『Happiness』

"If I had those eyes, could I be their one and only hero?" [ Independent RP blog for Ayano Tateyama. M!A: -- Tracking Tag: shiawxse. ]

[impertinxnt-blog]

     But…she’d disappeared. For three months, he’d had no idea where she’d went. There was another family living where she used to live, he thought he’d forgotten the address, and he was stupid, stupid for forgetting the one thing so important…

     “Ayano!” Later on, if you’d asked, he would have denied that he was emotional at all. Yes, he was happy to see his makeshift older sister, but no, he wasn’t anything sappy like that. If he were a hugging kind of person he definitely would have barreled straight into her, but he wasn’t, so his impulses would have to settle for standing there like he was going to do something but not actually doing it.

     “It’s a surprise to see you too…I never saw you around anymore!” Words falling fast from his mouth in a rush, “Did you move?” Why didn’t you tell me? “I’m doing okay. Grandpa said I stutter less now!” Gotta tell everything to Ayano!!

[shiawxse]

“That’s great to hear! A-Ah y-yeah I kinda m-moved because of reasons and such, sorry for not telling you about it!”

And she feels really bad for lying about that but she knew, like any other normal person, he wouldn’t really believe what she would say right? She would have hugged him tight, knowing that he was still here but then prevented herself from doing so since she knew that he wasn’t a type of person who liked physical contact much and instead a warm smile enough to warm cold hearts adorned her features, a sanguine color scarf wrapping around her neck.

“Are you free right now though? It has been a while since we last went out!” After all, she did want to have a little chat and all!

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shiawxse

“Ayano-san?” He addresses the older girl with slight apprehension, peering now with a flushed expression through shop shelves, a set of hair-clips in each hand—gingerly held up. Truth was, he had no clue what made hair-clips cute, but she’d last bought a hair accessory, right? What he found cute, she instantly declared as ‘gross’, so— ah, forgive him being a bother for now, just for now, to let him make her smile…!

He swallows. Right, that ‘noble’ (isn’t it just selfish?) goal of his more important than any shame, he holds the two out to her. “I-if you were bought one of these, which would you like best…?!”

[shiawxse]

  “Hm if I were to buy on of these... that’s a tough choice!”

Ayano knew his intentions very well-- right from the start and happily complied to when the younger one asked her to come along for something and she agreed since it would be fun after all. 

   “If Hiyori-chan were to buy one of these, which one would she like the best?”

It was quite evident about the fact that he wanted to buy a hair clip her aunt would like best and she wouldn’t meddle in with it. After all, she really didn’t know much about her aunt’s tastes due to the fact they didn’t know about the other until just recently and she didn’t want to give a wrong decision. 

[tatataraquartet]

I sorta wanna see bloopers for MCA…But like, in an AU where the Dan was like ‘you know what this stuff is sorta crazy I bet we could make money off of this’ and then everyone acted out their own parts.

The cat they use for episode 4 keeps on running away and they have to get like 4 cats in the end cause they keep losing them

By then Takane’s confessed so she makes fun of her own self crushing on Haruka “Oh Ayano I think I might have a crush on Haruka!” “You’ve been dating for like 2 months already.” “I know!!!”

Haruka makes the most funny and intentional bloopers, like during the snowball fight scene he turns around and says “You know what Takane, let’s just speed this up a bit!” and kisses her on the mouth(He take every opportunity to ‘mess up’ and ‘accidentally’ kiss Takane).

Haruka requested that they dont hire actors to play Konoha and Kuroha, he wanted to play them himself(mostly for the cosplay opportunities)

One of the actors got sick during the shoot so they have Kano fill in for them

Shintaro has to mentally prepare himself for any scenes including his ability or Ayano’s death.

“I want to see you Takane” “I’m right here Haruka” “Oh.”

They had to try to do the scene where Ayano sacrifices herself one time because both Ayano and Kano couldn’t take a second reenactment

Shintaro knows all his lines without reading the script

“Haruka, I love you” “I love you t–” “I-I was just practicing my line, Haruka..”

Everyone makes funny faces behind the camera to try to mess each other up

[theunknowndimensions]

- whenever they go around the set mary is always in a corner with seto’s phone, listening to his music.

