ShocKVMe

my digital diary...ShocK

[kushandwizdom]

- Akin Olokun

[wisekelp]

Repost this anywhere

[lovingandlucking-deactivated201]

I just hit reblog so fast I almost dropped my phone

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My Brain is POPPIN rn. 💖💝🎀💐

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My fav nightclub.

I absolutely love my spot of choice for nightlife. This particular visit was the best of the best. I want to keep it on the hush too bc it's only special ,if it's not exposed and invaded by wacks. 😂 But I always seem to wind up in sexual encounters at this venue and honestly I love the fuck out it!! I wish others had the opportunity to explore their sensuality in such a way and not feel judged or ashamed of it...After all this is what every single last human being partakes in. SEX.

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Yo. Neglect won't be tolerated

As Oprah Winfrey said, “don’t waste your time on those who don’t support you” it literally is my newest motto. I’m super tired of being that girl in the front row , holding a botch or two down, then when I have my glorious moment, and I’m shining, it seemingly only is me?

I do praise myself highly and I love all of the art that I share with the world. But it just irritates me when your so called “friends” say they will be here or there for your moment, but they never follow thru? I get that life could be busy, but busy all the time ? Ok I guess I’m a magician BC I have 8 jobs and I still put something aside to support a friend when they ask me to?

So old/new lesson learned, make them earn it! Yes my friends do have to earn my loyalty and respect…. It’s necessary to not be walked over in life. And I am not a mockery, I ain’t having that.

So I’m cutting them off deleting blocking all.of that shit BC its not doing anything but igniting the same ol bs. The false promises have fully officially fallin thru and Im leaving the mess behind.

✌️ with ❤️ ~ShocKA

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Today's is Friday!!

I'm lucky. I'm blessed. I'm alive one more time! One serious realization is that i take this awesome fact of life for granite. We all do, bc we have access to everything. Unlike others who I could never touch, due to distance. I just noticed that I've been complaining about the most petty situations and minimal dramas that can be resolved in an heartbeat. I have the power to make my life a peaceful one, without worry without being so bitter? And also dictating who I allow to be in my presence and what I choose to participate in. The drugs the drinking the partying all adds up to nothing, usually? And now that I have jotted this paragraph I have to try harder for my well being and for others well being!! We all need each other for this reminder. We have the Power to change. Let's try to apply it. And I'd like to see how much more fab I can be without abusing my temple. 🙏🏽 ❤️ 😚 🏆

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"Ya can't touch this ShįT.."

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Rollin wit da homiezzz

Good vibezzzz 🍄💨😝

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Feels good to be working again but it sucks that I can never take a day off in nyc w/o doing that thing we call, the paper chase 💰

#ShocKAkNowledge

[kushandwizdom]

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Just wish the snow would go away 😢

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Me, is my Bestie 💕

Speaking of friendships..... they do come a dime a dozen, but in the end it's per usually the same conclusion on my end. I usually require the upmost respect and loyalty and extreme honesty from the ones who are closest to me. Who wouldn't? I definitely reciprocate and initiate this routine almost always, even with strangers. Some say I should change and be this secretive sly creature who falls in line with the systematic approach that others tend to play on, but I wouldn't be able to sleep at night if I over analyzed my every word, my every move, knowing that I only mean well and respect my peers this much to keep it all the way 💯 even if I'm not in the best mood, even though that's almost impossible Bc I'm always usually happy. Reasoning behind this entry is my current standing without the wrong people behind me, who fronted our entire friendship and judged my decision to leave a toxic situation. I'm responsible for being so passive for all of these years, but dayum I wish I had "me" as the friend on the receiving end where the shade was delivered bc I would've addressed "my issues" if I had any? 😂 but hey I've learned now.... speak up always, don't hold back, and always follow your intuition because what you feel could be "real" deal Reality.

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Hello World 🌎 NYC, SUGGESTIONS?

Good evening world it’s muah the talented lovely love bug name ShocK haha that grandiose introduction was applied , due to my absence on my vlog , (which I finally learned this is….) 😂

But I’m just writing today bc I’m super frustrated at the treatment that I’m receiving in NYC. It’s like I’m chanting every am this week and praying to the angels up above , to be filled with love patience and leadership but every single day I leave my home I start out with positivity, but end up snapping on a botch bc they have no respect for my space or just plainly have no type of idea of what’s proper treatment of an individual who isn’t even bothering them?

Me , yes me! Lol. I don’t know if it’s bc I’m probably genuinely happy? Or if people may think I’m “fake” happy, or if I’m shining too bright for the masses. Wouldn’t you think that NYC would embrace someone who is shining? Not as much as I’d like to believe.

I’m just writing in my vlogg to express these feelings to others bc I know I’m not the only mtf out here running into the psychos in NYC. Is this worldwide? 😂

**Also I work so hard , and maybe I just need a vacation out of this mtf. But we shall see what the future holds .

~my journal for this evening folks! ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

[blackberryshawty]

Same

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Bwahahahahahah 😂😁

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Back at my digital diary!!

Hey everyone , sorry its taken so long to write, but I have been having pc issues! Thx gawd for my Mac portable keyboard! Saves lives when you have thoughts to jot, and shit to say swiftly. Anywho I have been hellah busy since the beginning of September (bdayMonth) and pretty much running my shop with my homies at (DRTYSMMR) and much is looking up, as far as clients support and creativity in the most busiest easily distracted location ever,. NYC. But Im so happy that me and my team are connected at the waist! We have sat our egos aside, and learned how to work together for better, and not just for a solo gain. I believe when you truly want the best for your friends or talented peers, then not only do they win but you walk away feeling stronger more superior and most of all , valued. I am digging that whole vibe, and I also know that people look up to me and I inspire others to be as unrestricted as possible within their artistic vision. We need ART to survive. Im so happy to be back, and I will continue to give you lil sneak peaks of my visual escapades. Love you all , ~ShocKYaW

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