daskal” and easy going people they are, they’re trying to mend the situation by giving all sorts of jokes but to me, by saying “I’m making a big deal out of it” when it was intended for fun was adding more salt to the would. I know they’re trying to ease the situation, my colleague who sent the video keep on apologizing and deleted a video but at that point, I was too emotional to give a damn. I was just quite the whole time not commenting to them but still assuring that I was okay.
My action was really foreign to them because usually I am loud and talkative but that day, since the disrespect happened, I chose to give myself a break having to let them know through my silent treatment that I am not up for any sorts of jokes and I needed space. I stayed quite despite their nonsense banters for almost an hour or two.
But these people are so insistent to the point I bursted out because they wont stop pestering me. I eventually said a line that hurts the pride of the colleague who sent the video. I honestly feel bad after but thinking if I allow to treat me like a joke, they will always gonna make fun of certain situations and not being mindful of the feelings of people around them.
Again I feel bad about my reaction to that situation but at the same time, I think it was necessary for me to also express my truth so that people will still be mindful despite being “daskal”. While I was driving I was asking God for forgiveness because I chose to listen to my ways rather than forgiving on the spot. I was asking forgiveness for being very emotional at that moment.
I talked with the colleague of mine through the messenger, he DMed me first, he expressed his apology and at the same time disappointment because of my outburst. I apologized and explain my side of the story but its seems like He’s more hurt than I am. Indi nlng ko mag tell but that’s just how it turned out because apparently, he was still hurting sayings so many things on how my bursting attacked him as a person. I dont know anymore I honestly feel very disappointed in him because why is he shifting the blame on me when its his fault in the first place, he should be the bigger person. To make the long story short I tried to cease fire but seems like He’s not willing, so as of this moment, I DONT CARE.
Right now, I prayed and keep on praying for us to become better not bitter with each other accepting the fact that there are lapses on both our judgement so help us God.