-seto hates to be in the break room because it’s always crowded, and more than once he has laughed at the snarky and somewhat hurtful remarks people make to each other in their heads (not to mention he was banned after the third time it happened, he ended up high-fiving the chick that inuslted a loud and ignorant crew member). 

-shintaro wasn’t let into the set when ayano was playing in the sacrificing scene cuz he always cried whenever they did read-throughs of the script.

-on more than one occassion Kano has played pranks on Shintaro while pretending to be Ayano

[shiawxse]

[ i keep appearing and disappearing I’m rlly sorry for this;; ]

[shiawxse]

  “ All those lonely days, that were dyed from grey                         Because it’s you I just know we can do it                                                         And draw it again”

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Takane watched her friend quietly. She was kinda concerned, Ayano wasn’t really the best at those machines and the last time she tried to get a stuffed animal she almost spent all her money and time on this stupid thing. 

A sighed escaped Takane after hearing those words from the other girl. “Don’t be silly Ayano.” She said with her arms crossed over her chest and a smirk placed on her lips. “If you want to win something you don’t just need luck .. you need skill. Move aside and I’ll show you what I mean.”

[shiawxse]

‘I-I can do it this time Takane-senpai! Just give me one more try and I’ll be able to do it!”

And she goes for it as she has merely ten seconds to go. Ayano should hurry along with it as she musters each and every determination in one second and carefully presses the button right above the stuffed animal.

She almost got it and..

3... 2 .. 1...

And the grip from the stuffed animal was lost even though it was just 2 centimeters away. Ayano would’ve tried again but after larning her lesson from last time she backs away from the idea. Maybe she didn’t have the skills at all no matter how much she tried.

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―⌲ - -Do it. Do it for them. Do it for soda.

      Steady as a mountain, sharp as an eagle. A picture of glory and victory. The actual thing Shintaro is, or was, before six in the evening when he started to battle the strangeness of a wasted land and its lost paradise. Or really, dance tango with an asshole of a professor giving a shitty work for him to crack and re-do, all from scratch. With the actual wires and shit. Just because he can’t do it in front of the class earlier, and Shintaro had to call him out on it. He sure had to, because everyone is really done and he just did his whole block a favor. Now don’t get him wrong; Shintaro likes electronics but not people (he just really did them all the favor a one-way ticket to life), he likes technology, he can’t even live without it (that’s exaggerating, but it is a possibility), but this…this was too much. 

The deadline is at midnight (or what he thought he heard). And he’s trying not to die before it.

            But somehow, he thinks he did; because all he can see is darkness, feel his bones and muscles letting go, head hurting for the last time and legs cramped as he blacked out and his mind flushed out memories of what he had to go through today and how he was setting himself out of it.

a college-verse au starter for shiawxse.

[shiawxse]

All work done on time and she was glad that she could finish report for her report for her class before the last day even though she may have procrastinated on it a little which led to headaches afterwards due researching a lot and writing it down in three days.  It was a long journey but she was able to overcome it thanks to a friend of hers.

It was only when she she heard a thud from the nearby room that she got hurriedly rushed over only to see someone she had least expected to see in the girls dorm.

Shintaro and by the looks of it he had fainted right in front of her eyes as her eyes open wide in fear, lips slightly apart.

 “S-Shintaro-kun?! A-Are you alright? Someone call the paramedics!”

Was he up doing his assignment till the last minute again? Even though she had told him countless times to take care of his health it seemed like none of it was helpful when it came around to this and now she’s scared and hopes it doesn’t happen again like the last time.

How did he end up in the girls dorm in the first place?! At least it was a slightly good thing or only god knows what would’ve happened,

[obxcre-blog1]

so basically this is the “like actor au no it’s a literal tv show or are they going about their daily lives w a cameraman casually following them everywhere” shenanigans that’ll likely and will happen in verse “ONE MAN’S TRASH, ANOTHER MAN’S TREASURE” with archie and annie’s “YEARS RUN BY AND I’M LIVING WITH YOUR SHADOW”, delivered fresh from skype and the rest of our sanity. 

