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It was you who made a hundred poems and played with a thousand words. You captured the hearts of many through your little symphonies. Through your works, miracles happen, For a glimpse of hope fills their hearts with the kind of magic your words portray. Yes. You made a hundred poems and played with a thousand words. You have shown life in a different light, in a different view, in a different world. You create a masterpiece with your every spoken word. You have shown beauty, even in its darkest form. Yes. You made a hundred poems and played a thousand words. You made people see their worth in every single prose. You made them see the things hidden from their very own eyes. You turned tears into smile and shown the essence of every happiness and pain. Yes. It was definitely you who made a hundred poems and played a thousand words. You’ve shown their worth but I hope you won’t forget yours. You gave them hope and I pray that you won’t lose yours. You made them smile and I wish the very same thing for you. For you are not just simply that one who made these poems and played with these words. Your worth surpasses every single prose in your works of art. For even your hundredth poem cannot reveal how significant you are. And no matter how many times I played with even a million words and create a sonnet with it, It will only fall short in its worth compared to that one person who created these hundred odes. Yes. It was you who made a hundred poems and played with a thousand words. And you are also just as priceless as the masterwork you created.

Thank you for that one chance..

You know what takes real courage? Telling someone you love them and expect nothing in return, not even love. My friends would always ask me, “Why him?”, “Why that long?”.. It may often look stupid since things are just fairly one-sided. But no matter what, I do not have any regrets. You just simply love without further reason. You may love them for their looks, talents or actions, but you’ll always have that one instance why you cannot explain why you have fallen into such kind of situation. I was never that kind of girl to tell you directly how I feel.. Sanay na sa mga constant reminders, being a friend who’s always available, someone who is willing to share all the effort and time I could offer. But last night, I guess I just accidentally opened my heart and let everyone knew what I’m feeling. Akala ko naman kasi personal lang. Char. :) I would rather tell people how I feel than not. You never know how much time you have left to tell them what you think about them and how much they might mean to you. Reciprocated or not, I don’t care. As long as I am happy, I guess that’s fine with me. Some people touch your life without even knowing it. Someone can mean everything to you that doesn't mean you mean as much to them. Be thankful for the memories but accept that love takes two.

You were blinded by the thought of no one ever being able to love you. But I LOVED YOU;

you never saw that though.

I loved you more than anything in this godforsaken world, and I still do.— dylnaldduck

“sometimes you let them in again, and i’m not sure if that makes you brave or foolish because there’s always the risk of being hurt or left with more scars than the first time around. somehow, this person is worth it. they are special and they mean more than the heartache they put you through; they are worth the heart throbbing, heart stopping, heart wrenching moments every time you stare at them after all you’ve been through. i’m not sure if that says more about you than it does about them - how they let you endure another form of pain while staying in your life, or, how you continue to let them be your moon while you are the waves.”— Stories I’ll tell one day #72 – Ming D. Liu

Here we go again...

I guess fate was playing tricks with me again. I somehow believed that there’s nothing left for me to feel, but here we go again. When there are instances that I’m starting to believe that I’m OK. That there’s nothing left to hope for. Then there’s you in the scene again. Uninvited. Without any sign that you’ll mean something more again.

Why is it just too hard to forget the feelings intended for someone who can’t even see them?

Why is it just too hard to forget, when obviously, the person you love can’t even see you? I guess I would never understand why is it like this no matter how I try to put together all the pieces of thoughts people try to tell me.

I guess my head’s just a bit hard for not doing what I’m supposed to do.

To forget this.

To forget you.

To forget the idea of you in my life.

Because at the end of the day, I’m still left hoping that something might actually happen.

You keep on saying that love has devastated you.

I can’t help but wonder, is love doing the same thing with me too?

If yes, then why am I still not giving up?

If yes, then why am I still not letting the idea of YOU go?

G.G.S.S

HAHAHA. Had the most fun and crazy afternoon kahapon thanks to the Bautista UMYF and their planned fellowship. Na-miss ko mga tao dun kahit may mga nangyari. Medyo mahirap man at first kasi I have to choose whether to stay with my youth family or be with the Annual MYF and support them.

