Cherie

18 Aspiring lolita I love Malice Mizer and Moi dix Mois with my soul I am a huge Mana Sama fangirl French is my first language but a few years ago a witch who was jealous of me cursed me and I forgot it. My profile and banner are from Dokuhime by Mitsukazu Mihara

[seventhveill]

I wanna try something

see technically I’d fit under the description of pansexual best but It’s a bisexual micro label and I just prefer to refer to myself broadly as bisexual but here the pansexual hashtag looks a lot prettier I wanna see if it will be rainbow like that?

[karafina]

doll & clown 🥀

[seventhveill]

getting over my hate of yogurt

I keep seeing high protein dessert recipes that I really want to try but most of them have greek yogurt in them as what makes it high in protein, and I hate yogurt! Well I decided to try and ease my way into it by licking a spoon full of vegan yogurt (since its made from cashews its easier to just imagine it as not being yogurt) and it wasn't bad! I still really hate thinking about yogurt though specifically the image of it on someones tongue and the smell its just repulsive im not sure why

[seventhveill]

I made another one, drawing on laptop is incredibly hard for no reason. No I don't think I've ever seen him wear anything like this specifically but whatever

[moi-dix-mois-archive]

Dixanadu + Lamentful Miss CD, EU version

Release date:

2007-05-04

Label:

Trisol Music Group

Tracklist:

CD1 (DIXANDU) :

1.dispell bound

2.Angelica

3.Metaphysical

4.exclude

5.Last Temptation

6.Immortal Madness

7.neo pessimist

8.Xanadu

9.A Lapis' Night Dream

10.Lamentful Miss

11.Lilac of Damnation

12.sacred lake

CD 2 (Lamentful Miss) :

1.Lamentful Miss

2.Perish

3.forbidden

4.Lamentful Miss (Instrumental)

5.Perish (Instrumental)

6.forbidden (Instrumental)

Booklets scans:

Booklet 1:

Booklet 2:

[seventhveill]

Reminesence

I can clearly see the shore from the window of the tower, my hand resting on the stone wall. It's somewhat of an abandoned castle (?) but it's still standing in the state it was left. I get this image so often and I'm not sure where it comes from but there are certain things that ignite it. One of them is the cover of the Sans Voyage Retour album, another is seeing a bush of pink roses from far away while wearing my glasses. For some reason seeing roses so clearly gives me this image. Whenever it rains and the air remains humid afterwards I also see this vision.. This place is most certainly in France, there is no other possibility. I think it might be a vision into my past life, I was a French man, I had long dark hair and feathers in my hat, and this memory would be from when I was still young, maybe 18-22, there was a bit of sand on me either in my boots or my face somehow and this was around the 1700s, I died not having experienced the revolution.. I probably thought the monarchy would last forever as simply the natural god given order. I had a horse for sure, I miss my horse. I think I'm getting this vision now because I am the same age right now as I was in this memory.

[seventhveill]

⚜️I doodled a Mana Sama 🧁 and put glitter on him 🦢 instead of sleeping 💛

[seventhveill]

im in the process of creating something slightly taboo

[ghostlygardenia]

10/10

LEGZ!!!!!

[seventhveill]

Mana Sama is the first and only person I have ever felt physical attraction to

[seventhveill]

VENT OF SORTS

"From the bottom of my heart, i love the me reflected in the mirror"

Its a line from Malice Mizer's Speed of Desperate, and I really wish I could relate to it. It feels humiliating to go outside nowadays because putting effort into the way I look just makes me feel pathetic. No matter how much makeup I put on it cannot conceal the flaws that I sometimes forget exist but other people can see and then project assumptions onto me based off them, my personality and clothes gets filtered through my ugliness and end up making anything I do be perceived as worse. When I was a child I loved myself and I loved having photos of myself taken but back then I actually looked good and believed that I would look even better in adulthood but there are certain features that most people grow out of when they get older, but unfortunately that never happened to me and since they look bad on adults, my looks have decreased. I want to get plastic surgery but I'm broke and it can go wrong so all I can do is resort to unhealthy habits to make up for it. I hate thinking about the fact that as I grow older l will age and hate myself for not appreciating for what I have now. I went to the pool earlier and although I love being in water I hate the way I look when I'm in water and the lifeguards have to stare at me and I can just imagine being passively bullied by them in a casual setting.

[seventhveill]

reviewing monster zero sugars

ultra peachy keen.. I take a sip and it's very good I taste a bit of mango it reminds me of jello

[seventhveill]

clothes trade

earlier today I went to a clothes trade I was invited to by one of my friends, the atmosphere was incredibly hippie with babies everywhere and stuff there were only women there, iced jasmine tea was served too! I love jasmine tea so much I gotta buy myself some…. In my head I’m a lot more extroverted than I am in reality, like I believe I talked plenty and stuff but turns out I am somehow perceived as quiet and shy and I don’t completely understand why? I guess I’m a little awkward but I manage lol. I got some pretty nice pieces actually! I’m excited to work then into my fits later on.

