JORDAN

Pleasure.

[quotemadness]

One of the best lessons you can master in life is to master how to remain calm.

Unknown

[quotemadness]

“There are people who take the heart out of you, and there are people who put it back.”

— Elizabeth David

[quotemadness]

“We all have different reasons for forgetting to breathe.”

— Unknown

[quotemadness]

“It’s the little things that make up your life. The bigger events just connect them.”

— S.L. Scott

[rapgamejonahhill]

[flowinghly]

[sheisrecovering]

[underwelmed]

[thiccyonce]

[shesnotmygf]

love isn’t forever, loyalty is.

[metromotel]

BELLA

[studip]

concept: a bath but like. the water never get cold. 

[awesome-picz]

[daftpunkblogger]

Are they on a date

[shesnotmygf]

Maybe I'm a fool. Maybe I should move.

Today has been so hard. I don't understand why making healthy decisions for yourself can be so hard. It makes me want to throw up in your mouth, wither up and die. Ultimately, I'm better at giving up my own happiness than to deal wth the pain of hurting someone's feelings. Especially if they are someone I care about so much.

I'm trying to find ways to connect myself to me more but it's so hard. If I stay in the house, I'm stuck and crying all day. Spending half my day, looking online, looking at what others happiness is. If I go out, I can't relate to my friends or what anyone says. I don't even feel present. It feels like a bad acid trip sometimes, or that I'm on acid when I feel my body disconnecting. That's all I can compare it to, the looking at walls, peoples' faces and your own self, not able to believe this is real life, that you matter and your body is in two different realms. Feeling the unbalance of your soul off.

I'm just hurting so bad. I want to stop feeling like, but it just seems like that's all I genuinely can feel or am certain about, which is just being sad. I want to be strong so bad.

[shesnotmygf]

i am feeling so unmotivated. it is like goals and dreams are so out of touch. i feel so out of touch. sometimes it just feels like so much is out of reach for me. whether it be love or it be even happiness. or even success or wealth. it just really makes no sense.

i just wonder what my end goal is all after all of this. is there a meaning to this? is this supposed to happen exactly this way? what lesson am i exactly supposed to be learning right now?

how come im so out of reach with everyone and everything. how come it feels like sometimes im floating and not breathing at the same time? every second i just want to throw up at being me. sometimes i just feel like word vomit.

i know i need to turn my life around. i know that i should probably make the hardest decisions and just focus strictly on me. but i really dont care for myself, so it's hard to understand true genuine feelings or whats the best for me.

[savemesaveme-deactivated2017040]

[h4bit-moved]