STAY – and be with the people who are about to leave.

LEAVE – and support the local churches’ activity.

‘Di man siya actually responsibility, pero if kokonti lang sila, pano pa mas magiging united di’ba? MASAYA. I don’t have any regrets going there. I just wish I was able to spend it too with my adopted siblings in our church. Namiss ko sila Lem, Keck at Aron. Yung kakulitan nila Karel, Jai, Jake, Tetel at Bless. I lose the chance of spending another time with the 3 dudes who are about to leave, Eto na nga ba sinasabi ko for this month e. Mahirap mamili. Pero, Sherah. Namili ka pa din. May pinili ka pa din. I just wish ‘di na maulit yung ganun.

Will you let Me write your love story?

“You have searched for true love in your own way. But My ways are not your ways. I want to script a beautiful tale just for you, but first, you must trust Me with the pen of this precious area of your life. Will you let Me write your love story?..” -God

The pen’s all yours now.. A great story deserves enough time to be perfected. I am patiently waiting for this story to unfold, excited to read the story You are about to create.

I’m doing this not because I’m giving up on you. I’m doing this not because I’ve had enough and not because what I felt and what I’m still feeling is unreal.

I could never give up on you. Not after that 6 years of praying? You’re still my friend and nothing will ever change that. You will always be that crazy and weird guy that I will always care for. I managed to pray for that long and I’m not stopping. Just a few minor adjustments but everything’s still the same. Every day and every night, I would still be praying for your safety and that God’s angels will look after you wherever you may be. I would still be praying that your day will be just fine, and if not, I’m praying that whatever happens, that situation will soon become OK.I would still be praying for your happiness no matter what. Maybe I was hoping you could be the One, but right now, I will just let God work with that part. Wait and pray for that right person to come, whoever he may be. Kung ikaw, edi masaya. Kung hindi, ok lang din. Sabi nga nila, walang love na nasasayang. Everything has a purpose, right :)

It’s not because I’ve had enough. Medyo nakakapagod din kasi pero it doesn’t mean I’m stopping. Pahinga muna, friend ;) Di naman sa nagrereklamo, pero chill muna.

And it’s not because it is not real. It is. I would never have cried so hard if it wasn’t. I would never invest such time and effort if it’s just a petty feeling. I would never feel so afraid to lose you it all of it is a joke. I may not know how or why it started pero ayun e. Nahulog.

But right now, I’m letting God write my story. I’m thankful that He wrote you in my story. Whether you stay or not, it’s His plot, not mine. I just have to enjoy what’s happening right now.

And if at the end of the day you feel that the whole world has left you. Or you think that no one loves you. Or that true love’s too hard to find. Sesegway na ba akong “andito naman ako”?

Just kidding :)

Anjan lang si God. Love na love ka. Si bebey? Oo naman. Tagal na. Haha. Just let God hold the pen for your story too.

Malay mo, magtagpo pa tayo sa ibang chapter. (Maipilit pa?) Smile. Always choose to be happy. Believe that everything happened, happens and will happen for a reason.

No more signs or wishes on falling stars. Faith will work and In His name, everything will come to its perfect place.

For now, could you please just be that weird, crazy kid I learned to love before? :)

Random Notes

HAHAHA. Kelan 'to?? I was just cleaning up my phone memory when i came upon this note. Haha. Medyo nakakatuwa lang yung realization afterwards. Hahaha Ang galing talaga ni Lord ^_^

