push your horizons out as far as they’ll go.

23 . Neku Sakuraba ; he/her/hi/hy/shi/shy/scy/reap ; fableing holothere . Fictionkind circa 2015 . Xenogirlboy + xyric sapphic achillean . Spiritual OSDD netted host& in a mixed origin DID system .

[shibuyagraffiti]

i’m going camping alone with my mom. she seems to have orchestrated the whole thing to trap me with her so she can grill me about why she’s not a bad parent and i’m a fucking crazy person. i just wanted to go camping for my birthday, connect with nature and Eywa, and she made it about her. she didn’t let me celebrate christmas, or go to pride, or go to the bookstore, and now this. i screamed at her last night that she doesn’t like or understand anything about us, our system, let alone me. and she said i was unreasonable. she had this look on her face, like she was surprised and embarrassed, like she got in trouble. she was defensive and invalidating, as per usual, and just kept pushing back with every sentence that came out of our mouths. so that’s great. /s my mates in our system will make it bearable. but i just wanted to have fun for my fucking birthday.

[hare-here]

There's a lot of carnivores there, isn't it? As a hare myself, I wonder how many of us herbivores are here, being somehow active in the community.

If you have 2+ theriotypes, answer with what is your main / stronger theriotype right now, in the moment.

For adults only please, I want data from my fellow adults. And care to reblog for reach?

You're a..?

Carnivore 🍖🥩

Omnivore 🍗🍏

Herbivore 🌿🌾

Voting ended onJun 12

My twisted self-esteem quietly hints to me that there are more open-and-proud carnivores because very few want to be proud of being what is considered prey, and therefore those with pronounced herbivore theriotypes often sit in the closet. Even orthohumans (most of the time) answer the "what animal would you be" question with some cool carnivore.

I'm embarrassed that I'm a hare, it takes a stupidly long time accepting it. Not even a stronger herbivore that can defend itself, like those with mighty horns and hooves. A hare, a creature every carnivore wants to chase down and eat. So, yea.

[shibuyagraffiti]

the fact that the my classmates called me “headphones” even derogatorily is kinda cool. like even they, in all their cruelty, couldn’t deny i was neku one way or another lmao.

[voraciouspangolin]

[noodledragonsoup]

@who-is-page this you?

[who-is-page]

oh hell yeah

[shibuyagraffiti]

watching my headmates know who they are is like having no legs and watching someone play rugby

it’s hard to grieve someone you will never be and have never been

the only thing we ever agree on is wanting to be whole, but we can’t even agree enough on that to do it

we want to be ourselves

how can i be myself if i don’t stay one person

i fucking hate being a subsystem i hate this

[macabrevampire]

wish ppl could just respect that you don't want or like being touched without taking it personally. you don't have any right to my body n it's weird to think otherwise

[winrytheweirdo]

“it/its pronouns are so dehumanizing!!”

I'm going to take you by the shoulders when i say this…  

[twistcmyk]

A Mutual Understanding Between Nerds

[cloud--dust]

I remember when I was younger, when I first started talking to the humans around me about what I experience, for a short while they actually made me think none of it was real. That I wasn't actually a horse.

I almost feel ashamed admitting it. How could I doubt something so intrinsic as what I am?

Then when I eventually refused to believe them, when I was true to myself, they locked me up. Sedated me and threw me away.

I don't know if I can ever forgive them for that.

I don't hate humans. Far from it. And it wasn't humanity that did this, it was individuals. Because there are always people that will impose what they believe is right on others. But some things are just... too much to forgive. And I don't owe anyone forgiveness, I just think it's taken me a long time to come to terms with that.

And despite everything that was done to me, I'm still me. Still a strong stallion fighting for its right to exist. So to anyone who's reading this—don't give up. Don't give them the satisfaction. Be you, always.

[gravarg]

Is it strange that I kind of want a collar despite not being a dog?

I am purely wolf. Wild. But I just really like the way they look.

At the end of the day I guess it doesn't matter if it's strange. If I want to wear a collar I can, though I haven't found one I like yet.

[cloud--dust]

I don't think so.

Despite being a wild horse, sometimes I find myself looking at halters online.

Do what makes you feel the most like you.

[shibuyagraffiti]

neku the catcanidae shows off hir outfits part 1: kandi edition while her mom’s dog chews on hyr feet (also hi. face reveal)

moar pictures under tha cut :3

catgender necklace and transspecies pride keychain are made by me, the rest was a necho cat themed commission :} tail is secondhand from one of my mates!

[shibuyagraffiti]

SYSTEMATIC WORLD, KILLIN’ ME /echo

my kandi commission has been shipped W

[shibuyagraffiti]

i tried to talk to my therapist about being a holothere today. i’m so used to people jumping on me and calling me a psycho that i had a total freakout and couldn’t articulate anything properly about being a dream eater or an angel or even just being neku. she didn’t even call it delusions and she kept correcting herself when she called me a person. she says she’s had past lives that she remembers, and it’s not like my experience, but she gets the base idea. all my thoughts would flutter away until she had to ask me simple multiple choice questions. i tried really hard to speak about it, have a conversation, but i couldn’t do it for more than 15 minutes. we moved on instead to feeling alienated because i’m not from this dimension, but i really want to be able to talk about it. i want to tell her about my life and lives without my fear making me a zombie. i just kept waiting for her to say something awful or insensitive but she never really did. she called me a being and an individual and a reaper. ive never had this before, had someone who doesn’t understand try to get to know my species and soul identity. it’s terrifying but i want to be able to do it. i know what it’s like to be called names and hit and manipulated, i want to know what it’s like to have a human be kind to me.

[shibuyagraffiti]

i had a dream about being an angel and a necho cat. i don’t really remember it anymore, the more i try to think of it the more it slips away. i do think that rebelling against my creators is becoming a theme; whether it’s the higher plane or the master of masters. i keep getting flashes of visuals from the dream, but it’s nothing of substance. taboo noise, necho cat music notes, angel wings of various colors. i wish i could talk to fret again, even if i won’t remember our conversation, talking with him would probably soothe my subconscious.

[catncore]

he's no narc

[derekscorner]

Putting this here because it was absurd how hard it was to find it for someone earlier today.

Google search truly is fucked.

[andthelaw]

I love you blogs without a DNI that just focus on the thing their blog is actually about and block people that they don't want there <3