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LIFE GOES ON ... RIGHT? . anzu mazaki of yu - gi - oh duel monsters. manga based. by nosta.
Hi 😎
“Never fall in love, you won’t like it.” ( @sacrovita ft. varon )
They meet again in NYC the first New Year’s Eve she spends there, by coincidence alone ( Anzu doesn’t really think she likes the notion that this isn’t one, after all, it makes it seem like even more of a bizarre joke of fate ), and she notices first that he seems to have aged ten years in barely three. Varon isn’t precisely a stranger to her ( just another add on to the long list of people who have tried to kill her in the past six years or so ), and she can’t really treat him as such – that’s not who she is.
They end up sitting on a park bench, 'neath the festive street lights, and it’s freezing, and Anzu feels uncomfortable when he starts talking about love and regret – there’s no cockiness where it once was, he sounds absolutely defeated. Still, she listens, because she doesn’t know what else to do ( heartbreak is not foreign to her ).
“ you know, if i wanted to hear all about how love is crap, i would’ve just called my mom … though she would also throw some colorful words about men into the mix. ” Anzu tries to lighten up the mood ( Varon’s eyes seem glassy and she cannot tell if he’s drunk or the injuries on his knuckles are just old ). and she tries to chuckle, for the sake of not letting his depressive state get to her bones – she’s already spending New Year’s Eve on her own, millions of miles away from her family and friends. She won’t let this guy sink the gut feeling in even deeper, “ it’s not so bad. falling in love, i mean. trust me, i have to believe relationships aren’t all doomed to fail … ” a pause, she sniffs the air for any trace of alcohol stench around him, and after a heavy sigh, she adds “ i don’t about you, but i’m kinda freezing out here – do you have a place to stay? I mean … i’m not – i’m not saying i’d rather spend new year with you than alone but … ”
feel free to change any pronouns, etc. || may contain some nsfw!
“Here, I want you to drink this.”
“What would I do without you nagging me all the time?”
“When was the last time I told you how beautiful you are?”
“Where’d you get your clothes, five and dime store?”
“You know, I’ve liked you for four years and you treat me like shit, you know?”
“I cook for you, I do your laundry, I sleep with you, now you want a ride to work? Grow up!”
“Every time you go to the john, you lose IQ points!”
“Would you ever consider going out with somebody that had money?”
“My girlfriend is in there and I’m out here.”
“If he offended you I would gladly clean up this parking lot with his butt.”
“Can I, like, put my head in your lap?”
“Hey, you want beauty look in the mirror.”
“They just don’t write love songs like they used to.”
“I’m off like a dirty shirt.”
“Can I propose something to you without you getting upset or angry?”
“You run yourself down, why do you do that?”
“That’s called a sense of humor. You should get one, they’re nice.”
“I hope I’m not the only one in the world that knows what an incredible person you are.”
“Oh my God… I love this woman. I love this woman and I have to tell her.”
“You study so much it makes me ill.”
“Sometimes I get a little upset and I lose my temper.”
“I just don’t like to see my friends getting dumped on and punished for defending themselves.”
“Well, uh, we’ll just forget about this whole thing, okay?”
“If you put out signals that you don’t want to belong, people are going to make sure that you don’t.”
“I heard what happened and I came as fast as I could.”
“This woman is suffering inside, that’s all there is to it.”
“He’s gonna use your ass and throw you away.”
“You can’t do this and respect yourself.”
“It doesn’t change the way I feel about you.”
“I’m not particularly concerned with whether or not you like me.”
“When you get your heart splattered all over hell and you’re feeling really low and dirty, don’t look to me to help pump you back up, ‘cause maybe for the first time in your life, I won’t be there!”
“I can’t believe you’re actually saying this.”
“I can’t believe I actually associate with those people.”
“I didn’t come here to get you off, okay? That was not my idea.”
“Some day that girl’s gonna realize just what she missed.”
“I was with you. I had a great time.”
“I’m not really sure they’re gonna accept me.”
“You like him, he likes you. What his friends think shouldn’t make a difference.”
“I’m just overreacting, aren’t I?”
“I hate to disappoint you, but nothing happened.”
“Can you just hold me ‘til the song’s over?”
“Why can’t we start old and get younger?”
“He’s nursing some really serious wounds.”
“Nobody appreciates your sense of humor, you know.”
“Why don’t you just nail her and get it over with?”
“I’m getting really bored with this conversation.”
“Two weeks ago, if somebody told me that I’d be going out with you, I never would have believed them.”
“I think they still believe in arranged marriages.”
“Somebody doesn’t believe in me, I can’t believe in them.”
