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Bedridden

I can't get out of bed why is this song stuck in my head? Are we better off friends? Are we just playing pretend? Why can't I get out of bed? In this moment I thought this was everything I ever wanted It's all in my head and now I have to fend for myself I'm burning up with words that were left unsaid I feel so high but i'm still sober

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Scared to Death

Honestly I've been wondering for so long Why does it feel like I can't give you what I need All I hear are voices yelling so loud For days now i've been scared to death I've been scared to death I can't stop the anxiety so I grip the steering wheel infront of me Where is the proof of happy endings and sunset dreams? I turn the corner and a wave crashes into me and the blood red ocean rushes down my face Time stood still and I ask the question "is this really happening?" This deafening silence is killing me and the world is opening up I'm fighting to stay awake but everyone around me is yelling I see silhouettes shaped like angels and i'm fading Seconds turn into minutes and minutes turn into hours For heavens sake, I apologize and wanna let you know that i'm scared of death.

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Do you regurgitate the same lies you told me to your boyfriend? Are you always spinning words so it makes you cute? You aren’t cute, stop spreading lies.

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You said it.

No, you said it.

We’d be together..

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the last poem I ever write.

If there was ever a notion i’ve done no wrong

I was wrong, i’ve been wrong and i’ve done wrong.

Whatever happened to stop light french kissing?

Whatever happened to body movement and sweating?

I’m as relevant as those pictures we took inside your car.

We laid out on the sand at midnight on the coast.

We talked about life and what it would be like if I lived close

Where were you when I needed you most?

Probably making out with guys you’ll never know with your bestfriend.

(I kept calling and she kept telling me you were busy)

I remember early morning taco bell and hotel room sex

I can only remember that because you told me you lov(ed) me then.

Airport subway and meeting your brother at his work.

I threw the ice cream out your car door window.

There was only two of you. You both did me wrong.

Cheated on me with a guy with the same first name.

I now despise anyone with that name.

Whatever happened to Forever & Eternity? 

Do you still have my Osiris shirt?

When I met your father, I knew he hated me.

My aspirations and goals weren’t of the norm.

You hated me for that, you wanted me to be accepted.

I had plenty of reasons to wanna die and plenty more to stay alive.

I blame you both for who I am today.

When will I give up and move on?

When does this feeling end..

Probably never and I thank you for that.

The last poem I ever write.

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The Web

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ENCOUNTER: They’re Here...

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ENCOUNTER Series: 2. They’ve Found Me

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Tyler & Sheri! 

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Tyler & Sheri! 

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Amber & Erick!

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Alex & Jamie!

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Light Chamber

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Pasture At Dawn

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