honi

26/ black/ she/her/ lesbian/ a hopeless hot mess but at least I'm cute

[flyora]

Harris do his best as always

[dumbass-writer]

“I stand with my cancelled wife” and it’s Shane Hollander talking about ilya being cancelled on twitter every 2-3 business days

[sabotage-on-mercury]

actually it isn't Shane who is a nag and insits on certain rules around their home. it is Ilya with his slavic heritage and superstitions who comes up with one rule after another.

- no outdoor shoes inside. Ilya tried to play it cool for long enough, but he is over 30 now, he has no patience for mess anymore and his mama was right. Ilya gets Shane some expensive personalised adidas slippers & he is the guy who provides guest slippers

- no whistling inside. never. especially if it's hayden. he won't be the reason Ilya will lose another sports bet.

- if one of them leaves the house they don't go back inside home if they forgot something. he is very serious about thst one. once shane went back inside because he forgot to pack his gloves and they lost a game afterwards and Ilya insists this was just because Shane refused to get new gloves from the equipment department (and it was not at all because a little barren spell)

- No empty bottles on the table and that applies to protein shake bottles too, Shane! That's bad luck.

- Only odd numbers of flowers in a bouquet. Ilya panics as he realises Shane bought twenty tulips for Yuna for mother's day and makes Shane pull over so he can pick five wild flowers and add them to the bouquet.

- No sitting in an air current between opened windows because they WILL get sick. Ilya had to pick up Shane and sit him down somewhere else a few times.

[holly-hill]

Thinking about Naim Reid. Thinking about Naim going to the pastor and his wife. Thinking about Naim going to a police station and coming out to a cop.

Thinking about how the beginning of the movie introduces the idea that he is so fearful — afraid of the snake, afraid of heights, and the threat of the spider. Afraid of his and Ryan’s reflection as they’re making out. He’s so scared, and he’s just a kid, and we see over and over again this childlike trust he has in the people who are supposed to help him.

Why does he go to Hunter’s parents? Obviously there was some aspect of jealously, but Hunter and Ryan were also actively hurting each other. He doesn’t just watch them make out. He watches them pelt each other with fucking rocks and I think it was scary enough for him to regress into the idea that they genuinely needed help.

So, he does what he was raised to do. He asks for help. He watches Hunter get dragged in to the dark and he goes to the cops and he asks for help. He has that nightmare and he asks his mom for help. He’s attacked by an evil entity and he runs into the gas station asking for help and NO ONE IS HELPING HIM. Not the church, not the cops, or Izzy, or his mom.

In the end at the mill, entity Ryan tells him again that they want him to be afraid. Then in the daylight IN THAT SAME PLACE his mom confirms it. She tells him he needs fear. HE ALREADY HAS IT. He was already afraid at the beginning of the movie!!!! He’s been afraid the whole fucking time !!!!

And as my good personal friend Henry Chang once said “If you cannot be unafraid, be afraid and happy.”

So, he stops asking for help. He runs, and Ryan is there, and they cannot be unafraid but they will be happy — and I guess I’ll just be thinking about it for the rest of my life

[omgshesblowinbubbles]

Don’t Twinkify my Shane but also don’t Dumbify my Ilya! He does not need a sex ban threat to pick up his socks, he knows Shane doesn’t like stuff on the floor. He does not eat McDonalds while shane cooks dinner. His goal in life is to be a good boyfriend and make his man happy and he is very good at it.

[servedwithhoni]

Movies For Pride

This year, to celebrate pride, I wanted to get more into queer movies. I tried to watch at least two movies each week. That didn't end up happening exactly, but I want to continue this for the rest of summer. These are the ones I got to so far this month.

1. Rocky Horror Picture Show

Absolutely chaos in the best way possible. I was having fun the entire time. The music has been stuck in my head since I first watched it. Completely understand why this is such a cult classic. Tim Curry, you will always be famous. I need to go to a midnight showing one day.

2. The Birdcage

The son pissed me off so much. You have such loving parents, and you're going to let someone else's potential judgment get in between your family? Electric chair! Robin Williams and Nathan Lane are absolute gold. I quote Nathan's "I was young once" monologue from the beginning of the movie all the time now. I wish their characters were more affectionate towards each other, but I understand that it was the 90's and Nathan was still in the closet. I'm so sad I didn't hear about this movie sooner.

3. Paris is Burning

Beautiful, heartbreaking, funny, everything. My local museum did a showing of this for pride, and I'm so glad the first time I saw this was on a big screen. I avoided this documentary for so long because I knew it was going to make me cry, and it did, but I still adored it. I want to be black and queer in every lifetime.

4. Girls Like Girls

I have a lot of mixed feelings about this movie. I thought it was cute when I saw it, but felt like the dialogue was kinda lacking. You can tell it was originally a music video because it felt like a lot of important character and chemistry building between the two leads was just montages. So I left theater like, it's cute might watch again as a movie to have in the background. But then I learned a few things about Hayley Kiyoko, and yeah, I won't be watching or listening again.