The simple secret is this: put your trust in the Lord, do your best, then leave the rest to Him. - Joseph Wirthlin -- KAHAPON, ayoko na umalis o pumunta kahit san. "Absent nalang sa ganyan, di naman namin Zone fell. e." "May exam ka pa.." "Pagod lang yan, wala ka pa exam.." O diba, nega lang. Pero nung naisip ko na: "ay, inaasahan ako nila Honey.." "May meeting ka for CI, lagot ka kay Rap" o kahit yung pinaka-lamest excuse na, "Walang kasabay si Rap maligaw. Kawawa naman. (Seryoso talagang inisip kong maliligaw siya e nu?)" Pikit-mata na ko pumuntang Bulihan. Pero nung nagstart na, ewan ko ba bat di na ko masyadong nagwo-worry. OO, naalala ko pa din kasi naman si Rap nagche-check ng papel sa tabi ko. Pero inisip ko nalang, "Matatapos ko yun. Matatapos ko yun.." Nag-milk tea pa bago umuwi. Talaga naman. Kinamusta pa si Gianne bago umuwi. Pagkadating sa bahay, upo sa harap ng laptop. Kaso before pa magsimula, may problema nanaman. Problemang di pwede isantabi kasi buhay ang nakasalalay. SERIOUSLY. Dumating ang 11, walang natapos si bebey. Sabi ko, bahala na. Lord, kaw na po bahala. Gigising ako ng 1:30. KASO. Wala. Di din makatulog. Nakapikit pero wala. Tumunog si alarm. Harap kay lappy. Lord, time and wisdom please. Then boom. Tapos ang apat na QT. May time to post this pa and to sleep. Parang di ko naramdaman yung oras. Basta, type. Gawa, (pero promise. Valid po ang test ko. HAHA) Then after nung lahat. Si honey bigla ko naalala and lahat ng nangyari kahapon. Totoo nga, minsan nakakalimutan na natin ipagkatiwala kay Lord yung mga simpeng bagay kasi akala natin mga major problem lang dapat isumbong sa kanya. Haha. Waaah. Crybaby, pero super akong na-bless ngayon. Sana kayo din. :) Tiwala lang, guys. Kahit yung nawawalang chord, diba honeybe? Haha ;) NOBELA. haha

#blessed

Beginning Today

Beginning today I will no longer worry about yesterday. It is in the past and the past will never change. Only I can change by choosing to do so. Beginning today

I will no longer worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow will always be there, waiting for me to make the most of it. But I cannot make the most of tomorrow without first making the most of today. Beginning today

I will look in the mirror and I will see a person worthy of my respect and admiration. This capable person looking back at me is someone I enjoy spending time with and someone I would like to get to know better. Beginning today

I will cherish each moment of my life. I value this gift bestowed upon me in this world and I will unselfishly share this gift with others. I will use this gift to enhance the lives of others. Beginning today

I will take a moment to step off the beaten path and to revel in the mysteries I encounter. I will face challenges with courage and determination. I will overcome what barriers there may be which hinder my quest for growth and self-improvement. Beginning today

I will take life one day at a time, one step at a time. Discouragement will not be allowed to taint my positive self-image, my desire to succeed or my capacity to love. Beginning today

I walk with renewed faith in human kindness. Regardless of what has gone before, I believe there is hope for a brighter and better future. Beginning today

I will open my mind and my heart. I will welcome new experiences. I will meet new people. I will not expect perfection from myself nor anyone else: perfection does not exist in an imperfect world. But I will applaud the attempt to overcome human foibles. Beginning today

I am responsible for my own happiness and I will do things that make me happy admire the beautiful wonders of nature, listen to my favorite music, pet a kitten or a puppy, soak in a bubble bath pleasure can be found in the most simple of gestures. Beginning today

I will learn something new; I will try something different; I will savor all the various flavors life has to offer. I will change what I can and the rest I will let go. I will strive to become the best me I can possibly be. Beginning today.

And every day.

I guess this was really the best way to end our Leadership Summit last Tuesday.

One thing that definitely stayed on my mind until now.

