The Family Disappointment

Side blog. A safe place to ramble about my issues without fear of repercussion from friends and family. I do not promote mental illness or self injury of any sort bipolar-hpd-self harm

[seroquel-dreams]

Self harm is arguably, the stupidest addiction there is. In a world of all sorts of fun, euphoria-inducing drugs, we’re stuck cutting, burning, bruising or whatever other sort of physical trauma against ourselves. How is that addictive? Why would anybody WANT to do that?

What people don’t realize is that, it’s a statement. In an environment I can’t control, in chaos, in a society that tells me to obey, it’s an act of defiance. This is MY BODY and I will do with it as I please. It’s my temple to desecrate, if I desire.

Nobody else’s.

[melisica]

Marc Paeps

[seroquel-dreams]

several months ago, I was suicidal because I was afraid that I’d never see someone who is very important to me again.

Now, this someone is texting me again. In addition to that, if I had killed myself, it would have been certain that I’d never see him again.

It’s so bizarre to see this from a non-disordered perspective. It’s like I’m able to see color again, after living in black and white. It’s like cleaning grime off my glasses and allowing the world to be clean and clear once again. It’s like turning on the HD switch on my xbox.

I’m barely able to remember the line of thinking I once had. The heavy sorrow is now a distant memory.

And so, I retire this blog. And for any of you who follow it, thank you.

[choosehopefortheanimals]

[suazia]

[borderlinereminders]

BPD Reminder #9

Just because they’re being distant doesn’t mean they’re mad or stopped loving you. They could have something else going on.

[borderlinereminders]

BPD Reminder #1

Just because they haven’t talked to you today doesn’t mean they’ve stopped loving you.

[borderlinereminders]

BPD Reminder #2

Just because they haven’t answered you doesn’t mean they’re intentionally ignoring you.

[borderlinereminders]

BPD Reminder #5

Just because they’re being distant right now doesn’t mean they’ve stopped loving you. There are so many reasons they could be distant right now.

[borderlinereminders]

BPD Reminder #6

Just because they don’t react the way you want doesn’t mean they don’t care.

[borderlinereminders]

BPD Reminder #10

Just because they tell you they aren’t up to talking right now doesn’t mean they don’t care.

[borderlinereminders]

BPD Reminder #12

Making mistakes doesn’t mean you’re a bad person.

[borderlinereminders]

BPD Reminder #18

Making a mistake does not make you a failure.

[hesaseawhore]

[seroquel-dreams]

All I want is to be fucked roughly and loved gently

But I'm never enough for people. I'm fairly cute, I'm interested in a lot of things, I genuinely care about people, I'm not gonna cheat on you, and I'm going for an engineering degree so it's not like I'm just looking for someone to take care of me. I just don't understand what I'm doing wrong? What's wrong with me? Why am I not good enough for anyone?

[seroquel-dreams]

I should have known 2016 was going to be a shit year ever since I started my period mid-coitus on Jan 1st

[burythecarnival]