Misaki felt the corners of her lips curl into a delicate smile. The level of confidence in himself was more than realized, and Misaki could feel it from it. His tenacity and determination was refreshing, as she had expected him to question himself and his goals like so many before him had when posed with her prying questions. It was proof enough that, even if failure was an option, Kaneto Shirousagi would ensure it was not.
She nodded her head once in response to him.
âI cannot deny, Shirousagi-san, that your level of determination is quite respectable. Truly, I only question you because it is something to expect, but youâve proven that even in the face of adversity, you are determined. It is quite admirable.â
Praises from Misaki were not common, but usually were out of a reflection of herself that she saw in her company. Not allowing the doubts of others to cloud your goals was something she could agree with, and for her at least, despite her dimly realistic perspective on matters, that was reason enough for her to agree with Kanetoâs plans. Even his sentiment of being able to rely on yourself in the end was one she knew far too well.Â
Her face then returned to a more serious expression after a moment, as she began to think more critically on the words Kaneto had proposed. As she thought out loud to Kaneto, it seemed like Misakiâs mindset shifted into another being altogether.
âNow, for the matter at handâŠ
Bringing together a group of sixteen will be a challenging task. The common goal of survival is natural reason for human beings to cooperate with one another, but considering the circumstances, it will be more difficult to bring together everyone easily. Youâve said it yourself, that the only one you can really rely on is yourself, so our first task will have to be usurping that concept altogether, at least temporarily, to prove that we have more of a chance to succeed as a group rather than as individuals.
Perhaps it would be best to demonstrate that camaraderie by example, or emphasize the risk of failure when alone. There are many ways to approach this type plan, but the wire we walk is thin and it is important that we do not put ourselves in a position to be taken advantage of.â
She looked towards Kaneto, after speaking somewhat rhetorically for so long.
Whoa. Somehow he felt like heâd seen something really rare.
For a second his mind derails there. For him, the way he was made sense; it was natural. The idea that someone wouldnât have confidence in themselves, wouldnât fight for what they wanted was baffling. Who could lead a satisfying life being swayed by every negative thing in their way? How dull. And honestly, what a waste of time. No one was going to magically give you confidence in yourself. Still, being called admirable wasnât common so that much he could appreciate.
âI appreciate the kind words nâ all but for me, that much is natural. You either fight for what you want or you crumble. I canât stand the idea of giving up before Iâve even tried.â
Itâs accurate to say, in fact, he considers this determination of his one of his biggest assets. While he wasnât sure why she felt the need to test him he hoped now that this was out of the way theyâd be able to get down to business, here. Perhaps Misaki was of a similar mind - that people who give up on themselves arenât worth oneâs time. If that was the case, he respected that, but rather than hyper-analyzing her motives heâd much rather find a solution to this current problem.
And as such, he listens to her words intently, his head resting in his hand. The way she spoke now was different. She always seemed on the serious side but this was more... directed - focused. Like a woman on a mission.
â... I was right to talk to you âbout this, huh.â
He nods, mostly confirming his own words before giving his thoughts. Hell, he wouldâve given those even if Misaki hadnât left the invitation.
âYouâre right, though. Itâs a pain âcause too much of anythingâs a no-go. If you seem strong maybe you inspire leadership but maybe you also look like a threat. You show a little weakness, maybe youâre not as scary but that makes you perfect prey.â
Itâs a troublesome situation and honestly, itâs not one heâs all too familiar with. Perhaps a drawback of having such an adventurous fiery personality, Kanetoâs never felt the need to rely on other people. Counting on others was a chore - you could never predict who would or wouldnât fuck up and if they did, it hurt you in the end, too. So the solution for the man of common sense was to just cut them out of the equation entirely. Itâd worked some but in a place like this that was a death-wish.
âI always thought of it as an enemy of our enemy is a friend. Like, if everyone dislikes the bear, makes sense to go against him or something; like it just makes sense to stick together but... maybe that ainât so right. Maybe if people get into groups with people they feel comfortable with it wonât be so bad. I mean, in general, ainât it harder to hurt people in a group?
Iâm fine playinâ nice with people but Iâm not sure I can get âem to trust me. Honestly, Iâve done much everythinâ on my own so Iâm kind of a stranger in this land.â
Heâs half-replying and half-thinking aloud at this point. Thereâs no reason to suddenly be shy about his lack of cooperation. Being frank about these things was the smart move.