Hi all. I really did not want to have to make a post about this but I feel like it needs to be addressed. (Content warnings for proship and grooming, everything is under the cut)
For those of you unaware, I was recently accepted into a Submas fundraiser project. Yesterday I was reached out to by some of the moderators and was informed that a couple people had shared some screenshots with them of me talking about potential proship content.
Let me just say this now: I am not a proshipper. I will never be a proshipper. There are definitely some lines I will never cross and ships I am extremely uncomfortable with and do not endorse. Fiction affects reality and vice versa, but I do believe there is a point where you need to draw a line between the two and take a step back. That's just more on the side of my personal values regarding curating your own online experience.
The majority of these screenshots were from posts that I had made over 6 years ago, and were provided without the full context behind them. Fandom has changed a lot over the years, and so have I. Nowadays I very much disagree with some of the posts I made. That's human. That's normal. I very much believe in the concept that people make mistakes and learn and grow from them. It's just unfortunate that something I said years ago can be used against me now, even if that does not currently reflect who I am as a person. That's one of the major downsides on having had a social media account for over a decade, I'm afraid.
It was not long after that that allegations began to spread of me grooming a minor. That is a very serious accusation, and not one I take lightly. Grooming is done with intent. I have never and will never groom a minor, that is absolutely abhorrent.
I discussed with the mods at great length on how to proceed. I even offered to leave the project myself because the last thing I want is for them to face more harassment over stupid shit I said 6 years ago. In the end it was decided I would no longer be taking part of the project, solely for my own safety and the safety of the mods. A lot of the harassment they are facing isn't even centered around me. I just happened to get caught in the crossfire.
Also, I will make this perfectly clear: please do not go looking for the people in question and harass them on my behalf. This has already been a very stressful situation for both the mods and I, and I do not want things to escalate any further. This is the only post I intend to make about the situation at large. I don't plan to answer any asks about that matter or discuss it further, I just want to move on from this as it has been very traumatic. I have turned off anonymous asks for the time being.
As it stands, I will probably step away from the Submas fandom for a while. I know there's been a lot of drama happening within the fandom lately; I did not expect that I would also get dragged into it. I'm so sorry that things had to come to this, I feel absolutely awful about the whole thing, and I'm so heartbroken I'm not involved in the project anymore.
I'm not sure how online I'll be over the next few days, this situation has shaken me greatly and my anxiety is completely out of control. But a huge thanks to all my friends and followers who have supported me all this time, and for all the birthday wishes. I love you all, thank you for reading <3
