REMEMBER THIS SHIT. YEAH. FINAL POST HERE.
THIS WAS A MISTAKE.
ALL OF THIS.
MAKING THAT SERVER WAS THE BIGGEST REGRET OF MY LIFE.
LET ME GIVE YOU A FUCKING RUNDOWN ON SOME OF THE WORST SHIT IN THAT HELLHOLE.
LET'S START FROM THE BEGINNING. THE FIRST FEW MEMBERS WERE FUCKING AROUND AND A TIGHT-KNIT FRIEND GROUP. IT FELT EQUIVALENT TO LIVING IN A GIANT HOUSE WITH A BUNCH OF OTHER PEOPLE.
THE MOD OF THE OLD GRAND HIGHBLOOD DAILY ACCOUNT. THIS IS THE FIRST INSTANCE OF THE SHIT THAT I HAD TO SUSTAIN AND ACT LIKE I WAS FINE OVER, WHEN I WASN'T.
FOR IMPORTANT CONTEXT: THE OWNER OF THIS BLOG IS A SYSTEM. WE NEVER ANNOUNCED IT ON HERE BECAUSE AT FIRST THE HOST AT THE TIME NEVER KNEW, UNTIL AROUND... 9/11, I'D SAY. BUT, AT THIS TIME, AROUND THE END OF JULY/EARLY AUGUST, HE DID NOT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK WAS UP WITH HIM.
I WAS FRONTING AT THIS MOMENT.
I HAD POORLY WORDED A QUESTION. I BACKPEDALED BECAUSE I KNEW I FUCKED UP AND APTLY APOLOGIZED FOR MY WORDING. I FELT SO EMBARRASSED BY MY OWN WORDS THAT I PURGED THE CONVERSATION.
THIS DID NOT STOP THE GHB MOD.
I WAS PROMPTLY CALLED RACIST FOR THIS WORDING, TO WHICH, YEAH, I COULD SEE HOW IT WAS. IT WAS WRONG WORDING AND I GENUINELY DO REGRET HOW I WORDED IT. BUT THE ISSUE WITH IT IS THAT I KNEW FROM AFTER SAYING IT THAT IT WAS WRONGLY WORDED. I HAD APOLOGIZED FOR MY ACTIONS AND TRIED TO MOVE ON.
THAT DID NOT HAPPEN.
I SAID THINGS I WOULD REGRET. WHICH YEAH, I DO FEEL SHITTY FOR MY ACTIONS CIRCA LAST YEAR. IT WAS SHITTY OF ME TO SAY THESE THINGS.
BUT YEAH, THAT WAS THE FIRST INSTANCE.
NOW. LET'S TALK ABOUT WHEN WE REALIZED WE WERE A SYSTEM.
LET'S GET INTO DRAMA. WORSE DRAMA THAN THAT.
THE ERIDAN MOD.
HI ABYSMAL, YOU PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT.
I REFUSE TO POINT FINGERS, AS I AM A LOT MORE MATURE THAN THAT.
I KNOW I WAS ALSO A HUGE PART ON WHY THIS SERVER WENT TO SHIT, ANYWAYS.
BUT THIS IS WHERE WE GET INTO A SMIDGE OF SYSTEM BULLSHIT.
PER/PROSECUTORS.
THEY ARE NOT SHITTY GUYS. THEY ARE GENERALLY JUST [SUMMED UP, I'M NOT RANTING ABOUT THAT, I AM GIVING MY FUCKING STATEMENT HERE AS TO WHY I REGRET THIS BLOG AND THE SERVER, NOT SYSTEM BULLSHIT.] PROTECTORS WHO ARE EITHER SHITTY AT THEIR JOB OR JUST GENERALLY HAVE A BAD WAY UPON TRYING TO PROTECT THEIR SYSTEM.
OUR ONLY PROSECUTOR AT THE TIME HAD FRONTED. HE WAS LIVID BECAUSE WE WERE STRESSED CONSTANTLY OVER THIS SERVER. WE WERE (HONESTLY, IN MY OPINION) THE ONLY PERSON WHO COULD GET SHIT DONE IN THIS SERVER, OUTSIDE OF THE HAL MOD.
SO, THAT WAS WHEN HE FORCED OWNERSHIP TO THE ERIDAN MOD, AND LEFT SHSD FOR THE FIRST TIME. WE HAD PRIOR INSTANCES OF LEAVING THE SERVER DUE TO STRESS, TYPICALLY GIVING TEMP OWNERSHIP TO SOMEONE LIKE THE SOLLUX MOD, ROXY MOD, OR HAL MOD, BECAUSE WE TRUSTED THEM A LOT WITH THE SERVER AND SHIT.
BUT WE GAVE (TEMPORARY, MIND YOU, WE LITERALLY TOLD ABYSMAL TO GIVE IT BACK WHEN WE CAME BACK AND HE DID SAY YES TO THAT AT THE TIME. NOTE THAT FOR LATER.) OWNERSHIP TO ABYSMAL AND DIPPED.
WE CAME BACK.
WE DID NOT GET OWNERSHIP BACK DESPITE HAVING ASKED.
THE SERVER QUICKLY WENT TO HELL AFTER THIS.
