look back in silence.

hi. I'm Ben, 24, gay (but shit happens) ftm... This blog is a bit (ok a lot...) fandom-ish and bandom-ish and a bit of personal, so don't be surprised... I like to jump from one obsession to another. I also consider my blog as some kind of a diary....? i dunno. hi :3 looking for a Cas to my Dean. Marcus Mumford is my spirit animal. Brandon Flowers is my god. Jensen Ackles is a lil shit. Misha Collins is my overlord. Nathan Drake is my goal. |27.10.16|T come say hi.

[izzy-hands]

The Witcher + Text Posts [6/?]

[shakealittle]

what's up bitches, long time no see

[shakealittle]

Haven’t been on here for a while, wanted to check in Hope you’re doing well!! Any T updates? 💛

*it’s been 84 years* literally its taken me so long to reply to that am sorry!

Doing quite alright! T has been and still is a life changer!

long story short: had 3 top surgeries. 1st wast one side, 2nd was the other, 3rd was revision (they got rid off my dog ears). also had hysto. which all in all is great buuuuuuut. I HAVE GAIND SO MUCH WEIGHT OMMGGG Like, seriously... I was loosing weight pretty well. I wen’t from 98kg (holy fuck I know) to 75kg in about 8-10 months?? then it slowed down, but I got to 72. had hysto and booom! I can’t go below 78 mark for months now. it’s annoying. but yea. my beard’s filling up more! and it’s acutally curly when I leave it for too long. my stache is weak af tho. I have more hair on my back than on my belly and chest which is.....worrying. but chest hair is slooooowsly starting to show more and more.

I still hate doing my shots and am actually forgetting about them a lot. don’t remember when I did it on time lol

oh, just to mention, I’m like 2,5 years on T (HOLY FUCK WHAT???? I don’t keep track until i have to and wwwuuuuuuuut that’s awesome me!)

no bleeding, no misgendering, no wanting to go back. no regrets (just one, but it’s a long, money involved story)

so yeah. I may say I’m doing pretty good!

[turtlegg]

i couldn’t rest until i made this

[catchymemes]

[toshio]

due to personal reasons i’ll be

[aidashakur]

Ok > arguing with anybody

[serotnin]

how come you only become aware of how tipsy you are in bathrooms

[serotnin]

[sardoniyx]

Only The Young - Brandon Flowers

[brxndonflowers-deactivated20200]

Day #49875 in the Brandon Flowers fandom and I still have not gotten over the Crossfire video

[vdkaiero]

*me, to my own mind* can u like s h u t the fuck up for once

[sweetiepie08]

How to get ready in the morning

Step 1: Stay in bed as long as you possibly can. 

Step 2: Speed run. 

[vorchagirl]

I feel called out.

[digitalfaerie]

if you roll off the bottom of your bed at just the right angle you can clip through the floor straight into the shower saving precious time

[vampireapologist-archive-deacti]

*wakes up feeling ugly* oh god I have to be funny today

[sodamnrelatable]

but it was NOT YOUR FAULT BUT MINE

and it was YOUR HEART ON THE LINE

i really FUCKED IT UP THIS TIME

didn’t I MY DEAR

didn’t I my -

[jamiedornaniseverything]

“I love you both so much.” John Winchester (14.13)

[judgejudyofficial]

person i love: hey, i care about you and genuinely like being around you

me: okay……… that sounds fake but alright

[shakealittle]

here's hoping things are going well for you

That's... Wow. I haven't thought I'd get such a nice message out of the blue and I'm... Wowzers. Thank you so much! Things are quite good I recon! Omg thank youuuu!!

(here's me dying to know who you are so I could hug you cause you made me smile so hard ❤️❤️❤️)