Probable Bffs Kano and Jules basically torturing Shintaro for the rest of his life REST IN PIECES SHIN

SHINAYA REUNIONfollowed by JULES’ CONFRONTATION and Shintaro abusing his DAD POWERS and Jules’ having the golden “I’M TELLING AYANO” CARD ticket that he never actually uses. 

DREAM FAMILY: MOM AYANO, UNCLE KANO, DAD SHIN, JULES IS LIVING THE LIFE AND NOSY NEIGHBOR KUROHA NEVER FORGET

BLOOPER THREADS: “so you got one angst thread and then you write another thread thats kinda the same but the character fucks up so much”

INTERVIEWS like [6/10/2015 11:32 PM] archie: “what do u think of this character” [6/10/2015 11:32:37 PM] tyrxne: [ shintaro ] “ he’s shit ” [6/10/2015 11:32:38 PM] archie: “what were u thinking” [6/10/2015 11:32:44 PM] tyrxne: [ shintaro ] “ i’m not thinking ” [6/10/2015 11:32:48 PM] archie: me @ school [6/10/2015 11:32:49 PM] archie: me @ life [6/10/2015 11:33:04 PM] tyrxne: “ i’m reading the damn script in front of me right now ” [6/10/2015 11:33:10 PM] tyrxne: “ and i tell you that’s an actual line ”

with CANONVERSE INTERVIEWS, too! [6/10/2015 11:49:08 PM] tyrxne: “ how can you stay with these kind of people don’t you think it’s too much insane for you to handle ” [6/10/2015 11:49:41 PM] tyrxne: [ ayano ] “ well yes it is but in canon i’m not actually sane so maybe ahahah s we ats i guess i’m just used to their antics i’ve developed an immunity for them but i love them and that’s what make our bond stronger tho i really wish they’d get along and get off the roof tbh i’m not very pleased with those kinds of jokes ” [6/10/2015 11:50:58 PM] tyrxne: “ in fact, i am very what do you call this DONE ” [6/10/2015 11:51:23 PM] tyrxne: “ like in every episode i’m in they had to do that how rude! ” [6/10/2015 11:51:43 PM] tyrxne: “ and then they will cry and i’m ” [6/10/2015 11:51:50 PM] tyrxne: “ WHY DO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE ” [6/10/2015 11:52:10 PM] archie: “kiss kiss fall off the roof” “haha sick one bro” “y-yeah bro” “are you crying bro” “n-no” “haha im not c-crying either” “whos crying” “not us”

SHINTARO’S KITCHEN, an actual parody of Hell’s Kitchen with Shintaro Ramsey as the taste tester and the contestants are Jules, Kano, Kuroha (will probably poison them all) and Momo, like [6/10/2015 11:39:41 PM] tyrxne: “ you call this food it’s a fucking poop ” [6/10/2015 11:40:17 PM] tyrxne: “ tono can cook with his eyes closed better than all of you ” [6/10/2015 11:40:24 PM] tyrxne: “ yes a fucking rabbit can ” [6/10/2015 11:40:30 PM] tyrxne: “ be ashamed of yourselves ” [6/10/2015 11:42:39 PM] archie: IM CRY ING what if someone actually just puts tono in front of the stove "COOK RABBIT COOK" [6/10/2015 11:44:37 PM] tyrxne: shintaro has a trained rabbit cooking for him it’s carrots and h e lov ed it [6/10/2015 11:45:28 PM] archie: “who cooks in your house?" shintaro: sweats [6/10/2015 11:45:33 PM] archie: a rabbit is the kisaragi family chef [6/10/2015 11:46:25 PM] tyrxne: breaking news [6/10/2015 11:46:28 PM] tyrxne: this just in [6/10/2015 11:46:35 PM] tyrxne: a rabbit is the kisaragi family chef [6/10/2015 11:46:38 PM] tyrxne: this is not a drill [6/10/2015 11:46:41 PM] tyrxne: it’s true

[impertinxnt-blog]

[23:46:36] tyrxne: breaking news [23:46:39] tyrxne: this just in [23:46:47] tyrxne: a rabbit is the kisaragi family chef [23:46:49] tyrxne: this is not a drill [23:46:52] tyrxne: it’s true

[shiawxse]

♣︎

It was a fine afternoon outside and a perfect way to spend it would be taking a day off from everyday troubles and spend it with a friend. 

