i'll probably die with my boots on.

[shotgunglitterbomb]

Jesus Christ died for nothin’, I suppose.

[dame-de-pique]

Karel Dvořák - V Macoše, kolem 1900

[monkparker]

[shotgunglitterbomb]

Wow hi tumblr

It’s been years.

Maybe I’ll start posting poetry again.

[shotgunglitterbomb]

TW: drug use, needles

In boarding school

I used to sneak into her room at night.

We skipped class on speed and tore through the woods

Secrets dripping from our lips

Fingers touching

Heart murmur.

We used to drive to the convenience store in Norwich

Shoot dilaudid in her car and kiss

Velvet Underground in the tape deck

Her veins started to hide

Pull over

I’m gonna puke.

I check into rehab

White walls

A carpet with no distinguished pattern

My OCD shaking my brain

Group therapy

Piss tests

No mirrors

This is recovery

I can still hear her fingernails tapping the barrel of my syringe.

We go to a movie

I am six months clean

She is nodding out on suboxone

She runs away.

I stay clean.

I go sailing

And while I’m at sea I dream of her

Her miles of hair wrapped around my throat

Like a noose.

The girl I love is a ghost.

My scars dissolve into my arms

I gain weight

She breaks the tip of a needle off under the skin

Infection

She almost dies.

I hold a job

Honest exhaustion at the end of the day

I sleep through the night.

I find a bundle of needles behind her broken stereo

Rubber band

She screams

I sigh

I can’t walk away.

She calls from the side of the highway

The rush of cars muffles her drooling cries

Abandoned.

I try to come to her rescue again.

I move 600 miles away and before I leave I drive to her house in my blue pickup truck

I try to have a nice time

She accuses me of owing her money

Pack of smokes

Where’s my sweater?

I am six years clean

She calls me crying

On the side of the highway again

Miles and miles

Away.

I struggle to find the strength

I know I can’t help her

God I just want to help her

Fix her

Save her

Kiss her

A splinter in my heart.

I send her $150

Western union

Buy a bus ticket

Come home.

She never gets on the bus.

I wonder where she is.

[sweetfrosti]

[nuclearharvest]

by Jesùs Leguizamo 2013

[evaporated-espresso-blog]

[shotgunglitterbomb]

Sorry tumblr, I guess. I forgot about ya

[lizbethrice]

[electripipedream]

[shotgunglitterbomb]

Made entirely by the hands of the blacksmith with 100% scrap material. Thanks Dad. #flintlock #powderhorn #treasure

[magic-of-eternity]

[chaosophia218]

The Moon, the Sun and the Stars.

[iamoppo]

Jager, Keef & B.O. Blunt.

[collien0]

[floralwaterwitch]

these are so lovely

[shotgunglitterbomb]

No pole? No problem #headstand #core