Ohhhh beautiful quote. Especially because it’s still true, for all Ahsoka’s greatness she still has to fail!! No matter if it’s pre- or post- Vader she /has/ to fail because the only one who succeeds is Luke. How deliciously angsty, I love it
Not gonna lie, the first time i read that quote i cried. It’s so true and so tragic. No one really *saves* Anakin the way needs to be saved. They love him but they can’t help him the way he needs. And Ahsoka is one of the few people in Anakin’s life that actually *tries* to make him feel better but her position and age prevented her from doing everything she could. It’s so sad that a kid did more for Anakin’s mental health than the wise masters who raised him :(
Machinery was meat and drink to Anakin. He loved it. But [Ahsoka] was letting herself become distracted, so she pushed those thoughts aside. Her immediate task was to ascertain what Anakin was feeling. That way she’d have a better idea of what to expect from him when the news they were waiting for at last came through … and an idea of how best to deal with him, once it did. Dealing with her Master’s sometimes overpowering emotions was becoming more and more a part of her duties—and as the war dragged on, and their losses piled up, that job wasn’t getting any easier. He feels too much, too keenly. Maybe that’s what happens when you’ve got the highest midi-chlorian count in Jedi history. Maybe that’s the trade-off. You feel everything, so you’re brilliant. You feel everything, and it hurts. Not that his emotions got in the way. At least, he didn’t think they did. And to be honest, she didn’t, either. At least not as often as some people thought. Like Master Kenobi, for example, who chided his former Padawan for taking crazy risks, for pushing himself too hard, for letting things matter too much and losing his carefully measured Jedi distance. She didn’t always disagree. And sometimes, when Anakin had given her a really bad fright or when his mood became difficult, she wished she could chide him, too. But as a Padawan she had to find another way to let her Master know he’d gone too far. So she sassed him, or invented nicknames that were guaranteed to get under his skin. Sometimes she even deliberately flouted his wishes. Anything to break him free of sorrow or frustration or some bleak memory he refused to share. Anything to let him know, Hey, what you did then? That was stupid. But mostly she kept her fears for him to herself, because all his bright and burning passion for justice, his reckless courage, his hunger for victory and his refusal to accept defeat—they were what made him Anakin. He wouldn’t be Anakin without his feelings. She knew that, she accepted that, no matter what Temple teachings said about the Jedi and their emotions. And even though he scolds, I think Master Kenobi accepts it, too. He only scolds because he cares. So … what was her brilliant, sometimes volatile Master feeling now? Eyes drifted half closed, Ahsoka breathed out a soft sigh and let her growing Jedi awareness touch lightly upon him. Impatience. Concern. Relief. Loneliness. Weariness. And grief, not yet healed. Such a muddle of emotions. Such a weight on his shoulders. Months of brutal battle had left her drained and nearly numb, but it was worse for Anakin. He was a Jedi general with countless lives entrusted to his care, and every life damaged or lost he counted as a personal failure. For other people he found forgiveness; for himself there was none. For himself there was only anger at not meeting his own exacting standards. Feeling helpless, she chewed at her lip. She didn’t know what she could do to make anything better for him. She couldn’t heal his grief for the clones who’d fallen under his command, or the civilians he’d been unable to save. She couldn’t make him less tired, or order him home to Coruscant where his mood always lightened. She couldn’t promise the war would end soon, with the Republic victorious. At least he had Master Kenobi’s company for a little while. She was sure that accounted for his relief. [Karen Miller. Star Wars: Clone Wars Gambit: Stealth]
Ahsoka Tano is the most amazing, kind, brilliant, compassionate, caring and loyal friend Anakin ever had and no one will ever change my mind.