And that’s when she decided that she could call her senior to spend a day with her, after all it had been a long time since both of them went out to relax or go to the arcade sometimes while exams were going on.

  “Maybe this time, I’ll be lucky…”

Words filled with determination echoed as she held onto the control, calmly yet filled with anxiety as she would move it from side to side; steadily and slowly with yet full concentration.

This time she isn’t going to feed the machine her money just to get a stuffed toy if she doesn’t get it this time.

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               “ ah, really? why was it a half day at school, then ? “ 

               he racked his brain for any holiday it might be – well, if it were a holiday, wouldn’t there be no school at all? 

[shiawxse]

                    “ well it seemed like the teachers would be getting a half day since the staff are                       going somewhere on a trip ...”

    -- or that’s what she thought; still it was considered to be a holiday for her since she can spend more time at home now.

[shiawxse]

red is the colour of heroes or they say you are what you eat but i don't remember eating a legend or both you kno whatever

[ im going to do them both bc why not

lal aik hero ka rang hai! 

aik aqwal hai ke jo kahte ho wo hote ho lekin mujhe yaad nahi aik hayaat kahte huway ]

[g0ldentrio]

Okay since it's 'speak your language day"

[shiawxse]

Send me a sentence/word in English and I’ll translate it into my language 

[captivem-blog]

shiawxse.

[captivem-blog]

Somehow the idol grows timid, and she fiddles with her thumbs as some sort of habit. This was the original founder of the Mekameka Dan (and this much is said rather fondly, promise), and she feels that deeply rooted respect swelling inside of her. 

Ah, how embarrassing! She was the one that had wanted to ask a question, right? Just standing here in the awkward silence…ah, she had to redeem herself! Clearing her throat, she felt a slight bounce in her step as she asked, “Ne, Ayano…what were your siblings like when they were younger? If you don’t mind me asking!”

A younger danchou, liar, and frog man  ‒ the thought amused her.

[shiawxse]

Noticing the nervousness written all over her face she tried to put on a reassuring sign that she wasn’t as scary the idol may think she was. After all, she did want to talk to her about a few things and it seemed like this was the right opportunity to go for it after the questions that seeked answers where answered.

“It’s no problem at all for me, Momo-chan! Well about my siblings when they were younger... Tsu-chan was truly like a little sister to me and we would have these little plays together and she’s amazing playing as a doctor you know!”

“Kou-kun was truly something else when he was younger and sometimes bought hamsters home and in the end we would get scolded since we all would try keeping it a secret.”

“They were also time when Shuu-chan would bully Kou-kun at times and being the big sister I had to act like a red superhero in order to resolve things between the two!”

Treasured memories soon began to flow inside as she would recollect those good memories that stayed even though within her.

[noniestudies]

HOW TO NOT PANIC BEFORE YOUR EXAM

Everyone feels that they didn’t study well or didn’t solve enough practice or past paper questions before their exam and start to panic. And as A Levels 2015 are approaching these are my tips to stay calm and hopefully never panic before the exam day/hour.

Never study the day before your exam and on they day of your exam for a number of reasons. You will most probably want to cram and start to panic about stuff you know but must have forgotten like in this rush hour. So busy yourself by studying other subject, watching movies, or even having a day out.  This might seem impractical to some of you but do you really want to spend your day stressing over your exam or do you want to be relaxed and confident and do well?

Before your exam day make sure to have a good night sleep and have a healthy breakfast to function well. Pray, mediate and do anything to feel relaxed (ps. it helps!)

NEVER EVER stay next to a person who is a study-a-holic. Like once, me and my friend where pretty much super confident and we passed by one of our classmates and she was litrerally studying 5 minutes before the exam and discussing some information which was out of our syllabus. This made me so uneasy and lowered my self esteem which is NOT GOOD and yeah so remember if you happen to know these kind of people (no offence !!) just don’t be near them before your exam. 

While revising for your exams (in case of A Levels) don’t just go over through your notes. What I recommend you to do is to do past exam papers and while doing them understand your level of understanding the topics and answering them. Note down the chapters and topics you need to go over through using tracking charts and then revising these topics that you need to focus more on.

