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a corner, little safe space of mine on the internet

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My thoughts are still with you <3

I sit down on the corner of my bed As the moonlight faintly lights the sky The clouds silently cry I play a song on my phone I let out my shoulders and sigh And gently smile I could listen to the rain Being the rhythm of the song that I play Along with the piano's melody It gives me the comfort that weighs upon my heart And I start to miss you Because the comfort reminds me of you The different pitches of the song Makes me want to run to you It makes my heart drenched If only you knew About how content I was Only by thinking about you It was oddly comforting I look out through the window And see how the darkness Don't let us see The raindrops that are falling To the ground It covers the cloud's cry Perhaps that is how it is For every emotion I feel inside I cover my love with a smile But my thoughts are still with you

[sereneshiv]

a short unfinished poem:)

Tired is what I feel right now The muscles of my legs screamed in pain My hair is flying out of my head here and there I jump into my bed

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I can't understand you

I stare at the whiteboard in front of me Black and green letters which says complex words that I don't understand but I wish I understood the letters and you and me because I could understand The universe itself if you were with me right beside

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my comfort

I bit the cheeks of my mouth I was nervous I could feel the blood rushing through my veins to reach my heart cause after all my blood's comfort place is my heart I wonder if I could be your blood so I can live in your heart so that I could find my comfort my home in you

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An unknown sadness

My eyes were open widespread to see the sight in front of them Countless number of drops of water and dimly lit moonlight is present which allows my eyes to see the beautiful sight and the sight of darkness which makes the hair on my skin to stand straight to feel the melancholy of unknown sadness that blankets my heart

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it doesn't change every time

My head ached My forehead hurt because I don't know what thought I had I was as blank as nothing I want to feel my soul feel the energy of a human being and of an organism but I knew something that affected my metabolism and every time it is math

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I love you with my heart and mind

I am yearning to be noticed by you My love for you is so huge that my heart cannot contain it It feels like my heart will explode to pour out my love for you cause you're the only one who's on my mind constantly and my mind refuses to sleep because if I do then I wouldn't be able to think about you

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I wanna grow flowers for everytime I am in love with you

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I love my mind's emptiness

I feel like I am a rotten human My life is a question and my existence is its question mark I hate my conscious self I hate that I'm aware of myself of my surroundings of everything I could see feel or touch I hate to think for my thoughts haunt me and will continue to haunt forever I wish my mind was vacuum devoid of everything that I think about which consumes my mind

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I wish I loved you, instead

I have adored you with all my heart only to realize you will never be mine I wish we were together but we can't because you don't know me just like how I don't know you I never really loved you but only loved the thought of you the version of you in my head but instead I wish I loved you but I haven't and I cannot It hurts but this is the truth that my heart refuses to believe

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I wake up from sleep to remind myself that I am no one's favorite and will never be for I think I am not a lovable person I can never be loved as a friend as a lover as a daughter as a sister because I can never be important and loved because I don't deserve to be

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I wake up everyday knowing that I'm not getting any better I think about it again What am I, really? I stare at things I stare at people For I'm nothing but a starer And not a starrer of my own life I don't matter to me like my opinions to people When it is finally dusk I lie on my bed with stretched legs I stare at my ceiling when dim faint light creeps into my room from the window from the world that has gone to sleep while I lay on my lifeless body as my time stops moving

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my first poem :)

hi hi people, i am uploading my poem here, this is my first post so idk if it's good.. do let me know if it's good or bad..!!

~ I don't know what's happening around me Am I doing good or bad at the end? Whenever I try something, I end up doing mistakes Am i trying to be a different person? A person with all the expectations? Even if I try to be, I fail in doing that

I just looked onto my past I was happy a year ago Did I loose my happiness just because I changed my school? I try my best to look okay But it's all upside down By knowing this, I am existing With the hopes that I'll be happy again