SYSTEMS NO LONGER FELT SAFE IN THIS SERVER. NOT EVEN US.
SO, WE CAME UP TO ABYSMAL.
AND AS A REMINDER: THIS IS ABSOLUTELY NOT A CALLOUT POST FOR ABYSMAL OR ANYONE ELSE IN SHSD.
THIS IS ME DIRECTLY SAYING THAT THIS SERVER WENT TO SHIT. ALL OF IT WAS A MISTAKE I WISH I COULD UNDO.
[I APOLOGIZE FOR THE SHITTY QUALITY WITH THESE SCREENSHOTS, AND WOULD HIGHLY APPRECIATE IT IF SOMEONE COULD WRITE AN IMAGE ID.]
THIS GOES A LOT INTO SYSTEM TALK.
IT'S GENERALLY JUST THIS. A HOST OF A SYSTEM IS GENERALLY SOMEONE WHO JUST FRONTS A LOT. WHILE YES, THEY ARE MOSTLY RESPONSIBLE FOR THEIR HEADMATES, SEEING AS THEY'RE THE MAIN ONE WHO FRONTS, THEY CANNOT CONTROL JACK FUCKING SHIT ABOUT THEM.
AND I WANT YOU TO NOTE HERE. WE HAD SAID MULTIPLE TIMES THAT SYSTEMS HAD SAID THEY DID NOT FEEL COMFORTABLE. THERE WERE DISCUSSIONS ABOUT IT IN THE SYSTEM CORNER OF THE SERVER [WHICH WAS LOCKED UNDER A ROLE, AND THIS SERVER WAS VERY OPEN ABOUT RESPECTING SYSTEMS AND ALSO ROLE GIVING. GIVE OR TAKE A MEMBER/TWO, BUT THIS IS MY ACCOUNTING OF THE SHITSHOW OF SHSD, AND NOT SOMEONE ELSE'S.]
HOSTS ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR THEIR HEADMATES. IF YOU DON'T LIKE THAT, DON'T EVEN TRY TO ARGUE WITH ME ON THIS, AS I'M LOGGING OFF THE ACCOUNT THAT OWNS THIS FUCKING BLOG AFTER I POST THIS AND REBLOG IT TO THE MAIN THAT OWNS THIS.
NOW. LET'S STRAY AWAY FROM THE SYS-TALK AND STRAY TO THIS BLOG ALONE.
YOU ALL SUCK AT SUPPORTING ARTISTS FOR THIS SITE. I WILL FUCKING SAY THIS DOWNRIGHT.
YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO REBLOG ART YOU ENJOY. YOU DO NOT GIVE IT A LIKE. A LIKE IS A FUCKING BOOKMARK.
LET ME GIVE AN EXAMPLE.
A POST FROM SHITTYTAVROSDAILY FROM JUNE 30TH.
ONE REPLY, TWO REBLOGS, AND SEVEN LIKES. COOL, WHATEVER! THERE WERE REBLOGS, THAT'S GENUINELY GREAT.
AND A DAY BEFORE, ON MY BLOG.
NO REPLIES, NO REBLOGS, AND ONE LIKE.
YOU'RE KIDDING ME.
I ORIGINALLY MADE THIS BLOG TO HELP A SMIDGE OF ART BURNOUT.
ALL THIS DID WAS TELL ME MY ART WASN'T WORTHY ENOUGH AND THAT IT WAS USELESS.
EVEN A LITERAL YEAR LATER, I STILL HAVE THIS BURNOUT AND ART BLOCK.
WE HATE OUR ART NOW. GENUINELY, WE THINK IT'S FUCKING TRASH.
WE CRINGE WHEN WE LOOK AT THIS BLOG, SURE, BUT WE CRINGE WORSE BECAUSE ALL WE SEE IS THE STUPID ATTEMPTS OF A 14-15 YEAR OLD'S ATTEMPTS TO GET THEIR ART IN THE WORLD. WE KNOW WE WEREN'T THAT GOOD WITH ART, BUT WE STILL, LIKE. I DON'T KNOW, TRIED?
I COULD HONESTLY KEEP GOING ABOUT THIS ALL, WHICH IS THE SADDEST PART.
THERE WERE ABLEISTS AND PROSHIPPERS IN THAT HELLSHITHOLE. IT SUCKED. IT REALLY SUCKED BECAUSE WE/I DIDN'T KNOW UNTIL IT WAS TOO LATE.
YOU ALL FUCKING SUCK.
THE SERVER WAS SHIT.
I'M GOING TO SAY THAT THE ONE FUCKING THING I AM GRATEFUL FOR IS THAT THE HAL MOD AND THE ROXY MODS ARE STILL CHILL WITH US.
OTHERWISE, FUCK EVERYONE ELSE.
I'M DONE.
SHITTYHOMESTUCKDAILY WAS SUPPOSED TO PUT "SHITTY" IN THE ART QUALITY, NOT THE PEOPLE.
THIS BLOG WILL ROT LIKE I HOPE THE REST OF THE PEOPLE WHO OWN A BLOG DO. (HAL MOD + ROXY MOD + SOLLUX MOD EXEMPT.)