5. Moonlight

✨️ A masterpiece ✨️ I saw this the same day I saw girls like girls since my theater showed them back to back. It was a very fun little gay day. This is another that I avoided for a while because I knew it was gonna hurt my feelings. 100% crushed me emotionally, but it was so beautiful. It's been over a week since I've seen it, and sometimes I still just sit and think about it. The scene where his mom apologized to him towards the end destroyed me. Chiron is twice my size, but I just wanted to hold him in that moment.

6. Leviticus

These two are my babies. This is romance, people! I don't want the monster to look like some other dickhead, I want it to look like you. And what if I walked into traffic right now? This was horrifying, and little too close to home as a girlie who grew up in Catholic school, heartbreaking, and so so romantic what the fuck. I was supposed to pick another movie to watch yesterday, and I just watched this again.

7. Portrait of A Lady On Fire

I watched this earlier today, so I haven't fully sat with my thoughts yet, but another masterpiece. The yearning made my heart ache and made me feel incredibly single. I cried when she saw the painting of her and her daughter in the museum. The corner of the page at 28. I feel like staring at a wall and just thinking about it.

That's everything I've watched this month. Again, I'm going to continue to watch as many queer films as I can this summer, so if you have any recommendations or know of any that are coming out soon, please let me know. How did you celebrate pride this year?

[theartofmadeline]

happy pride to the gay people in my computer <3

[hystericalend]

naim getting pulled out of his first kiss with ryan because he sees his reflection. getting to see what the two of them would look like to someone else, if they happened to see. ryan draped on top of him, kissing him, touching him where nobody has ever touched him before. naim kissing back with his hands in ryan's hair, body arching up to meet him. seeing himself be touched and kissed by a boy and eagerly kissing back. seeing his own want clearly on display being what makes him push ryan away and tell him they should stop. someone shoot me with a gun

[servedwithhoni]

And the smile on his. He was so happy and seeing his own happiness scared him. It broke my heart

[something-cool-and-profound]

That moment when Tobias pushed Gabin's hair out of the way so he could get a better look at his black eye. Also Gabin moving his head slightly to let Tobias inspect it. That's it. That's the post.

[servedwithhoni]

Missing them

[grabmybush]

‘shane’s the mum because he takes it up the ass-‘ as if ilya isn’t the most team mum to ever mother and as if shane doesnt have a toolbelt he brings out every time his husband wants to put up a picture

[m4s0ch1st1c-pup]

I think Shane would be way more of a possessive and protective mf than people think he'd be

He stays near Ilya like a body guard whenever they go out in public, especially in bars. His eyes are constantly sharp and calculating, only softening when Ilya turns to him

Someone goes to make a move on Ilya and Shane wraps his arm around his husband's waist as tightly as humanly possible, dead staring at anyone who tries

He's sharply correcting any reporter that doesn't say Ilya's full name or reminding them that Ilya is HIS husband.

He answers questions for Ilya when the reporters are being idiots too

He's replying to tweets thirsting after Ilya in the most deadpan and borderline threatening responses

If there's an event they have to go to with a lot of people, he's sucking marks into Ilya's neck as dark as he can get them in the most visible spots

He makes sure Ilya's wedding ring is visible in every picture taken

He gets into more fights on the ice than he has in his entire career, laying out anyone who decides to talk shit about Ilya, or the gods forbid, Ilya's mother.

Shane is a possessive, protective, no bullshit person for his husband and he's proud of that shit

[tarawitht]

This is your daily reminder that canon Shane Hollander never showed any sings of ´femininity’ as a social concept. Never showed any child like quirks. Had a lot of close friends and bagged some hot people. Is very horny and foul mouthed and out freaked Ilya multiple times.

So yeah, I don’t know why a part of this fandom likes to feminize or infantilise him.

[deadbeatmaker]

I don’t trust people who don’t like 80s pop music like what are you? straight? grow up

[quantumshade]

everyone be quiet. marsha with her snoopy.

[bizarrelittlemew]

please mr tierney he is asking so nicely

[gaynehollander]

Sometimes I think about the fact that almost every single person who found out about Shane and Ilya felt the need to ask Shane "him? really? he's the one you want to be with?"

I think about how Ilya has had to make his way through life mostly on his own since he was twelve years old, about how he moved to a new country as a teenager and was immediately thrust in front of a camera without knowing the language or how to cope with his newfound fame. I think about the preconceived notions of Russians and how, in the absence of being able to accurately communicate (both because of the language barrier and his repressive upbringing), Ilya decided to or was forced to lean into that stereotype. I think about how soft Ilya allows himself to be with Shane, about how he takes care of him, about how silly and goofy he can be, how he's sometimes just a grown kid, how other times he's the only person who can shut Shane's brain off. I think about how kind he is, how caring, how deeply he feels, how incredibly empathetic he is. I think about how wildly Shane loves him. How there literally never could have been anyone else. I think about how incredibly hurtful it is that no one trusts Shane to make his own decisions about his own fucking life and how much it hurts seeing the coldness the world regards his partner with. I think about Shane getting home and walking straight into Ilya's arms, after having to (once again) justify his love for the best man he's ever known, allowing himself to take comfort in his warm embrace, even when it feels to Shane like he should be the one providing both comfort and shelter.

I think about the surety Shane would feel when thinking to himself, "yes. Him. No one else."

[kobrafangs]

let’s go centaurs!