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I don't know. I just scrolled through this blog and some things I wrote here are just... heartless.

#Is this really what I used to be?#...#I feel better now.#I am justice. Not a killing machine.#I will not falter but I will show mercy if need be.#I... don't know.#... I should get a therapist.

...

#Is what I wrote here what I really am?

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El retorno del Hombre Lobo - Paul Naschy 1981

The thought of finally destroying that wretched, saintly place makes me giddy.

#I didn't had any more moodswings.#This keeps me up at night with a sense of revenge I had yet to experience.

It’s a bit sad that some of my friends only recognize me for my weakest, most gullible traits.

I guess the change will shake them a bit, but it’s all their fault for overlooking my true nature.

#I wonder how many connections will be severed after this.#Doesn't matter.#Peace was never an option and I gave them too much time.

I will have the most entertaining dreams after I do what I have to.

Their bodies will emerge from the ground of my dreams and point what's left of their digits at me, faces rotting off and skin peeling away. They'd try to stand mighty, but it would be hard to have dignity, fused with the floor as they are. They'd reach my waist, if anything goes good. They'd accuse me of having usurped their home, ripped away their dreams and weep about their fallen siblings.

And I will smile, confirm it, and stomp them back to their place.

#::)

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the double image, anne sexton from the complete poems written c. 1960

#Can't wait to see their mangled corpses haunt my dreams.#Those are gonna be pleasant.#For real.

peegpin

day 25 | bleed like knives

LAST TEN MINUTES OF THE 25

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Even if you tear me to pieces, I’ll still find a way to fucking kill you.

#::)

Oh boy, y’all have no idea.

#Sure you can pity or coddle me all you want.#Doesn't change the fact that I WILL turn into a god soon.#I will discard anything and anyone in my way and we'll see what happens.

Was about to say something pretty cruel early, went to sleep instead.

#Productive evening.

Like, what exactly is keeping me from shuffling through the coordinates, randomly show up at someone’s house and murdering the entire household in cold blood just because I feel like it? It’s going to have zero significant repercussions on me. Losing someone because they’re sobbing sops over someone I murdered would have destroyed me once and made me feel guilty, now I just no longer give a shit. It’s hard to give a shit now.

What is holding me back? The fact that this is a quiet, nice evening, I am relaxing, and I don’t want to ruin it. It’s starting to feel nice after this gigantic abyss that will actually never close, it’s starting to feel normal. It’s kind of me to not get up and murder anyone I want in cold blood, because I don’t want to ruin my mood over a bloodied body.

People have a fucked up sense of kindness these days, and I am completely normal for how I grew up.

Those pro-kindness posts have been really pissing me off!

I don’t have to forgive my asshat of a creator for getting rid of me. I don’t have to forgive those who mock me without attempting to understand me. I don’t have to do a diddily darn thing! I don’t have to be kind, I choose to be kind with people that I like! I could not do that! I could be an entiled asshole to everyone with little to no distinctions but I choose to be kind!

Forgive and forget can be applied to small things! We kill eachother once, it’s fine! Just a scratch, we were sparring! You accidentally ruin the soufflè, it’s fine! You accidentally set the kitchen on fire, don’t worry about it! You got gum stuck in my hair, just gonna snip it off!

Grudges are forever and I will damn well keep them all to myself, and murder at the first occasion I get! I don’t care if a grudge is petty or makes me look childish. I do what the fuck I want. I don’t have to listen to how people see me.

I do what the fuck I want and even more now.

#I haven't blown up like this in a long while. Nice.

It’s sad that I keep being understimated. I can just feel it in the air, hovering above my head.

#Everyone is in for a surprise.#I have left the ability to give a shit in the grave with my father.#Anyone who is a nuisance or stands in my way will die from now on.#I do what the fuck I want to whoever I want and will suffer no sensible repercussions from it.#I am destined to great things and I will achieve them with blood if need be.#This is a new time. With new time it comes new responsabilities.

Thinking about it, it's probably hystery growing.

#I don't feel normal.

thewindowofthesummerhouse

Lucian Stanculescu, Hypnothalamis

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commission for @emiechii! ty!!

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