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Burden

I hate burdens and being burdened. The worst is when I feel burdened by something I cannot and should not be feeling burdened with. But we all will become burdens someday wont we and what does that make of me

we are different.

I do not like trouble, but I’m not lazy.

You do not like trouble, and you’re lazy.

I can put on hold things that I know won’t have any future repercussions on my life.

You put on hold things that will have a consequence in the future of your and our lives. You only act on it when a disaster happen because of your procrastination. I hate that you don’t see how doing so kills my faith in our future.

I hate being burden-ed unnecessarily. You are causing yourself to be a burden to me in the future unnecessarily. It’s okay if you fall ill and whatever in the future, but the likelihood of you being immobile is high because of your procrastination. and that is not something I can tolerate. I will, and I mean it, hate you.

The stories in the newspaper, old wife kills bed-ridden husband and etc.. I won’t be that stupid I can totally imagine me going insane because of accumulated pressure and hate for your “uncalled for and helpless” situation. If it happens, can you say that it is really uncalled for? no. all you can say is sorry. like what you do now. the first word is sorry. every. single. fucking. time.

That moment when the bubble burst. I wish aimlessness only last that instant and disappears after.

When I put too much hope on one thing and imagined too bright a future.

trashcansally

Do you ever just suddenly feel really shitty because you’re not particularly good at anything and you don’t know what you wanna do with your life and like you didn’t ask to be born and have to deal with all of this and yet here you are, confused and anxious and paying to exist on this trash planet

What does “change” mean to you?

came across this question in an application and it took me awhile to gather my thoughts.

“To me, "change" means growth. Indeed, change may be uncomfortable. But when I adapt and overcome the obstacles that comes with change, I grow. As I am graduating from university and stepping into the working world, huge changes are forcing themselves into my life. With them, huge obstacles. I first face the obstacle of job search and it is during this time that I realize how much I am lacking as a fresh graduate. In a society where most cannot do without a degree, I learn that with just a degree I cannot do much in the society. Unlike the generation of my secondary school teachers, a degree will hardly get me anywhere and it is only now, 6 years after hearing the words of my teachers, did reality hit.”

Seriously? What a coward. Pussy. Nothing changes my opinion of you until you stop being a pussy and grow a pair of balls.

When you're in one of those emotional breakdowns and you can't tell anybody. Not even your roomie. Youre lying in your own corner under a blanket crying as soundlessly as possible so she wouldn't know. Cos I don't know how to help myself. How can I look for help. I'm so freaking stupid. I don't know if my tears are sad or angry or cos of stress. I don't know what I'm feeling, or what buildup to this. I only know I feel like crying. My insides squeeze, tears drop, I start reflecting on my life, myself, my decisions, my brain. Oh gawd I thought I stopped crying so I wrote this mini note to pen down my thoughts. But writing this made me cry more. FM killed me really. I feel so stress now, like just why can't my studying get results. Why is GPA so impt. Why the shit is the uni system so fucked up, We are just studying not learning. Why you tell me why. Now I really wanna nail accounting. I spent more time on accounting than fm. But... I have a feeling I will feel like crying again tmr at 9pm.

no. you do not cry now stupid girl. no. no matter how tough everything is, how bad your gpa is how fucking stress it is to pull it up, you. do. not. cry. understand me? stupid over reacting tear glands.

Finally understood what the seniors meant. they always say every other hall will be seriously prepping for their performance but hall 4 will just be enjoying. How to not love #ohmelette? ❤❤❤❤❤ Forever teasing me and joking around and not able to keep quiet for even 10 seconds. Forever and ever the same few guys carrying the props, and the same few people that leaves right after dance ends. I'm so thankful my first dance experience is with you guys. Thank you for giving me the time of my life and also a short escape from studying. (; omgomgomgomgomgomg. #sleeplessonsdanceREPEAT #ntu #hall4 #dance #ohmelette #withdrawalsosoon #backtoreality

#dance #ntu #backtoreality #ohmelette #sleeplessonsdancerepeat #hall4 #withdrawalsosoon

I wonder if everybody is laughing. Laughing at this whole thing because they know. They know the history, the think he is what they think. But I don't really care if they are laughing.

The effort we make to meet up and talk isn't it. I don't think the problem only lies with me but everybody.

Nobody knows how to take a hint nowadays

come on, during a levels not like any of you thought i can make it and now that im here you guys think all day im fooling around not getting any work done.

my family is a bit different. when all other parents told them to go jc, my family told me to go poly because jc isnt me. i appreciate that. but when im struggling in jc their first response is, "i told you so".

I want to be gifted with fluency.

To type and speak words that flow like in a poem.

oh well, my ability is apparently to forget things so easily that a gazillion ideas flashes through my mind but I can't remember any.

Last time in TLR The Live Radio studio today! Good and bad memories there were but nonetheless a period of time where I learnt a lot. Unforgettable.

My sequence of thoughts :

Listening-processing-believing- doubting - getting tricked.

I should honestly switch believeing with doubting.

Why do i believe in people's words so easily.

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