I'd rather die my way than live yours.

Shane. 19. Freshman. Free spirit. Major: International Business Clubs: Debate & Paranormal Society

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Another one of these lame OOC Announcements

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[shanehayden]

Text | Aaron

Aaron: I see. well.. you probably don't want to, but you're welcome to come over and attempt to kick my ass in this video game

Aaron: if not i can't really help you

Shane: ... what game?

[shanehayden]

Text | Aaron

Aaron: debatable

Aaron: what'd you want?

Shane: i dunno. im just bored.

[shanehayden]

Text | Aaron

Aaron: hi slut

Shane: i'm /not/ a slut

[doylemegan-deactivated20140613]

I don’t know..Do you want to be friends again?

[shanehayden]

I mean, it'd be nice. I don't really talk to anyone anymore.

[doylemegan-deactivated20140613]

I don’t want to leave either. I miss you Shane…I’m tired of it too..

[shanehayden]

So... what? Do we just go back to being friends? Just like that?

[doylemegan-deactivated20140613]

Whatever you want..its up to you really.

[shanehayden]

... I don't want you to leave. I'm tired of being alone.

[doylemegan-deactivated20140613]

D-Do you want me to leave?..

[shanehayden]

What -- like, forever? Or just the room?

[doylemegan-deactivated20140613]

What can I do to make it up to you?..

[shanehayden]

... I don't know.

[doylemegan-deactivated20140613]

Y-You dont?..Why does it feel like you do?

[shanehayden]

Because I'm angry? Because this was just another relationship in a long list of ones that have failed? But I don't hate you.

[doylemegan-deactivated20140613]

You’re not stupid and Brian is my best friend..You don’t understand Shane, everything that happened, it was my first time. I didn’t know what to do. It was the first time anyone has actually liked me as something more. I’ve never had something like that. It was a bit of a shock for me..I really don’t know how to explain this but I’m sorry okay? If you want, go ahead and tell me that you don’t want to see me anymore, that you never want to talk to me anymore. Tell me you hate me.. Just say that and I’ll leave…

[shanehayden]

... I don't hate you, though.

[doylemegan-deactivated20140613]

How is that bullshit?! I meant every word!

[shanehayden]

You were never bored of me, yet, the last few weeks we were together, all you did was hang around that Brian kid. It's bullshit because, if you really loved me at all -- like you fucking said you did -- you would have made the effort to stay with me. You would have made the effort to make us work. Instead you pull the 'I fell out of love with you' card and expect me to believe that this just happened all on its own. That kind of shit doesn't just happen, Megan. I know I'm stupid but I'm not blind.

[doylemegan-deactivated20140613]

Look, I was never bored of you. I don’t know why you would think something like that. I-I’m sorry okay? I didn’t mean to hurt you after everything I put you through. I’m not thinking straight, I haven’t been thinking straight. I didn’t know what more to do between us, I felt like I was boring you and that you were ready to just get up and leave. I was scared that would happen so I just ran. Its what I’m good at. Running away rather than talk about it. If I were good at telling you how I felt, I would have told you my feelings way before the whole problem with Izzy and you. I didn’t want to hurt or upset you in anyway..

[shanehayden]

Bullshit.

[doylemegan-deactivated20140613]

Shane…

[shanehayden]

Alright. We're in person. So talk.

[shanehayden]

Text: Shane

Megan: I was not bored!

Megan: Can we talk about this in person?

Shane: You know where my dorm is.

[shanehayden]

Text: Shane

Megan: Are you ever going to talk to me with more than one word. Or better yet, are we ever going to be okay?

Shane: I don't know. You were the one the decided to drop me the second you got bored.

[shanehayden]

Text: Shane

Megan: I just wanted to say hi and see how you are doing...Its been a while..

Shane: im fine