“This is gonna happen. I really want this to happen.”
“Never fall in love, you won’t like it.”
“She looked so beautiful…”
“I just want you to know I really appreciate this.”
“Where’d you get the money to pay for this?”
“You, you didn’t have to lie to me.”
“Why can’t you just forget her?”
“Why can’t you just realize that she’s gone and she’s not gonna come back?”
“She’s never coming back!”
“Why can’t you just accept it?”
“I loved her, too, y’know… She just didn’t love us back.”
“You know you can’t go on living every day in the past.”
“She left us, we didn’t leave her.”
“There was nothing we could do about it.”
“I’ve just been a blind fool.”
“I saw you and I thought you saw me.”
“I’m having a bad day, can we talk later?”
“Just say it! I wanna hear you say it.”
“You’re a filthy, fucking, no-good liar!”
“You don’t have the guts to tell me the truth!”
“You’re ashamed to be seen with me!”
“Just tell me the truth!”
“You don’t understand it; it has nothing at all to do with you.”
“It’s not worth getting worked up over it, y’know?”
“You got a problem, friend?”
“I could have killed him, I swear!”
“Oh, love is awful, isn’t it?”
“I just want to let them know that they didn’t break me.”
“I don’t give a shit what you do.”
“Oh, wow, you look great!”
“You, uh, you look stunning.”
“Should we dance?”
“She thinks you’re shit, and deep down, you know she’s right.”
“Always believed in you, you just didn’t believe in me.”
“I love you, always.”
“I mean, this is an incredibly romantic moment, and you’re ruining it for me.”
THINGS NOBODY PROBABLY REMEMBERS/KNOWS ABOUT THE YGO MANGA THAT MAKE IT REALLY HARDCORE
dark yuugi set someone on fire purposefully
jou was in a gang at age 14 and they almost tortured him to death when he didn’t wanna go back. also its heavily implied his dad is not only an alcoholic but also physically abusive
otogi’s ( duke ) dad is even worse than jou’s dad like guy is legit a nightmare and tried to kill yuugi
ryou is into the occult and thinks blood and gore are super cool
dark bakura gouged pegasus’ millennium eye out and let him bleed to death
malik’s carvings were literally put on his back with a hot knife like yikES also his father was abusive too
malik’s split personality skinned his father’s back before killing him
yes malik had a split personality he developed to cope with the trauma, it wasn’t a spirit like dark bakura or dark yuugi
dark malik literally tortured mai during their card game with shadow magic and made her experience extreme pain before putting her in a coma
dark malik beheaded himself during their card game just for shit and giggles
thief king bakura watched his entire village being slaughtered and having their bones and flesh used to make the millennium items
gozaburo fucking kaiba was the biggest abusive jackass ever and literally made kaiba into who he is.
least we forget kaiba tried killing yuugi and co during death T with torture devices and a serial slasher and mokuba helped him
so yeah ig yugioh is a children’s card game
jou and honda can beat you up ofc but did u know anzu throws a nasty right hook???
But he’ll never start anything, so…
remember back in the earlier days of the dub fandom when nobody liked anzu those were the dark times we dont talk about
never forget that anzu is canonically more on the tomboyish side of the spectrum and has it easier making friends with boys than girls!!! also the reason why she dresses much girlier sometitmes and loves ballet and dancing is because her mother is super girly and pretty and she grew up with both sides of it: playing with boys but also having her mom dressing her up and taking her to ballet classes whenever she could afford it!!