Another before revision tip, is while doing your past exam papers is to note down questions (works mostly for biology really) in flashcards and then review them while revision. For example in my biology paper we have free response questions which carry 15 marks and they are easy to score all the points, so lets say I don’t know the answer for the light independent stage of photosynthesis and role of NAD, so making a flashcard with the answers of the marking scheme and reviewing them before the exam day will be good!

One of my favourite tips is to revise for your exam a day before the day before your exam (ah weird?). So lets say my first exam is actually 8th May 2015 and it is A Level Biology paper 5 so instead of revising for it on 7th and 8th May I will be revising for it on the 6th. Why is that? This is because I will actually be already done revising for the paper and cover all the topics I need to cover before hand. I will not be stressed as much as when it is before the exam or so. Therefore, on the 7th I will be doing for chemistry past papers and I will have less time to think about my actual exam the following day.

Lastly, YOU GUYS WORKED HARD AND YOUR HARD WORK SHALL NEVER GO INEXISTENT.

[obxcre-blog1]

Kisaragi Shintaro kagerou project

※ main ship : shinaya ※ side ship : kuroshin

✎ A HEART TO DISAPPEAR.

An apathetic, stoic, I-don’t-care guy before meeting one Tateyama Ayano who changed his life. Was on the verge of taking his life away if it weren’t for the efforts of the people who surrounded him, careful to open his shell and expose him to the world. Considered a genius due to his high level IQ; a walking know-it-all dictionary-slash-encyclopedia and the voice of reason in the group.

⌲ EIGHTEEN YEARS, A BOY NO STRONGER.     ( default )

[ ROUTE 01 ]   A NEET in two years after Ayano’s death. apparently, meeting Ene became a turning point in his life, leading him to meet a group of supposedly dead kids called Mekakushi Dan. His views on life improved, he became a healthy, normal human being who have a heart for others; able to live his life, looking forward without delving in the past; received ‘favoring eyes’ from Ayano. 

✄ EIGHTEEN YEARS, KIND NO LONGER.

[ Route XX ] Ayano’s death proved to make something in him snap. Guilt and regrets of his choices in treatment to his former classmate bothered him and pushed him to break more than he ever was before meeting her, driving him to resort to self-harm and attempted suicides so to punish himself. Became more distant and inhospitable; pushing everyone away out of his life; unstable, capable of thinking too logically.

[ Route ?? ]  An extended route of XX. Loses his humanity and turns into a monster, a machine, after seeing his friends die again and again. Ruthless and cold; unemotional, calculative, manipulative; shows sadism in seeing suffering and agony.

ONE MAN’S TRASH, ANOTHER MAN’S TREASURE

[ Set in Route 01; no powers ] | with impertinxnt​ Wherein Shintaro got to meet and be with the group due to Ayano’s influence. Thanks to Ene destroying his keyboard for the millionth time, he had to go out and die under the heat of the sun, meeting a lost kid in the process and treating him with an ice cream. Eight year old Jules is adorable back then (or so what he thinks) and can relate to him in more than one ways; eventually, Shintaro couldn’t help but to stand as an older brother figure. 

[ Set in Route 01; no powers ] Twenty-six year old Shintaro stuck under one roof with one eighteen year old Jules. A legal guardian, parent and older brother, three-in-one. Ten years of making peace with oneself and certain people proved to be fruitful; he finished his studies, earned a legal job in a techno company, sometimes worked for the government, created apps for illegal uses for a hobby, and got to babysit a teenager in his own apartment. Financially, self-supporting, supporting others, independent-capable, but still a virgin and pining for someone who he’s been missing for years.  

YEARS RUN BY AND I’M LIVING WITH YOUR SHADOW

[ Set in Route 01; no powers ] : AU relationship | supporting impertinxnt‘s verse with sxgekihei​ Acquaintances then good friends with Ayano Tateyama back in middle school to high school, where due to her clumsiness and unawareness, he always had to look after her, always tagging with her wherever she goes. In exchange, she was able to let him meet a lot of people, namely their upperclassmen and her family, even prompting him to join their small kids’ club. Eventually, Ayano had to move away after they graduated with reasons unknown to him and Shintaro never got to see her again…or so, when they crossed paths once in college and then, an awful lots of times in the real world.