the americans ( fx ) starters
part two.
" i know you better than you know yourself. and, you don't know me at all. β β i would never do anything to hurt you. you know that. βΒ β this isnβt going to end well for you. β β i only have fear. and, you. β β they kill us. we kill them. that's the world that we live in. β β i do everything for you. i do my best. β β put me out of my misery please. i'm dead already. β β they don't care. they don't care what happens to any of us. β β i'm sorry i didn't kill you. that's my apology. β β better luck next time. β β you think i owe you an apology? β β i think you owe me more than an apology. β β iβm sure sheβll love it. β β tell whoever approved this that your face is a present from me to them. show them your face. show it to them. β β we will find this traitor and put a bullet in his head. β β it would destroy her. β β you look like a spy in an old movie. β β i know it's morose, but after they finish with me, i picture myself as dust, just ground up into the dirt. β β i'm glad that you told me. i am. i have to know everything. even if it's hard. β β thank you for telling me that. it's better. you'll see. β β weβre in trouble. β β i know. β β she is in a very bad place because of this, because of us. β β yeah, like i really want to do THAT again. β β our bosses don't know what they're doing. you've figured that out, right? β β stop handling me. β β i'm never going home, am i? β β iβd understand. β β it is not like that at, at all. β β i shouldn't have left her alone. β β you didn't leave her alone. β β we don't want this. this is a disaster for us. β β first thing: you can't be afraid to be hit and you can't be afraid to hit. ever. you don't want to get hurt, you have to be willing to do anything to protect yourself. β β heΒ will sacrifice himself before betraying his country. he can't be turned. β β i understand what you were doing, and it was smart, and it was brave. β β i'm sorry. but i was there, not you. β β everybody has problems. β β you should have asked. β β are you okay? you seem sad. β β the world's just so messy right now. it's hard to figure out what to do about it. β β well, there's nothing we can do about it. β β do you really think so? β β i know it's hard understanding these things, seeing these things, but the world doesn't work the way people here think that it does. β β she should be kept out of all of this. β β i know i've been hard to deal with. β β this has been hard for me for a long time. you know that, right? β β he wants to save people. β β well, we're certainly busy and irritated. β β i will pray for you. you should try it. β β i keep hearing that. β β you can go. and please, don't come back again. β β i believed i was acting in the service of a higher purpose, but i was just scared. β β you can't predict what a person's life will be, and you can't deny them the challenges that will shape them. β β my wife just does her job. that's all she's ever done. she's good at it. β β it's possible that she's being used by the people who are trying to stop all the progress that we've been making. or she's one of them. β β artβs not really my thing. β β maybe you should stop. β β i'm not bringing you down with me, it's too dangerous. β β when will you be back? β β he loves you. tell him the truth. β β you made my life a joke. β β what were you supposed to do? β β and you? what's left for you now? β β it's not usually that easy. β β it's not just me having a hard time. it's you, too. β















