Just Me?

30’s/5’0”/SW:158 CW:165 💀😭 GW1:150 UGW:116 Just here to hold myself accountable for the reasons I make myself unhappy.

[shy-vegan]

[shy-vegan]

I wish you praised me the way you praise the other people in your life. I shouldn't have to exist on social media to feel any sense of connection to you, especially if we live together.

Too bad I'm just talking to myself.

[shy-vegan]

“I don't understand, they were fine until this suddenly happened. I'm so sad I wish I could have helped.”

I know that's what you'd say afterwards, ignoring all the times I was trying to talk about it.

[shy-vegan]

I realize now, I really will never be enough. It's a mental shift into daydreaming of removing myself.

I wasn't meant for this place, I wasn't meant to be happy, find comfort in other humans. I can't understand why the world is this way.

I just hope the next place is peaceful.

[thehopefulquotes]

“I used to think the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It’s not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel all alone.”

— Robin Williams

[shy-vegan]

Wishing I felt like someone truely cared about me other than for their own benefits.

Wishing the snide comments about media and how women are portrayed… would just stop. How am I supposed to care about me when you talk about how shitty overweight women are portrayed in media. You are disgusted by them so you are obviously disgusted by me. Cool. Cool, cool, cool.

[shy-vegan]

Having a rough time… can't find space for myself. House was quiet, everyone asleep so I threw on some industrial and attempted to remember some belly dance moves. I definitely need practice, but this is a nice participation badge lol

[shy-vegan]

If they cared, they'd listen.

[shy-vegan]

Currently on loop in my brain

[thoughtkick]

“Someone can be madly in love with you and still not be ready. They can love you in a way you have never been loved and still not join you on the bridge. And whatever their reasons you must leave. Because you never ever have to inspire anyone to meet you on the bridge. You never ever have to convince someone to do the work to be ready. There is more extraordinary love, more love that you have never seen, out here in this wide and wild universe. And there is the love that will be ready.”

— Nayyirah Waheed

[73pounds]

people who arent anorexic are skinnier than you

[winterzchill]

another painfully real one.

[thoughtkick]

“One of the hardest parts of life is deciding whether to walk away or try harder”

— Unknown

[anxietyproblem]

[anxietyproblem]

[shy-vegan]

I wonder who else has found themselves in this situation.

If liminal spaces were people, that's me. Forever in a state of what has been and what is to come.

I'm exhausted.

[shy-vegan]

I'm so tired of people. At least the people I have to interact with daily.

🫠 why yes, tell me how bad soy is for you, that tofu isn't good for you…. Yep you are absolutely right, tofu will make you ill. I can totally tell that you care so much about your health, you only ingest pure good things that are healthy for you. Like red vines licorice…?

[shy-vegan]

Got told yesterday by a coworker that I could go out and find someone who cares more about me than my SO… if only I’d take better care of my self/appearance and dress nicer 😩 well, ok…. I didn't realize I looked like a trash heap.