[seventhveill]

I think I’m bisexual

I might be lying to myself tho but it would be weird if I was lying to myself for like four years if I’m honest my whole childhood I’ve only been interested in men but then the most intense romantic attraction I’ve experienced was towards a girl when I was 14. Idek sorry if I end up straight in a couple years sorry for larping bisexuality and queerness ok bye

[seventhveill]

somewhat small things I want but don't need

Or reasons I wish I were employed

a good white cotton blouse

new colored contacts (that actually fit me and correct my vision)

lace for sewing

sparkly pink nails

a pack of chocolate wafers

socks & tights

rope (not for anything bad)

cross necklace

also I want chunky shoes that aren't boots so bad have ones that aren't chunky and I don't like wearing them because my legs look strange, I like how they look much better with chunky shoes one

[seventhveill]

SEWING

I've taken it upon myself to finally get to sewing, I wanted to start a sewing blog for a bit but I've been so miserable for the past few months that all that time just rotted away. But I am so locked in! I had some light blue fabric lying around for a while now, unfortunately it got stained so now I'm fighting for my life trying to get it out. I am in the process of creating a jsk, I drafted and cut up some fabric but now I need to buy elastic thread for the shirring, I don't understand why its so expensive; 8$ for a roll ToT! If I do get it it will take some time to ship so in the meantime I will practice using a sewing machine by making a matching headdress for the potential jsk. I chose blue for the fabric not because of my obsession with Mana Sama actually, but because it was most practical... White is really easy to stain, and black attracts heat. The other colors like green or red don't match my other clothes too well, and the pink options they had were ugly shades of it.

also the photo doesn't have much to do with this I just felt like adding it for decoration...

[justmalicemizerthings]

Can you do a reaction where you fall off the bed when they aren't in the room please?

Yu~ki:

Yu~ki felt terrible.  He turned his back for just a moment and the most precious person in his world had rolled off the bed in their sleep.

Walking quickly into the room, he immediately knew there was no blood around because he would have sensed it due to his keen nose for the liquid.  “Y/n?” he gently called, making sure you peacefully woke up after your fall.  Thankfully, it was on carpet, so the blow to your head was softened.  Once you were conscious again, he helped you back into bed and stayed with you the rest of the night.  Who knew what sort of thing could happen again if he left you…

Gackt:

Gackt had probably been working on a song late into the night due to his insomnia, but when he heard the thump, he immediately jumped out of his seat.

“Y/n?” he called, checking if you were awake and had made that noise voluntarily.  When he repeated himself and there was no response, he went to your shared bedroom with him to make sure you were okay, but of course, you weren’t.  Still sleeping, you were on the hard floor beside your bed.  He kneeled down beside you, head just above yours, and lightly shook you by the shoulders until you woke up.  “Y/n?  Are you okay?” he asked.  You said you didn’t know how you got here, and he smiled.  “You fell off the bed in your sleep.  Had a bad dream?”

The sight of your beloved boyfriend so concerned for you gave you a better idea.  “No, I was dreaming about you, actually.”  He smirked.  “I’ll fuck you even harder in real life.”  And he did.

Közi:

Your usually easygoing boyfriend was filled with fear when he heard the thump.  He knew, as he tried to calmly walk to your bedroom, that something was wrong, but nothing prepared him for seeing you on the ground.  Your unresponsive state frightened him.  Would you be confused when you woke up?  If, more correctly, you woke up?  He bent beside you and lay down.  At least you wouldn’t have to wake up alone…

Mana:

Mana sama actually didn’t hear when exactly you fell off the bed.  He had been playing one of his video games, completely focused, and had only realized that you were not in bed when he decided to finish for the night.  Going up to your shared room was giving him a bad feeling, but had brushed it off as a product of being up way too late.  His body was right, though.  Something was wrong.  When he opened the door, he froze in shock.  The other sexy pretty angel in this house, the only other one in the world maybe but who knows he was only like 27, wasn’t in their bed!  He started panicking, but saw that you were just on the floor when he turned on the overhead light on out of fear.  Sighing, he turned it off and brought you a (blue) blanket for the floor.  Maybe he needed to start chaining you to the bed…

Kami:

The drummer of Malice Mizer had been on a drive with Gackt late into the night.  What had started as just an outing to keep the younger man company had turned into a winding adventure of getting lost on the beach.  Tired from the vocalist’s presence for this long, he hoped to come back to sleep next to his wonderful partner…but you weren’t there!  You were on the floor next to the bed, still soundly asleep.  Kami hoped that maybe you were dreaming about him.  Anyway, being his buff self, he picked you up bridal style and arranged you so well that when you woke up, you wouldn’t even realize you had fallen.  Maybe one day you could really be his bride! ^-^

[seventhveill]

Well I’ll fall again pretending it’s an accident until Mana feels really bad for me so you know.. you know what happens.. sorry…

[blackpansies]

mana sama illustration by mitsukazu mihara featured in gothic lolita bible vol.50