cupid’s baby

alive against my will

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I’m sad as fuck

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songs from the car ❤️‍🩹

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my holy grail skincare products ୨୧

disclaimer : i’m not saying everyone should follow this routine and i’m no expert in dermatology but i just thought i’d share what works for me !!

to wash my face i use the “cerave sa smoothing cleanser” both in the morning and at night.

i use the “glossier solution” to exfoliate my face no more than twice a week. do not use this on the same day as the serums i mention later on as they re not compatiable !!! use them on seperate days 

i also looove the “glossier moisturizing moon mask”, i normally put it on before i go to sleep. i have naturally dry skin and this definitely helped out with that.

for my night time moisturiser if i do not use the mask, i just use the “cerave moisturising lotion for dry to very dry skin” or the “cerave facial moisturising cream”

recently, i bought the “100% organic cold-pressed rose hip seed oil”, the “niacinamide serum” and the “aha + bha peeling solution” which are all from the ordinary! i haven’t gotten around to using the peeling solution but i use the niacinamide in the morning and at night whereas i use the rosehip oil occasionally at night, especially if i slug my face. i found that they both helped fix my moisture barrier as i feel like it was quite damaged beforehand.

for spf, i use the “cerave facial moisturising cream with spf 25″. not only is this quite affordable but it does moisturise my skin and protect it from sun damage.

i don’t really use a specific lip balm as i have a few that i kind of just use when i have them on hand. i love love love any of the glossier or burts bees lip balms. i also like the taste of the cherry carmex on my lips but i’ve found that it doesn’t really make my lips as soft as the others.

overall, my skincare routine isn’t very complicated, however it is definitely efficient and it’s been working for me so far!! if i feel like it during the week, i might use a sheet mask if i have any. this will probably change overtime and i may update it if anyone is interested !!

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fav music artists of mine! not in order, i’m gonna add to this later on :)

taylor swift

ariana grande

phoebe bridgers

lana del rey

cigarettes after sex

mitski

the neighbourhood

melanie martinez

clairo

steve lacy

the weeknd

labrinth

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i need skincare tips! i have acne, i get these painful bumps on my face that often turn into whiteheads or sometimes just go away.

i also have red and grey ish(?) discolouration from acne so if anyone could recommend any products (affordable) that will help with that then i will love u forever :’)

alsoooo maybe products that help with acne scarring? to prevent and get rid of some.

current products i’m using:

cerave foaming face wash

acnecide (benzoyl peroxide)

usual moisturiser (i had a cerave moisturiser but that was making my face burn / itch after i used it so i figured it’s not great on my sensitive skin. i switched to just a light and creamy moisturiser that i usually use on my body and i have noticed my skin has become more smooth and glowy)

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i’ve asked for a therapist but my supposedly ‘supportive’ mother said no :) i’ve tried to ask for help lol that’s all i can do

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tw!! negative image of self, talking about appearance, comparing to others ?? (i’m not too sure if that one can be classed as a tw but i’m gonna put it just in case!) exhaustion ??

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i’m not trying to be an attention seeker or anything related here but i know i’m not pretty. but when people make it so obvious? gosh it makes me feel so awful about myself. i also know i’m in a vulnerable place at the moment because my mental health isn’t good, and this could play into my own response to this.

when with friends, i never get compliments on my appearance. the only ones i ever get are “you smell nice.” yet these people will say to all my friends “you look amazing today”, “you’re really pretty” etc.

it’s not my friends’ fault, i know that! but it still has an affect on me. it makes me want to hate them because they’re so pretty. i crave that validation too. i want to be pretty. i do all these things but nothing helps. i’m sick of it. i’m so tired of everything.

and the silence after the compliment given to people i’m with too! the blank space in which they could say: “you look really nice too!” but it never comes.

but i could never hate them for that. after all, all they did was be attractive. it just hurts knowing i’ll never be as beautiful as them.

i’m sorry for this rant. i just needed to let this out somewhere but i’m so scared of talking to people about this stuff irl. <3

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why is it so hard to figure out ur sexuality :/

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stop humiliating fat children/fat teens/fat young adults/fat adults/fat folks in general. stop questioning/speculating on our food intake, our energy out put, how our individual bodies must feel, what our health is,etc.

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