“ trust me, I absolutely hate math and anything number- related. the only reason why i’m not flunking is because I have to be the responsible one in my group of friends. you know how lazy boys usually are. ” a chuckle bubbles past her lips, a shake of her head brings her chocolate mane back over her shoulders, and as she drops her textbooks on Kagome’s bed, Anzu takes a moment to study the room ( she’s used to hanging around boys’ bedrooms more than girls’ – her own is a mess of pink and blue and a basketball her dad gave to her before he took off ). in fact, Kagome’s seems ten times more organized than her own – almost as if she didn’t live there most of the time, “ plus, I kinda hate studying alone, so I don’t mind helping you catch up at all. ” ( @kagomiko )
“ … so we still take the same train, huh? ” just her luck, really. Anzu would end up having to share the train ride back to her home again with a guy who tried to kill her and her friends merely a year and a half ago. Worse yet, at this time of the evening, there usually aren’t any other passengers on, and so manners push for her to sit down next to Malik, despite the way she keeps trying to scoot away from time to time. She hopes he won’t be planning on sticking around the city for long, “ I, uh … i’d invite you to have dinner or something but I haven’t gotten paid yet at my job, so – ” it’s the perfect excuse, accompanied by an awkward shrug of petite shoulders. ( @laceratedphoenix )
“ look, I know you like these kinda movies, but bakura – kun, they’re just so … stupid ! I mean, most of the time, it’s girls who get killed, and most of the time, they get the bloodiest deaths out of them all – and most of the time, it happens because they were stupid as hell ! ” eyes roll, annoyance barely concealed ( she’s not as scared by Bakura’s choice of movie tonight as she is disgusted by the gore and lack of a proper plot ), “ also, I thought that girl was already dead … did she come back as a zombie or something? ” ( @mutarecordis )
“ c’mon, I know you’re awake. or if you’re not, you’re gonna have to be, because my mom will be home from work soon and I don’t think you wanna be here to explain her why you stayed the night over. ” it means that her mother might assume foul play, but Anzu also suspects Jounouchi doesn’t want to share the fact that his father kicked him out of his place again with anyone. ( @tochisuru ft. jounouchi )
anyways let’s have a brand new starter call xo
LIFE GOES ON ... RIGHT? . anzu mazaki of yu - gi - oh duel monsters. manga based. by nosta.
laceratedphoenix:
Mentally he counted as his eyes darted around their surroundings as he silently grounded himself. Things he could see, how his breath felt. Anything to distract from regrets and memories that filtered through his mind. Things that seemed so distant, yet played on repeat like it happened yesterday. Especially his regrets surrounding the brunette and a couple of others.
Malik couldn’t help but tilt his head curiously to the side as he shifted to give her his full attention. Or about as much of it as his constant need to be aware of his surroundings would allow him to be as he silently listened for the train or any announcements.
“Honestly, I’m about as surprised as you are. I did not imagine myself coming back here anytime in this life,” he spoke, peacefully before nodding his head. “They are well last I spoke to them. Thank you. As for myself…” He trailed off to lift his pant leg slightly to indicate down towards the tracking anklet he wore. “I’m breathing at least. And yourself?”
There was a pause before his eyes would lower and he breathed out a soft sigh. He couldn’t think of any apology that would make it up to her or her friends. Yet, he could feel the guilt eating at him. No matter how many court mandated therapy sessions he had to endure. Perhaps fate had seen to it that he try to make amends slowly as he worked through this little venture of the month.
“And if you would accept it, I do want to offer my apologies. I realized I never truly apologized to you concerning well everything. There was no excusing any of it.”
“ i’m … uh, i’m glad they’re doing well, too ! please, send them my regards when you see them again. ” what else to say? Anzu is usually not one to have issues communicating with others ( verbal interactions come easily to her, she enjoys a good chat ), however, this is no regular situation – a part of her cannot, and probably will never, be able to see Malik as anything other than a potential threat ( a bomb waiting to go off again ). and it’s a horrible thing to think about – Anzu wants to see the good in people, borrow a page from Yuugi’s book ( everybody can change, grow, become someone better ); things are easier said than done, of course.
i’m breathing, at least ...
and then, he asks how she’s doing, and she realizes there’s more difficulty replying to it than there should ( i’m doing fine. everything’s fine ). everything is fine – should be fine – perhaps it’s just that this encounter has made her lose a bit of the balance she’d recovered after everything. Still, she replies with practiced courtesy, “ things are going well. I, uh, I didn’t go to university – I don’t think you ever knew but I always wanted to study professional dancing. that’s what i’m doing. ”
she’s ready to turn on her heels and leave at this point – Anzu can handle awkward situations charged with tension better than her friends do, but she’s beginning to reach an exhausting peak – but his words once more stop her on her tracks. i’m sorry – i’m sorry, he says. it’s a foreign notion ( she recalls him apologizing to Yuugi, to Atem ), she cannot recall Malik ever voicing anything resembling guilt towards her. She doesn’t expect him to at this point ( is that thinking ill of him? Is that thinking him incapable of it? ), which is why it takes her by surprise.
I never truly apologized to you …
she reckons she must’ve played this scene in her head before – why does it not seem to change anything now that it’s finally said and done?
“ I … ” her expression grows blank ( only her wide eyes give away the shock ), and she’s glancing all around her, trying to find a way to escape the situation, because truth be told? She doesn’t want to forgive him. And that fills her with guilt, because she knows Yuugi already did a long time ago, “ yeah, of course … ” she knows Malik will tell her voice sounds rushed, forced ( he’s been so good at figuring people out so far, it scares her ), “ I mean, it’s all good. everything’s good. ”
why has the train not arrived yet … ?!