✦ ︶ Shiro

« Heh heh. By all means, ask more of me. For you, I shall deliver. »

[shcyn]

Shiro. He / It. 18 years old.

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no dni.

this is a yandere blog as such i speak about topics that may be triggering. just block me.

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♡ irl yandere. jirai danshi. self declared hajidere. fudanshi.

⠀ ⠀(｡◞ ◟)　suspected bpd, autism, social anxiety, osdd. dyslexic.

♡ confused boy, xumromantic omniromantic / verian, xumgender, somewhere on the asexual spectrum.

⠀ ⠀ (｡◞ ◟)　single. yan4yan.

★ discord : fudanshiboy. spamblog : @lovebotcoded. jiraiblr blog : @parfaitshiro

⠀ ⠀• i am always open to making friendship but please take into consideration that i do most likely have social anxiety and that make it hard for me to talk to others.

★ my yandere mbti = LSML • RAML • FSCBO • ODIAR • type six : the loyalist.

⠀ ⠀• i sometimes have a queue running. sometimes not. most of my yan posts are put on a queue. my reblogs and others posts are most likely spontaneous.

tags system : ─ the god's whisper ೨౿ : general post ─ lamentation 𓏵 : rant / vent ─ my cravings ﹒⟡ : yan post ─ my letters ✩ 𓆪ˎˊ˗⭒ : answers to asks ─ the parley ᯓ★ : mutuals

— ♡ ( interests ) : v-kei, j-pop, animemangas, visual novels, bls, danmeis, musical projects, video games, gothic music, lolita / ouji fashion, psychology, languages, comics. ++ more.

[shcyn]

early afternoon i managed to do a request for a student housing that is IN paris (well at the very edge of paris, to go to the center of it, it's like 40min of transit but it's very close to my campus)

and then like an hour after i got accepted

i had to subscribe to like housing insurance, fill a ton of docs and shit and now i've sent all of them and we'll see if they are right or wrong BUT BUT i have reserved the appartment

i am so !!!! so happy bcuz i am moving to paris in september

like i am actually doing ot

i spent a year feeling so depressed bcuz i passed up on my chance but now i'll actually be able to fufill my chance ???? i wanan CRY

i will have to get a job tho bcuz otherwise i won't be able to pay rent and feed myself and pay the bills lol

(also the things that is annoying is that i can only move in the appartment on the 1st of septmeber which is a bit late ... and one of my friend told me that hey she could help me move in but bcuz it's so late she won't be able to so sadge but wtv)

and and !! i have drafted up an email to ask for my correct name and not my deadname to be used whitin the uni :)))

[shcyn]

drew nsfw for the first time lwkey that was fun

didn't have to draw clothes ! thats nice tho anatomy yeah and proportions yeah no my thing looks so wrong but yolo

drawing a dick was funny i had to pull up drawn refs to try to do smth that does look like a dick

[shcyn]

hi are u open to being friends?? ive been kind of keeping an eye on your account for a while ish, alsoo if u keep up with milgram how do u feel about mikoto t3 MV soon requirem

hello, yes i am nod nod

and i have no been keeping track at all tbh ... (people just voted so bad when I did that i was kinda upset with the direction it went so) but ig it's been a while, i should try to catch up

[shcyn]

also uptade but i have seen ppl talk about the mikoto mv in between this ash and now and oh my lord why the fuck did they do that. no one at any level did one google search abt DID

[shcyn]

ok ok so i canceled my request for the housing for a 3rd time bcuz i did manage to do a request for the /better/ student housing available !

only 40min away from campus (compared to 1h w the previous housing and yes those 20min are a big deal. they are) which is good bcuz currently my commute is a big longer lol

the only issue is that the rent can go up to 700+euro which i cannot afford duh so i hope i get one of the smaller room w a lower rent

[shcyn]

okay so a student housing popped up i snatched it so fast (by snatch it i mean i sent a request)

it's 50min away from my campus (w public transport and it's the shortest route, i'd have to take 3 trains lol so idk how it'll work)

[shcyn]

applied for one more orga for student housing, so now im at 0 application for a crous housing (bcuz there is none that is not at a 1h30 distance), i am on a waitlist for 5 student housings, no answers from listing from leboncoin, can't apply to certain student housings bcuz i need to give them a housing attestation before anything else

i am fuuuuuucked but it's okkaaay

[shcyn]

ok so i'm officially like enrolled in the uni in paris so i rlly need to get housing bcuz now i cant go and enroll in my local uni

also they def lowered my scholarship and they won't fell me why ?? it's annoying asf like at least explain why

[shcyn]

trying to draw after so long and i wanna crash out i really have no skills and i can't improve them like i try to learn but it's rendered useless. i am a bit fed up with myself; but whatever.

[shcyn]

hi are u open to being friends?? ive been kind of keeping an eye on your account for a while ish, alsoo if u keep up with milgram how do u feel about mikoto t3 MV soon requirem

hello, yes i am nod nod

and i have no been keeping track at all tbh ... (people just voted so bad when I did that i was kinda upset with the direction it went so) but ig it's been a while, i should try to catch up

[shcyn]

parent 1 dumped what was left (a quarter) of the frebreze i was saving up because this is the good (and expensive) smelling one ... all because he ''''''needed''''' a spray bottle

i am trying to regulate myself but holy fuck i genuiely feels so upset i wanna bang my head agaisnt the whole fuck

[shcyn]

still don't have housing for september hahz :(

i rlly have to start making adopts batches to try to get some money bcuz if i don't get student housing i'll have to pay a good like 600euro at the very least to live in a 80m2 house with 5 others people which ughh i don't have the saving for that

[shcyn]

sp much noises yelling that I feel unsafe and anxious i hate this

[shcyn]

so muc yelling so many noises i dont like it ubgh

[sinningfemme]

yanblr used to have a bunch of active yanbloggers last year and in 2024. now the community feels somewhat stale. what happened

[shcyn]

the only people i talk to someone regularly is a cosplay mutual for whom i'm styling a wig and a mutual on my art account because i sometime dm them about their story and vice versa, tho i'm pretty sure this mutual is like 14 - 16 (they don't have their age in their bio so it's just a guess)

it feels a bit pathetic. but what can a boy do to make friends when he still got fuck ass social anxiety even over the net

[momkiss]

i feel a lot of people in online relationships treat it as inherently temporary. and i think that's why i don't really take people seriously. to me, the only temporary part is the long distance. i want a full future. i want to visit, then live together and get married. i want a life with them. the online barrier is just a first step, not a forever thing. i'm always the one pursuing more and it's tiring. i don't want to be a temporary blip in someone's life. i want to be everything.