My first ever One Shot Fic, it’s not perfect by any means. But I hope you all enjoy!
Shauna lays back into the wooden floors of the cabin, the coldest night of the year that they’ve been stranded in the wilderness.
Thinking of Jackie and their dumb argument, something doesn’t feel right. The wind hitting the cabin knocking Shauna into her senses, Shauna gets up looks outside, and sees Jackie shivering next to a sad excuse of what you could call a fire.
She crawls down the staircase, tip toes through the living room, making sure not to wake any of the girls. Shauna opens the door to the cabin so she can sneak out without letting any cold air in.
Jackie looks back at Shauna and grimaces. “What do you want?” Her voice shaking and every word having an extra syllable in it, god she has to be freezing.
“Jackie it’s too cold out here to sleep, you need to come inside.” Shauna says, she knows she did a bad thing. But she can’t let Jackie stay out in this.
“So you care now huh? What happened to Shauna that wants to be her own person? Shauna that doesn’t even like soccer? Shauna that fucked my boyfriend and kept it from her best friend in the whole fucking world?” Jackie practically screams, Oh, she’s mad. But doesn’t she have every right to be?
“Jackie I’m sorry okay? I’m so sorry. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but I just need you to come inside. You can hate me, I deserve to be hated. But I can’t leave you out here, you’re going to die if you out here!” Shauna yells back, but she can’t help herself. She keeps going, “I don’t even like Jeff, I hate him. I love you Jackie, I’ve always loved you! I don’t know why I did it, I just always wanted you to need me and when Jeff came into our lives I felt like you no longer did. And it hurt. But that’s not on you, that’s on me. I’m sorry, I’m so sorry Jackie” Shauna finishes, realizing she’s crying now.
Jackie stands up, looks back at Shauna tear streaks down her face now too
‘damn it’ Shauna thinks ‘she’s crying, when did we get like this? What kind of horror story is this?’
“I just need you to come inside, Jackie please, please, Jackie please can you look at me?” Shauna frantic like the world is about to end. Why did it take her so long to figure out Shauna’s whole world is only Jackie?
“I’m going inside, but I’m still mad at you.” Jackie walks slowly past Shauna, their shoulders brushing against each other whilst she walks back into the warmth of the cabin.
Shauna takes that as a win, she wipes her face trying to lose all the evidence of her crying, she turns on her heel keeping a small distance away from Jackie. That way she doesn’t change her mind for some sort of reason.
They both make it back in the cabin and Shauna gets a good look at Jackie and sees her whole face is a violet and her whole body is still shaking. ‘What I would do to hold you right now’ Shauna thinks, ‘no don’t touch her’ she reminds herself
“Jackie, are you okay?!?” Misty whispers jumps up from her sleeping bag, walks over to Jackie to assess the damage, Nat and Tai are awake as well it seems now too.
“Oh I’m great, just great. I was seeing how long I could be out there until I could be Frosty the snowman.” Jackie says bitterly, goes over by the fire and sits.
Tai grabs a could blankets and puts them around Jackies shoulders like a cape, “I’ll grab some water to warm over the fire, that’ll help warm you up. Just stay there.” Tai says and then goes into the kitchen that is part of the living area to find a cup to use.
“It looks like I’m not going anywhere, since my bodyguard Shauna can’t make up her mind if she wants me around or not.” Jackie says while looking over at Misty whilst she’s creating some sort of liquid antidote to heal her from the cold, “if you think I’m drinking that Misty, I’m going back outside and my death is on your hands.” Misty looks back at Jackie and then the creation she made and slowly shakes her head and goes back to her sleeping bag
“Are you doing alright shipman? You aren’t looking so hot.” Nat says, Shauna does not feel great. She doesn’t know if she overworked herself trying to get Jackie back into the cabin, or if the cold is just getting to her head.
“Yeah I’m fine, I was just going to bed” Shauna sighs making her way back up to the attic sparing a glance at Jackie before she reaches the stairway. She doesn’t know if she imagined it, but Jackie spared a glance back at her. They locked eyes for a split second, before she went to bed.
Shauna lays there for who knows how long thinking of Jackie, ‘how long have I loved her? Without knowing it?’ She thinks, while biting her lip. It drew blood and she pulls up in a sitting position and pulls out her journal and starts writing. She hears creaking downstairs, and she’s hoping it’s not Misty trying to heal Jackie’s close call frostbite, and have to go and stop Jackie from throwing Misty into the snowstorm. But it sounds like it’s just one person, and she hears them coming up the staircase to the attic.
Shauna looks at the trapdoor moving and it’s Jackie poking her head into the attic, her face finally looking a normal color ‘god she’s beautiful’ Shauna thinks ‘fuck don’t screw this up’ she thinks again.
“You can’t sleep either?” Jackie asks walking over to Shauna and sits across from her. ‘Don’t screw this up’
“If it makes you feel better, I haven’t slept since last night. Before we had our fight” Shauna says coolly. ‘Fuck that sounds bitchy, why am I so nervous?’
“It doesn’t. Shauna I thought we were best friends, I thought we could tell each other anything, but you slept with my boyfriend. You don’t like soccer? Do I even know you? Or would you just playing with my feelings?” Jackie asks looking so lost and only wanting answers.
‘I would never do that you, I would never play with your feelings’ Shauna thinks, but she did. She knows she did.
“Jackie, I’m sorry I only said those things cause I was mad and confused. My whole life I’ve been so lost, and the only thing that brings me back to reality is you. I know it sounds fucked up, and what I did was so fucked. I know it is, but if I could take back what happened I would. All I’ve ever wanted is you” Shauna says, ‘Oh my god, that was a lot. That was too much’ Shauna thinks ‘I’ve done it now’ she feels bile in the back of her throat.
Jackie just sits there, contemplating thinking on her next move. “I don’t really want to go back downstairs, Misty keeps asking if I can feel my toes.” Shauna lets out a giggle, doing that Jackie gives a small playful smirk. ‘God I love her’ Shauna thinks, her face feels warm.
“I have an extra blanket up here if you want to stay with me,” Shauna offers. Jackie slowly shakes her head and she crawls next to her. Shauna lays on her back and turns her head to look at Jackie, “I never meant to hurt you, you know that right?” Her voice coming out shaky and she realizes she’s trembling. ‘Don’t cry Shauna, keep it together’
Jackie looks at her reaches over to put a strand of hair behind her ear, smiles weakly, and softly shakes her head. Shauna sees tears forming out the corner of her eyes. Her eyes averting to the window, and says “it’s snowing” Jackie says so quietly you could’ve missed it.
Shauna looks out into the snowy depths of the wilderness where the first blizzard of the winter is coming down. Her heart feels cold thinking ‘I sent Jackie out in that, I could’ve lost her tonight’ tears start to form in her eyes and she can’t stop them this time.
Moments past and Shauna looks up at the ceiling of the cabin, and she thinks ‘well here goes nothing’
“Jackie I love you more than anything in this world, and if we make it out of this, which we will. I want you all for myself and I’ll never do anything to hurt you ever again” Shauna whispers speaking from the heart, nothing stopping her from losing her again.
Quiet fills the room, and Shauna slowly moves to look at Jackie. But she’s nestled up between Shauna’s shoulder and neck already asleep soundly. Shauna smiles softly, and closes her eyes too. ‘I promise I’ll never let anything happen to you’, Shauna thinks. Sleep taking over them entirely, intertwined in each others arms.
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