#youth #pacc umyf

THOUGHTS FOR THE DAY <3

“Basta ang mahalaga, magmahal ka lang. kahit sobra na. kahit di naman dapat basta wala ka nasasaktan ng iba. Kelan ba naging masama ang magmahal? OO. Corny. Bebe ka pa kasi. Inosente. Pero alam ko, wagas ka magmahal. Sagaran. Mabuti kang tao kasi nakukuha mo pa din hanapin yung mabuti sa isang tao kahit nasaktan ka na. nakukuha mo pa din magalala kahit di na sila karapat-dapat dun. Wag ka magsawa magmahal. Kung mamamatay, atleast nagmahal ka diba? Kami ngang may deadline na, ang ginagawa namin? Magmahal lang ng magmahal ng magmahal. E pano kung walang deadline? E di mas lalo ka dapat magmahal. Kasi di mo sigurado kelan yun. Oo, alam natin na aalis ka na rin. Na fragile ka, pero diba mas maganda na alam at ramdam ng mga tao sa paligid mo na mahal mo sila? Yun ang pinaniniwalaan ko. May puso ka mang abnormal, malaki naman yan at may kakayahan magmahal ng totoo. Oo, mahina. Pero mas malakas pa din ang love. Eto yung magbibigay ng strength sa’yo lumaban kahit tingin mo ‘di mo na kaya…”

Salamat sa ate kong pumayag i-post ‘to.. Bakit ganun? Parang hindi naman ako nakakatulong sa support group na ina-assist ko? HAHA Kasi imbes na ako ang may maishare, mas natututo ako sa kanila. Linggo-linggo nalang ata na ganto. Hahaha. Thank you po :) Kaya mo pa yan,ate. Matagal ka pa. Love mo ko di'ba? Di mo ko iiwan di'ba? :) Hahaha. Need pa daw kita sabi ni Lord ^_^

Hindi ko sila mahal..

Dati, sinasabi ko na mahal ko mga baby ko ngayon. Dati, sinasabi ko na iniingatan ko sila. Pero ngayon, may napatunayan ako. Hindi ko pala sila mahal..

MAHAL na MAHAL :)

Akala ko dati, naiinis ako pag makukulit sila o ‘di nasunod, kasi nakakainis naman talaga pag ganun. PERIOD. Pero I realized na automatic na reaction na yun kasi you just simply want what’s best for them.

At oo, gaya nga ng sabi ko kanina, hindi ko sila mahal. MAHAL na MAHAL ko na sila sa loob ng ilang buwan na pagsasama namin.

Paano ko nasabi? Kasi ako na mismo nasasaktan pag nasasaktan sila. Di man intentionally, di man physically.

Pero umabot sa point na nabadtrip talaga ako nung nasigawan sila nung wala ako.

Yung ibalibag ang gamit nila?

Tapos pagbalik mo, ganun yung mga kwento nila sa’yo?

Habang kinukwento nila yun, I can’t help feeling irritated.

Di ko sila pinagtataasan ng boses kung hindi kailangan. Hindi ko binalibag ang gamit nila or whatsoever.

Tapos ganun-ganun nalang? HAHAHA. Hashtag OVERPROTECTIVE? Ay sorry, mahal ko sila.

MAHAL NA MAHAL NA MAHAL :)

"To our Little Sunshine.."

Just got a surprise letter today.. Saya lang i-share. Hahaha

To our little sunshine,

Antagal na nung huli kitang nakasama. Oh well, busy sa kanya-kanyang kwarto at gawain e. And akalain mo yun, antagal na din nung huli kong nakita ko yung ngiting-Sherah. You may tend to smile a lot, but I could sense that it’s not the same smile we’re used to.

Asan na yung “Do not let the world change your smile..” mo? I’m sorry if this world of ours has changed your smile. I’m sorry kasi I know you don’t deserve crying and wasting tears for us. You were once that sweet and jolly little Miss Sunshine, but what happened? Nagka-solar eclipse? I know you’re still that sweet dear but I could sense that something’s different.

You used to have that FREE smile. Yung you will just automatically smile and brighten up a room. Your giggles and hika-like laughter. Your super-tinis voice when you tend to become too happy or excited. Dati, libre lahat ng ngiti mo. Ngiti na genuine. Pero ngayon, sa dinami-dami ng moments na nakasmile ka, bilang yung totoo. Madalang. Saglit lang magpakita.

It’s as if I need to put up a show just to see it again. I miss you my dear. And I’m sorry for causing you so much pain. Di man ako yun, pero parte ako ng mundong yun. Sana di pa napupundi yung brightness na nadadala mo. Sana kaya pa mairestore. Sana I could still you smile again.

