shake well

[shakewell]

[shakewell]

Silence speaks volumes.

[nihilisa-frank]

[shakewell]

Sometimes I masturbate just to stop crying

[shakewell]

No argument

I feel like I'm just making you feel awkward in your own home

[shakewell]

Swallow it.

[shakewell]

To be perfectly honest, shitting my pants was easily the best thing that happened yesterday.

[shakewell]

Already in bed feels a lot like forgot.

[shakewell]

I'm trying not to overanalyze it, but I can only imagine two reasonings: 1) she doesn't want me to know about her life or 2) she doesn't care to know about mine. Either way she isn't interested in the same family I am. And I am heartbroken.

[breanna-lynn]

Teach me how to gracefully let go of things not meant for me.

[kimchicuddles]

Feeling + Enmeshment

[shakewell]

yet another thing i love about this comic: it speaks to me even when i don't know what the words mean. it's been a long, strange journey for me this year, allowing myself to feel things again. learning to stop judging myself for having particular feelings or feelings at all. but it's been exactly as rewarding as it has been difficult. and for that i am grateful. here's to another year of discovery and growth.

[shakewell]

i'd be more thankful if i could sleep, but i have to say i feel like it's been a pretty good year, all things considered.

obviously, the sudden passing of my mother was difficult. but i'm grateful we had the opportunity and motivation to reconnect before she died. i'm thankful for the outpouring of love and support (and patience) from friends and family during that (this) difficult time.

i'm so grateful for those friends who have support and encouraged me personally, professionally and roller derbally in 2014. it's been an amazing year of less stress and more satisfaction. i'm constantly amazed at the growth i see in myself this last year.

and i genuinely feel happy.

[shakewell]

Nothing is sacred.

[shakewell]

who knew?

if you would have told me a year ago that i'd be trying to get pregnant and also pinning fashion inspirations to send a stylist, i would have laughed your fucking face off.

but i love who i've become.

[shakewell]

Replaced

[shakewell]

Here's what I know: It's okay to not be okay. And maybe it's gonna get much worse before it gets a little better. But I am alive. I am loved. I'm finally starting therapy and I am hopeful for the first time in a long time. And that's enough for me. For now.

[shakewell]

And sometimes you knock on your boyfriend's door while his girlfriend is there and slow jams can be heard from the hallway.