Remember, "DON'T LET THE WORLD CHANGE YOUR SMILE.. I miss you, my little Sunshine.

Ako na ang speechless. Ganun na ba talaga katindi yung nagbago?

OO nga. OO na TALAGA

Super dami talagang benefits ‘pag malapit lang sa workplace mo ang tambayan at ang mga makakasama sa tambayan. Hahaha. And super laki ng benefit ng existence ng mahiwagang tulay sa Prinsa. HAHAHA I was able to make tambay for almost 3 hours without worrying on my travel time. :) (Pero syempre, kabado pa din kasi medyo nalulula ako sa tulay tas gabi na..HAHA) I had sooo much fun making chika with Ate Arvie kanina. Totoo nga. Pag di pinaplano, natutuloy. After how many months (LOL) nagkita din muli. HAHAHA Ang laki talaga nung difference nung huling kita namin sa parehong lugar na yun sa kwentuhan namin ngayon. HAHA And seriously, nangalay panga ko kakangiti dahil sa lovestory niyang super nakakatuwa. While she was telling me her story, I can’t help wondering what will happen with mine. Hahaha Asa naman ako di’ba? Napaka-onesided. HAHAHA Ako lang ang may gusto. Ako lang ang nagppray. Ako lang ang masaya. Pero gaya nga ng sabi ni ate, ENJOYIN MO LANG. Hahaha. Sus. Simula ng nalaman ko yung sa VT, parang wala na sa isip ko yan. Pano kung isang araw, tumigil na yung beat diba? Edi tapos din ang love story. Parang useless na mag-isip ng isang love story kasi POSSIBLE ang maagang ending. Haha Pero kanina, parang ang sarap ulit umasa sa destiny. HAHA Yung gaya kay Naning? Ang sarap ulit magdream na WHAT IF MAY GANUNG LOVE STORY nga? Hahaha. “Asa” is not the right term pero gagamitin ko na din. Masarap umasa. Masarap mangarap. Na-realize ko, there’s nothing wrong kung ipagppray ko pa din siya right? Kung mawawala din naman, edi ok. At least alam ko na sa time being ng existence na yun, alam ko na safe siya kasi lahat ng angels irerequest ko kay God just to keep him safe. Argh. Cheesy much. Hahaha Ang lakas na siguro ng tama ko e nu. Hahaha And yeah, I may be falling hard. But at least ngayon, I know yung reality na panghahawakan ko. Walang paasa. Enjoy lang :) Sa hinaba-haba ng kwentuhan, oo. Na-prove ko na. I LIKE HIM. A LOT. LOL Love? Too early to say that. And minsan natatakot ako umabot sa ganung realization. But I know my heart’s perfectly safe. Abnormal. But safe. Sa mga sinabi ni ate kanina, Natatawa ako bat siya naaalala ko. Ate was looking for someone na di siya magkakaron ng awkward feeling pag kasama niya. Yung proud siya pag kasama siya. Yung proud na masabing sila. Siguro, wishful thinking. HAHA Pero kung ako yun? HAHAHA OO. Proud ako kasama siya. SOBRA. Hahaha And never naging awkward pag kasama ko siya. Hahaha Kung pwede nga palagi e. CHOS. HAHAHAHA :D Shocks. Totoo ba ito? Ahahaha. Oo na nga. Ako lang naman ‘to. Mag-enjoy ka lang, bey. HAHAHA Basta promise. Happy ako :) Thank you sa pang-iinspire ateeeee :*

#corny

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 Northeast Cavite District Zone 4 Fellowship See you there guys! #KabataanTara #necd

#necd #kabataantara

Seryoso siya sa bago niyang toy. Hahaha #puppylove

#puppylove

Andito na si tita para itry na yung magiging ayos ko bukas. Wow ha. Prepared? Lol. Pwede ba sabihing.. A-Y-O-K-O? #MedyoMasExcitedSila

#medyomasexcitedsila

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